AN: You know, I have no idea what dialect Syaoran speaks. I mean, 'Xiaolang's" in Mandarin (spelling?), but "Ying Fa's" in Cantonese. I've been using some words from both. Opps. It doesn't really matter to me, because I speak both languages. Still, which is he? I hope you like the chapter. I'm planning a twist or two. Oh so many possibilities, so little characters to kill off. Ohohohohoho.

OMG! OMG! CLAMP is making a new CCS story!!! It's called TSUBASA. This is an AU story about CCS and some other characters from other stories like Chibots, Magic Knight Rayearth, RGVeda, and other places! Crossover!! You have to go to . The first two chapters are already out. The drawing isn't as cute as CCS, but it involves Syaoran and Sakura neverless.

Disclaimer: CCS, not mine. Hasing and Johnny are.

Symbols: Shame on you if you don't know them by now.

Finding Heart's Way

By: Keri (aka Li Blossom)

Chapter 5: Jealousy

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With her hands on his chest, Sakura pushed him away. Her eyes glinted with fury. "Just get the hell away from me!"

Syaoran's expression turned from confused to anger, "You bitch."

Sakura jumped to the ground without another word.

Syaoran sighed. What just happened confused him. 'Why should I care about that slut?'

'I don't.' He reminded himself. 'I can't.'

~~*~~

Sakura leaned against her locker. She felt drained, emotionally. She closed her eyes and let out a sigh.

"Guess who?" a voice in front of her said.

Sakura's eyes snapped open. She was confronted by Johnny.

"How would you like to go out to a nightclub with me tonight?" Johnny asked with a voice coated with honey. (AN: I'm saying today is Friday, so she's allowed to go out.)

Sakura glared at him, "Didn't I tell you before to go to hell."

Syaoran's eyes flickered towards her from across the hall, then looked away. Sakura suddenly got it. "Wait, Johnny! I'd love to go!"

"Really?! Okay, I'll pick you up at 8:00. Taun Ji just opened up last week. You won't need to show a diver's license to drink." Johnny said, with childish grin on his face.

~~*~~

Syaoran was tackled from behind, "Ouch, Hasing."

She held him down to the ground, "So what have you been up to, honey? I haven't seen you all day."

Syaoran pushed her off and rolled on top of her. He pinned her arms to the ground. He said seductively in her ear, "Maybe we should play somewhere more private."

"After school."

Eriol watched this exchange with amusement. Hasing was very forward. If he didn't have Tomoyo, then he would have been very jealous of Syaoran.

Tomoyo closed her eyes. Her temples thumped. Images from a long time ago kept rerunning in her mind. God, she thought inwardly, I'm so confused now.

~~*~~

Back at the Li house, the four sat in the living room.

"God, I'm so bored." Hasing said trying to get the guys away from the TV screen. There was some soccer game going on. "I want to go dancing."

Tomoyo joined in and gave Eriol a sad puppy face, "Aw, Eriol don't you want to dance."

Syaoran tried to ignore them, but Hasing cuddled up to him. She whispered the word Taun Ji. Syaoran remembered earlier.

. .

"How would you like to go out to a nightclub with me tonight?'

'Didn't I tell you before to go to hell. Wait, Johnny! I'd love to go!'

'Really?! Okay, I'll pick you up at 8:00. Taun Ji just opened up last week. You won't need to show a diver's license to drink."

. .

"Yeah, why don't we go dancing tonight."

~~*~~

Sakura wore a tight red tube top and flared white pants that were laced up the sides. Her hair was down and sprawled over her back. She looked into the mirror and smiled with satisfaction. With a little eye makeup and lipgloss, she looked like a sex goddess.

Johnny picked her up in a black convertible. He was a wearing a green shirt and vanilla cargo pants. Sakura had to admit he was very cute.

~~*~~

The club was filled with loud dancing music and colorful lights. Johnny chose a table in a darkened area.

"So what do you want to drink?" Johnny asked.

"A coke," Sakura responded.

"Aw, come on. You look like a drinker to me."

"If you're thinking of getting me drunk so you can take me back to your place, you can forget it."

"Alright," Johnny said waving a waitress over.

....

Syaoran had no idea why he came. Now it looked like he was stalking her. Which of course, he was.

"Hey Syaoran, let's dance," Hasing whispered and pulled him onto the dance floor.

Sakura let out an angry gasp. Why the hell was he here? There was only a tiny chance that this was a coincidence.

"Come on John, let's dance."

Sakura moved in rhythm with Johnny, getting so close that they were almost touching. Then a slower song came on. Johnny grabbed her by the waist and held her against him.

Syaoran watched the whole time. He clenched his fists. He got this odd feeling whenever Johnny was with Sakura. He wouldn't have admitted it, but it was jealousy.

Hasing put her head on his chest and swayed to the music.

A salsa song (AN: I dunno what kind of dance you dance with a salsa song, o well. ^.^) started, Johnny spun Sakura around and dipped her. She pulled away from him and danced around him, shaking her hips to the beat. Then he ran his hands down her curves.

Syaoran got mad. They were dancing very close, like a real couple. Plus, they were upstaging Hasing and him.

Syaoran pulled Hasing into his arms. He led her though a complicated foot dance. They did it almost perfectly. Syaoran looked into her eyes and swung her in the air.

By now a crowd had circled around the couples. Syaoran glared at Johnny. Hasing wrapped her legs around his waist and he dipped her.

Sakura pulled Johnny closer, so their faces were an inch apart. She danced closely against him.

