Chp 11: Tomorrow
Disclaimer: I don't own KH or Tomorrow by Avril Lavigne
A/N: Don't worry Beta Genius nobody dies in this story. I just meant that it's gonna be more angst as the things Riku are feeling will get more sad (and I'm sorry about your eyes!). And if y'all are reading the rest of this story and you become very frustrated at Riku, you'll soon come to find that there's something else about Kairi that he was scared by. So just bare with me here.
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Riku took his first step out of the hospital and gazed into the morning sun that he wasn't seeing through a hospital mirror. He began to walk slowly with his hands in his pockets. His head was swarming around the dream he had just had. He knew that dreams like that don't come around so often. One gets dreams like that when their soul is trying to tell them something with every fiber of its being. And he knew what the dream meant. He knew just what his soul was trying to tell him. He wasn't denying him either. To deny a dream like that would be stupid. But just because he wasn't denying it, doesn't mean he agreed with it. Everything hurt so much. He didn't want these dreams, he didn't want these feelings, he didn't want anything that was in his life right now. He just wanted to let go of it all and run off into the distance so he could find happiness somewhere far away.
~*Riku's POV*~
Happiness.....
Something I haven't felt in a long time. I can't even remember the last time I was truly happy. Wait....yes I can. The last time I was seriously happy was when I found Kairi. Even though her heart was gone I couldn't have been happier. Just to be able to see her and touch her got me on such a high I thought I'd never come down. It's kind of funny how the one person in life that could make me smile in my darkest hour is also the person that is ruining my life. I can't stand her, because I left my life on Destiny Island behind because of her, and when I try to build a new life, she shows up and screws it all up for me. And yet, I love her so much I want to punch her face in.
~*Betsy's House*~
Betsy was sitting quietly at her table stirring her tea. Kairi had gone off somewhere to think, so she had been by herself for quite a while. Then, once again, the front door swung open and Riku stepped through.
"Hey there baby," Betsy said as she was lightened from seeing Riku. "I thought you'd be coming to talk with me soon."
"Talk?" Riku asked trying to deny his problem, "Who says I'm here to talk. I just wanted to come see you. Can't I do that?" He pulled up a chair beside her and sat down. Betsy raised her eyebrow.
"Of course you can come just to visit, but I know you have a problem darlin'." Riku shrugged his shoulders.
"Now, what did Kairi do this time?" Riku became silent. He bent his head down.
"Am I THAT predictable?" he asked sadly. Betsy smiled warmly and held Riku's hand.
"Honey, the first step to getting over your problems is to admit them." Riku sighed.
"...Yes, it's about Kairi...again." Betsy smiled.
"There's no need to be ashamed baby, anyone with eyes and a heart can see that you're troubled about her."
"Well....," Riku began, "this time it's not about something she did. It's about a dream I had about her."
"You're dreaming about her?"
"Yes.."
"Oh Riku baby! You know that when you start dreamin' about someone you're hooked!"
"..I dreamt about her all the time back on Destiny Island. Back then, there wasn't one night when I would lay my head down and dream about something other than her. It was like that from the first day I saw her until..." Riku stopped in his sentence and looked to the side angrily.
"....Until y'all came back from the Door of the Light, right?" Betsy finished.
"...Right. I still dreamt about her even after that, but my once pleasant dreams about her turned into nightmares. In fact, all those nightmares were what happened to me everyday. They were nightmares about her shunning me into the cold for Sora. And then I'd wake up to find that my greatest fears and my worst nightmares had become my everyday life." Betsy was silent. She couldn't think of anything she could say in Kairi's defense. She wiped away a tear that had softly shed.
"That's mighty sad Riku...but talk about not forgiving and forgetting."
"Betsy...I've tried to forget about it, but I can't. There's too much to forget, and it's too painful to forgive." Betsy was silent. She stared down at the floor and then looked back up with tears in her eyes.
"Riku, can't you see you're hurting this girl? She loves you Riku! And you just want to hold onto a long-time grudge. You'll break her heart. If you continue on like this no one will get a happy ending." Riku stiffened up.
