Hi everyone Here is the next chapter about Inuyasha's feelings. I found this song and knew it was him. Thanks to my first two reviewers : story weaver and princess lainne!!!^_^ This song fic has the lyrics from I didn't Know I was looking for love by everything but the girl.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything I am borrowing Inuyasha and the song I Didn't Know I Was Looking For love by everything but the girl. Now to Inuyasha feelings!

~~Inuyasha~~

I was alone thinkin' I was just fine
I wasn't lookin' for anyone to be mine
I thought love was just a fabrication
A train that wouldn't stop at my station

Inuyasha sat in the a tree near the well. His face turned up ward to the sky as he sat in lazy fashion with careless easy in the swaying tree top. His arms rested behind his head and he would have been looking into the same deep sapphire sky that Kagome was if his eyes had not been closed in thought. He had known she hadn't left yet, but if she had wanted him she would have come looking before she left. He allowed her the time by herself she seemed to need to gather her thoughts. Her scent was still on the wind and he could see her faintly if he looked from his perch. Never too far just in case, but she had her privacy too.

'Kagome', he smiled. Just her name brought peace to his being. His turbulent heart felt at rest and his soul felt her acceptance and love branding him for the rest of his life. Tying him to her for eternity. He knew he loved her. He had known if for a long time. And He knew she loved him as well. He has been afraid to tell her though for two reasons: Kikiyo and Enemies.

'Kikiyo', his face turned dark as he thought of her. It had been almost two and a half years since she had been brought to life. The memories that they shared a life time ago, were now tainted by the assassination attempts of the present. He knew after almost being pulled into hell with her that he had honestly never loved the woman. But their loneliness drew them to each other and they made decisions to settle for each other, thinking there would be no one else ever they would be able to find even the slightest amount of happiness with. But time and trust tested they failed miserably, and they both ended up dead of sorts if not physically then emotionally.

He thought back to the day he awoke still pinned to the gods tree in the middle of his namesake's forest. The only think he woke up looking for was revenge. The blackness he had seeped in to had been all consuming including into his feelings and soul. Love? he had wanted nothing to do with it. He would simply resume his quest to acquire the Shikon no Tama and be full fledged demon and live out his life, Alone. Love he knew at that time, was an illusion thought up by weak human poets with tender feelings that just got you hurt or killed, in his case both. He was dead inside except for anger and revenge. Once released, he had come out of the darkness ready to fight. There was nothing left for him but to fulfill his mission to become full youkia, but somewhere deep inside it saddened him to know Kikiyo was dead and gone to know he would never feel how it felt again, to just have some one who gave a damn for once.

Home, alone, that was my consignment
Solitary confinement
So when we met I was getting around you

The Hanyou back then was completely alone. He knew he would be able to live on his own like he had done before he had met the woman who'd broken his heart but would never admit to it. He was prepared to disappear into the world nameless and devoid of connections. The solitary would do him good he thought, maybe one day calm his rage. So when he went after the Shikon no tama he really didn't care who had it or what happened to them in the process to get it. 'Yet another thing to thank Kikiyo for', he considered brow furrowed,' I almost killed her trying to get the damn thing.' She had just been in the way and after the bought with the other miko he hadn't cared any more whether the knew girl lived or died. At least he had had that much humanity in him when he went after it the first time not to want to kill its protector. Now whoever this was just in the way something to get around any way possible to attain his goal.