When the song ended the crowd erupted with clapping and a few whistles and hoots.

....

Tomoyo watched from her table. She took another swish of her red wine. God, the headache was still pounding into her head. (AN: Sure drinking is gonna make it better.)

Something was just not right about the scene. She thought about the time when they had a Halloween party. Sakura was a fairy (designed and copyrighted by Tomoyo), Syaoran and Eriol were FBI agents, Tomoyo was a ghost, and Hasing was a devil. Sakura had been too scared to ask Syaoran for a dance, so Tomoyo asked him for her. During the middle of the dance Hasing cut in. It threw the whole place out of sync.

.....

Hasing whispered something into his ear and they moved to a dark corner of the club.

'Thank god,' she pulled away from Johnny.

"Come on babe, let's get another drink," he said, pulling her to their table.

Sakura felt a pair of eyes watching her. Her eyes met swirling violet ones. Then Tomoyo turned away.

God, it hurt to look into Sakura's eyes. Tomoyo could see open anger and pain. She was a master at reading people. Her intense glare scared her, not like in a threatening way. Tomoyo felt pain for her, even pity.

~~*~~

Hasing kissed Syaoran passionately. All he was thinking was 'Move out of my way, I can't see Sakura.'

The kiss felt empty. Something was missing. Yes, Hasing was very sexy and a good kisser, but it wasn't that.

There was no tingle down his spine, like with...Sakura. He shook his head.

"Aw, is something wrong?" Hasing asked in a seductive voice, "How about a shoulder massage?"

"Actually, I'm not feeling well, I think we should go,"

~~*~~

Sakura walked around in the park. She had walked out on Johnny when he began flirting with the waitress. The jerk even asked for her phone number when Sakura was in the restroom. (AN: The waitress was nice enough to inform Sakura. o_0)

She loved this park. It reminded her of the old days. There was a big panda slide (AN: Kinda like the penguin slide, but with a panda.), a set of swings, a big clean sandbox, and one of those big jungle gym things.

She sat on a swing and swayed slowly. 'Damn Syaoran, Damn world.'

One of Sakura's cards came out, it was the Hope. "Mistress, we know what you are feeling. Do not despair, fate is on your side. Just be patient. Life will not always be as horrible as it seems. At first some of us had doubts about you, but now we know that you are the destined one. You have a strength inside of you. We will protect you."

Sakura looked into her big pink ( AN: I have no idea what color it is.) eyes. "We all love you so."

"Thank you." Sakura whispered closing her eyes.

~~*~~

Syaoran let out a frustrated sigh. He felt very confused.

He let the cool night breeze hit his skin as he walked through the park. He had dumped then in the house and snuck out. Alone time was what Syaoran needed.

He thought about what happened, what was happening. He felt different towards Hasing. Their relationship was falling apart. Kisses no longer gave him a trill. Her hair didn't feel the same in his hands. Her tight fitting, skanky clothes just made him think of a slut. There was no tingle down the spine anymore. What was wrong with him? He was oh so very confused.

He stopped. 'Oh my god, I don't love Hasing.'

Love. What a stupid, meaningless word. What the hell does it mean? Is it a mood, like sadness and anger? Or is it a feeling so strong, it can tear down any barrier. Or is it an invention? Something people made up to have reason. To be able to go on and live and not be meaningless.

Syaoran shook his head. Stupid thoughts.

Syaoran looked up, there was a small figure swinging on the swings. He gasped softly as the moonlight hit her. The hairs on his neck stood up.

"Sakura," He whispered under his breath.

She was looking up to the stars, singing softly.

Waiting, for that someone

Who will take away my troubles,

Make me feel only him.

He'll be my savor,

The only one in my life.

But then I start wondering

If it's worth the trouble.

So much pain and heartbreak

I just can't stand anymore.

Cause I'm only lying to myself.

Oh, to live in the stars.

Away from all my troubles.

No more pain and waiting.

While finding heart's way, oh oh mmm.

Sakura wiped away a stray tear. 'Remember, you promised no more crying.'

Syaoran felt his heart shatter, seeing her sad. He wanted her to smile, which he hadn't seen yet. 'It's because of me.'

Syaoran walked away, dragging his feet.

~~*~~

Hasing growled and threw the nearest thing to her, a picture frame. Just after one day, her whole plan was falling apart.

'Okay, calm down,' she thought gripping a stuffed animal, 'you don't want any wrinkles.'

She let out a loud sigh and collapsed on her bed. "That bitch. I'm going to have to do something about her. Hmm, Tomoyo I knew there would be some use for you."

~~*~~

"Tomoyo, is there something wrong?" Eriol asked sitting by her on the couch. "You seem distracted."

Tomoyo put her head on his shoulder. "The headache, I keep seeing images of Kinomoto."

"I know, coming here was a mistake," Eriol said inwardly, 'I've felt it too. Something big is going to happen and no one can stop it.'

He kissed her on the forehead.

~~*~~

Yelen looked the elders in the eyes. Yes, she too was afraid of them, but she was the clan leader, fear was not something you're allowed to show.

"Yes, we know," the oldest looking elder said, "she has immense power."

Yelen nodded, "She has a hold over my son and his friends, "I can feel she has a hold over Xiaolang and his friends, even Clow-san (Eriol) seems affected."

"She is using a mind controlling spell."

"What shall we do?"

"Nothing."

Yelen flinched inwardly.

"They will have to figure it out on their own."

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AN: There I'm done. Now please review and tell me whatcha think.