DISCLAIMER- Nothings changed, still don't own 'em

TITLE- The Awakening

SUMMARY- Shuiichi is forced to deal with his youko side.

RATING- R (very strong language graphic)

"So does the story ring a bell?"

"Yes" I said. Not wanting to tell him I had remebered the whole thing before he finished the frist sentence. I flip over to face him. Nose to nose I ask " Why did you look at me like you wanted to devour me whole when I finally arrived home?"

He slipped his tongue out and caught the tip of my nose then takes a labored breathe and says," I wanted to, and it took all of my strenth not ....."

"Not to what " I ask already know but enjoy him saying it.

"Lets just say if I had done what I wanted to do you, you would have needed Yukina to revive you as well as some ice"

"OH"

"To answer you question why I wanted to. Last night you killed someone out of pure pleasure both mental and physical, and by the looks of that dance, sexual as well. Before you even got home I could smell you, then once I saw you it was more than could stand I had to taste you." he closes his eyes to reminisce, then slowly opens them again to continue. "As soon as the tip of my tongue touched your blood, sweat, and dirt covered skin the sensation was overwhelming. I could feel every emotion every senation you felt during the ritual."

My high was suddeningly gone and the reality of it all set in, his words set in, the truth set. I killed someone. I went out hunted a being down and killed her. I am a murderer. My other self quickly answer me "Simple minded stupid human, stop acting all mighty and self rightous. You possesesd a human's body tossing aside the orginal soul for you own gain and now, you are going to have a mental fit over some thing that has happen for thousand apon thousand of years and will continue until our God wishes it to stop. I am nothing more than a cold blooded killer. It took you this long to figure that one out, the other half retorts. Sixteen years in this feeble body and all of a sudden you go and get all fucked up in the head about something like this. Youko Kurama was right but it didn't put my human side at ease. I know am I am right he chimed in my head. I also know that it wasn't the matter of simply killing her that upsets you. No Shuiichi, you are upset because you enjoyed it. Fuck you. Temper temper. Go to hell I scream, you know nothing about me. What? I don't know you. Hello. Dumbass where is this fucking conversation taking place? In your head, in our fucking head. Look you can lie to that human you call mother, your friends, and even your lover but don't I mean don't even try to do it to me because it won't work because you will only be lying to yourself.

"Shall I leave you two alone?" Hiei says

I look to him and try to smile. He grabs my chin and shakes his head and softly says "What's done. Is done." then kisses me tenderly. I nod my head then curl up next to him trying to get as close as I can to him. He lets me because he know I need it then he combs my hair with his fingers.

"Thank goodness this only happens every 150 years or so" I say with a sigh. I look over to Hiei he has a strange look on his face. "What's wrong?"

"Kurama"

"Yes"

"I was wondering"

"Go ahead"

"I was wondering if you could show me that dance frist hand?"

"Hentai" I say trying my best to act innocent. "Later, now I must rest plus the dance is alot more interesting in the moon light."

"Go ahead and sleep, but if you wake up to find yourself in a intresting position don't blame me." he say with a half smile and closes his eyes. I think to myself maybe I should put some close on but quickly change my mind because I am oh so comfortable. I close my eyes and think thank god you fire demons and weekends.