"After she broke my heart and deserted me, why should I care if I'm breaking her heart now? I've told her over and over again...she wouldn't even be here if it wasn't for that stupid letter! She'd still be back home, kicking back, watching the sunset, and cuddling up with that traitor Sora! And I even told her exactly what you said..if she continues to stay here I'll just end up breaking her heart." Betsy tightened her grip on the chair she was sitting in. She fought back the urge to say something back knowing that this would only end up in a heated argument.
"...Riku we're getting off subject..now tell me about the dream you had about Kairi."
"The dream?" Riku asked, totally forgetting his real purpose there because of the discussion they had before.
"Yes baby, you came here and said you wanted to tell me about the dream you had about Kairi."
"Oh yah!" he replied, "Well, um....it goes like..." He stopped, suddenly becoming embarrassed to tell the dream. He knew that if he told the story Betsy and him would start arguing again, and he hated arguing with her. Betsy put her hand over Riku's.
"Don't be afraid to tell me darlin'." Riku took a deep breath.
"Ok, well it started out like this: I was in a field, not just any felid, but the most beautiful, peaceful field anyone can imagine. There were birds flying above me, and sunshine was shining warmly, and....."
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"..And that's when I woke up." There was silence for a few minutes. Betsy had her head been down and was gripping onto her chair like grim death. Riku could tell that she wasn't exactly floating on cloud nine so he bent his head down and stared at his feet as if they were ancient ruins to avoid looking at Betsy's face. An awkward silence filled the air. Then Betsy couldn't take it anymore.
"Riku, won't you please open your eyes and see?" she asked loudly.
"See what?" he replied, even though he knew what she was going to say next.
"Riku, if you have a dream like that it means every force of nature is trying to tell you something! And you know just what it's trying to tell you too! But instead of giving into what every fiber in your being knows is true, you choose to hide behind an ancient grudge!" Betsy got out of her chair and got on her knees next to Riku's chair. She took his hands in hers and stared directly into his eyes.
"Riku, in your dream Kairi rescued you from your dark prison you were in, and that's what she could do now if you just let her! And don't try to tell me that you're not completely, hopelessly trapped in life right now because I know you are! You need to let go of all your pain from your past and just do what your heart tells you. In fact, now I don't care if you finally learn to give into your feelings and end up with Kairi or not. All that matters is that you get away from here! Your trapped right now and you need to break free or else you'll suffocate and die! People don't get nervous break downs at your age Riku! If you keep this up you may end up dead! You can die from stress did you know that? You've acquired a dangerous amount of anger and stress and if you don't break free now, you'll end up hurting everyone around you; not just you, Kairi, or Faye." Betsy tightened her grip on Riku's hands as tears were forming in his eyes.
"I love you Riku. You're like the son I never had. I don't want to lose you to this! I couldn't bare it! I..." Then Betsy just broke down and cried in Riku's lap. Riku started to cry softly too. He was trapped. He wasn't even going to deny it. Riku wiped his eyes and then helped Betsy off her knees and onto her feet as she continued to cry. Riku stared unto her tear-filled eyes.
"...I love you too Betsy. You're like the mother I never had." Then she hugged her tightly around her waist and she hugged back and stroked his hair.
"Oh Riku, you know that I want you to end up with Kairi, but now I just want you to be happy so badly. Right now, you need to do whatever you think will make you happy." She bent down and put her hands on Riku's shoulders.
"If you chose to end up with Kairi that's fine. But if you chose to end up with Faye, well that's fine too. You just need to do something. Whatever you choose, I trust in your decision." Riku smiled and wrapped his arms around your neck.
"I love you Betsy." She hugged him back and kissed his cheek.
"I love you too, my Riku."
~*Faye's House*~
Faye lied on her bed, staring out of her window at the sunshine, crying softly. She was wearing a white tank top with a long, flowy, purple skirt. Her long, straight, brown hair was pulled elegantly into a low ponytail with a purple ribbon. She was bare foot and her pink toe nail polish shined brightly in the sun's light. She lied on her bed thinking about Riku. And of all the things about him she had yet to understand. It was hurting her that he hid himself away from her so. What was he afraid of? Did he think she wasn't mature enough to know? It bothered her thoroughly. Then someone knocked softly on the door.
