A/N: Hehe, sorry it took so long to update. Working on more than one story,
finals for school, being grounded, and events for my dad's work doesn't
give me much time to write. I hope those of you reading this haven't left
my story! I'll do my best to update sooner next time. Since I only have one
day of school left, well two half days would make a full day, wouldn't it?
Anyway, I'm gonna work really hard to get this story finished for you guys.
Hey, I even have sequel planned! (I need to take a break from writing......
well, I guess I sort a did..... hehe. Oh, you know what I mean!) I hope you
all enjoy this chapter, and thank you very much for the great reviews. When
I'm having a bad day, I go back and read reviews people send me for my
stories, and seeing them really cheers me up. Like I said, I hope you enjoy
this chapter, and if I need any improvements, let me know right away!
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Chapter 2: Is It Time for Farewells?
A bright smile was spread across Kagome's lips as she meandered through oceans of swaying grass, heading to the man she wished to tell her desires. The gentle breeze combed through her raven hair, causing it to dance gracefully in the air. As her feet walked across the earth, you could hear the crunching of the fallen leaves every so often.
"Where could he be? Usually, Inuyasha is resting at the tree near the village. But, I couldn't find him there today. I......I hope he's ok." She slowly bowed her head as an emotion of concern deluged her heart. "I won't give up. I must tell him my feelings!" She continued her way through the rolling fields of grass and brush. The radiant sun shimmered peacefully in the afternoon sky, gazing down amongst the lively feudal era.
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"Inuyasha, please, I ask that you choose? I can no longer go on watching you in pain as you're torn apart between two women you care about. Just remember when you make your decision, who's love will be real." His amber eyes filled with confusion, and seemed lost. He didn't know what to do. How could he say no to one and just say the other never existed? If he chose Kagome, the feeling of guilt from Kikyo's death would always haunt his heart; yet if he chose Kikyo, his mind would constantly linger in the many wonderful memories he and Kagome had shared together.
"K-Kikyo...... I-" She slowly turned his body around and gazed deeply into his eyes. Her empty, lifeless soul, or what was left of it, had reached his, holding onto it. For some reason, a feeling she hadn't experienced since her demise deluged her mind and heart. What was this unfamiliar emotion she was feeling; this emotion that caused her heart to race and sorrow from the pained and troubled look in his golden eyes to course throughout her body? Could this feeling be the one she thought she would never hold again? Could it be reborn love?
She gradually leaned forward on her toes and gently pulled his head down, placing her mouth near his dog-like ears. With a steady voice, she spoke in a whisper, "Don't be afraid to let one go. Let your heart guide you, and it will grant you your most fervent desires. If you always run and hide, you will eventually end up all alone, the way you began. Don't let that happen to you, you deserve more. You deserve true love." She then laid a sweet, tender kiss upon his cheek. Showing a small smile, she removed her arms from his body and stood back. Something was different about her. Inuyasha was shocked from the kiss, but seeing this new thing stunned him even more. She seemed to be flowing with life. Instead of her skin usually being ice cold, it had a somewhat warmth to it. Instead of her lips sending waves of chills throughout his body, the tender touch sent off a spark in his heart. He watched as her body gradually began to slip away, fading with the falling leaves. Her eyes were beaming with love, something he hadn't seen since that day she fell into his arms, that day 50 years ago.
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Kagome's tired body persisted with her goal; she would tell him her true feelings, no matter what got in her way. 'Something tells me that he's near; I can feel his warm presence." A sweet smile rolled across her lips as she thought about the first time he had embraced her.
Flashback
Kagome sat before Inuyasha, the Bone Eaters Well giving him support to stay sitting. After that battle with Sesshomaru, and that horrible wound, he had weakened quite a bit. She began to get frustrated with his conversation, completely disagreeing with almost everything he was saying.
"Listen! I'm not scared! Naraku's a terrible demon and we have to do everything we can to stop him! Hm?" Her body nearly froze when she felt a tender grip around her wrist, slowly pulling her forward. The next thing she realized was that she was in the gentle arms of Inuyasha. She had never seen this side of him before, and was quite shocked. "In-Inuyasha, what are you doing?"
