Second part.....

I am sorry to keep you waiting, from aaaan... I meant... Evil angel! n_n

I hate rain... it's sad... especially when it's pouring, not a mist, not drizzling, or some big drops, pouring like DRIPDRIPDRIPDRIPDRIP x10....

I just have to turn away from it and look at something else, or think about something funny to mask this feeling I get from this rain...

Something like a memory about the old times when we were trying to make eggs; sunny side up!

I don't really know why, but hey at least we tried... Oh who?

Me and Ryou of course!

Don't tell me you forgot who I am..... damn it. I..... AM..... Malik!....

What... do I have to carve it into your skull?!... No, I don't....

Eggs and pancakes. It was going to be good, but it wasn't so good.'

~ Flash back ~

I sat on the sofa, it was late 10 something AM.... I haven't eaten anything since yesterday morning.

Ryou could tell, he heard my stomach growling, he laughed and asked, "I guess I'll make you something to eat..."

I looked at him, "uh... no it's ok. It's nothing, I can go for take out somewhere..."

He shrugged, and said, "What ever I don't care." He went into the kitchen...

...

After a little while I was getting impatient, so I went over to see if it's done... I looked over Ryous shoulder...

Hey just a second here, this used to be sunny side up. He just turned it into scrambled... he looked so cute when he realized it went from sunny side up to scrambled. "aaah! Uh.... heh heh heh... is it still ok?" Ryou asked me, smiling. I laughed.

"not if its charred black." I said... he laughs and gave it to me,

"It's not burnt!" he said, preparing to make some pancakes...

... after he makes it....

Bakura smelled it, "Hurry it up!" he said pointing at his empty plate smiling slightly...

Ryou just finished it, "Here! He said and then slapped it into Bakuras face...

He quickly peeled it off. "AAAH! ...hot..." he had a red mark where the hot fresh cake hit him on his face, it was kinda red... but he wouldn't stop smiling.

I laughed.

Ryou started towards the door, he stopped, "If you think this is some game...." He said to Bakura, "I ain't playing it..." he finished and then slammed the door as he left...

Bye Ryou, I said in my head....

~ End flash back ~

....

I could sit here in this stupid car lost in my memories forever and still never get back... (Home, you know transportation?)

Oh no...

Mariks smiling at me again!

"What are you smiling about now?"

He smiled even harder, shifting his position in the seat. He refuses to answer....

I hate that. It pissed me off... I don't even want to know what's going on in that head of his.......

Go to hell you skid mark...

I got a weird feeling he's listening to what I'm thinking.... Don't feel that way, I'll never leave you...

Even if I break your heart?

Nah, he said through the link, you'd never fall in love with ME... then he blocks me...

I rolled my eyes. Yeah, right on the dot, I thought sarcastically...

.......

~ Late at night or early in the morning ~

.......

Late at night a cried about my lost suicidal friend...

I just heard one of those songs he loved... I heard it again.

'you don't know what you have until you lose it..' he used to tell me.... before he goes home.

I came across one of his favourite shirts... sweater I meant. I never got to say goodbye.... he left on his birthday...

That's when I got that phone call from Bakura...

I hate remembering sad things. It's painful, but not as bas as eating one of my own horrible cooking...

It was raining... like to day. I seemed totally fine, like to day. I was confident nothing bad would happen...

I must have jinxed it... I turned it around...

...

I was dreaming about us. A normal day having fun talking laughing...

It seemed so real... so real..... I wish.... this moment would never end......

I woke up crying again.......................................................... I couldn't sleep after that......

"He's gone! Get! Over! It!" Marik told me as he became stroking my hair. I tried to push his hand away...................

"Get outta here!... Why do you care?!" I said to him and pushed him back.

I was still lying here in the bed................... with him........... On my side staring at the... wall....... while Marik tried to make the tears stop.......

"I don't understand why you cry so much......... Smile for me..."

Play a sad song and this scene would be complete.......... perhaps something heavenly......... have them make it for me.....

I can't smile. What's to smile for?

My friend is dead! Why do you give me this crap when I am crying just go back to your stupid cat hunt and leave me alone you heartless fool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He didn't... he stayed.... for a while...... "You want to lose me now don't you?" ............ "You're crying for your weaker dead friend and his Yami..... And pushing me away.................... FINE WITH ME!" Marik yelled......... he doesn't cry for dead people.....