"Come in," she sniffed. The door opened. She turned her head to see who it was. It was Riku. He stared into her emerald eyes as she stared back into his. He could tell she had been crying. She got up off her bed and walked slowly over to him.
"Hi Riku," she said as she wrapped her arms around his neck. He smiled and wrapped his arms around her waist. They embraced for a while. When they pulled apart Riku looked down to see what she was wearing.
"You look beautiful today."
"Thank you." She had a sad look on her face. She knew whatever reason Riku was there it wasn't good. She bent her head down in sadness. There was an awkward silence in the air.
"Faye we need to talk."
"Ok," she replied with her head bent down. They sat down in two of her chairs beside her window. There was another silence as Faye just looked out the window sadly as Riku tried to form together what he was going to say.
"Faye, I...Well...this isn't...well....,"
"You're here to break up with me aren't you?" she asked softly as she turned her head towards him.
"Well...yes." Faye bent her head down sadly as a tear rolled softly down her cheek. Riku couldn't bare to see her cry. Yes, she had her flaws, but deep down, she was a good person. And plus seeing someone that beautiful cry was pretty heart breaking. Riku got off his chair and bent down beside her. He held her hands.
"Faye, I'm sorry it's just that...."
"I knew that when Kairi came here everything would change," she interrupted softly, "I knew that you had a great fondness for her that you tried to hide. You tried to tell me that everything was ok...I tried to listen to you...but deep down I knew better..."
"Faye...don't blame this on yourself. This isn't about you or Kairi. It's about me. You wouldn't understand." Faye started to sob softly.
"I wouldn't understand because you never told me." Riku sighed and cupped his hand on her cheek.
"Faye...please don't cry. None of this is your fault. It's just me...Everything's gonna be ok." Faye was silent for a few seconds.
"That's what you said when Kairi came here." Riku sighed. His hand was still cupping her cheek.
"Faye, it IS going to be ok...I'll never forget our time we spent together. It was weird at times, but interesting nevertheless." Riku wiped away Faye's tears with his thumb. Then he embraced her warmly. Faye held him tightly in her arms and blinked tightly as several tears fell. When they broke apart, Riku smiled warmly at her.
"Good bye Faye." Then he turned to leave. Fate bent her head down and cried even more. Riku turned around.
"Remember Faye..everything's gonna be ok." Faye nodded softly, and then Riku turned around and walked towards the door. Faye lifted her head up. She gazed out the window once more as a single tear rolled down her cheek.
//And I wanna believe you
When you tell me that it'll be ok
Yah I try to believe you,
But I don't
When you say that it's gonna be
It always turns out a different way
I try to believe you
Not today...
I don't know how I'll feel
Tomorrow, tomorrow
I don't know what to say
Tomorrow, tomorrow is a different day
It's always been up to you
It's turning around it's up to me
I'm gonna do what I have to do
Just don't..
I'll give you a little time
I'll leave you alone a little while
Maybe it's not to late
Not today...
I don't know how I'll feel,
Tomorrow, tomorrow
I don't know what to say
Tomorrow, tomorrow is a different day
Hey yah yah, and I know I'm not ready
Hey yah yah, maybe tomorrow
Hey yah yah, and I know I'm not ready
Hay yah yah, maybe tomorrow
And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok
Yah I try to believe you,
Not today..
Tomorrow it may change..
Tomorrow it may change//
Faye continued to wipe away the tears from her face. She turned around and saw Riku shut the door behind him...
And that was the last time Faye saw Riku...
