Riku didn't sleep with me that night. I guess he didn't /need/ to, but I
would've preferred it if he had. My sleep was a bit restless. "I think he's
coming back." His words haunted me. What if he /was/ coming back? I'd
defeated him before, so it shouldn't be a big deal, right? But...
He had lived.
So I hadn't /really/ defeated him, just kind of... Postponed any further attacks on the worlds. I looked up out my window, suddenly afraid that stars would start randomly burning out and a giant mass of purple energy would light up the sky.
I believed Riku when he said Ansem might be coming back because who would know better than him? Much as I hate to admit it, he was still connected to Ansem somehow, whether it was through his heart or his mind I still don't know, nor do I care, but the point was that he could still hear him sometimes. He told me once that he could hear him calling his name in his sleep. This frightened me but also woke up my protective instincts. I'd saved him before, I'd save him again, I thought.
I thought...
I sighed and rolled over, staring at the floor. What now? If he came back, what would he do? What would we all do? Would I be needed again? And what of Riku? Would Ansem want his vessel back? I shuddered at that thought. I'd never let that happen, Never.
Great, now I was all worked up and wouldn't get any sleep at all. I needed to take a walk. I got quietly out of bed and pulled on a pair of pajama pants and a jacket. I sneaked out the window and climbed down the trellis on the side of the house. The vines on it were all but dead, but at least it served some useful purpose. It was kind of chilly (Florida nights get down to 50 in the summer sometimes, and when you're used to 90 degree weather, that's pretty damn cold) so I zipped up my jacket and crossed my arms.
I walked around aimlessly for about half an hour, turning things over in my head. Eventually, I arrived at my subconscious destination: Riku's house. I sighed again, half-smiling at the fact that I knew the way to his house even when I was wrapped up in thinking about the end of the universe.
I crept around to the back of his house and picked up a handful of gravel from his mother's flower garden. I mentally picked out which window was his and proceeded to throw the pieces of gravel at it until he finally got up and opened his window. I smiled and waved at him a bit energetically. He just smiled and shook his head.
"What is it?" He whispered down to me.
"Get out here!" I whispered back, motioning with my hand.
"How?" He made an exasperated motion with his arms. His bedroom was on the second floor and, unlike mine, had no ledge under it, nor was there a conveniently located trellis.
"Uh..." I stared around for a moment, at a loss. I hadn't really thought about how he'd get down, but then again I hadn't planned on coming here either. "You could... Sneak downstairs and leave through the back door." I smiled sheepishly up at him.
"Yeah. Great plan, genius. Well, if I get caught, I'm blaming you. 'It's all Sora's fault! He /forced/ me to come out!'" He grinned at me.
"You could always jump." I smiled and held out my arms. "I'll catch you." He smirked and shook his head again.
"I'll take my chances with my parents, thanks." He disappeared from his window and what seemed like an eternity later he came out through the back door.
"You sure took your time." I crossed my arms playfully.
"Can't be too careful." He smiled. "So, what did you want?"
"To see you, of course." I kissed him lightly. "And to take a walk. I was getting lonely by myself."
"A walk? Oh no, what's wrong?" He gave me a look of mock concern.
"Wrong? Why would anything be wrong?" I started to walk around to the front of his house, he following closely behind.
"C'mon, Sora, you know you only take these little midnight strolls when something's bothering you. So what is it?" He wrapped an arm around my shoulder.
"Well..." I stopped and looked down. "It's about... What you said earlier today."
His expression changed, but barely so. "What did I say?"
"You said you thought Ansem was coming back." I looked into his eyes, showing a bit of fear. "Are you sure?"
He released me and looked down. "I don't know. I think so... I know he's still alive. He's out there somewhere, Sora. Waiting."
"For what?" I showed concern.
"For an opportunity, I guess. If he is coming back, I don't know why he's waiting so long. Shouldn't he just do it? Maybe he's waiting for me; for me to be weak." His face changed to show a bit of self-hatred. "I don't want to be weak."
"You're not." I wrapped my arms around his waist, pulling him close to me. "You're anything but."
I felt him breathe deeply against my shoulder. "If I /am/ weak, at least I'll have you to protect me, Sora." He placed his hand on the back of my neck and kissed me deeply. I tried, love...
He broke the kiss and grabbed my hand, stroking it with his thumb. "No matter what happens, no matter who tries to tear us apart, I'll always be with you, Sora. I love you. Nothing can change that."
"I know." I touched my forehead to his. "I love you, too, Riku. I'll never let you go."
We continued to walk hand-in-hand until it was almost dawn. We didn't talk much after the previous exchange, but we didn't need to. Sometimes all you need is to be close to the one you love. I need that now, more than ever. Once again, we were more concerned with getting me home than him. His parents would just assume he left early, whereas my mother would freak out if she thought I'd left before dawn.
