Chp 8: My Immortal
Disclaimer: I don't own KH or "My Immortal" by Evanescence
A/N: Thank you Destati for your awesome song suggestion, and thank all of y'all for your encouraging reviews. Sometimes I think my writing isn't deserving of your reviews ^_^. I did get my first flamish thing...someone commented on my many references to cellophane. I don't mind though. I was just trying to make the story have symbols and I guess I my have went overboard. It was cool with me...whatever floats your boat or finds your lost remote (and this is for the people workin' at the airport who got laid off...lol). And another note to Beta Genius: I KNEW your review wasn't a flame but when I first started reading it, it kinda sounded like that's what it was gonna be. But don't worry in the end I knew it wasn't a flame. Well thatz enough A/Ning for know, lol.
PS: When you're reading certain parts in this chapter...don't hold your breath.
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Everyone was outside. Riku was in. He was inside watching all his friends play kickball outside while he watched sadly through the window of his new found curse: Faye. She was his new curse because he was forever bound to her. Wherever she was Riku was forced to be at her right hand. He was forced to stay inside and listen to her ramble on about her pointless, preppy, princess day, while he watched the real fun happen outside. He sighed as he looked out the window watching his friends play competitively as Faye had her back turned to him, as she was brushing her long, brown hair in the mirror. Riku continued to watch the game-that-he would-be- captain-of as he looked around to see who was playing what base. Then he saw her. Kairi stood jeering at the batter as she played third base. He looked his gaze on her. Faye thought that she was keeping him away from Kairi, but actually, the more she tried to take her away from him, the more he was drawn to her. His emotions had now completely spun horribly out of proportion and slipped through his grasp. There was nothing more he could do than sit back and take the horrible, bitter blow of the after math. But right now he knew exactly what he was feeling: Anger. He was angry with Faye for trying to control his life. Who did she think he was? The more she did that, the less he liked her. So she had to either straighten up or he was doomed. Riku stopped watching the game and turned to Faye who was babbling on and on.
"..And I was all like 'No way you're going to wear that hideous skirt'. And she's all like 'You're not my mom'. And then I was like 'Oh honey, you...'"
"Faye why did you not want me to see Kairi anymore?" He interrupted. Faye's eyes widened. She didn't respond.
"Are you threatened by her or something?" Riku asked with an attitude.
"Threatened? By her? Hardly!" She scoffed arrogantly.
"Then why did you want me to stop talking to her? You obviously see her as some sort of threat, or else you wouldn't have blocked her off from me." Faye threw her brush down and stomped over to Riku.
"Riku! Kairi doesn't threaten me in any way! Shoot, I could probably beat her up!" Riku tried not to laugh.
"Faye, I seriously SERIOUSLY doubt that."
"Oh, so now what, are you siding with her now?"
"Well tell me why you don't want me to talk to anymore!"
"Because if you DO talk to her then you can kiss my sweet butt good bye!"
"Hah! There! See? Now you're even threatening ME! Now what is your problem with her?"
"Riku! Just stay out of my business!" She started to walk away. But he quickly jumped in front of her.
"Oh no! You're not backing out this one! You make me tell all your problems to you, now it's my turn!"
"You don't have any problems right now!" Faye shouted. Riku wanted to bust her face in right there. 'You don't have any problems'. She didn't know crap about him. How could she be so blind and stupid? She didn't even care why he came home crying, or that he was getting so angry all of the sudden. All she cared about was herself.
"Faye, just shut up! I'm getting sick and tired of you! Now you tell me what you have against Kairi or I'M breaking up with YOU!" Faye steamed at this.
"Of course I'm threatened by her Riku! I'm not a dumb ass! I can tell you're tripping over her! I can tell you've been acting differently since SHE got here! And I'm not going to let some run-down, white trash steal my boyfriend!" Riku felt like throwing her up against the wall.