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Well that's all for this chapter! I hope after reading it..you now look at Faye in a different way..Anyway, next chapter is the LAST CHAPTER *bum, bum, bum, buuuuuuuuum* Sorry this chapter took so long to post. I went away for three days on a youth trip to Gulf Shores! It was fun! Anyway, that's all for this chapter! Please R/R ^_^
Peace Out,
Kia Saphia
Disclaimer: I don't own KH or Tomorrow by Avril Lavigne
A/N: Don't worry Beta Genius nobody dies in this story. I just meant that it's gonna be more angst as the things Riku are feeling will get more sad (and I'm sorry about your eyes!). And if y'all are reading the rest of this story and you become very frustrated at Riku, you'll soon come to find that there's something else about Kairi that he was scared by. So just bare with me here.
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Riku took his first step out of the hospital and gazed into the morning sun that he wasn't seeing through a hospital mirror. He began to walk slowly with his hands in his pockets. His head was swarming around the dream he had just had. He knew that dreams like that don't come around so often. One gets dreams like that when their soul is trying to tell them something with every fiber of its being. And he knew what the dream meant. He knew just what his soul was trying to tell him. He wasn't denying him either. To deny a dream like that would be stupid. But just because he wasn't denying it, doesn't mean he agreed with it. Everything hurt so much. He didn't want these dreams, he didn't want these feelings, he didn't want anything that was in his life right now. He just wanted to let go of it all and run off into the distance so he could find happiness somewhere far away.
~*Riku's POV*~
Happiness.....
Something I haven't felt in a long time. I can't even remember the last time I was truly happy. Wait....yes I can. The last time I was seriously happy was when I found Kairi. Even though her heart was gone I couldn't have been happier. Just to be able to see her and touch her got me on such a high I thought I'd never come down. It's kind of funny how the one person in life that could make me smile in my darkest hour is also the person that is ruining my life. I can't stand her, because I left my life on Destiny Island behind because of her, and when I try to build a new life, she shows up and screws it all up for me. And yet, I love her so much I want to punch her face in.
~*Betsy's House*~
Betsy was sitting quietly at her table stirring her tea. Kairi had gone off somewhere to think, so she had been by herself for quite a while. Then, once again, the front door swung open and Riku stepped through.
"Hey there baby," Betsy said as she was lightened from seeing Riku. "I thought you'd be coming to talk with me soon."
"Talk?" Riku asked trying to deny his problem, "Who says I'm here to talk. I just wanted to come see you. Can't I do that?" He pulled up a chair beside her and sat down. Betsy raised her eyebrow.
"Of course you can come just to visit, but I know you have a problem darlin'." Riku shrugged his shoulders.
"Now, what did Kairi do this time?" Riku became silent. He bent his head down.
"Am I THAT predictable?" he asked sadly. Betsy smiled warmly and held Riku's hand.
"Honey, the first step to getting over your problems is to admit them." Riku sighed.
"...Yes, it's about Kairi...again." Betsy smiled.
"There's no need to be ashamed baby, anyone with eyes and a heart can see that you're troubled about her."
"Well....," Riku began, "this time it's not about something she did. It's about a dream I had about her."
"You're dreaming about her?"
"Yes.."
"Oh Riku baby! You know that when you start dreamin' about someone you're hooked!"
"..I dreamt about her all the time back on Destiny Island. Back then, there wasn't one night when I would lay my head down and dream about something other than her. It was like that from the first day I saw her until..." Riku stopped in his sentence and looked to the side angrily.
"....Until y'all came back from the Door of the Light, right?" Betsy finished.
"...Right. I still dreamt about her even after that, but my once pleasant dreams about her turned into nightmares. In fact, all those nightmares were what happened to me everyday. They were nightmares about her shunning me into the cold for Sora. And then I'd wake up to find that my greatest fears and my worst nightmares had become my everyday life." Betsy was silent. She couldn't think of anything she could say in Kairi's defense. She wiped away a tear that had softly shed.
"That's mighty sad Riku...but talk about not forgiving and forgetting."
"Betsy...I've tried to forget about it, but I can't. There's too much to forget, and it's too painful to forgive." Betsy was silent. She stared down at the floor and then looked back up with tears in her eyes.
"Riku, can't you see you're hurting this girl? She loves you Riku! And you just want to hold onto a long-time grudge. You'll break her heart. If you continue on like this no one will get a happy ending." Riku stiffened up.