Her heart began to race as his embrace became tighter, yet still gentle. "I was scared." "Huh?" Her mind filled with confusion as he spoke to her in a soft, whisper. "I thought I was going to lose you; I was horrified." She didn't know what to say. At that moment, she could barely breathe. She knew he had cared about her, and her safety, but not this much. She had never imagined this moment arriving. How could she? Such an arrogant jerk like him wouldn't exactly be someone you would see talking soft and embracing a girl like that in his arms. She did however, enjoy the feeling of being held in his arms. She knew she would cherish this moment forever.
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"I can still feel the warmth of his arms around me, even though it happened a while back." She sighed contentedly as she approached the area where the tree that had changed her life resided. 'He's so much closer, like he's beyond those trees. He must be at the tree.'
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Inuyasha gasped as her body began to fade away, a new emotion of fear filling his heart. "Kikyo! Wait! Don't leave me!" He moved forward in a swift motion and tenderly grasped her wrist, daring not to let go. Her eyes widened when the unexpected move was made. Slowly, her body was completely visible again, and she continued to gaze into his eyes. "Inuyasha, have you already made you decision?" His amber eyes wandered around, gazing at the scenery Mother Nature displayed.
"I just don't want you to leave me again. You've left me once, and I don't want it to happen anymore." He gradually raised her hand and placed it against his cheek, the new feeling of warmth making his heart happy. His hand had cupped over hers as he held it close. "Don't leave me anymore. The pain is too much to bear, the guilt to strong to overcome." A single tear strolled down his cheek and rolled over her hand, causing several emotions to course through her body. 'His mind, his heart, and soul still dwells in the past, even with the care of Kagome. This has shown me that his love is still there. How can I bring him to hell with these emotions deep inside of him? What about my feelings, ones that are seeming to re-surface? I'm lost, and I don't know what to do. Several lives are going to change from his decision.'
"Inuyasha, I need to hear from you what you have decided."
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"He must be right around these trees! I can feel him." Kagome smiled contentedly as her body raced through the trees, the remaining leaves that fell dancing around her body. When she emerged through the last trees, she quickly came to a halt and hid behind one of the larger ones. Her eyes gazed in shock at the two standing amidst the opening. 'What is Inuyasha doing with Kikyo?' She placed her back against the tree and carefully listened to their conversation.
"Inuyasha, who have you chosen to be with? Will you spend your life with me? Or will you return to my reincarnation?"
'Choose?' Those words rang through Kagome's ears as she heard them from Kikyo. 'What is she saying? Is she telling him to choose between me and her? B-but, that can't be.' A feeling of fear dwelled in her heart as she waited for his reply.
"Kikyo, I don't know how you can make me choose. Making a decision like this will devastate one of us, no matter what. Who knows, it may destroy another's heart." An image of Kagome flashed before his eyes as he thought about her sweet smile. Another glistening tear fell from his eyes as his heart seemed to twist and turn inside his chest. "I can't possibly see how I must choose, but I have." Kikyo's eyes widened as his grip slowly loosened, letting her hand fall to her side. "You have? W-what is your...... decision?" Her head tilted towards the ground as her eyes gazed at the many colorful leaves beneath their feet. Inuyasha's hand had cupped her chin carefully, and lifted her head so that their eyes were locked. "My decision was not easy to make, and believe me, the choice is tearing at my heart."
'Decision? Has he chosen? I must here this!' Her body leaned more towards the two, listening with all of her might to hear his words. Her heart flipped with joy when she was certain that he had chosen her.
"To me, you are both wonderful women. Kikyo, you, besides my mother, was the first one to show me kind emotions, and love. You opened your arms and allowed me to enter, taking me into your life. At the time, I had never felt such joy towards anyone. You were truly the love of my life. But then, Naraku got involved, and you bound me to a tree. Fifty years later, your reincarnation, Kagome, gave me life once more. She broke the spell you had placed on me. At first, I found her a disturbance, a nuisance to my plan of becoming a full fledged demon. But as time went on, she showed me the kindness of friendship. She accepted me for me, and didn't run scared even though I'm half demon. That day when I was a full youkai, she didn't hide. She confronted me, and because of her, I went back. Her tender heart towards me was able to reach my soul and save me."
