HI everyone this here is the 3rd part of my song fic 4 play. It's when Inuyasha and Kagome actually tell each other they love each other. It is done to the lyrics of 'I Already DO' by Chely Wright. Another good song that I found to fit this moment. Hope you enjoy it like the last two.
Disclaimer: as always I don't own anything I'm borrowing Inuyasha and "I already do" by Chely Wright to make my fic.
~~Do you love me?~~
The shard-collecting band walked into a clearing next to a stream about a mile off the well-traveled path. They were headed southwest back towards Keade's village after attaining yet another shard of the Shikon Jewel. Toward sunset they had decided to stop for the day all of them tired and worn from the battle they had fought earlier that day.
Sango, Miroku, Shippo, and Kirara moved over to the right of the clearing towards a few fallen logs to rest against till dinner has been made and the conversation was done for the night. Miroku moved to gather some small branches and sticks with Shippo as Kirara just laid down next to Sango's feet as she was readying a small clearing for the fire. While the others started a fire and then supper Kagome and Inuyasha who had been bringing up the rear walked straight past them with out a word toward the creek. They let the two go with out a thought, both had been acting quiet and strained since the day before yesterday when they had had another run in with Kikiyo.
Kagome decided not to stop where everyone else had in favor of getting a drink thru the brush and around a large rock for some privacy. She knew Inuyasha was only two steps behind her and was hoping he would just move to where the rest of the group was and let her wash in peace. Kagome was sore and tired from both battles the last few days but the visit from Kikiyo had been the breaking point of the week. It hadn't been that she had had to physically fight her, or defend her friends although her shoulder was still very tender. After firing an arrow at the monster they fought that morning it had felt like it had been on fire all day. But the pain in her arm seemed nothing compared to the pain of what the confrontation with the miko had produced in her heart.
The undead woman had caught Kagome by her self picking herbs near their campsite at dusk. She had gone out of sight but not out of ear shot as Inuyasha had always warned her not to do. He had been hunting though and only Miroku and she had stayed behind with Shippo. Telling them she found some things along the way here she wanted to restock on they let her go with out a second thought knowing she would stay close. The last two years had taught her a few things of common sense to use in the warring states period. While she was picking them her head bent and her mind lost in concentration she cam across two sandaled feet of a woman right under her nose. A feeling of dread came over her too late. She knew who it was.
"Ah, if it isn't my current in carnet," Kikiyo said coldly. The chill in her voice made Kagome cringe. She backed up from the other woman and stood. She was unarmed and alone, and being who it was she didn't want to scream and bring Inuyasha. She just wouldn't let her drag him to hell and that was it. Not that he acted like he wanted that any more. But for some reason every time they met her he could never bring himself to not get a soft look in his eyes that she thought was love for sure still. It killed her inside to see that. But her feelings for her hanyou never wavered thru the pain.
"What do you want Kikiyo?" Kagome asked quietly, looking her in the eye. She wasn't afraid of her, not any more. She had been slowly gaining strength from the distance it seemed Inuyasha had been putting between the dead miko and himself. She had thought eventually she might have a chance with him if she continued to be by his side unconditionally. Hope for the worst and prepare for the best, which for her meant keep dreaming of being with him but know you might never.
"What do I want?" She said looking at her a sneer crossing her face. Alarm bells went off in her head. She was thinking maybe she should have called for Inuyasha instead of trying to deal with this on her own. 'This wasn't the run of the mill confrontation with an old lover of a boyfriend' Kagome thought suddenly. As much as she wished to settle this with Kikiyo herself she was sure that this time Kikiyo wasn't here to just debate with her, and now she was in deep.
"I want you DEAD!" She yelled and lunged at her.
Kagome was pushed back from the force impacting body and they were both thrown to the ground, with Kagome taking most of the impact on the ground. It took a second for both women to get there barring and to catch their breath after hitting the forest floor. Kagome hurt all over but she managed to get a knee between her and her attacker and threw her to the side enough to get to her feet. Kikiyo rolled and reached her feet also. Kagome was debating whether to yell for the others yet for she must have been far enough from the camp for them not to have heard their scuffle. Kikiyo wasn't done with her not by a long shot though and as her attention was divided, she ran at her full force and slammed her shoulder into Kagome's right shoulder making her hit the tree behind her hard. Kagome's cry of pain echoed thru the forest as she then cried loudly for Inuyasha.
Kikiyo knew that attacking Kagome would bring Inuyasha. She was no fool to know that he has been slowly letting her go all this time. But it appeared to her that her reincarnation had not figured it out completely yet because the hanyou was gun shy after being hurt by her. So they had yet it seemed to clear the air once and for all by actually talking and she took the advantage to its fullest extent. As she had Kagome pinned between her and the tree in immense pain she whispered in her look alike's ear, "He will never love you. You are only a piece of me and second best in every thing he sees. He may have feelings for you but they are all because he still sees my face when you are in danger." Kagome heard this and threw her pain and became so angry that she found the strength to shove Kikiyo off of her and into the dirt below the trees roots that were beneath their feet.