"YOU TAKE THAT BACK BITCH!" There wasn't even a mere second in between Faye's reaction to this. She lifted her hand up and slapped him so hard, he seriously didn't know what hit him. Riku's cheek had a horrible stinging sensation and it turned an awful blood-red color. Faye and Riku just stared at each other with eyes to kill. Then Faye whipped open the door and left, slamming the door behind her.
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Kairi walked happily through Traverse Town. She knew she had a lot to be sad about with being denied by Riku and all, but playing kick ball with the guys really lifted her spirits and took her mind off of him. She knew this was strictly temporary, but it was nice just to kick back and enjoy the sunshine, just for a moment. Kairi smiled and turned a corner and when she did, someone was already there. She screamed in shock. It was Riku. Kairi let out a deep breath.
"Riku, what are you doing are you trying to kill m..." Riku then stepped into the sunlight and his blood red cheek came into view. Kairi froze.
"Oh my god Riku! What happened?" she asked as she gazed at his pulsating cheek.
"Faye," he replied quietly.
"Man, that looks awful!"
"Yah, thanks for making me feel better about it," he said sarcastically. Kairi paused and thought for a second.
"Betsy's at the tavern right now, but I'll fix that up for you." She grabbed him by the hand and led him to the house.
~*Betsy/Kairi's House*~
"Ok hold still, this may not feel to good," Kairi said as she stuck an ice bag up against Riku's burning cheek.
"Ow!" Riku groaned as the ice just made the stinging worse.
"Oh don't be such a baby!" Kairi teased.
"Hey, if you had this, you wouldn't be feeling so hot neither." Kairi giggled.
"Well it'll get better soon." There was a silence for a few minutes as Kairi continued to hold the ice bag up against Riku's cheeks.
"Um, Riku, if you don't mind me asking...what did Faye do to you?" Riku sighed.
"She slapped me."
"WHAT?!" Kairi shouted as she quickly removed the ice bag and stared at the spot once again in disbelief. Riku's cheek, which had finally adjusted to the cold, started burning like crazy once again.
"AH! Put it back on!" Riku shouted.
"Sorry!" then Kairi shoved it back on his face. They both laughed.
"So..why'd she slap you?" Riku sighed.
"We were fighting."
"About what?"
"..You."
"Oh," Kairi said softly. There was an awkward silence in the air for several seconds.
"..Why were y'all fighting about me?" Kairi asked breaking the silence.
"Well apparently she sees you as some sort of threat. She thinks you're gonna steal me away from her."
"Well why on earth would I do that?" Kairi teased.
"I don't know, you tell me." They both giggled. Kairi smiled warmly.
"...This is how it used to be Riku. This is how it was before the Heartless came, and before you turned to darkness, before we got into that big mess." Riku sighed.
"Yah, I guess it was."
"It could be like this everyday you know. If you come back, we could have fun like we did back then." Riku was silent. He just sighed and sat there thinking. Kairi smiled and started singing a verse from her favorite song.
"When will you laugh again?
Laugh like ya did back when
We'll make noise till 3 am
And the neighbors would complain"
Kairi laughed as Riku hit her with a pillow playfully.
"Ok, that's enough singing!" he said teasingly. Kairi giggled.
"Well it really could be like that again. All you'd have to do is come back with me to Destiny Island."
"Kairi, I can't do that. I don't wish to go back there. Nothing but bad memories await for me there. And I told you, I can't leave....." He stopped in the middle of his sentence. Knowing that what he was going to say next was irrelevant. Kairi raised her eyebrow.
"What? You can't leave Faye? The girl who gave you THIS?" she said as she removed the ice bag, uncovering his red cheek.
"AH!" he screamed in pain. Kairi giggled and put it back. There was silence for a few minutes.
"Kairi, if you truly loved me, like you say you do. You would let me go. You'd go back to Destiny Island and forget all about me. You being here is making my world tumble down. You constantly haunt me in my once pleasant dreams. Don't you see Kairi? The farther you are away from me, the closer you'll be." Kairi was silent. A tear fell from her face.