A warm smile rolled over Kagome's lips as she listened to his words. Sweet emotions were coursing through her body as she was trying to hold back to tell him her feelings.
"Kagome has shown me love, a kind no one has ever given me. I feel safe around her, and I can trust her." Kikyo continued to gaze as he went on, mostly telling about Kagome. "Kikyo, I don't know how to tell either of you that I wish to choose the other. It's just so hard." "I understand, but you can do it. Open to your hearts desires. Tell me your choice."
An emotion of anger rushed through Kagome as Kikyo gently rubbed Inuyasha's cheek, showing him feelings like that.
"Making this decision will effect us all, in our hearts, and in our souls. Kikyo, you know that I still care for you, and you know that I care deeply for Kagome. Today, when you came to me, at first, you seemed so cold and lifeless. Now, when I feel your touch, you have warmth and life. I know somehow that I am for that reason. If I were to follow my heart, an emotion of guilt will lurk in it forever. If I follow my soul, an emotion of loneliness will dwell there. My decision comes down to one thing....."
'Tell her, tell her Inuyasha.' Kagome felt so excited about this moment, she wanted to cry. A feeling told her that her dreams were about to come true, that her most fervent desires were about to become reality.
"Honestly, I feel that I love Kagome. But, my mind wants me to be with you. I feel that I need to repent for your death. No matter who tells me, I feel that I was responsible for your demise. I want to make up for it, to give you what you should've had. My decision is..... I choose you, Kikyo."
Kagome's whole world crashed as she heard those words. She had expected him to say her, to say her name. But instead, he chose her. How could he? After everything she had done to him, all the excess pain she put him through, and all of the sorrow caused by her presence. How could he choose her after everything him and her had been through? She trusted him, cared for him, loved him, and wished nothing more but then to be with him. Instead, he chose her. He chose the one person who had devastated his life over fifty years ago, the one who caused him so much pain and grief in his heart. Her eyes immediately filled with shining tears as she felt her heart shatter. She was so crushed that she could nearly stand. Her feet felt like nothing as she struggled to stay up. Her soul and heart cried out in pain and sorrow as tears streamed endlessly down her cheeks.
Kikyo gazed in shock at his decision. She was clearly expecting him to choose Kagome, and not her. An emotion of delight deluged her mind as a faint smile glistened across her face.
Inuyasha felt like an ice cold dagger was just jammed into his heart. Choking out those four words was more difficult than the battle against Naraku himself. He loved Kagome deeply, and desired to live his life with her. But the feeling of guilt had changed his answer. He knew that everyday a pain of guilt for not repenting for her death would cause grief. However, now, he would have to deal with the sorrow of losing Kagome.
As another tear strolled down her cheek, Kagome lost all control of her body and fell forward. She reached to grab for something, but instead her body emerged from the trees, and she was now visible to the other two. As she stood fully, her hands rose to her chest and formed a small ball. She tried to smile faintly at the couple.
As he heard the faint ruffle of leaves, his heart dropped to his stomach. A feeling in his soul told him who it was. He slowly turned around and gazed in pain at the expression on Kagome's face, and the sight of the streaks of tears. He knew she had heard, and he could tell it caused her sorrow. He was also able to notice that she was trying to cover her pain with a smile, but it didn't work for him.
"Kagome....." His heart screamed in agony at the emotions that flushed through her eyes. For some reason, he had the feeling that she had come to see him, and him only. He had a feeling that if he saw her first, none of this pain would be showing, no one would be suffering sorrow. If he had seen her first, his decision would have been clear; Kagome would've been his choice.
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A/N: So, did you all like it? I hope so! For me, it was incredibly difficult to write a chapter where Inuyasha chooses Kikyo. I really don't like Kikyo that much, so it was kinda hard to write about her like that. But hey, some of you said I did a good job and kept her with character in my first chapter, hopefully I did the same in this one, a little. ^_^;;
Anyway, I hope you liked it, and the next chapter is coming soon. It's called, "The Heartache of Goodbye." It's going to be very short, I'm afraid, but after that it will be the final one. Yes, I know it's ending real short, but I can't figure out how to extend it further. That's why a sequel is coming, cause I got some ideas! *MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!* Ok, I guess I'll be quiet now. I've gotta go work on this story and my other one! Hope you enjoyed this chapter! Ja ne!