Just to the north of the fighting pair Inuyasha, Sango, and Kirara were hunting for dinner and were about to bring down a deer when and urgent shriek of pain rang thru the forest and then a cry for the hanyou. Inuyasha looked toward his right knowing it was Kagome. "DAMN!! KAGOME!!" He ran off toward the screams hoping he wasn't to late. Sango and Kirara ran back towards camp to the others to see if they were with her or not. At lighting speed the hanyou traveled the treetops with grace and ease born of his superior equilibrium. He felt as if he was nearing her and dropped out of the tree canopy to the ground still running. When he broke into a small clearing, the forest floor covered in cleansing herbs, he saw Kagome slumped at the base of a tree breathing heavily with her eyes closed crying. He ran over to her and gathered her in his arm. As he grabbed her right shoulder to pull her to him she screamed again which made him let go quickly. He then heard a rustle in the grass as Kikiyo got up with out a word. The smell of earth and bones assaulted his nose and he knew who had done this. Not wanting to hurt Kagome he let her sit where she was and moved in-between her and Kikiyo. Kagome's head swam with pain now so much that the world out side began to fade and with it Inuyasha's and Kikiyo's voices.
"You....What did you do to her???" Inuyasha asked in an accusing growl. Kikiyo just laughed.
"Your bitch decided that she would try to take me on by herself. I knew she wasn't going to call for you so I had to hurt her badly enough to cry out. You know she is braver than she looks but just as stupid."
"God's damn you Kikiyo!!! This is the last time you harm her!!!"
"Or what hanyou? What will you do to protect you bitch, against you true love?"
"My true love is my bitch or I would not bother to have come when she called at all!! If you harm her again you will have severed the last of my tolerance with you I have kept for old memories and feelings. You have stained them all with you hatred and bloody methods. You are not the kind woman I knew, nor was it love as I have for Kagome that I felt for you so long ago. Be gone Witch, before I change my mind now." He growled at her in a deep tone menacingly. He had made his decision long ago that he would choose, and would no longer run the risk of being mistaken by this undead woman. Kagome was his and Kikiyo was dead to him maybe always had been. It just took him long enough to realize it.
"I will leave now Inuyasha. This is not over for next time I will kill her before you can blink and you will join me in hell." She turned and left before he could blink and disappeared like the wraith she was.
Inuyasha now stood beside Kagome who had awoken just in time to see Kikiyo's exit and hear her parting speech. She gathered her strength and looked up at Inuyasha who watched her leave his eyes soft and moist. Kagome cringed seeing the look on his face and took that gentle gaze as one of love and pain. It hurt her to see it making her sick to her stomach and her heart hurt. She had not been awake to hear his proclamation of love and threat to the other miko. However in Inuyasha's mind He felt a small prang of loss the last visages of something long dead that was never alive to begin with, and more pity toward the creature that slank away into the shadows. He shook his head and turned to Kagome and smiled at her trying to be comforting. Kagome came unglued.
She pushed herself to her feet with her left on and ran from the clearing before Inuyasha could say anything. She was hurt and confused and the pain from her shoulder clouded her mind. She just wanted to sleep and cry which the latter she was already doing. She nearly careened into Sango running blurry eyed thru the trees but avoided her and kept running. They all saw Inuyasha jogging after her and Miroku stopped him.
"What happened?"
"Kikiyo attacked her, and she's hurt!" He went on to tell them quickly what he had told Kikiyo he would do next time she touched Kagome. They all shook their heads in agreement and turned to follow the two running after each other. Back at camp she rolled up in her sleeping bag ignoring everyone including Inuyasha's urgent hands trying to hold her and see where she was hurt. She half slept but didn't get much because of the pain and she spent the next day in silence not seeming to notice anyone. Inuyasha kept a step behind her very concerned for her but he had no clue what to do. She wouldn't let him touch her or care for her the only thing he could do was watch her and to his best with out causing her more distress. The rest of the group stayed out of it not knowing what went wrong where but knowing Inuyasha was just as lost as the rest of them. The only thing she had said in two days was that she yelled at the monster to leave her Inuyasha alone and summoned enough power in her arrow that she sent to burn the creature inside out into cinder in seconds. It had been huge with 4 arms and 8 feet tall. It was reduced to ash by her magic. She fell to the ground on her knees grasping her shoulder after she shot the arrow but pushed Inuyasha and everyone else away when the ran to help her. And so this day had gone the same way silent, and painful.