"I'm sorry Kairi, but you pretty much destroyed any chances you had with me when you left me alone on Destiny Island. And even before that, when Ansem consumed my body he said your heart was with Sora. Meaning you never ever cared for me when you were gone, even though I was busting my chops to save you, you're heart was with Sora, not me. Meaning, what was I to you all those years? Did I always come in second place in your heart? Did I just not open my eyes and see when you truly abandoned me for Sora?" Kairi wiped away her tears.
"Riku, that's not going to happen, I won't leave no matter what you say. Or how low or guilty you try to make me feel."
"Kairi! The longer you stay the farther apart from me you'll grow. Soon I'll hate you more than anything in the world! You have to go Kairi! I'll just end up breaking your heart! I'm telling you to leave for your own good!" Kairi fumed at this. She ripped the ice bag away from his face and stood up.
"If you want me to go away so bad then how come you keep pulling me closer to you?" she shouted.
"What are you talking about Kairi?" Riku asked, ignoring the stinging pain in his cheek.
"You know exactly what I mean. If you want me out of your life then why do continue to lead me on? Why did you hug me so tightly, huh? And most importantly, why did you kiss me? You claim you want me to go, but you won't let yourself leave me alone! YOU are the one who hugged ME. YOU are the one who kissed ME!"
"Kairi, YOU'RE the one who hugged me!"
"Yah, but you hugged me back! But I didn't kiss you did I? That's like the worst thing you could do to me if you claim to want me gone." Riku stood up and got in her face.
"If you feel this way then why are you still here? Why do you continue to torture me with your presence Kairi?"
"Because I love you damn it! And my love for you allows me to see through all that stuff and the good in you shines through! You can do whatever you want to me Riku, but no matter what you do my love and caring for you will still stay strong!" Riku was silent. He blanked out. He had absolutely nothing to say back to her. Kairi turned around and left, slamming the door behind her. Which makes two doors that were slammed in Riku's face that day.
~*~
It was dark outside. The street lamps lit up the ground. Riku was walking strangely upon it. He was confused. He loved Kairi so much, yet a flame of hate burning slowly for her. He didn't wish to love her. Not after what she did to him. Not after all those bad memories she caused. It was hurting him to love her. His situation was so confusing. He loved her now, but if she were gone, he'd love her even more, because she wouldn't be messing up his life. She wouldn't be making him feel weak. She wouldn't be chasing away all his sanity. And it wouldn't be hurting to love her. His life would be normal again if she just let him go. His love for Kairi was venomous, any moment it would strike and kill him. She was killing him softly from the inside. He didn't know how to cope with these confusing feels of love and hate for Kairi. When he thought about them, it made him stressful. He couldn't deal with it all. It was eating away at him. She truly was making him miserable. Riku stiffened up.
"This is all her fault. Why can't she just let me go?"
//My immortal
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me
By your reasoning light
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all sanity in me
These wounds they will not heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held you hand through all these years
But you still have all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
And though you're here with me
I've been alone all along//
~*~
Riku's walk turned into him stumbling. He held his chest, as it was getting hard to breath. He was sweating as if he had been running for miles. He stopped walking all together as it was getting hard to even move.
Betsy walked through the streets humming cheerfully with a brown bag of groceries in her hand. She stopped as she saw something strange in front of her. She stood still trying to figure out whom it was.
"....Riku?" she asked slowly. Riku strived to turn his head around. He looked at her, breathing heavily. Betsy couldn't breath. This was really scaring her. Riku opened his mouth as to say something, but he couldn't make the words come out. Betsy stood still with fear and nervousness in her eyes as she tried to figure out what was wrong with him. Then Riku stopped trying to talk. He closed his eyes and fainted onto the hard floor. Betsy dropped her bag.
"RIKU!"
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Cliffhanger! Well that's all for this chapter! Please R/R!
