Journal Entries

Beaner-Bop

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A/N: I usually write these because I get ideas of what Gohan is thinking - but can't write it into a story. I'm only recently putting these out.

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Disclaimer: I don't own.

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With Freeza

I'm alone again. Do you know how much I hate being alone? No, how could you? You're paper…

I'm four - five years old and my name is Son Gohan. I want my daddy… I'm in a cave, all alone, because nobody is with me.

I'm scared. I get really scared when I'm alone. I shouldn't be scared - dad wouldn't get scared, like me. He doesn't get scared of the dark or things like that. Nothing scares daddy. Why can't I be like daddy?

I bet daddy would at least remember how old he was. I'm so stupid. I forgot that my birthday was four days ago.

Stupid, stupid, stupid…

What's going on now? I'm all alone - I'm so scared. My hand is sore from writing on you but If I don't write I'll be even more scared than before.

If that's even possible.

Why do I have to be so scared? Nobody's with me…Bulma isn't here…Krillin isn't here. Why do I have to be alone?

Mommy said once 'You have a good mind Gohan - but it doesn't mean anything unless you have a goo heart.' Why did she say that?

I was late coming to one of my study sessions with mommy and she asked me why. I just shrugged and ignored the question. This was new for me. She got angry and demanded that I tell her why I was late. I still ignored the question. Oddly enough mom didn't bring out the frying pan like I was expecting, she just looked at me oddly and we began to study.

When we were done she asked me again why I was late and this time I caved. I told her just what I was doing. I was helping Mr. And Mrs. Bird with their eggs. The nest fell a little while earlier and I caught the eggs, and was holding them until the two of them could fix their nest. Half way through fixing it, mommy called, saying it was time to start studying. The birds kept on working, ignoring the sound as they couldn't understand it anyway.

When they were done and had all the eggs in their nest I left and went home. When I was done mom looked at me carefully to see if I was laying but then shook her head sadly, saying those words.

She tucked me into bed and said good night and that was it. No getting in trouble or anything.

I wonder why…

I'm so tired but I don't know if I should go to sleep. Freiza or someone might get me. I couldn't stand that. I'd be more scared, maybe, than now. Because then I would know something was wrong.

Actually - I think that I am more afraid now. If Freiza caught me, I know that dad would know soon enough because Freiza would want me for some type of ransom. That's how his mind works I think…

Maybe I'm wrong. I really want to go to sleep but what if something happens while I am.

My fire's going out and its getting colder…bye.

Gohan