Inuyasha had had it as they went to make camp that night. He couldn't let her go on any more. He knew her shoulder was injured now but she wouldn't let anyone near her and he still had no idea why. He didn't know if Kikiyo had said something to her to upset her so or if he had done something wrong like confessing his love for her to Kikiyo. He didn't know what she had heard of their conversation and had no way as of that moment to find out seeing as how she refused to talk. His concern for her overrode his need to let her have her privacy and he followed her thru the brush and around the rock to where she was now kneeling and looking into the stream.
Cautions in the wind
The hardest part is through.
You don't have to try so hard
To make me fall for you.
I've surprised myself
With what I've gone and done.
Just today I heard myself swear
You were the one.
He went up behind her and wrapped his arms around her waist so she couldn't run but wouldn't hurt her either. She stiffened when his arm wrapped around her. "Kagome?" he said from behind her softly. She didn't answer. "Love," he used the intimate name and he heard her breath catch. "You have to talk to me, Kagome. If you go on like this you will get sick and I know you are in much pain. Please talk to me, seeing you like this is killing me. I am worried about you." He heard her take a breath. There was no sense in hiding it any more for either of them. It was the moment they had both been waiting for only now Kagome wasn't thinking clearly and the pain physical and mental brought on by the battle with Kikiyo were clouding her judgment. Her love for the man, who was holding her was so strong and she trusted him so much, she knew it would kill her if he would never love her.
"I saw her go," she started quietly her voice thick with emotion. He smelled salt water permeate her sent and then felt a drop on his hand. He hugged her a tad tighter and this made her burst into a torrent of tears. "I saw you look at her and you were almost crying you looked at her so softly that I knew you loved her still. I can never be her Inuyasha. I am not her."
He held her still and he whispered in her ear. "I have told you many times I do not see her when I look at you. You are you. I am with you because you are no one else. You need to stop thinking you need to be her for me to..." Kagome cut him off. He hadn't gotten the three magic words out. It has surprised him he had been able to reveal it to Kikiyo when he did but he had and he had made it clear. He loved Kagome more than his own life more than the undead miko's and he would till the end of time, eternity. The soft body molded against his chest was still crying as she spoke.
"I can't try to be her Inuyasha. This soul may have been in that body once but, it is mine now my heart my mind my soul, and they are all me. And with them all I love you so much it kills me to think that one day I will lose you not to just her but to hell. Is there a chance? Will you ever love me? Love me like I love you?" She let it all out her fears, her pain, and her love. She told him all in one breath she didn't care any more she had to know and if it was meant to be he would tell her now.
Laugh
I just had to laugh
I really thought you knew
I can't believe
That you're asking me
When I will love you
I already do
I already do
And then he laughed. He hadn't known this was all bottled up inside her from the fight. He hadn't known she didn't know the complete truth. He had thought she knew how much he loved her and that he was hers. Kikiyo had managed to confuse him and befuddle him with her magic more times than one but his soul always knew. And his mind and his heart made it around all the obstacles finally seeing the truth of it also but it had been some time. He had thought he had handled Kikiyo with a distant air this whole year trying to prove to Kagome he had begun to distance himself from that part of his life. He couldn't believe she didn't know.
Kagome heard his laughter and thought he was laughing at her speech of love and fear. A sharp pain ran thru her heart and soul as if being torn but it only lasted for all of a second when he got up and turned her to him to look in his eyes. "You are asking me if when I will love you?" He looked at her with mirth in his eyes; it was a joy that sprang from what she saw in his face to be love. She could only nod confounded by the sweet look in his visage directed at her. "I can't believe you didn't know that, Kagome, I already do." Her mouth dropped and new tears rolled down her face.
"Really, Inuyasha??? YOU DO??" He laughed again and hugged her to him gently keeping in mind her shoulder. It hurt her anyhow but at that moment in time she never felt it.
"Yes, my love, I really do."
You've been doing fine
Please don't change a thing
It's too good to hide away
So I might as well come clean
I didn't shout it out
But everybody knew
Funny you're the only one
Who didn't have a clue.
Inuyasha pulled back to see her still crying, only she was happy now instead of in pain. He wanted to dispel the last of her fears and worries and misguided thoughts put there by Kikiyo by addressing them then and there. "Kagome. Love," he began looking into her soft brown eyes. "I don't want you to be Kikiyo. I want you to be you. I love you for you not a love that never existed. You needn't ever change. I will not hide my feelings form you any more by not telling you. Every day I will make sure you know you are loved. I know I didn't tell you with words but I assumed you knew. Everyone else did. The people we met telling us you were my woman, even from the beginning. Miroku know. Sango know. Even Shippo and Kirara know. I would have told you sooner despite the danger if I had known you weren't sure. You are the only one who didn't know beloved. Not even my words that you were not, ever detoured anyone from believing I loved you." Kagome looked up at him and smiled for the first time in days. Her heart felt as if it would burst and any lingering doubts were smashed into a million pieces; and the last of her walls she had built to protect herself from the possibility of him not loving her back crumbled under the strength of his gaze containing so much compassion and feeling it took her breath away. She hugged him with her good arm.