Note to TokyoBabe2040: I'm gonna use your song suggestion! ^_^
Peace Out,
Kia Saphia
Disclaimer: I don't own KH or "My Immortal" by Evanescence
A/N: Thank you Destati for your awesome song suggestion, and thank all of y'all for your encouraging reviews. Sometimes I think my writing isn't deserving of your reviews ^_^. I did get my first flamish thing...someone commented on my many references to cellophane. I don't mind though. I was just trying to make the story have symbols and I guess I my have went overboard. It was cool with me...whatever floats your boat or finds your lost remote (and this is for the people workin' at the airport who got laid off...lol). And another note to Beta Genius: I KNEW your review wasn't a flame but when I first started reading it, it kinda sounded like that's what it was gonna be. But don't worry in the end I knew it wasn't a flame. Well thatz enough A/Ning for know, lol.
PS: When you're reading certain parts in this chapter...don't hold your breath.
~*~
Everyone was outside. Riku was in. He was inside watching all his friends play kickball outside while he watched sadly through the window of his new found curse: Faye. She was his new curse because he was forever bound to her. Wherever she was Riku was forced to be at her right hand. He was forced to stay inside and listen to her ramble on about her pointless, preppy, princess day, while he watched the real fun happen outside. He sighed as he looked out the window watching his friends play competitively as Faye had her back turned to him, as she was brushing her long, brown hair in the mirror. Riku continued to watch the game-that-he would-be- captain-of as he looked around to see who was playing what base. Then he saw her. Kairi stood jeering at the batter as she played third base. He looked his gaze on her. Faye thought that she was keeping him away from Kairi, but actually, the more she tried to take her away from him, the more he was drawn to her. His emotions had now completely spun horribly out of proportion and slipped through his grasp. There was nothing more he could do than sit back and take the horrible, bitter blow of the after math. But right now he knew exactly what he was feeling: Anger. He was angry with Faye for trying to control his life. Who did she think he was? The more she did that, the less he liked her. So she had to either straighten up or he was doomed. Riku stopped watching the game and turned to Faye who was babbling on and on.
"..And I was all like 'No way you're going to wear that hideous skirt'. And she's all like 'You're not my mom'. And then I was like 'Oh honey, you...'"
"Faye why did you not want me to see Kairi anymore?" He interrupted. Faye's eyes widened. She didn't respond.
"Are you threatened by her or something?" Riku asked with an attitude.
"Threatened? By her? Hardly!" She scoffed arrogantly.
"Then why did you want me to stop talking to her? You obviously see her as some sort of threat, or else you wouldn't have blocked her off from me." Faye threw her brush down and stomped over to Riku.
"Riku! Kairi doesn't threaten me in any way! Shoot, I could probably beat her up!" Riku tried not to laugh.
"Faye, I seriously SERIOUSLY doubt that."
"Oh, so now what, are you siding with her now?"
"Well tell me why you don't want me to talk to anymore!"
"Because if you DO talk to her then you can kiss my sweet butt good bye!"
"Hah! There! See? Now you're even threatening ME! Now what is your problem with her?"
"Riku! Just stay out of my business!" She started to walk away. But he quickly jumped in front of her.
"Oh no! You're not backing out this one! You make me tell all your problems to you, now it's my turn!"
"You don't have any problems right now!" Faye shouted. Riku wanted to bust her face in right there. 'You don't have any problems'. She didn't know crap about him. How could she be so blind and stupid? She didn't even care why he came home crying, or that he was getting so angry all of the sudden. All she cared about was herself.
"Faye, just shut up! I'm getting sick and tired of you! Now you tell me what you have against Kairi or I'M breaking up with YOU!" Faye steamed at this.
"Of course I'm threatened by her Riku! I'm not a dumb ass! I can tell you're tripping over her! I can tell you've been acting differently since SHE got here! And I'm not going to let some run-down, white trash steal my boyfriend!" Riku felt like throwing her up against the wall.