"Guess I won't get any sleep, then." I grinned at him.
"Neither will I" He smirked. "But I guess we could always fall asleep on the island or something."
"Or something." I smiled. He laughed and hit me on the shoulder.
"You're such a pervert, Sora!" I responded to this by kissing him deeply, letting my tongue explore his mouth as I tangled my fingers in his hair. When I pulled away, he laughed again. "Now that 'or something' is starting to sound pretty good."
"Later." I stroked his face. "Right now I have to pretend I've been sleeping."
He smiled at me and I climbed up the side of the house and back through my window. I plopped down on my bed, removing my jacket and tossing it on the floor. The bed felt really inviting and I was tired so I fell asleep almost instantly. My mother would be up any minute to wake me up, though, but at that moment I didn't really care.
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This is utterly pathetic. My schedule recently: Sleep 'til 7 am, play KH 'til 10 am, eat breakfast, go to work, get yelled at by bitchy customers, go home around 9pm, play KH 'til 3am, browse FF.net 'til 5am, sleep, repeat. At this rate I'm going to kill myself.
I know, I know, I haven't updated for a while, but with that schedule, you think I have time to write? Ok, I /do/ have time to write, but, dammit, I hadn't played KH since October and I'd forgotten how fun and horribly addicting it was. Plus, now I look for all the slashy connotations behind the cinema scenes. Take the whole Paopu crap thing, for instance. Nobody mentions Kairi. Really. Come now, why would Riku give Sora a damned Paopu unless he wanted to share it with him? I mean, isn't Riku supposed to like Kairi too? So why would he give Sora a Paopu to give to Kairi? How often do people say, "Well, gee, I really like this person but so do you, so here's a rose for you to give to them. Have fun."? Stupid ass. Oops, sorry. Then the little, "You know you want to try it." He almost sounds like he's challenging him. "Try it with me, love. Unless you're afraid." But anyway, continuing on, the next day when you talk to Selphie, she gets all romantic. "You're supposed to share the Paopu with someone you really care about. Then you'll be together forever. Blah blah blah love blah blah fate blah romantic." So when you talk to her again, she says something like, "Are you okay? You look like something's bothering you." Well, maybe it's the fact that his best friend practically told him he loved him last night. God. Do Square and Disney think at /all/ before they do things? If you look for their love, you'll find it. Heh, it was probably all Square's doing anyway.
Thanks to my reviewers, who guilted me into this. ^_^
He had lived.
So I hadn't /really/ defeated him, just kind of... Postponed any further attacks on the worlds. I looked up out my window, suddenly afraid that stars would start randomly burning out and a giant mass of purple energy would light up the sky.
I believed Riku when he said Ansem might be coming back because who would know better than him? Much as I hate to admit it, he was still connected to Ansem somehow, whether it was through his heart or his mind I still don't know, nor do I care, but the point was that he could still hear him sometimes. He told me once that he could hear him calling his name in his sleep. This frightened me but also woke up my protective instincts. I'd saved him before, I'd save him again, I thought.
I thought...
I sighed and rolled over, staring at the floor. What now? If he came back, what would he do? What would we all do? Would I be needed again? And what of Riku? Would Ansem want his vessel back? I shuddered at that thought. I'd never let that happen, Never.
Great, now I was all worked up and wouldn't get any sleep at all. I needed to take a walk. I got quietly out of bed and pulled on a pair of pajama pants and a jacket. I sneaked out the window and climbed down the trellis on the side of the house. The vines on it were all but dead, but at least it served some useful purpose. It was kind of chilly (Florida nights get down to 50 in the summer sometimes, and when you're used to 90 degree weather, that's pretty damn cold) so I zipped up my jacket and crossed my arms.
I walked around aimlessly for about half an hour, turning things over in my head. Eventually, I arrived at my subconscious destination: Riku's house. I sighed again, half-smiling at the fact that I knew the way to his house even when I was wrapped up in thinking about the end of the universe.
I crept around to the back of his house and picked up a handful of gravel from his mother's flower garden. I mentally picked out which window was his and proceeded to throw the pieces of gravel at it until he finally got up and opened his window. I smiled and waved at him a bit energetically. He just smiled and shook his head.
"What is it?" He whispered down to me.
"Get out here!" I whispered back, motioning with my hand.
"How?" He made an exasperated motion with his arms. His bedroom was on the second floor and, unlike mine, had no ledge under it, nor was there a conveniently located trellis.
"Uh..." I stared around for a moment, at a loss. I hadn't really thought about how he'd get down, but then again I hadn't planned on coming here either. "You could... Sneak downstairs and leave through the back door." I smiled sheepishly up at him.
