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Chapter 2: My happiness too far off to see.
"Excuse me mam?... Excuse me mam.Mam!" The flight attendant said as she began to began to shake Melin forcefully. Finally after a few minutes had past Melin woke up. " Ummmm... oh I am sorry have we landed?" Melin asked looking around her at all the people.
"No, it is time for breakfast would you like some?" The flight attendant asked.
" Yes please." Melin responded and slowly the flight attendant brought out her food and placed it in front of her. Melin looked down at the food it didn't look all too good but she realized she had to eat or else she might starve. She forced herself to chew on the food, it wasn't all too bad but still it was airplane food. Melin finished her food quickly she didn't realize how hungry she was. As she finished her food she looked out her window at the moon. She loved the way it was lonely, its loneliness was so beautiful. She thought how she was like that lonely only her loneliness wasn't beautiful and she wasn't beautiful. A sudden sadness began to come into her. She looked down at her locket of the picture of her and Shaoran, but as her hand searched for the locket she could feel the pain surging in her arms from all her bruises. One specific bruise inflicted the most pain.
She held her arm trying to muffle the noise coming from her mouth it was a slight shriek. She felt a small tear come. It hurt so bad, and she was so afraid to lift up her sleeve and look at her arm. The fear in her was so much, she wanted so to believe she was okay. She didn't want to get sick or severely injured because unlike everyone else no one would take care of her. The depressing thought quickly entering her mind. Thoughts and words began to enter her mind "If only I was prettier" "If only I wasn't so damn stupid and ugly" . She began to think about the way Shaoran would react to seeing her and one seemed to play over and over in her mind.
A scene quite sad, when Melin finally found her beloved cousin, Shaoran, he wouldn't care to see her. And like all the others of her family they would leave her and let her die. Sitting in her chair with this uncomfortable thought, she spent all of her money trying to see her beloved cousin and in turn he might just not care for her anymore. She felt so miserable no one wanted her and she knew it. It was as if there was no real point in going to see Shaoran. He did not love her or care for her. Melin stared at her reflection in the window and felt like crying, but she did not want to show such weakness.
She touched her arm again then slowly looking pulling up her sleeve so she could look at the bruise in its entirety. She looked down at the black and blue patch of skin to all others it was horrifying and ugly. To all others it was her badge of shame so all would see it and realized that she did something so bad that this had to come. She felt so much of a burn in her arm from the bruise. Knowing she needed medical help, but realizing she had no money on her. So she couldn't just go and see the doctor as much as she would like to. She wanted to end this pain now. It hurt too much and so much. Slowly a tear began to drop as she slowly rubbed her arm trying to hush the pain. But it refused to stay silent. She pushed her tears away from her eyes trying to make it seem as if she was still strong and nothing hurt her. Massaging her arm more and more but the pain refused to part with her arm. There was an even worse feeling that took over Melin it was so horrifying as she looked around the plane. She looked at all the faces of the people around her and she saw nothing in there faces. She looked at the people and saw nothing in their faces. They had no care as to why she ached and pained. It mattered not to them, In fact most didn't even notice Melin on the flight. They cared nothing for the young Melin they didn't care how much her arm hurt. Just like the elders and her family cared nothing about how much pain Melin was going threw. Or how hard it was for her to leave.
She quietly muffled herself again pushing her face into the complimentary airline blankets, leaning herself against the window. She looked out the window and remembered her own loneliness. She quietly began to whisper to herself " I would give anything for happiness to come and find me. but. I know I don't deserve it. I know for me to wish for happiness is selfish. I realize that I won't get it. But even still I wish. I wish I had my star.my other half, but I know I don't have one or if I do I know they don't want me so why bother them." Melin said quietly whispering to herself with no tears in her eyes just in her heart. Looking out the windows she truly wished for her loneliness to end but she knew it wouldn't. She rubbed her arm again trying to lessen the pain surging in it. It was miserable the way she felt and no one would help her. She had no money left to see a doctor or for that matter eat. And she realized that she couldn't bother Shaoran he surely joined the Li-clan side. So she had no one, this was her loneliness her prison and punishment.