"YOU TAKE THAT BACK BITCH!" There wasn't even a mere second in between Faye's reaction to this. She lifted her hand up and slapped him so hard, he seriously didn't know what hit him. Riku's cheek had a horrible stinging sensation and it turned an awful blood-red color. Faye and Riku just stared at each other with eyes to kill. Then Faye whipped open the door and left, slamming the door behind her.
~*~
Kairi walked happily through Traverse Town. She knew she had a lot to be sad about with being denied by Riku and all, but playing kick ball with the guys really lifted her spirits and took her mind off of him. She knew this was strictly temporary, but it was nice just to kick back and enjoy the sunshine, just for a moment. Kairi smiled and turned a corner and when she did, someone was already there. She screamed in shock. It was Riku. Kairi let out a deep breath.
"Riku, what are you doing are you trying to kill m..." Riku then stepped into the sunlight and his blood red cheek came into view. Kairi froze.
"Oh my god Riku! What happened?" she asked as she gazed at his pulsating cheek.
"Faye," he replied quietly.
"Man, that looks awful!"
"Yah, thanks for making me feel better about it," he said sarcastically. Kairi paused and thought for a second.
"Betsy's at the tavern right now, but I'll fix that up for you." She grabbed him by the hand and led him to the house.
~*Betsy/Kairi's House*~
"Ok hold still, this may not feel to good," Kairi said as she stuck an ice bag up against Riku's burning cheek.
"Ow!" Riku groaned as the ice just made the stinging worse.
"Oh don't be such a baby!" Kairi teased.
"Hey, if you had this, you wouldn't be feeling so hot neither." Kairi giggled.
"Well it'll get better soon." There was a silence for a few minutes as Kairi continued to hold the ice bag up against Riku's cheeks.
"Um, Riku, if you don't mind me asking...what did Faye do to you?" Riku sighed.
"She slapped me."
"WHAT?!" Kairi shouted as she quickly removed the ice bag and stared at the spot once again in disbelief. Riku's cheek, which had finally adjusted to the cold, started burning like crazy once again.
"AH! Put it back on!" Riku shouted.
"Sorry!" then Kairi shoved it back on his face. They both laughed.
"So..why'd she slap you?" Riku sighed.
"We were fighting."
"About what?"
"..You."
"Oh," Kairi said softly. There was an awkward silence in the air for several seconds.
"..Why were y'all fighting about me?" Kairi asked breaking the silence.
"Well apparently she sees you as some sort of threat. She thinks you're gonna steal me away from her."
"Well why on earth would I do that?" Kairi teased.
"I don't know, you tell me." They both giggled. Kairi smiled warmly.
"...This is how it used to be Riku. This is how it was before the Heartless came, and before you turned to darkness, before we got into that big mess." Riku sighed.
"Yah, I guess it was."
"It could be like this everyday you know. If you come back, we could have fun like we did back then." Riku was silent. He just sighed and sat there thinking. Kairi smiled and started singing a verse from her favorite song.
"When will you laugh again?
Laugh like ya did back when
We'll make noise till 3 am
And the neighbors would complain"
Kairi laughed as Riku hit her with a pillow playfully.
"Ok, that's enough singing!" he said teasingly. Kairi giggled.
"Well it really could be like that again. All you'd have to do is come back with me to Destiny Island."
"Kairi, I can't do that. I don't wish to go back there. Nothing but bad memories await for me there. And I told you, I can't leave....." He stopped in the middle of his sentence. Knowing that what he was going to say next was irrelevant. Kairi raised her eyebrow.
"What? You can't leave Faye? The girl who gave you THIS?" she said as she removed the ice bag, uncovering his red cheek.
"AH!" he screamed in pain. Kairi giggled and put it back. There was silence for a few minutes.
"Kairi, if you truly loved me, like you say you do. You would let me go. You'd go back to Destiny Island and forget all about me. You being here is making my world tumble down. You constantly haunt me in my once pleasant dreams. Don't you see Kairi? The farther you are away from me, the closer you'll be." Kairi was silent. A tear fell from her face.