I didn't know I was looking for love
Until I found you honey/baby
I didn't know I was looking for love

'And then', he thought, 'she collared me'. One hand come out from behind his head to feel the beads around his neck. 'Not I'll ever get used to the fact that wench can 'sit' me when she wants....', his thought trailed off. 'But I am glad I do have it, because it saved her life from ME,' he thought bitterly to himself, ' for that i put up with it.' The "collar" actually a rosary, had also MADE him calm down long enough to think past his madness of revenge and sudden once again obsessive one mindedness to get the jewel. It hadn't taken long after the jewel was shattered that he recognized he was going to need her to find them. But it seemed when she had been put into real danger other than his thoughts of just out right getting rid of her because of the fact she had shattered it to begin with and she was able to 'sit' him, he all the sudden was looking out for her. And that had surprised him but not for long. Inuyasha chuckled silently. He knew even then by the time they had fought Ura of the hair he had feelings for her. He had no clue how deep they actually ran until their fight with Sesshamaru where she had saved him with her arrows. Even with Kikiyo in the picture way back then it was there, she had just complicated things in his mind, and a bit in his heart. But his soul had known, it had always known. He hadn't been looking for it but he sure found it. He spared a glance her direction still seeing her sitting on the lip of the well. He smiled.

Cuz there I stood and I would
Oh I wonder could I say what I felt
And not be misunderstood
A thousand stars came into my system
I never knew how much I had missed them

The half demon's eyes were closed again as he remembered her return from being trapped in her time. After the wolves were decimated and the demon was finished she wasted no time come out of the well and running to him. He had stood there trying to reconcile what he was seeing with what he knew. He had sent her back to her own time and sealed the well but here she was. She had found a way back to him despite his best efforts to keep her away. But no mater how hard he tried he couldn't tell her how much he loved her just then. He wondered if he ever could. There was still much confusions where Kikiyo was concerned plus how dangerous it would be if someone knew. He knew he couldn't trust himself to speak so he settled on hugging her back instead. His soul that had been hurting since she had been sealed from there time fore what he thought was forever, even for her own safety. At the same time as she wrapped her arms around him, his heart came back to life and his soul responded to her open affection and everything seemed right in his world again even if only for a second. He felt as if she had opened up his soul for the first time since he had awoken she had been slowly working at the locks and chains he had used to bar his heart. And the fact that she had tried to come back to get back to him of all people opened the doors wide and let the light back inside him. He didn't even know he had really missed this since it seemed never to have happened with Kikiyo. There were still so many questions and things that would eventually have to be sorted thru, but at the moment there was only him and her and he was happy. It was short lived however when she pulled back and started crying. He knew he had probably hurt her with the way he had taken the crystal and shoved her into the well. He was about to explain not being able to stand to see her like that her crying turned to anger and she was once again shouting. He chuckled slightly and spared another look at his love from his reclined position in the tree top. 'So much fire,' he thought, 'just another reason she's mine.'

Slap on my lap of my heart you landed
I was coy but you made me candid
And now the planets circle around you

Her name was the mantra is his heart and just strengthened him as time went by. Her love was the link to heaven in his soul. She pulled him out of a darkness he thought he was happy in. After being hurt so badly he thought to never feel again. He had tried to fight it but to no avail. And finally after his almost trip to hell seeing how much he had really hurt Kagome and how badly his soul felt in the aftermath he his heart started to understand what the undead miko really was and what there 'love' had been. She deserved to rest in peace he knew and he promised himself he would do that. But as for the rest, the feelings of what was the closes thing to love he had felt before, most likely companionship and friendship, were slowly ebbing and with it his link to her. She was his past and Kagome was his future.

As they began to become closer, she always seemed to know what he needed. A hug now an then, or a kind word, or even when to argue. They used these feelings very smoothly as they skirted the real feelings like walking on eggshells. A glance at each other and they were talking in a language no one else would have understood, save their souls. It was only once in a while he would catch a hint of doubt in her eyes specially when it came time and again to battle Kikiyo her pre incarnate. He did his best with out words to tell her there was no more competition. But one day soon he would be able to tell her and reassure her with everything in him that, she was the one and only past present and future. But somehow on late nights when everyone was asleep and he would hop up onto a low branch in a tree above Kagome, she would look up at him and he would sense her gaze and he would look down at her and ask her gruffly,"what?" Pretending to be annoyed. Every time she saw right thru it and every time she pulled him out of his shell enough to talk kindly and candidly to her. Sometimes about his mother, or his father, about past battles, about how he was feeling presently, his health without the macho I'm a half demon ill be fine attitude in the way, She had broken down his walls and they would talk open and quiet. Still they had not attempted to battle the issue of their love for one another and any lingering questions that might be there needing answering. But he already knew, and she would know soon also and that gave him comfort as did her love. He looked at her lost in thought thinking to himself, 'if she only knew that she hung the moon.' And he continue to watch her unashamed in the still forest.