Chapter 2: My happiness too far off to see.
"Excuse me mam?... Excuse me mam.Mam!" The flight attendant said as she began to began to shake Melin forcefully. Finally after a few minutes had past Melin woke up. " Ummmm... oh I am sorry have we landed?" Melin asked looking around her at all the people.
"No, it is time for breakfast would you like some?" The flight attendant asked.
" Yes please." Melin responded and slowly the flight attendant brought out her food and placed it in front of her. Melin looked down at the food it didn't look all too good but she realized she had to eat or else she might starve. She forced herself to chew on the food, it wasn't all too bad but still it was airplane food. Melin finished her food quickly she didn't realize how hungry she was. As she finished her food she looked out her window at the moon. She loved the way it was lonely, its loneliness was so beautiful. She thought how she was like that lonely only her loneliness wasn't beautiful and she wasn't beautiful. A sudden sadness began to come into her. She looked down at her locket of the picture of her and Shaoran, but as her hand searched for the locket she could feel the pain surging in her arms from all her bruises. One specific bruise inflicted the most pain.
She held her arm trying to muffle the noise coming from her mouth it was a slight shriek. She felt a small tear come. It hurt so bad, and she was so afraid to lift up her sleeve and look at her arm. The fear in her was so much, she wanted so to believe she was okay. She didn't want to get sick or severely injured because unlike everyone else no one would take care of her. The depressing thought quickly entering her mind. Thoughts and words began to enter her mind "If only I was prettier" "If only I wasn't so damn stupid and ugly" . She began to think about the way Shaoran would react to seeing her and one seemed to play over and over in her mind.
A scene quite sad, when Melin finally found her beloved cousin, Shaoran, he wouldn't care to see her. And like all the others of her family they would leave her and let her die. Sitting in her chair with this uncomfortable thought, she spent all of her money trying to see her beloved cousin and in turn he might just not care for her anymore. She felt so miserable no one wanted her and she knew it. It was as if there was no real point in going to see Shaoran. He did not love her or care for her. Melin stared at her reflection in the window and felt like crying, but she did not want to show such weakness.
She touched her arm again then slowly looking pulling up her sleeve so she could look at the bruise in its entirety. She looked down at the black and blue patch of skin to all others it was horrifying and ugly. To all others it was her badge of shame so all would see it and realized that she did something so bad that this had to come. She felt so much of a burn in her arm from the bruise. Knowing she needed medical help, but realizing she had no money on her. So she couldn't just go and see the doctor as much as she would like to. She wanted to end this pain now. It hurt too much and so much. Slowly a tear began to drop as she slowly rubbed her arm trying to hush the pain. But it refused to stay silent. She pushed her tears away from her eyes trying to make it seem as if she was still strong and nothing hurt her. Massaging her arm more and more but the pain refused to part with her arm. There was an even worse feeling that took over Melin it was so horrifying as she looked around the plane. She looked at all the faces of the people around her and she saw nothing in there faces. She looked at the people and saw nothing in their faces. They had no care as to why she ached and pained. It mattered not to them, In fact most didn't even notice Melin on the flight. They cared nothing for the young Melin they didn't care how much her arm hurt. Just like the elders and her family cared nothing about how much pain Melin was going threw. Or how hard it was for her to leave.
She quietly muffled herself again pushing her face into the complimentary airline blankets, leaning herself against the window. She looked out the window and remembered her own loneliness. She quietly began to whisper to herself " I would give anything for happiness to come and find me. but. I know I don't deserve it. I know for me to wish for happiness is selfish. I realize that I won't get it. But even still I wish. I wish I had my star.my other half, but I know I don't have one or if I do I know they don't want me so why bother them." Melin said quietly whispering to herself with no tears in her eyes just in her heart. Looking out the windows she truly wished for her loneliness to end but she knew it wouldn't. She rubbed her arm again trying to lessen the pain surging in it. It was miserable the way she felt and no one would help her. She had no money left to see a doctor or for that matter eat. And she realized that she couldn't bother Shaoran he surely joined the Li-clan side. So she had no one, this was her loneliness her prison and punishment.