"After she broke my heart and deserted me, why should I care if I'm breaking her heart now? I've told her over and over again...she wouldn't even be here if it wasn't for that stupid letter! She'd still be back home, kicking back, watching the sunset, and cuddling up with that traitor Sora! And I even told her exactly what you said..if she continues to stay here I'll just end up breaking her heart." Betsy tightened her grip on the chair she was sitting in. She fought back the urge to say something back knowing that this would only end up in a heated argument.
"...Riku we're getting off subject..now tell me about the dream you had about Kairi."
"The dream?" Riku asked, totally forgetting his real purpose there because of the discussion they had before.
"Yes baby, you came here and said you wanted to tell me about the dream you had about Kairi."
"Oh yah!" he replied, "Well, um....it goes like..." He stopped, suddenly becoming embarrassed to tell the dream. He knew that if he told the story Betsy and him would start arguing again, and he hated arguing with her. Betsy put her hand over Riku's.
"Don't be afraid to tell me darlin'." Riku took a deep breath.
"Ok, well it started out like this: I was in a field, not just any felid, but the most beautiful, peaceful field anyone can imagine. There were birds flying above me, and sunshine was shining warmly, and....."
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"..And that's when I woke up." There was silence for a few minutes. Betsy had her head been down and was gripping onto her chair like grim death. Riku could tell that she wasn't exactly floating on cloud nine so he bent his head down and stared at his feet as if they were ancient ruins to avoid looking at Betsy's face. An awkward silence filled the air. Then Betsy couldn't take it anymore.
"Riku, won't you please open your eyes and see?" she asked loudly.
"See what?" he replied, even though he knew what she was going to say next.
"Riku, if you have a dream like that it means every force of nature is trying to tell you something! And you know just what it's trying to tell you too! But instead of giving into what every fiber in your being knows is true, you choose to hide behind an ancient grudge!" Betsy got out of her chair and got on her knees next to Riku's chair. She took his hands in hers and stared directly into his eyes.
"Riku, in your dream Kairi rescued you from your dark prison you were in, and that's what she could do now if you just let her! And don't try to tell me that you're not completely, hopelessly trapped in life right now because I know you are! You need to let go of all your pain from your past and just do what your heart tells you. In fact, now I don't care if you finally learn to give into your feelings and end up with Kairi or not. All that matters is that you get away from here! Your trapped right now and you need to break free or else you'll suffocate and die! People don't get nervous break downs at your age Riku! If you keep this up you may end up dead! You can die from stress did you know that? You've acquired a dangerous amount of anger and stress and if you don't break free now, you'll end up hurting everyone around you; not just you, Kairi, or Faye." Betsy tightened her grip on Riku's hands as tears were forming in his eyes.
"I love you Riku. You're like the son I never had. I don't want to lose you to this! I couldn't bare it! I..." Then Betsy just broke down and cried in Riku's lap. Riku started to cry softly too. He was trapped. He wasn't even going to deny it. Riku wiped his eyes and then helped Betsy off her knees and onto her feet as she continued to cry. Riku stared unto her tear-filled eyes.
"...I love you too Betsy. You're like the mother I never had." Then she hugged her tightly around her waist and she hugged back and stroked his hair.
"Oh Riku, you know that I want you to end up with Kairi, but now I just want you to be happy so badly. Right now, you need to do whatever you think will make you happy." She bent down and put her hands on Riku's shoulders.
"If you chose to end up with Kairi that's fine. But if you chose to end up with Faye, well that's fine too. You just need to do something. Whatever you choose, I trust in your decision." Riku smiled and wrapped his arms around your neck.
"I love you Betsy." She hugged him back and kissed his cheek.
"I love you too, my Riku."
~*Faye's House*~
Faye lied on her bed, staring out of her window at the sunshine, crying softly. She was wearing a white tank top with a long, flowy, purple skirt. Her long, straight, brown hair was pulled elegantly into a low ponytail with a purple ribbon. She was bare foot and her pink toe nail polish shined brightly in the sun's light. She lied on her bed thinking about Riku. And of all the things about him she had yet to understand. It was hurting her that he hid himself away from her so. What was he afraid of? Did he think she wasn't mature enough to know? It bothered her thoroughly. Then someone knocked softly on the door.