Chapter 2: Is It Time for Farewells?
A bright smile was spread across Kagome's lips as she meandered through oceans of swaying grass, heading to the man she wished to tell her desires. The gentle breeze combed through her raven hair, causing it to dance gracefully in the air. As her feet walked across the earth, you could hear the crunching of the fallen leaves every so often.
"Where could he be? Usually, Inuyasha is resting at the tree near the village. But, I couldn't find him there today. I......I hope he's ok." She slowly bowed her head as an emotion of concern deluged her heart. "I won't give up. I must tell him my feelings!" She continued her way through the rolling fields of grass and brush. The radiant sun shimmered peacefully in the afternoon sky, gazing down amongst the lively feudal era.
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"Inuyasha, please, I ask that you choose? I can no longer go on watching you in pain as you're torn apart between two women you care about. Just remember when you make your decision, who's love will be real." His amber eyes filled with confusion, and seemed lost. He didn't know what to do. How could he say no to one and just say the other never existed? If he chose Kagome, the feeling of guilt from Kikyo's death would always haunt his heart; yet if he chose Kikyo, his mind would constantly linger in the many wonderful memories he and Kagome had shared together.
"K-Kikyo...... I-" She slowly turned his body around and gazed deeply into his eyes. Her empty, lifeless soul, or what was left of it, had reached his, holding onto it. For some reason, a feeling she hadn't experienced since her demise deluged her mind and heart. What was this unfamiliar emotion she was feeling; this emotion that caused her heart to race and sorrow from the pained and troubled look in his golden eyes to course throughout her body? Could this feeling be the one she thought she would never hold again? Could it be reborn love?
She gradually leaned forward on her toes and gently pulled his head down, placing her mouth near his dog-like ears. With a steady voice, she spoke in a whisper, "Don't be afraid to let one go. Let your heart guide you, and it will grant you your most fervent desires. If you always run and hide, you will eventually end up all alone, the way you began. Don't let that happen to you, you deserve more. You deserve true love." She then laid a sweet, tender kiss upon his cheek. Showing a small smile, she removed her arms from his body and stood back. Something was different about her. Inuyasha was shocked from the kiss, but seeing this new thing stunned him even more. She seemed to be flowing with life. Instead of her skin usually being ice cold, it had a somewhat warmth to it. Instead of her lips sending waves of chills throughout his body, the tender touch sent off a spark in his heart. He watched as her body gradually began to slip away, fading with the falling leaves. Her eyes were beaming with love, something he hadn't seen since that day she fell into his arms, that day 50 years ago.
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Kagome's tired body persisted with her goal; she would tell him her true feelings, no matter what got in her way. 'Something tells me that he's near; I can feel his warm presence." A sweet smile rolled across her lips as she thought about the first time he had embraced her.
Flashback
Kagome sat before Inuyasha, the Bone Eaters Well giving him support to stay sitting. After that battle with Sesshomaru, and that horrible wound, he had weakened quite a bit. She began to get frustrated with his conversation, completely disagreeing with almost everything he was saying.
"Listen! I'm not scared! Naraku's a terrible demon and we have to do everything we can to stop him! Hm?" Her body nearly froze when she felt a tender grip around her wrist, slowly pulling her forward. The next thing she realized was that she was in the gentle arms of Inuyasha. She had never seen this side of him before, and was quite shocked. "In-Inuyasha, what are you doing?"
Her heart began to race as his embrace became tighter, yet still gentle. "I was scared." "Huh?" Her mind filled with confusion as he spoke to her in a soft, whisper. "I thought I was going to lose you; I was horrified." She didn't know what to say. At that moment, she could barely breathe. She knew he had cared about her, and her safety, but not this much. She had never imagined this moment arriving. How could she? Such an arrogant jerk like him wouldn't exactly be someone you would see talking soft and embracing a girl like that in his arms. She did however, enjoy the feeling of being held in his arms. She knew she would cherish this moment forever.
