Alright here is Chapter 14! And you know the regular disclaimer. If it's not familiar to you it's probably mine, if it's familiar it's J.K. Rowlings.
Boy Against Girl – Chapter 14
The Pain
Remus sat next to Andrea in the Hospital Wing, holding his head in his hands. He had never thought that he'd wake up and see the girl he loved lying there on the floor with blood around her. He knew how to explain it though; he'd bitten her. He took a deep breath and squeezed his eyes shut, hoping that when he opened them again everything would be normal. At least as normal as things could be when you were a werewolf. Someone patted his shoulder.
"It's not your fault Remus." A soft female voice said.
He looked up into green eyes, that weren't as bright as they used to be. "How can you say that? It is my fault Lily! If it weren't for me she wouldn't be here right now."
"Remus, it's partly Andrea's fault too. She should have known better then to be in there with you when you were like that. You have no control over your actions when your…you know."
He shook his head. "I don't think I'm going to come back to Hogwarts next year."
Lily gasped. "Remus how could you say something like that! It's not your fault! Andrea wouldn't want you to be acting this way."
"Lily, I know that Andrea won't blame me, if she ever even wakes up. And don't tell me not to think like that, I know it's true. She might not wake up Lily! How am I supposed to deal with that? And it will be MY fault! Not only will I not be able to deal with that, but what about her parents. Lily, they aren't going to want me back here, and neither will anyone else. Lily I could bite anyone! I'm not safe!"
A tear rolled down her cheek and she wrapped her arms around him. "Remus, no one but us and a few of the teachers know what happened, and even then we aren't sure if that really happened."
"Someone's going to have to tell her parents…"
"She was by the Forbidden Forest, anything can happen back there. For all you know she was attacked by something there and made it to the Shack to see you."
"I know what happened."
"Do you? Do you really honestly know that you did that? You can't! You don't remember what happens when you're like…that."
Remus looked up at her and then put his head back in his hands.
"Remus." No reaction. "I'll come back later. But remember this, Andrea's my best friend too."
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Lily walked out of the Hospital Wing; she had to talk to someone.
"Hello, Evans." A smooth voice said behind her.
She whipped the tears, took a deep breath and turned around. "What do you want, Snape?"
"Testy, testy. It's a shame what happened to that friend of yours."
Lily glared at him. "Look Snape I'm going through a hard time, so if there is a human under all the grease just leave me alone. Please?"
Severus smiled slightly. "The high and mighty Lily Evans is asking me politely? I could die of shock."
"Please do."
"Oh you said it again." He chuckled, only it didn't sound like a normal chuckle, there was something…behind it. His eyes changed as well, as if they were trying to hide something.
"Severus I know you enjoy tormenting me, and I have to admit I enjoy getting you back, but this really isn't a good time. So unless you have something important to say, which I doubt, I'm going to leave."
"I don't know why that girl is in the Hospital Wing, but I do know it has something to do with Lupin and I intend to find out." Lily glared at him and opened her mouth. "But, that's not why I sought you out."
She rolled her eyes. "Alright, what do you want?"
Suddenly he started whispering. "I can't talk right now, but there's something you need to know. I…I don't want to see you get hurt by this…maybe you could stop it…I don't know…" He rushed the words out in a low whisper.
"Snape, what are you talking about?"
"I can't talk right now, I'm probably being watched, but…meet me in the Potions Room at midnight."
"I don't know if I should trust you about this."
Snape gave her a look, one that she had never seen on his face, anguish and pleading. "Please?"
"Fine. But I swear Snape if anything happens to me you'll be sorry." She walked away, and continued her search for James.
Severus sighed. "I already am."
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James saw Lily turn a corner and he hugged her tightly while he kissed her hair. "I'm so sorry this had to happen to you."
She started sobbing again. "It's not fair! Why did this have to happen? Why James? Why?"
"I don't know. No one ever does. We just have to…learn how to deal with this."
Lily stepped back and wiped the tears off of her cheeks. "My best friend in the entire world is lying in the hospital wing because she was bitten by a werewolf. If she lives she'll be one for the rest of her life, IF she lives. I'm supposed to deal with this?"
"Lily one of my best friends IS a werewolf."
"It's different for you James…you didn't know Remus before he was what he is. I don't know how Andrea is going to deal with this. That's the part that worries me the most."