"I'm sorry Kairi, but you pretty much destroyed any chances you had with me when you left me alone on Destiny Island. And even before that, when Ansem consumed my body he said your heart was with Sora. Meaning you never ever cared for me when you were gone, even though I was busting my chops to save you, you're heart was with Sora, not me. Meaning, what was I to you all those years? Did I always come in second place in your heart? Did I just not open my eyes and see when you truly abandoned me for Sora?" Kairi wiped away her tears.
"Riku, that's not going to happen, I won't leave no matter what you say. Or how low or guilty you try to make me feel."
"Kairi! The longer you stay the farther apart from me you'll grow. Soon I'll hate you more than anything in the world! You have to go Kairi! I'll just end up breaking your heart! I'm telling you to leave for your own good!" Kairi fumed at this. She ripped the ice bag away from his face and stood up.
"If you want me to go away so bad then how come you keep pulling me closer to you?" she shouted.
"What are you talking about Kairi?" Riku asked, ignoring the stinging pain in his cheek.
"You know exactly what I mean. If you want me out of your life then why do continue to lead me on? Why did you hug me so tightly, huh? And most importantly, why did you kiss me? You claim you want me to go, but you won't let yourself leave me alone! YOU are the one who hugged ME. YOU are the one who kissed ME!"
"Kairi, YOU'RE the one who hugged me!"
"Yah, but you hugged me back! But I didn't kiss you did I? That's like the worst thing you could do to me if you claim to want me gone." Riku stood up and got in her face.
"If you feel this way then why are you still here? Why do you continue to torture me with your presence Kairi?"
"Because I love you damn it! And my love for you allows me to see through all that stuff and the good in you shines through! You can do whatever you want to me Riku, but no matter what you do my love and caring for you will still stay strong!" Riku was silent. He blanked out. He had absolutely nothing to say back to her. Kairi turned around and left, slamming the door behind her. Which makes two doors that were slammed in Riku's face that day.
~*~
It was dark outside. The street lamps lit up the ground. Riku was walking strangely upon it. He was confused. He loved Kairi so much, yet a flame of hate burning slowly for her. He didn't wish to love her. Not after what she did to him. Not after all those bad memories she caused. It was hurting him to love her. His situation was so confusing. He loved her now, but if she were gone, he'd love her even more, because she wouldn't be messing up his life. She wouldn't be making him feel weak. She wouldn't be chasing away all his sanity. And it wouldn't be hurting to love her. His life would be normal again if she just let him go. His love for Kairi was venomous, any moment it would strike and kill him. She was killing him softly from the inside. He didn't know how to cope with these confusing feels of love and hate for Kairi. When he thought about them, it made him stressful. He couldn't deal with it all. It was eating away at him. She truly was making him miserable. Riku stiffened up.
"This is all her fault. Why can't she just let me go?"
//My immortal
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me
By your reasoning light
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all sanity in me
These wounds they will not heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held you hand through all these years
But you still have all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
And though you're here with me
I've been alone all along//
~*~
Riku's walk turned into him stumbling. He held his chest, as it was getting hard to breath. He was sweating as if he had been running for miles. He stopped walking all together as it was getting hard to even move.
Betsy walked through the streets humming cheerfully with a brown bag of groceries in her hand. She stopped as she saw something strange in front of her. She stood still trying to figure out whom it was.
"....Riku?" she asked slowly. Riku strived to turn his head around. He looked at her, breathing heavily. Betsy couldn't breath. This was really scaring her. Riku opened his mouth as to say something, but he couldn't make the words come out. Betsy stood still with fear and nervousness in her eyes as she tried to figure out what was wrong with him. Then Riku stopped trying to talk. He closed his eyes and fainted onto the hard floor. Betsy dropped her bag.
"RIKU!"
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Cliffhanger! Well that's all for this chapter! Please R/R!
Note to TokyoBabe2040: I'm gonna use your song suggestion! ^_^
Peace Out,
Kia Saphia