End of Flashback
"I can still feel the warmth of his arms around me, even though it happened a while back." She sighed contentedly as she approached the area where the tree that had changed her life resided. 'He's so much closer, like he's beyond those trees. He must be at the tree.'
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Inuyasha gasped as her body began to fade away, a new emotion of fear filling his heart. "Kikyo! Wait! Don't leave me!" He moved forward in a swift motion and tenderly grasped her wrist, daring not to let go. Her eyes widened when the unexpected move was made. Slowly, her body was completely visible again, and she continued to gaze into his eyes. "Inuyasha, have you already made you decision?" His amber eyes wandered around, gazing at the scenery Mother Nature displayed.
"I just don't want you to leave me again. You've left me once, and I don't want it to happen anymore." He gradually raised her hand and placed it against his cheek, the new feeling of warmth making his heart happy. His hand had cupped over hers as he held it close. "Don't leave me anymore. The pain is too much to bear, the guilt to strong to overcome." A single tear strolled down his cheek and rolled over her hand, causing several emotions to course through her body. 'His mind, his heart, and soul still dwells in the past, even with the care of Kagome. This has shown me that his love is still there. How can I bring him to hell with these emotions deep inside of him? What about my feelings, ones that are seeming to re-surface? I'm lost, and I don't know what to do. Several lives are going to change from his decision.'
"Inuyasha, I need to hear from you what you have decided."
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"He must be right around these trees! I can feel him." Kagome smiled contentedly as her body raced through the trees, the remaining leaves that fell dancing around her body. When she emerged through the last trees, she quickly came to a halt and hid behind one of the larger ones. Her eyes gazed in shock at the two standing amidst the opening. 'What is Inuyasha doing with Kikyo?' She placed her back against the tree and carefully listened to their conversation.
"Inuyasha, who have you chosen to be with? Will you spend your life with me? Or will you return to my reincarnation?"
'Choose?' Those words rang through Kagome's ears as she heard them from Kikyo. 'What is she saying? Is she telling him to choose between me and her? B-but, that can't be.' A feeling of fear dwelled in her heart as she waited for his reply.
"Kikyo, I don't know how you can make me choose. Making a decision like this will devastate one of us, no matter what. Who knows, it may destroy another's heart." An image of Kagome flashed before his eyes as he thought about her sweet smile. Another glistening tear fell from his eyes as his heart seemed to twist and turn inside his chest. "I can't possibly see how I must choose, but I have." Kikyo's eyes widened as his grip slowly loosened, letting her hand fall to her side. "You have? W-what is your...... decision?" Her head tilted towards the ground as her eyes gazed at the many colorful leaves beneath their feet. Inuyasha's hand had cupped her chin carefully, and lifted her head so that their eyes were locked. "My decision was not easy to make, and believe me, the choice is tearing at my heart."
'Decision? Has he chosen? I must here this!' Her body leaned more towards the two, listening with all of her might to hear his words. Her heart flipped with joy when she was certain that he had chosen her.
"To me, you are both wonderful women. Kikyo, you, besides my mother, was the first one to show me kind emotions, and love. You opened your arms and allowed me to enter, taking me into your life. At the time, I had never felt such joy towards anyone. You were truly the love of my life. But then, Naraku got involved, and you bound me to a tree. Fifty years later, your reincarnation, Kagome, gave me life once more. She broke the spell you had placed on me. At first, I found her a disturbance, a nuisance to my plan of becoming a full fledged demon. But as time went on, she showed me the kindness of friendship. She accepted me for me, and didn't run scared even though I'm half demon. That day when I was a full youkai, she didn't hide. She confronted me, and because of her, I went back. Her tender heart towards me was able to reach my soul and save me."
A warm smile rolled over Kagome's lips as she listened to his words. Sweet emotions were coursing through her body as she was trying to hold back to tell him her feelings.