"Don't you think Remus will try and help her?" James almost yelled at her.
"I can't do this right now James…just…just go away!" Lily pushed him aside and ran toward her dorm, tears running down her cheek. James just looked at her in shock as she ran away. "What did I do wrong?"
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Lily walked down the steps to the dungeon toward the Potions room. She wasn't sure whether she should be doing this or not, but she had never seen Severus Snape look so vulnerable in his life. "He just better not be faking it," She muttered.
"Lily is that you?" She heard someone whisper.
"Yeah it is Snape. What do you want?"
"Lily this is serious, I'm risking a lot in telling you this." Snape replied mournfully.
"Alright. Fine. But I'm risking a lot by even being here. So get on with it."
"You need to be careful. Some things are being planned, attacks, and it includes your family."
Lily froze. "What?! I don't believe you!"
Severus looked distraught. "Lily, I'm serious here. No matter how far I've gone in the past in trying to get you to notice me I would never tell you something like this. The Dark…I mean He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named is after you, and he's trying to get to you by getting your parents."
"Getting me to notice…" The lightbulb turned on. "You like me?" Severus blushed. "Nevermind that." Lily said. "How do you know this? And since you do why are you even telling me?"
"Because I've…Lily I've done some things I'm not proud of. I joined the Dark Lord…you know…Volde….nevermind I can't say it…well I joined him a year ago." Horror shone in Lily's eyes. "I had to Lily. You don't understand!"
Lily glared at him. "Your right. I don't." And started to walk away.
Severus grabbed her arm. "I promised my mom I would. Does that justify it at all?"
"What?"
"You know the whole deathbed stories? Well my mum was hurt real bad by some mudblo—" He stopped as Lily glared at him. "By some half bloods I mean, and as she was dying she made me promise to follow the Dark Lord. So when Lucious did…and you didn't hear that from me…I did too." He sighed and let go of her arm. "I'm not proud of it. I was at first, but they're scary Lily. The things they do, you don't even want to know. But I couldn't let you not know what they were planning."
"Severus…you have to tell Dumbledore." She said softly.
"What?" Panic shone in his eyes. "I can't do that Lily. That is one thing I absolutely cannot do. Not even for you."
"Then you're not helping at all! You're letting innocent people die!! Think of all the people you could save by telling him!"
"Lily, it's not the people I care about. It's knowing that when your parents die you're going to be hurt."
She shook her head. "Well guess what? Those other people have family's too! They'll feel exactly what I'm feeling right now! And my parents aren't going to die Severus. I'm going to save them."
Severus laughed. "You think you can?"
Lily glared at him. "Goodbye Severus. Thank you for telling me." And she ran up the stairs.
"I'm sorry!" Was all she heard from below her.
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"I'm not going to cry. I'm not going to cry. I will not allow myself to cry." Lily told herself.
Sirius came from behind her and lightly poked her side. "You sure do talk to yourself don't you? Why would you cry Lil?"
She looked at him and he was shocked by what he saw. She looked beaten. There was no spirit in her eyes, and that was saying something.
"Lil what happened? Who did that to you? I swear I'll—"
Lily placed her mouth over his hand and tried to smile. "I was just told some pretty disturbing stuff, that's all. I'm not sure if I should believe it, but I can't help myself."
Suddenly she stared bawling, she couldn't stop the tears or the sobs that wracked her body. Sirius had no idea what to do.
"Um, Lily…it'll be ok?" He said while patting her hair.
"Oh Siri!" She managed.
Sirius picked her help, and Lily didn't even noticed. "I'm uh gonna take you up to James. And please stop crying before someone sees us out this late."
When they walked into the common room James was pacing the floor. He looked up and saw Lily in Sirius' arms, sobbing frantically. He glared at Sirius, as if it was his fault, but saw the confusion in his eyes and took Lily from his arms.
"Lily what's the matter?" He asked softly, stroking her hair while whipping the tears from her cheeks.
"James!" She started sobbing harder. "My-m-my p-p-parents."
Fear clouded his eyes. "Are they alright?! Lily if anyone hurt them—" His sentence faded away. He didn't know how to help. "Lily you've gotta talk to me here so I can help."