"I LOVE YOU INUYASHA!!" she exclaimed with all her heart. "I love you as you are. You are perfect just as you are. Don't ever change because my love for you will always be with you no matter what. You are my everything. You are apart of my soul we will be together always."
I gave you my heart
Can't you feel the power
You wanna see the light.
Baby the suns been up for hours.
"You will always have my heart, Kagome. You always had my soul. It just took the rest to catch up after everything. Can you feel my love for you Kagome? It's always been there." She nodded into his shoulder feeling the warmth thru her soul. Like the bright light of the sun's rays coming over the horizon after a cold night. It warmed her inside melting the coldness that had threatened to consume her minutes before. Her soul was whole with its other half in her arms. She was complete. And he was fulfilled and they had come full circle coming together as they had been destined to do. And now they would be one for a lifetime long passed that of a normal human. How long she didn't know yet but she was sure that it would never be long enough.
She smiled at him pulling back and told him," I love you Inuyasha now and forever."
Laugh,
I just had to laugh
I really thought you knew
I can't believe
That you're asking me
When I will love you
I already do
I already do
He laughed again full of love and lightness. He sat down and pulled her into his lap carefully and held her to him on her left side and she laid her head on his shoulder. He was amazed again how this woman he loved so much didn't know the truth. He really did think she knew. With his looks and soft words in the middle of the night and stolen touches they both made a point to do. He smiled at her " I can't believe you asked me when I would love you, when I already did."
She smiled at him again but grimaced afterward and he turned her body so that her back faced his chest and felt about her shoulder. At the sudden pressure she cried out in pain and tears sprang to her eyes. He sighed "Ah; love why didn't you tell me it was this bad?" She just continued crying. "Just one minute ok? I'm sorry this hurts but I have to see if anything is broken." He continued to run his fingers over the bones in her shoulder and upper arm as she cried and whimpered in pain. It nearly ripped his heart out but doing this was looking after her like a good mate. He thought in passing, how he had to ask her to be his mate soon and claim her as his own and swear his oath of love and protection. Finally done she slumped against him. "Kagome," he said quietly with his arms around her. " I need you to take this top off so I can see your shoulder. Do you want to use my Yukata to wear so while I look at it its looser and I can pull it down on this side without making you cold from going without a shirt." She sighed because she didn't want him to see the damage done to her shoulder. She didn't want to even know what it looked like. "Beloved," He cajoled gently. She acquiesced and allowed him to help her with it so it didn't hurt so bad to remove it. That done he wrapped his outer garment around her warmly and pulled down the right shoulder now that he was sure she was warm. His brow creased deeply seeing the large purple and blue marks from her upper chest all the way across her shoulder and upper arm. He assumed she must have been slammed hard and that everything to her bone was probably bruised. She had looked away still in tears from the pain. Had they already been mates this wouldn't have been as bad as it was because he could have helped her heal thru a connection formed when they joined.
"It hurts....A LOT," she confessed.
"I know, Love. Do you have any of you future cures with you?" She had totally for gotten about the aspirin she had packed. She moved wrong and grimaced before answering.
"Yeah it's in my pack. But I don't have the energy to even stand up let alone get it." With out a word he carried her back into camp just as dinner was about ready. The three in camp had heard bits and peaces of the conversation and smiled at the two as they came in next to the fire. Inuyasha gave them all a warning glance to stave off any stupid remarks. They all went back to what they were doing quickly. Sango informed them dinner was ready and Shippo upon request from Inuyasha dug for the bottle Kagome described to him. Handing to her she took four small white pills hoping it would ease the swelling and pain, but what helped most she mused was her loves embrace. The night went on as Inuyasha left Kagome in his Yukata so she could wear something loose and warm for the night. He decided against jumping into the nearest tree in favor of cradling Kagome all night. Despite her pain she fell asleep shortly after they had all eaten dinner against Inuyasha's shoulder. He looked up to see the others watching them and he rolled his eyes with a slight blush.
"It's about time," Sango said. Inuyasha glared at her.
"Yeah it sure was!" Shippo added. Miroku snorted catching the hanyou's eye.
" And who would have guess that our priestess was the only one who was clueless..." Inuyasha smiled down at his sleeping Kagome. He ignored the comment outwardly as he closed his eyes and rested against a tree. But in his mind he chuckled still. 'Yes,' he mused, 'who would have believed you were the only one who didn't know that I already loved you.' His thoughts blended together and then washed away completely in the presence of a warm light that bathed the couple sleeping. That night it seems they dreamed the same dream, and in it he whispered over and over to her 'I already did.'
