Disclaimer: the song 'Angel' the version I know by Westlife or anyone else before them doesn't belong to me I just borrowed it
He picked it up, he decided to read it, she left it for him, so it must be something important, he carefully removed the letter from the envelope.
Dear Jack,
If you are reading this I guess it's because the worst has happened and I'm not here anymore, I hope it was in the line of duty with SG-1, yourself included if you decided to come back from England that is.
Anyway I'm writing this in the event of you do/don't comeback before.... well you know, there are a few things that I have to make sure are taken care of in my absence. Knowing you like I do you would have to be put on the list somewhere, don't close yourself off to everyone, no matter what happened this wasn't your fault.
Yeah right, whatever, if I'd been here, gone with you, you might still be here he thought before continuing to read the letter
On a more happy note, congratulations your a father, hopefully if you got any of the messages I left for you the two of you should have already met, I hope you have, because then I know he's in safe hands and makes everything easier for me.
You bet he will
Do you remember your retirement party? I turned up late and never really said why?
Sure he thought how could he forget that night
It was because I got a visit from Daniel, yeah I know your right I'm probably crazy but it happened. I didn't believe it was him to start with but one thing working for the SGC over the years has told me, anything's possible, so I want to believe it was him and not just my imagination. Anyway he told me that in more ways than one, our paths, destiny, fate or whatever you'd like to call it would cross and would bring some sort of order to the universe, our son is, or rather will be a part of this one day. Normally I wouldn't believe this, but I know Daniel if he felt it important enough to show himself to me, to tell me all about a child I would have then it most be at least possible that our son is 'the chosen' as he put it.
You'll make a great Dad to him, I hope I get the chance to see you with him, but if for any reason you doubt yourself go see my Dad he'll be there to help whenever you need it.
OK that's out the way, now to Jonas, I know you probably still don't trust him much, but you have to let go of the past, trust him as you trusted me and Daniel, he won't let you down. Even if it doesn't seem that important now you need him one your team, as a part of SG-1, especially since you are probably thinking of throwing yourself back into the job to deal with stuff, only promise me one thing, no more one man suicide missions you like to volunteer for so much, even if it is to save Earth you are needed back here now.
I messed up on that one Sam, he was trying to tell me something, I think something similar to what Danny, if it was him, was trying to tell you, something to do with those Asguard texts, I kind of lost it with him, bad timing I guess. Anyway he's got a broken arm in several places and a black eye, he'll be as good as new in a few weeks, I'll try to be patient with him, not promising anything with that
I think that just about covers it, except tell Teal'c I'll miss him, my Dad tell him.... tell him thanks for everything, as for you Jack what can I say? It's been and honour? No because it just doesn't sit right not this time, I mean granted we were in the Air Force together, we served on the same team, you were my CO, but you were always more than that you know a very close friend, more than that I guess if I'm honest, I was never good at all this goodbye stuff. So I'll just leave it at, take care of Junior, tell him about me if he asks and just be careful in what ever you do in the future.
Now that you have your answer to, might have only been for a few hours, even though I'm well me, Jack O'Neill, the guy that doesn't open up much I meant what I said
Sam
He placed the letter back on the table, trying hard to forget the words of a song that came flooding back into his head again, something Jacob had chosen at the funeral.
Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it OK
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction, oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
Until that night he'd never actually sat and thought about the funeral. He had always kept his mind on other things Connor mainly, if he had a guess though he'd go with he'd had a bit more to drink and this was the result, combined with reading the letter, remembering one of the worst days of he's life.
In the arms of the angel, fly away from here
From the dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
So tired of the straight line
It's everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escape one last time
Its easier to believe
In this sweet madness
All this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees
We're all tired, tired of the fight to save Earth every other week we've done it for years it was what we did, our job, it'll always be that way, it has to be
In the arms of the angel, fly away from here
From the dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
You're the heart of that place Carter, SG-1 and I will keep it that way. You just find what you could never have here.
You're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
Some comfort here