"H-he said." She stared crying harder, if that was possible. "He said…"
"Just do it slowly if it'll make it easier. He said what?"
"My parent's are going to die James!" She sobbed, her head in his shoulder. "And…And I can't do…I can't do a thing…to…to stop it."
"Lily you don't know that for sure." He said. All he could do was stroke her hair and back.
She took a deep breath and looked into his eyes. "Yes I do, James." And she got off his lap and ran up to her room, leaving James to stare up at her door.
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The next morning Lily was late and there was a hush over the hall. Everyone, except the slytherins, seemed depressed.
"What's wrong?" Lily asked James quietly.
James looked at her sadly. "Muggle killings. They…they don't yet know exactly who…only that…" He coughed and whispered. "That Voldermort did it."
Lily looked terrified. Her parents! She hadn't saved them! There was nothing she could have done! Why did this have to happen to her? She tried not to cry. "They have no idea who it was?"
James shook his head. "No. But I'm sure it wasn't your parents." He hugged her close. "And even if it was I'm still here for you."
She looked into his eyes, "You know I love you James." She choked with emotion. "But…it's not the same…"
He stroked her hair. "I know Lil. I know."
She waited for the mail. Hoping for the letter from her parents that she usually got once a day. As the owls flew in hers dropped a letter in front of her. It wasn't the right kind of envelope. It looked too stuffy. Carefully she opened it, hoping it wasn't what she thought it was.
Lily-
This is the last letter you will ever get from me and I never want to hear from you again. You have ruined my life! First you become the freak that you are, and then because of you they took away Mummy and Dad. They didn't ever love me as much as they loved you. I know that now even though I'm sure I knew it then. Vernon won't allow me to speak to you, and I don't think I'll miss it. We never spoke much anyway. But we still were sisters, even though nothing a like. I feel sorry for your future and I hope you get blown up someday just like Mummy. They didn't deserve to die, even though they never realized what I freak you were. You have brought ruin upon me and I don't ever want to see you again, not even at the funeral. They're being cremated because their bodies are so disfigured from whatever was done to them. I didn't want them to be left like that for always. The burial is private and your not invited. Since you are my sister I wish you whatever joy you may get out of your life, but stay out of mine.
Petunia
Lily didn't know what to say. Tears were streaming down her cheek. Her parents where dead and she had failed them. All because she was a stupid witch. Petunia was right! She was a freak. A wretched horrible person who had led her only family to disaster and even her sister had forsaken her. What a life she led. Just because of her her parents were dead, her sister never wanted to speak to her again, her best friend who had always been like a sister was lying up in the hospital wing dying. She had nothing left.
James looked at her. Not sure what was going on. He wiped the tears from her cheeks and kissed her softly. "What did the letter say?" He asked quietly, wishing he would be able to comfort Lily to the best of his ability, knowing the information wasn't good.
"My parents are dead." Lily said ironically. Not even sure whether to be sad. "My sister never wants to speak to me again, and my parents are dead." She slowly rose from the table to went towards the doors. James chased after her and walked beside her. She didn't say anything as they walked. No more tears escaped her eyes. "James…could I be alone for a minute?" She asked as they reached the common room.
He looked tortured. "If that's what you really want." He said while he caressed her cheek.
She nodded and walked up to her room, alone. That's what she was in the world now. She didn't deserve the love of James, or anyone else. She was a failure. She had tried her whole life to be the person everyone wanted her to be. But she had never gotten to please the person she really wanted to. She looked in the mirror. She didn't recognize the person she saw. The green eyes weren't sparkling, her hair hung limp, and her skin looked shallow. She took the scissors from Andromada's bag and slowly began cutting her hair. Shuddering whenever a lock would hit the ground. When she finished she looked at the reflection. Her hair now went only to her chin, and she looked quite ugly, exactly the way she felt. She went to look out the window at the sky, and the moon seemed to laugh at her. Such a silly girl she was. The stars didn't look as bright as they had before and she felt an emptiness she had never experienced. She couldn't live this way . She didn't want to live this way. And that thought scared her.
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Sorry to end here. Review and I'll write faster. I'm just a little depressed right now if you all didn't notice. PLEASE REVIEW!! Sorry this chapter took so long in getting out I've just been pretty busy lately. If you have any thoughts or suggestions write those in your review as well. Thanks!!!
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