It can't be happening, it just can't!!!!!!!!!! Why, I loved her so much,
why did she have to leave me??????? Didn't she know that I loved her?????
She said in her letter that she loved me but couldn't live anymore. I just
don't understand. It has to be because of that bastard man that she was
married to. But why did she have to kill her self? Didn't she know that I
was still there and that I still loved her???!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!! I LOVED
YOU MOMMA, DIDN'T YOU KNOW THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's been 2 days since it happened but it feels like it happened 2 minutes ago. The day after I came back from London Blink and I went to visit my mother in Brooklyn. When we got there I knocked on the door but there was no answer so out of curiosity I told Blink to stay out in the hall of the building while I went to check wat was going on. After I had checked all the rooms except the bathroom and bedroom I decided to check the bathroom. And there she was in the tub of water and blood. She had cut her wrists. Well when I saw this I screamed," MOMMA NO!!!!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" , and collapsed by the tub and cried uncontrollably. I heard Blink come into the room but he didn't move for a minute, I guess it was from shock and I don't know wat else, but from knowing that the girl you like's mom had died (or committed suicide is a pretty hard thing to swallow I guess. So after awhile he can to me and led me to the couch in the main room.
Mamma's funeral was yesterday. And needless to say the man that 'husband' of mammas was there. Any Blink was there claming me down since I couldn't stop crying. After they put her in the ground my step-father talked to me he said that the reason why that my mother left is because she couldn't stand me anymore that event though she was all nice to me was that she didn't want to hurt me tough I was her burden. Well right then I started to well at him saying that he was a bastard for saying that and that he should go to hell. Step then slapped my face so hard that my lip bleed and then he just walked away. I ran straight for the LH, and I haven't moved since until now. Jack says I need to see the sunlight. I guess he right, but he doesn't know how hit feels, felling like your parents deserted u and never said anything like that they thought I was a nuisance because they were just being polite. Now I feel unloved and that I don't belong. Sorry I gotta for now, write more later.
Anna P.S. You are my dearest friend.
It's been 2 days since it happened but it feels like it happened 2 minutes ago. The day after I came back from London Blink and I went to visit my mother in Brooklyn. When we got there I knocked on the door but there was no answer so out of curiosity I told Blink to stay out in the hall of the building while I went to check wat was going on. After I had checked all the rooms except the bathroom and bedroom I decided to check the bathroom. And there she was in the tub of water and blood. She had cut her wrists. Well when I saw this I screamed," MOMMA NO!!!!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" , and collapsed by the tub and cried uncontrollably. I heard Blink come into the room but he didn't move for a minute, I guess it was from shock and I don't know wat else, but from knowing that the girl you like's mom had died (or committed suicide is a pretty hard thing to swallow I guess. So after awhile he can to me and led me to the couch in the main room.
Mamma's funeral was yesterday. And needless to say the man that 'husband' of mammas was there. Any Blink was there claming me down since I couldn't stop crying. After they put her in the ground my step-father talked to me he said that the reason why that my mother left is because she couldn't stand me anymore that event though she was all nice to me was that she didn't want to hurt me tough I was her burden. Well right then I started to well at him saying that he was a bastard for saying that and that he should go to hell. Step then slapped my face so hard that my lip bleed and then he just walked away. I ran straight for the LH, and I haven't moved since until now. Jack says I need to see the sunlight. I guess he right, but he doesn't know how hit feels, felling like your parents deserted u and never said anything like that they thought I was a nuisance because they were just being polite. Now I feel unloved and that I don't belong. Sorry I gotta for now, write more later.
Anna P.S. You are my dearest friend.