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Well there it is folks. The I love you fic the next one is the will you be my mate one. I hope you enjoyed it I sure did enjoy writing it. I'm a die hard Inu/Kag fan. Please R+R Laters, LJ
Disclaimer: as always I don't own anything I'm borrowing Inuyasha and "I already do" by Chely Wright to make my fic.
~~Do you love me?~~
The shard-collecting band walked into a clearing next to a stream about a mile off the well-traveled path. They were headed southwest back towards Keade's village after attaining yet another shard of the Shikon Jewel. Toward sunset they had decided to stop for the day all of them tired and worn from the battle they had fought earlier that day.
Sango, Miroku, Shippo, and Kirara moved over to the right of the clearing towards a few fallen logs to rest against till dinner has been made and the conversation was done for the night. Miroku moved to gather some small branches and sticks with Shippo as Kirara just laid down next to Sango's feet as she was readying a small clearing for the fire. While the others started a fire and then supper Kagome and Inuyasha who had been bringing up the rear walked straight past them with out a word toward the creek. They let the two go with out a thought, both had been acting quiet and strained since the day before yesterday when they had had another run in with Kikiyo.
Kagome decided not to stop where everyone else had in favor of getting a drink thru the brush and around a large rock for some privacy. She knew Inuyasha was only two steps behind her and was hoping he would just move to where the rest of the group was and let her wash in peace. Kagome was sore and tired from both battles the last few days but the visit from Kikiyo had been the breaking point of the week. It hadn't been that she had had to physically fight her, or defend her friends although her shoulder was still very tender. After firing an arrow at the monster they fought that morning it had felt like it had been on fire all day. But the pain in her arm seemed nothing compared to the pain of what the confrontation with the miko had produced in her heart.
The undead woman had caught Kagome by her self picking herbs near their campsite at dusk. She had gone out of sight but not out of ear shot as Inuyasha had always warned her not to do. He had been hunting though and only Miroku and she had stayed behind with Shippo. Telling them she found some things along the way here she wanted to restock on they let her go with out a second thought knowing she would stay close. The last two years had taught her a few things of common sense to use in the warring states period. While she was picking them her head bent and her mind lost in concentration she cam across two sandaled feet of a woman right under her nose. A feeling of dread came over her too late. She knew who it was.
"Ah, if it isn't my current in carnet," Kikiyo said coldly. The chill in her voice made Kagome cringe. She backed up from the other woman and stood. She was unarmed and alone, and being who it was she didn't want to scream and bring Inuyasha. She just wouldn't let her drag him to hell and that was it. Not that he acted like he wanted that any more. But for some reason every time they met her he could never bring himself to not get a soft look in his eyes that she thought was love for sure still. It killed her inside to see that. But her feelings for her hanyou never wavered thru the pain.
"What do you want Kikiyo?" Kagome asked quietly, looking her in the eye. She wasn't afraid of her, not any more. She had been slowly gaining strength from the distance it seemed Inuyasha had been putting between the dead miko and himself. She had thought eventually she might have a chance with him if she continued to be by his side unconditionally. Hope for the worst and prepare for the best, which for her meant keep dreaming of being with him but know you might never.
"What do I want?" She said looking at her a sneer crossing her face. Alarm bells went off in her head. She was thinking maybe she should have called for Inuyasha instead of trying to deal with this on her own. 'This wasn't the run of the mill confrontation with an old lover of a boyfriend' Kagome thought suddenly. As much as she wished to settle this with Kikiyo herself she was sure that this time Kikiyo wasn't here to just debate with her, and now she was in deep.
"I want you DEAD!" She yelled and lunged at her.
Kagome was pushed back from the force impacting body and they were both thrown to the ground, with Kagome taking most of the impact on the ground. It took a second for both women to get there barring and to catch their breath after hitting the forest floor. Kagome hurt all over but she managed to get a knee between her and her attacker and threw her to the side enough to get to her feet. Kikiyo rolled and reached her feet also. Kagome was debating whether to yell for the others yet for she must have been far enough from the camp for them not to have heard their scuffle. Kikiyo wasn't done with her not by a long shot though and as her attention was divided, she ran at her full force and slammed her shoulder into Kagome's right shoulder making her hit the tree behind her hard. Kagome's cry of pain echoed thru the forest as she then cried loudly for Inuyasha.
Kikiyo knew that attacking Kagome would bring Inuyasha. She was no fool to know that he has been slowly letting her go all this time. But it appeared to her that her reincarnation had not figured it out completely yet because the hanyou was gun shy after being hurt by her. So they had yet it seemed to clear the air once and for all by actually talking and she took the advantage to its fullest extent. As she had Kagome pinned between her and the tree in immense pain she whispered in her look alike's ear, "He will never love you. You are only a piece of me and second best in every thing he sees. He may have feelings for you but they are all because he still sees my face when you are in danger." Kagome heard this and threw her pain and became so angry that she found the strength to shove Kikiyo off of her and into the dirt below the trees roots that were beneath their feet.