"Come in," she sniffed. The door opened. She turned her head to see who it was. It was Riku. He stared into her emerald eyes as she stared back into his. He could tell she had been crying. She got up off her bed and walked slowly over to him.
"Hi Riku," she said as she wrapped her arms around his neck. He smiled and wrapped his arms around her waist. They embraced for a while. When they pulled apart Riku looked down to see what she was wearing.
"You look beautiful today."
"Thank you." She had a sad look on her face. She knew whatever reason Riku was there it wasn't good. She bent her head down in sadness. There was an awkward silence in the air.
"Faye we need to talk."
"Ok," she replied with her head bent down. They sat down in two of her chairs beside her window. There was another silence as Faye just looked out the window sadly as Riku tried to form together what he was going to say.
"Faye, I...Well...this isn't...well....,"
"You're here to break up with me aren't you?" she asked softly as she turned her head towards him.
"Well...yes." Faye bent her head down sadly as a tear rolled softly down her cheek. Riku couldn't bare to see her cry. Yes, she had her flaws, but deep down, she was a good person. And plus seeing someone that beautiful cry was pretty heart breaking. Riku got off his chair and bent down beside her. He held her hands.
"Faye, I'm sorry it's just that...."
"I knew that when Kairi came here everything would change," she interrupted softly, "I knew that you had a great fondness for her that you tried to hide. You tried to tell me that everything was ok...I tried to listen to you...but deep down I knew better..."
"Faye...don't blame this on yourself. This isn't about you or Kairi. It's about me. You wouldn't understand." Faye started to sob softly.
"I wouldn't understand because you never told me." Riku sighed and cupped his hand on her cheek.
"Faye...please don't cry. None of this is your fault. It's just me...Everything's gonna be ok." Faye was silent for a few seconds.
"That's what you said when Kairi came here." Riku sighed. His hand was still cupping her cheek.
"Faye, it IS going to be ok...I'll never forget our time we spent together. It was weird at times, but interesting nevertheless." Riku wiped away Faye's tears with his thumb. Then he embraced her warmly. Faye held him tightly in her arms and blinked tightly as several tears fell. When they broke apart, Riku smiled warmly at her.
"Good bye Faye." Then he turned to leave. Fate bent her head down and cried even more. Riku turned around.
"Remember Faye..everything's gonna be ok." Faye nodded softly, and then Riku turned around and walked towards the door. Faye lifted her head up. She gazed out the window once more as a single tear rolled down her cheek.
//And I wanna believe you
When you tell me that it'll be ok
Yah I try to believe you,
But I don't
When you say that it's gonna be
It always turns out a different way
I try to believe you
Not today...
I don't know how I'll feel
Tomorrow, tomorrow
I don't know what to say
Tomorrow, tomorrow is a different day
It's always been up to you
It's turning around it's up to me
I'm gonna do what I have to do
Just don't..
I'll give you a little time
I'll leave you alone a little while
Maybe it's not to late
Not today...
I don't know how I'll feel,
Tomorrow, tomorrow
I don't know what to say
Tomorrow, tomorrow is a different day
Hey yah yah, and I know I'm not ready
Hey yah yah, maybe tomorrow
Hey yah yah, and I know I'm not ready
Hay yah yah, maybe tomorrow
And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok
Yah I try to believe you,
Not today..
Tomorrow it may change..
Tomorrow it may change//
Faye continued to wipe away the tears from her face. She turned around and saw Riku shut the door behind him...
And that was the last time Faye saw Riku...
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Well that's all for this chapter! I hope after reading it..you now look at Faye in a different way..Anyway, next chapter is the LAST CHAPTER *bum, bum, bum, buuuuuuuuum* Sorry this chapter took so long to post. I went away for three days on a youth trip to Gulf Shores! It was fun! Anyway, that's all for this chapter! Please R/R ^_^
Peace Out,
Kia Saphia