"Kagome has shown me love, a kind no one has ever given me. I feel safe around her, and I can trust her." Kikyo continued to gaze as he went on, mostly telling about Kagome. "Kikyo, I don't know how to tell either of you that I wish to choose the other. It's just so hard." "I understand, but you can do it. Open to your hearts desires. Tell me your choice."
An emotion of anger rushed through Kagome as Kikyo gently rubbed Inuyasha's cheek, showing him feelings like that.
"Making this decision will effect us all, in our hearts, and in our souls. Kikyo, you know that I still care for you, and you know that I care deeply for Kagome. Today, when you came to me, at first, you seemed so cold and lifeless. Now, when I feel your touch, you have warmth and life. I know somehow that I am for that reason. If I were to follow my heart, an emotion of guilt will lurk in it forever. If I follow my soul, an emotion of loneliness will dwell there. My decision comes down to one thing....."
'Tell her, tell her Inuyasha.' Kagome felt so excited about this moment, she wanted to cry. A feeling told her that her dreams were about to come true, that her most fervent desires were about to become reality.
"Honestly, I feel that I love Kagome. But, my mind wants me to be with you. I feel that I need to repent for your death. No matter who tells me, I feel that I was responsible for your demise. I want to make up for it, to give you what you should've had. My decision is..... I choose you, Kikyo."
Kagome's whole world crashed as she heard those words. She had expected him to say her, to say her name. But instead, he chose her. How could he? After everything she had done to him, all the excess pain she put him through, and all of the sorrow caused by her presence. How could he choose her after everything him and her had been through? She trusted him, cared for him, loved him, and wished nothing more but then to be with him. Instead, he chose her. He chose the one person who had devastated his life over fifty years ago, the one who caused him so much pain and grief in his heart. Her eyes immediately filled with shining tears as she felt her heart shatter. She was so crushed that she could nearly stand. Her feet felt like nothing as she struggled to stay up. Her soul and heart cried out in pain and sorrow as tears streamed endlessly down her cheeks.
Kikyo gazed in shock at his decision. She was clearly expecting him to choose Kagome, and not her. An emotion of delight deluged her mind as a faint smile glistened across her face.
Inuyasha felt like an ice cold dagger was just jammed into his heart. Choking out those four words was more difficult than the battle against Naraku himself. He loved Kagome deeply, and desired to live his life with her. But the feeling of guilt had changed his answer. He knew that everyday a pain of guilt for not repenting for her death would cause grief. However, now, he would have to deal with the sorrow of losing Kagome.
As another tear strolled down her cheek, Kagome lost all control of her body and fell forward. She reached to grab for something, but instead her body emerged from the trees, and she was now visible to the other two. As she stood fully, her hands rose to her chest and formed a small ball. She tried to smile faintly at the couple.
As he heard the faint ruffle of leaves, his heart dropped to his stomach. A feeling in his soul told him who it was. He slowly turned around and gazed in pain at the expression on Kagome's face, and the sight of the streaks of tears. He knew she had heard, and he could tell it caused her sorrow. He was also able to notice that she was trying to cover her pain with a smile, but it didn't work for him.
"Kagome....." His heart screamed in agony at the emotions that flushed through her eyes. For some reason, he had the feeling that she had come to see him, and him only. He had a feeling that if he saw her first, none of this pain would be showing, no one would be suffering sorrow. If he had seen her first, his decision would have been clear; Kagome would've been his choice.
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A/N: So, did you all like it? I hope so! For me, it was incredibly difficult to write a chapter where Inuyasha chooses Kikyo. I really don't like Kikyo that much, so it was kinda hard to write about her like that. But hey, some of you said I did a good job and kept her with character in my first chapter, hopefully I did the same in this one, a little. ^_^;;
Anyway, I hope you liked it, and the next chapter is coming soon. It's called, "The Heartache of Goodbye." It's going to be very short, I'm afraid, but after that it will be the final one. Yes, I know it's ending real short, but I can't figure out how to extend it further. That's why a sequel is coming, cause I got some ideas! *MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!* Ok, I guess I'll be quiet now. I've gotta go work on this story and my other one! Hope you enjoyed this chapter! Ja ne!
