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My muse Twilight is not hear at the moment so I'm taking a blind shot at this ;) Enjoy!
*NOW* "Duo! I'm so glad you called! You haven't called in like 2 weeks, what have you been up to?"
"Not much, ya know, the same old thing. Well, actually I did take up swing dancing!"
"You can't dance."
"Heh, well, oh and...I'm not sure how you'll take this but...I got a girlfriend."
My heart sank. "Really?! That's awesome! I'm so happpy for you!" Oh God I want to die. I can't breathe. Is this room getting smaller? I don't remember that wall being so close. Is the phone ringing? I'm on the phone. I'm going insane. This can't be happening.
"Yeah, uh, we started going out the day before Valentine's Day and yeah. . ."
' Valentine's Day? But that was the week we. . .How could he?'
* 10 MONTHS EARLIER*
"Hilde! Duo called, he's coming in to visit for a week or two while he's off work."
My Duo's coming! Yippee!!! He's been gone about 1 month and this is the first time I get to see him. Of course I didn't know then what I know now but then again, neither do you. Duo came in for a week and had no place to stay so I offered him a place at my house. No harm done. WRONG! Well, it just resulted in me falling more in love with him. We pretty much stayed in my living room the entire week and that was interesting. I remember distinctly two things that happened during that week. One, when he wanted me to pick out a movie and I didn't want to. He came over and picked me up like a baby and carried me to the movie stack and sat me down on his knee. After a moment I noticed that he had slid his hand inside my overalls and was resting it on my hip. I have to blush now thinking about it and it wasn't even that big of a deal, but I still remember the way his hand felt on my side and the way my heart skipped a beat when I thought about it. The next thing I remember is when we were on the couch and were "fighting" about something and he chose the tactic of tickling to win. Well Duo is a sly guy because as he was tickling me he ever so subtly maneauvered us to where he was laying on his back in the couch with me rested against him, my back on his chest and his arms wrapped around my stomach. NERVOUSNESS! I jumped, the only thing I could think of. Damnit, I'm an idiot!!! Well that trip was great..until he left. I, of course, cried like a baby. After that trip we just got closer and closer and finally said 'I love you' to each other. Then came one of the 2 most important conversations between us, and my favorite. We were talking to each other about our future and what we wanted.
"Duo, I'm not going to tell you what I want until I know we're on the same page. I don't want to scare you away. Tell me what you want."
"What I want? What I want. I want to have the same group of friends that I did when I left forever. I want you to be happy. I want us...to.." his voice got softer, I could tell from embarassment." I want us to grow old together. . ."my heart soared, and my grin was ear to ear. "I shouldn't have said that," he muttered awkwardly.
"NO! No, you should have. I...I well, want the same thing."
That was the closest conversation to our future that we had. And the last. Every day I fell more in love with him and thought about him every minute of the day. He, however, I believe was experiencing the opposite. I'm getting too fluffy aren't I? I'm a down to earth girl, people, trust me! It's just when it comes to him everything changes. I even told him about the time that I sorda ya know...did some stuff with a guy..bad stuff if you know what I mean. Well I asked Duo 'what are you thinking.' The boy just sat there speechless the finally spoke,
"I'm thinking about how much I want to be there right now to hold you and trying to figure out why I'm not in the least bit mad at you."
I love you, Duo. So much it hurts. It really hurts. I could sit here and tell you all that I felt during this entire process but there are no words. Just try and imagine. Oh, I guess I forgot to mention all that I did to Duo. Well, when I met him we started dating for a week. Yeah, I dumped him that week for his best friend. I know, I know, I'm a bitch. The next year I did the exact same thing! Needless to say I was utterly surprised when he told me he stilled loved me. I want to spend the rest of my life with him. God told me last week that I'm supposed to be with him and ever since then he's been calling me everyday.
He came down for Christmas. I named a star for him. See, stars are our thing cuz it's the one thing that we can see together but I still don't like sharing him with them. Well, we all went and saw a movie together with a group of friends. It was great being with him in a big group. It's like 'hah!' I can show off what I still have even though he's so far away! Kidding! I just like having him with me. Well, at the movie it was great. He only held my hand once but it was perfect. He was trying to keep me awake cuz I was starting to drift off to sleep. After a while he started to grab my hand and run his fingers over my palm and then he entwined his fingers with mine. I looked down at our hands when he did that. Our hands looked absolutely perfect together, like they were made for each other as well. A single tear ran down my cheek, 'please, God, don't let me lose him.'
I'm grateful for Duo. I don't think he'll ever know how much he means to me and how much he's made an impact on my life. There are no words to tell him. As time went on though he started to seem more distant. He was doing it, making new friends, forgetting old ones. It hurts so much to think about. I don't want to talk to or even think about him right now. I hate hurting. He makes me weak.
I fight with the people around me more often now. I want Duo so badly but at the moment the things he says and doesn't say shows me that he's starting to drift off. Noticeably. I can't live without Duo. But I think I'm going to have to come back to reality.
You don't love me anymore do you, Duo?
A/N: Well, here's the short version of the story. I think the next chapter will be the last unless more stuff happens to me and the guy I'm baseing the story off of. I think I'll start another romance story that I can get more personal stuff between them and of course, some SEX! . If any of you have a couple you like, tell me and I'll do a story about them!