So we build from here with love the foundation
In a world where tears' our consolation
Now your here there's a full brass band
Playin' in me like a wonderland
And if you left I would be two-foot small
And every tear would be a waterfall
Soundless boundless I surround you

From here he knew his future was set. Be it here or in her time. He would stay with her in the end if that is what she chose. In side him he knew she would choose to be with him, and on that he had staked his hole life on.
Her love had let him begin to rebuild himself with in. He kept the walls in place to the out side world as the construction went on inside his soul to repair the damage that had torn it asunder 50 or so now years earlier. The world beyond her and a few friends it seemed were permanently out to hurt him and the ones he loved to cause him pain and bring down all he had worked so hard to regain thru Kagome. But inside him there would be that place he had been able to repair. The world would continue to see the brash, rude, angry person he had been in his pain. But inside him a time and space all its own he let the select few see and only one stay. Kagome's loved lived there in his heart and soul, filling his life with beauty, song, adn life. The few he did trust kept his secret they could tell without having to be told. And the one who's essences had lent him the strength to find that part of his soul kept the doors open wide to her thru her consistent unconditional love.

His only doubt his mind would worry him with was if she did after it was all over to leave him for her time and not come back. That she despite how they felt would leave him alone again and crush everything inside him. He knew if she chose that he would die and there would be no recovering. He thought maybe his demon side would probably swallow him hole in his pain and make him mindless to whatever course it chose. He knew he wouldn't care either even if he did he would not have the strength to try and suppress all his demon blood, not with her out of his life by choice. he also thought about the only other possibility of being alone and that was her dying in the increasingly dangerous circumstances they were in. Inuyasha's brow creased. No he wouldn't let that happen, and if it did he would not be far behind her because that would not be her choice to leave him and he would follow her any where including into the after life. Something he had not been willing to do for Kikiyo. That was the one thought that had finally opened his eyes at the end of his feelings for her to how much different it was with Kagome then Kikiyo. He would be nothing with out her no even rage and revenge. He would simply chose to not exist. In so his love for her was complete and pure. His aura always seemed to be around her even thru the time tunnel unbeknownst to both of them. He surrounded her with his love and spirit of protection which is probably why that alone kept her so safe in her time when she was away. Inuyasha heard Kagome jump off the lip of the well back into the vortex of blue light that took her to her time. 'Be safe,' he thought as he felt a sudden familiar twinge inside his soul as the time warp seemed to seal itself off. He didn't feel lonely or like she had left him which was strange since she had in literal terms. He yawned and vaguely wondered why he for about the last year felt tired and more subdued every time she left. He had also noticed when he went up against an opponent he was not nearly as strong as he was when she was there. These were questions he wouldn't have to worry about once she had become his mate because she would always be by his side. He smiled at that thought and slipped into a light nap.

Keade watched from the edge of the woods feeling the energies of the two who loved each other. She had seen the change in thier auras as of recently but chose not to say so. She could tell this was different then what the hanyou had had with her sister. When they finally spoke there feelings and he asked her to become his mate it would merely be formality. For their souls had already joined, miko and demon, destiny was clear and all the rest would fall into place. The old woman smiled to herself, 'right soul and right mind and heart this time.' She turned around and headed back into her house wondering when the when the actual 'formalities' would come with a grumble of "stubborn children."

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Hi everyone hope you liked it!!! It took me quite alot longer to right cuz he is so much more complicated -_-'. Any how the next chapter will be when they tell each other they love one another! will up date probably tomorrow! enjoy!! Please R+R!! Laters, LJ