Just to the north of the fighting pair Inuyasha, Sango, and Kirara were hunting for dinner and were about to bring down a deer when and urgent shriek of pain rang thru the forest and then a cry for the hanyou. Inuyasha looked toward his right knowing it was Kagome. "DAMN!! KAGOME!!" He ran off toward the screams hoping he wasn't to late. Sango and Kirara ran back towards camp to the others to see if they were with her or not. At lighting speed the hanyou traveled the treetops with grace and ease born of his superior equilibrium. He felt as if he was nearing her and dropped out of the tree canopy to the ground still running. When he broke into a small clearing, the forest floor covered in cleansing herbs, he saw Kagome slumped at the base of a tree breathing heavily with her eyes closed crying. He ran over to her and gathered her in his arm. As he grabbed her right shoulder to pull her to him she screamed again which made him let go quickly. He then heard a rustle in the grass as Kikiyo got up with out a word. The smell of earth and bones assaulted his nose and he knew who had done this. Not wanting to hurt Kagome he let her sit where she was and moved in-between her and Kikiyo. Kagome's head swam with pain now so much that the world out side began to fade and with it Inuyasha's and Kikiyo's voices.
"You....What did you do to her???" Inuyasha asked in an accusing growl. Kikiyo just laughed.
"Your bitch decided that she would try to take me on by herself. I knew she wasn't going to call for you so I had to hurt her badly enough to cry out. You know she is braver than she looks but just as stupid."
"God's damn you Kikiyo!!! This is the last time you harm her!!!"
"Or what hanyou? What will you do to protect you bitch, against you true love?"
"My true love is my bitch or I would not bother to have come when she called at all!! If you harm her again you will have severed the last of my tolerance with you I have kept for old memories and feelings. You have stained them all with you hatred and bloody methods. You are not the kind woman I knew, nor was it love as I have for Kagome that I felt for you so long ago. Be gone Witch, before I change my mind now." He growled at her in a deep tone menacingly. He had made his decision long ago that he would choose, and would no longer run the risk of being mistaken by this undead woman. Kagome was his and Kikiyo was dead to him maybe always had been. It just took him long enough to realize it.
"I will leave now Inuyasha. This is not over for next time I will kill her before you can blink and you will join me in hell." She turned and left before he could blink and disappeared like the wraith she was.
Inuyasha now stood beside Kagome who had awoken just in time to see Kikiyo's exit and hear her parting speech. She gathered her strength and looked up at Inuyasha who watched her leave his eyes soft and moist. Kagome cringed seeing the look on his face and took that gentle gaze as one of love and pain. It hurt her to see it making her sick to her stomach and her heart hurt. She had not been awake to hear his proclamation of love and threat to the other miko. However in Inuyasha's mind He felt a small prang of loss the last visages of something long dead that was never alive to begin with, and more pity toward the creature that slank away into the shadows. He shook his head and turned to Kagome and smiled at her trying to be comforting. Kagome came unglued.
She pushed herself to her feet with her left on and ran from the clearing before Inuyasha could say anything. She was hurt and confused and the pain from her shoulder clouded her mind. She just wanted to sleep and cry which the latter she was already doing. She nearly careened into Sango running blurry eyed thru the trees but avoided her and kept running. They all saw Inuyasha jogging after her and Miroku stopped him.
"What happened?"
"Kikiyo attacked her, and she's hurt!" He went on to tell them quickly what he had told Kikiyo he would do next time she touched Kagome. They all shook their heads in agreement and turned to follow the two running after each other. Back at camp she rolled up in her sleeping bag ignoring everyone including Inuyasha's urgent hands trying to hold her and see where she was hurt. She half slept but didn't get much because of the pain and she spent the next day in silence not seeming to notice anyone. Inuyasha kept a step behind her very concerned for her but he had no clue what to do. She wouldn't let him touch her or care for her the only thing he could do was watch her and to his best with out causing her more distress. The rest of the group stayed out of it not knowing what went wrong where but knowing Inuyasha was just as lost as the rest of them. The only thing she had said in two days was that she yelled at the monster to leave her Inuyasha alone and summoned enough power in her arrow that she sent to burn the creature inside out into cinder in seconds. It had been huge with 4 arms and 8 feet tall. It was reduced to ash by her magic. She fell to the ground on her knees grasping her shoulder after she shot the arrow but pushed Inuyasha and everyone else away when the ran to help her. And so this day had gone the same way silent, and painful.
Inuyasha had had it as they went to make camp that night. He couldn't let her go on any more. He knew her shoulder was injured now but she wouldn't let anyone near her and he still had no idea why. He didn't know if Kikiyo had said something to her to upset her so or if he had done something wrong like confessing his love for her to Kikiyo. He didn't know what she had heard of their conversation and had no way as of that moment to find out seeing as how she refused to talk. His concern for her overrode his need to let her have her privacy and he followed her thru the brush and around the rock to where she was now kneeling and looking into the stream.