I don't know what bring him to tears.....

"Oh yeah..." he said, as if he were challenged or threatened....... as he stood up, "You go on crying cold and alone I'LL BE AT THE STUPID BAR! GOOD RIDANCE!" He said.... then he turned away.

"Why can't you just let me......." he started to say but he stopped. I heard his footsteps stomping away to the door and slam as he went out...

Deep down underneath it all I was screaming 'don't go...... don't go.....'

But if I really said that he'll use my calling for help to his advantage............ he'll cross some lines.... like last time...

Mock me, hurt me even more. I'm always best off alone at times... some rare times... I don't know what to do anymore...

It's like that hole I said about................................

I would fall in...... call for help like... "help me.......... please"

And their like "yeah, sure" and grab the shovel and throw dirt in my face! And make it worse and worse and even harder than it originally was....

Oh yeah?!

Kiss my fine ass you selfish ignorant ffffff.................. people.................

Forget the hole...

Forget the begging.

I grabbed my pillow and held it against my face. Too bad for me.

I'll try and I'll try and try........ I'll get there I'll get there.....

I won't crap out........

When I do get there... I held my pillow tighter.

The sun will shine brighter, I'll smile I would be so happy yet again...

I want to see the sun. The strong light the gods will smile upon us...

I miss Bakura. And ryou...

I dreamt about something crazy before Ryou's death... before Bakuras disappearance......

-Ryou jumped...-

-Bakura was defeated... he was lost in the darkness................. I went to fin him but.... -

I can't remember. I woke with a headache.......

With all the loneliness and sad stuff it would bring someone to tears....

.......................................................Or suicide............................................................

Not me. It's tempting, I know. but not worth it...

It would probably leave Marik in the dust... crying... or Laughing.....

So, .....No...

I am proud to be alive....... at least I AM!

I'll do it for you my friend Ryou.... I'll find Bakura. He isn't gone.

He's not gone......

It was only a dream, I can barley remember anyways.

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~ Later on in the day. ~

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I decided to do some calligraphy. I had nothing to do for............... I don't know how long..............................................

I started Writing:

"Hi. My name is Malik Ishtar.

I live in Heart Break Hotel for now, I won't be here for long though............................

Blah Blah Blah Blah I don't care no more ... _______________ "

.....then I just made one big line down the page starting from the "e" going to the corner of the page and off the table...

My sister could tell that I was bored... or frustrated, she looked over my shoulder when I scribbled...

I looked at her, "What?!"

"Don't give me that look I'm not afraid of you."

I shook my head. "Whatever............ Go AWAY......." I said and went back to messing up my paper...

I am bored I don't know what else I should do, it's not for some school thing either.

Most of the schooling I got..... was based on King Yami the Pharaoh..........................................................

Pharaoh? Hmmmmmm...... Some how I feel like he's got something to do with Bakuras Disappearance...........

How?

Why? Both how and why did I get this all of a sudden?....

There's NOTHING to do!!! . ..... .

Nothing. I hate that word it sounds evil like; decline.... don't... hate... deny... no... Stop... kill.... die... leave... quitter...

But once you think about it seriously it's good to have nothing to do......

Unlike Marik. He's probably got guys to deal with...

Guy's who DARE 'try' to take advantage of him..... or whatever else comes along with the alcohol department.

Department? It's.... a figure of speech meaning something like: subject... title...

Whatever!

I should get my sister outta here if Mariks comin' back...

Nah, he's not coming back. He hates me I heard him say it... he told it to my face, he wasn't drunk. Just to know.......

I checked, and it's true, it's official. He hates me. That hit me hard too when I found out. He always saved me from rape, murder and gangs.... only for his own selfish reasons, not because he loved me.... he couldn't have me in the hospital.... he's impatient.... yup.

Ah, life's such a bitch, huh? Well too bad! No one said it's gonna be easy.

Maybe I should locate Marik and try save his sorry ass. 'Try' to find him is hard enough believe me; last time I went and came back he was already here........

Weird?! Yes.... uh.... no.... I mean....

Who cares I'm going, nothing better to do...

* Evil angel is bored. Nothing better to do, but clean or cook for my beautiful mom, yea I love my mom.

Take that dad! Pppppttthhh!!!! I hate him! I miss him! I am confused! Some one help meeeeeeeeeeeee! *falls down a dark pit*

The end.... not really, but just for now! n_n lol