My muse Twilight is not hear at the moment so I'm taking a blind shot at this ;) Enjoy!
*NOW* "Duo! I'm so glad you called! You haven't called in like 2 weeks, what have you been up to?"
"Not much, ya know, the same old thing. Well, actually I did take up swing dancing!"
"You can't dance."
"Heh, well, oh and...I'm not sure how you'll take this but...I got a girlfriend."
My heart sank. "Really?! That's awesome! I'm so happpy for you!" Oh God I want to die. I can't breathe. Is this room getting smaller? I don't remember that wall being so close. Is the phone ringing? I'm on the phone. I'm going insane. This can't be happening.
"Yeah, uh, we started going out the day before Valentine's Day and yeah. . ."
' Valentine's Day? But that was the week we. . .How could he?'
* 10 MONTHS EARLIER*
"Hilde! Duo called, he's coming in to visit for a week or two while he's off work."
My Duo's coming! Yippee!!! He's been gone about 1 month and this is the first time I get to see him. Of course I didn't know then what I know now but then again, neither do you. Duo came in for a week and had no place to stay so I offered him a place at my house. No harm done. WRONG! Well, it just resulted in me falling more in love with him. We pretty much stayed in my living room the entire week and that was interesting. I remember distinctly two things that happened during that week. One, when he wanted me to pick out a movie and I didn't want to. He came over and picked me up like a baby and carried me to the movie stack and sat me down on his knee. After a moment I noticed that he had slid his hand inside my overalls and was resting it on my hip. I have to blush now thinking about it and it wasn't even that big of a deal, but I still remember the way his hand felt on my side and the way my heart skipped a beat when I thought about it. The next thing I remember is when we were on the couch and were "fighting" about something and he chose the tactic of tickling to win. Well Duo is a sly guy because as he was tickling me he ever so subtly maneauvered us to where he was laying on his back in the couch with me rested against him, my back on his chest and his arms wrapped around my stomach. NERVOUSNESS! I jumped, the only thing I could think of. Damnit, I'm an idiot!!! Well that trip was great..until he left. I, of course, cried like a baby. After that trip we just got closer and closer and finally said 'I love you' to each other. Then came one of the 2 most important conversations between us, and my favorite. We were talking to each other about our future and what we wanted.
"Duo, I'm not going to tell you what I want until I know we're on the same page. I don't want to scare you away. Tell me what you want."
"What I want? What I want. I want to have the same group of friends that I did when I left forever. I want you to be happy. I want us...to.." his voice got softer, I could tell from embarassment." I want us to grow old together. . ."my heart soared, and my grin was ear to ear. "I shouldn't have said that," he muttered awkwardly.
"NO! No, you should have. I...I well, want the same thing."
That was the closest conversation to our future that we had. And the last. Every day I fell more in love with him and thought about him every minute of the day. He, however, I believe was experiencing the opposite. I'm getting too fluffy aren't I? I'm a down to earth girl, people, trust me! It's just when it comes to him everything changes. I even told him about the time that I sorda ya know...did some stuff with a guy..bad stuff if you know what I mean. Well I asked Duo 'what are you thinking.' The boy just sat there speechless the finally spoke,
"I'm thinking about how much I want to be there right now to hold you and trying to figure out why I'm not in the least bit mad at you."
I love you, Duo. So much it hurts. It really hurts. I could sit here and tell you all that I felt during this entire process but there are no words. Just try and imagine. Oh, I guess I forgot to mention all that I did to Duo. Well, when I met him we started dating for a week. Yeah, I dumped him that week for his best friend. I know, I know, I'm a bitch. The next year I did the exact same thing! Needless to say I was utterly surprised when he told me he stilled loved me. I want to spend the rest of my life with him. God told me last week that I'm supposed to be with him and ever since then he's been calling me everyday.
He came down for Christmas. I named a star for him. See, stars are our thing cuz it's the one thing that we can see together but I still don't like sharing him with them. Well, we all went and saw a movie together with a group of friends. It was great being with him in a big group. It's like 'hah!' I can show off what I still have even though he's so far away! Kidding! I just like having him with me. Well, at the movie it was great. He only held my hand once but it was perfect. He was trying to keep me awake cuz I was starting to drift off to sleep. After a while he started to grab my hand and run his fingers over my palm and then he entwined his fingers with mine. I looked down at our hands when he did that. Our hands looked absolutely perfect together, like they were made for each other as well. A single tear ran down my cheek, 'please, God, don't let me lose him.'
I'm grateful for Duo. I don't think he'll ever know how much he means to me and how much he's made an impact on my life. There are no words to tell him. As time went on though he started to seem more distant. He was doing it, making new friends, forgetting old ones. It hurts so much to think about. I don't want to talk to or even think about him right now. I hate hurting. He makes me weak.
I fight with the people around me more often now. I want Duo so badly but at the moment the things he says and doesn't say shows me that he's starting to drift off. Noticeably. I can't live without Duo. But I think I'm going to have to come back to reality.
You don't love me anymore do you, Duo?
A/N: Well, here's the short version of the story. I think the next chapter will be the last unless more stuff happens to me and the guy I'm baseing the story off of. I think I'll start another romance story that I can get more personal stuff between them and of course, some SEX! . If any of you have a couple you like, tell me and I'll do a story about them!