Cautions in the wind
The hardest part is through.
You don't have to try so hard
To make me fall for you.
I've surprised myself
With what I've gone and done.
Just today I heard myself swear
You were the one.
He went up behind her and wrapped his arms around her waist so she couldn't run but wouldn't hurt her either. She stiffened when his arm wrapped around her. "Kagome?" he said from behind her softly. She didn't answer. "Love," he used the intimate name and he heard her breath catch. "You have to talk to me, Kagome. If you go on like this you will get sick and I know you are in much pain. Please talk to me, seeing you like this is killing me. I am worried about you." He heard her take a breath. There was no sense in hiding it any more for either of them. It was the moment they had both been waiting for only now Kagome wasn't thinking clearly and the pain physical and mental brought on by the battle with Kikiyo were clouding her judgment. Her love for the man, who was holding her was so strong and she trusted him so much, she knew it would kill her if he would never love her.
"I saw her go," she started quietly her voice thick with emotion. He smelled salt water permeate her sent and then felt a drop on his hand. He hugged her a tad tighter and this made her burst into a torrent of tears. "I saw you look at her and you were almost crying you looked at her so softly that I knew you loved her still. I can never be her Inuyasha. I am not her."
He held her still and he whispered in her ear. "I have told you many times I do not see her when I look at you. You are you. I am with you because you are no one else. You need to stop thinking you need to be her for me to..." Kagome cut him off. He hadn't gotten the three magic words out. It has surprised him he had been able to reveal it to Kikiyo when he did but he had and he had made it clear. He loved Kagome more than his own life more than the undead miko's and he would till the end of time, eternity. The soft body molded against his chest was still crying as she spoke.
"I can't try to be her Inuyasha. This soul may have been in that body once but, it is mine now my heart my mind my soul, and they are all me. And with them all I love you so much it kills me to think that one day I will lose you not to just her but to hell. Is there a chance? Will you ever love me? Love me like I love you?" She let it all out her fears, her pain, and her love. She told him all in one breath she didn't care any more she had to know and if it was meant to be he would tell her now.
Laugh
I just had to laugh
I really thought you knew
I can't believe
That you're asking me
When I will love you
I already do
I already do
And then he laughed. He hadn't known this was all bottled up inside her from the fight. He hadn't known she didn't know the complete truth. He had thought she knew how much he loved her and that he was hers. Kikiyo had managed to confuse him and befuddle him with her magic more times than one but his soul always knew. And his mind and his heart made it around all the obstacles finally seeing the truth of it also but it had been some time. He had thought he had handled Kikiyo with a distant air this whole year trying to prove to Kagome he had begun to distance himself from that part of his life. He couldn't believe she didn't know.
Kagome heard his laughter and thought he was laughing at her speech of love and fear. A sharp pain ran thru her heart and soul as if being torn but it only lasted for all of a second when he got up and turned her to him to look in his eyes. "You are asking me if when I will love you?" He looked at her with mirth in his eyes; it was a joy that sprang from what she saw in his face to be love. She could only nod confounded by the sweet look in his visage directed at her. "I can't believe you didn't know that, Kagome, I already do." Her mouth dropped and new tears rolled down her face.
"Really, Inuyasha??? YOU DO??" He laughed again and hugged her to him gently keeping in mind her shoulder. It hurt her anyhow but at that moment in time she never felt it.
"Yes, my love, I really do."
You've been doing fine
Please don't change a thing
It's too good to hide away
So I might as well come clean
I didn't shout it out
But everybody knew
Funny you're the only one
Who didn't have a clue.
Inuyasha pulled back to see her still crying, only she was happy now instead of in pain. He wanted to dispel the last of her fears and worries and misguided thoughts put there by Kikiyo by addressing them then and there. "Kagome. Love," he began looking into her soft brown eyes. "I don't want you to be Kikiyo. I want you to be you. I love you for you not a love that never existed. You needn't ever change. I will not hide my feelings form you any more by not telling you. Every day I will make sure you know you are loved. I know I didn't tell you with words but I assumed you knew. Everyone else did. The people we met telling us you were my woman, even from the beginning. Miroku know. Sango know. Even Shippo and Kirara know. I would have told you sooner despite the danger if I had known you weren't sure. You are the only one who didn't know beloved. Not even my words that you were not, ever detoured anyone from believing I loved you." Kagome looked up at him and smiled for the first time in days. Her heart felt as if it would burst and any lingering doubts were smashed into a million pieces; and the last of her walls she had built to protect herself from the possibility of him not loving her back crumbled under the strength of his gaze containing so much compassion and feeling it took her breath away. She hugged him with her good arm.