"Yeah. Great plan, genius. Well, if I get caught, I'm blaming you. 'It's all Sora's fault! He /forced/ me to come out!'" He grinned at me.
"You could always jump." I smiled and held out my arms. "I'll catch you." He smirked and shook his head again.
"I'll take my chances with my parents, thanks." He disappeared from his window and what seemed like an eternity later he came out through the back door.
"You sure took your time." I crossed my arms playfully.
"Can't be too careful." He smiled. "So, what did you want?"
"To see you, of course." I kissed him lightly. "And to take a walk. I was getting lonely by myself."
"A walk? Oh no, what's wrong?" He gave me a look of mock concern.
"Wrong? Why would anything be wrong?" I started to walk around to the front of his house, he following closely behind.
"C'mon, Sora, you know you only take these little midnight strolls when something's bothering you. So what is it?" He wrapped an arm around my shoulder.
"Well..." I stopped and looked down. "It's about... What you said earlier today."
His expression changed, but barely so. "What did I say?"
"You said you thought Ansem was coming back." I looked into his eyes, showing a bit of fear. "Are you sure?"
He released me and looked down. "I don't know. I think so... I know he's still alive. He's out there somewhere, Sora. Waiting."
"For what?" I showed concern.
"For an opportunity, I guess. If he is coming back, I don't know why he's waiting so long. Shouldn't he just do it? Maybe he's waiting for me; for me to be weak." His face changed to show a bit of self-hatred. "I don't want to be weak."
"You're not." I wrapped my arms around his waist, pulling him close to me. "You're anything but."
I felt him breathe deeply against my shoulder. "If I /am/ weak, at least I'll have you to protect me, Sora." He placed his hand on the back of my neck and kissed me deeply. I tried, love...
He broke the kiss and grabbed my hand, stroking it with his thumb. "No matter what happens, no matter who tries to tear us apart, I'll always be with you, Sora. I love you. Nothing can change that."
"I know." I touched my forehead to his. "I love you, too, Riku. I'll never let you go."
We continued to walk hand-in-hand until it was almost dawn. We didn't talk much after the previous exchange, but we didn't need to. Sometimes all you need is to be close to the one you love. I need that now, more than ever. Once again, we were more concerned with getting me home than him. His parents would just assume he left early, whereas my mother would freak out if she thought I'd left before dawn.
"Guess I won't get any sleep, then." I grinned at him.
"Neither will I" He smirked. "But I guess we could always fall asleep on the island or something."
"Or something." I smiled. He laughed and hit me on the shoulder.
"You're such a pervert, Sora!" I responded to this by kissing him deeply, letting my tongue explore his mouth as I tangled my fingers in his hair. When I pulled away, he laughed again. "Now that 'or something' is starting to sound pretty good."
"Later." I stroked his face. "Right now I have to pretend I've been sleeping."
He smiled at me and I climbed up the side of the house and back through my window. I plopped down on my bed, removing my jacket and tossing it on the floor. The bed felt really inviting and I was tired so I fell asleep almost instantly. My mother would be up any minute to wake me up, though, but at that moment I didn't really care.
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This is utterly pathetic. My schedule recently: Sleep 'til 7 am, play KH 'til 10 am, eat breakfast, go to work, get yelled at by bitchy customers, go home around 9pm, play KH 'til 3am, browse FF.net 'til 5am, sleep, repeat. At this rate I'm going to kill myself.
I know, I know, I haven't updated for a while, but with that schedule, you think I have time to write? Ok, I /do/ have time to write, but, dammit, I hadn't played KH since October and I'd forgotten how fun and horribly addicting it was. Plus, now I look for all the slashy connotations behind the cinema scenes. Take the whole Paopu crap thing, for instance. Nobody mentions Kairi. Really. Come now, why would Riku give Sora a damned Paopu unless he wanted to share it with him? I mean, isn't Riku supposed to like Kairi too? So why would he give Sora a Paopu to give to Kairi? How often do people say, "Well, gee, I really like this person but so do you, so here's a rose for you to give to them. Have fun."? Stupid ass. Oops, sorry. Then the little, "You know you want to try it." He almost sounds like he's challenging him. "Try it with me, love. Unless you're afraid." But anyway, continuing on, the next day when you talk to Selphie, she gets all romantic. "You're supposed to share the Paopu with someone you really care about. Then you'll be together forever. Blah blah blah love blah blah fate blah romantic." So when you talk to her again, she says something like, "Are you okay? You look like something's bothering you." Well, maybe it's the fact that his best friend practically told him he loved him last night. God. Do Square and Disney think at /all/ before they do things? If you look for their love, you'll find it. Heh, it was probably all Square's doing anyway.
Thanks to my reviewers, who guilted me into this. ^_^