"I LOVE YOU INUYASHA!!" she exclaimed with all her heart. "I love you as you are. You are perfect just as you are. Don't ever change because my love for you will always be with you no matter what. You are my everything. You are apart of my soul we will be together always."
I gave you my heart
Can't you feel the power
You wanna see the light.
Baby the suns been up for hours.
"You will always have my heart, Kagome. You always had my soul. It just took the rest to catch up after everything. Can you feel my love for you Kagome? It's always been there." She nodded into his shoulder feeling the warmth thru her soul. Like the bright light of the sun's rays coming over the horizon after a cold night. It warmed her inside melting the coldness that had threatened to consume her minutes before. Her soul was whole with its other half in her arms. She was complete. And he was fulfilled and they had come full circle coming together as they had been destined to do. And now they would be one for a lifetime long passed that of a normal human. How long she didn't know yet but she was sure that it would never be long enough.
She smiled at him pulling back and told him," I love you Inuyasha now and forever."
Laugh,
I just had to laugh
I really thought you knew
I can't believe
That you're asking me
When I will love you
I already do
I already do
He laughed again full of love and lightness. He sat down and pulled her into his lap carefully and held her to him on her left side and she laid her head on his shoulder. He was amazed again how this woman he loved so much didn't know the truth. He really did think she knew. With his looks and soft words in the middle of the night and stolen touches they both made a point to do. He smiled at her " I can't believe you asked me when I would love you, when I already did."
She smiled at him again but grimaced afterward and he turned her body so that her back faced his chest and felt about her shoulder. At the sudden pressure she cried out in pain and tears sprang to her eyes. He sighed "Ah; love why didn't you tell me it was this bad?" She just continued crying. "Just one minute ok? I'm sorry this hurts but I have to see if anything is broken." He continued to run his fingers over the bones in her shoulder and upper arm as she cried and whimpered in pain. It nearly ripped his heart out but doing this was looking after her like a good mate. He thought in passing, how he had to ask her to be his mate soon and claim her as his own and swear his oath of love and protection. Finally done she slumped against him. "Kagome," he said quietly with his arms around her. " I need you to take this top off so I can see your shoulder. Do you want to use my Yukata to wear so while I look at it its looser and I can pull it down on this side without making you cold from going without a shirt." She sighed because she didn't want him to see the damage done to her shoulder. She didn't want to even know what it looked like. "Beloved," He cajoled gently. She acquiesced and allowed him to help her with it so it didn't hurt so bad to remove it. That done he wrapped his outer garment around her warmly and pulled down the right shoulder now that he was sure she was warm. His brow creased deeply seeing the large purple and blue marks from her upper chest all the way across her shoulder and upper arm. He assumed she must have been slammed hard and that everything to her bone was probably bruised. She had looked away still in tears from the pain. Had they already been mates this wouldn't have been as bad as it was because he could have helped her heal thru a connection formed when they joined.
"It hurts....A LOT," she confessed.
"I know, Love. Do you have any of you future cures with you?" She had totally for gotten about the aspirin she had packed. She moved wrong and grimaced before answering.
"Yeah it's in my pack. But I don't have the energy to even stand up let alone get it." With out a word he carried her back into camp just as dinner was about ready. The three in camp had heard bits and peaces of the conversation and smiled at the two as they came in next to the fire. Inuyasha gave them all a warning glance to stave off any stupid remarks. They all went back to what they were doing quickly. Sango informed them dinner was ready and Shippo upon request from Inuyasha dug for the bottle Kagome described to him. Handing to her she took four small white pills hoping it would ease the swelling and pain, but what helped most she mused was her loves embrace. The night went on as Inuyasha left Kagome in his Yukata so she could wear something loose and warm for the night. He decided against jumping into the nearest tree in favor of cradling Kagome all night. Despite her pain she fell asleep shortly after they had all eaten dinner against Inuyasha's shoulder. He looked up to see the others watching them and he rolled his eyes with a slight blush.
"It's about time," Sango said. Inuyasha glared at her.
"Yeah it sure was!" Shippo added. Miroku snorted catching the hanyou's eye.
" And who would have guess that our priestess was the only one who was clueless..." Inuyasha smiled down at his sleeping Kagome. He ignored the comment outwardly as he closed his eyes and rested against a tree. But in his mind he chuckled still. 'Yes,' he mused, 'who would have believed you were the only one who didn't know that I already loved you.' His thoughts blended together and then washed away completely in the presence of a warm light that bathed the couple sleeping. That night it seems they dreamed the same dream, and in it he whispered over and over to her 'I already did.'
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Well there it is folks. The I love you fic the next one is the will you be my mate one. I hope you enjoyed it I sure did enjoy writing it. I'm a die hard Inu/Kag fan. Please R+R Laters, LJ
