A Second Chance: Chapter Two
We were almost there and I was praying that nothing had happened. I was preying that everything would be okay and that I would be able to see Obi- Wan and Qui-Gon again. As we drew nearer we tried to listen for the clash of lightsabers. We heard nothing. I was hoping that meant that the battle was over and that Obi-Wan and Qui-Gon were leaving in perfect health. We opened the door. and I saw one of the worst memories of my life. There, in Obi-Wan's arms, lay Qui-Gon. She could see the wound in Qui-Gon's abdomen from where she was. She could see no signs of breathing. Obi-Wan was crying and that confirmed what Sabe had suspected. Qui-Gon was dead.
It took her forever to get the courage to approach Obi-Wan. When she did, Obi-Wan didn't acknowledge her at all. She could find nothing to say. What she did say was pointless. "We already called your Jedi council, they are coming to be with you." He didn't move for minutes. Then he finally looked up. "It was my fault. If I had been a little faster, he would still be alive. My fault, my fault." He dropped his head. Sabe sighed and dropped down next to him. She placed her hand on his shoulder. He looked at her with tear filled eyes. She felt her own tears stream down her face. She still couldn't believe that she had fallen for him so quickly. Now, she couldn't deny it even to herself. She never cried over a man she barely knew. She was crying because of Obi-Wan. "I'm sure it wasn't your fault Kenobi. You wouldn't have let him die if you could have prevented it. You would have given your life for him Kenobi." She tried to reassure him. He made sign he even heard her. He was just staring at Qui-Gon's lifeless body.
After a few more minutes of silence, Obi-Wan rose off the floor with his eyes still fixed on Qui-Gon's face. He sighed and wiped the tears away. "He. he asked me a last promise. He wants me to train the boy. I can't, I'm not ready." He said, finally dropping his eyes to his own feet. She wasn't sure why he was confiding in her, but she wouldn't object. "Anakin? He wanted you to train Anakin?" she asked. "Yes, and I can't. I'm not even a knight yet! Sabe, I can't train Anakin!" he said. She could feel the lack of confidence that usually filled his voice. "Kenobi, you just need to talk to the Council. You never know what they might say. They might let you train Anakin because you lost Qui-Gon. They might feel they should let you train him because that is what Qui-Gon wanted. He did promise Anakin would be a Jedi. He can't break that promise. The council will let you." She said again trying to assure him. "No, Sabe don't you get it? I can't train Anakin! I'm not ready mentally! I just lost my master, and too soon at that! This was my test and I failed Qui-Gon! I would be an embarrassment to him!" Obi-Wan shouted. Sabe shook her head. "No, Obi-Wan you were not a failure to him! You would make him so proud, you wouldn't embarrass him! You defeated that thing, even though Qui-Gon couldn't! He wouldn't want you to be feeling this way. He would want you to keep that promise! Or at least make an attempt at it. He wouldn't want you to waste your life in mourning! You must move on." She stated, hoping to restart his mind, to put his heart back in place, for a Jedi at least.
"I. I know you are right. I should be moving on. I'm a Jedi, I'm supposed to be better than this. I just can't get the picture of the Sith, that thing, cutting my master down. It's forever burned into my memory and it will forever plague me. I just don't understand how to start again, to move on. I've never felt so responsible for someone I know so well's death before. I can't get the feeling out of my head, that if perhaps if I had done something different, he would still be alive. I could have saved him if I acted different." He said. Sabe looked deep into the Jedi's eyes and saw guilt and a dark chill of.jealousy there? "Or, you could have died, leaving Qui-Gon behind. I think that it is harder to be the one left after a death then to one who leaves. You are feeling guilt and sorrow while the other is in peace. Qui-Gon would have been crushed if you had died and you know it. He would have moved on though, in the end. And so shall you. You'll move on and except the unordinary situation you have had placed before you and make the best of it. So what if you have a padawan, deal with it." Sabe said and she saw some of that guilt die out but small flickers still remained buried in those eyes. The jealousy she didn't understand still stayed there.
"Come with me Obi-Wan, let's wait for the Jedi to arrive. They should be arriving any minute now. The Jedi responding were not far away and were not coming from Courscant so they should be close. Come with me Obi-Wan. The guard will make sure that Jedi master Qui-Gon Jinn is properly taken care of." Sabe said. The guards nodded at Obi-Wan. Obi-Wan rose his head and nodded. "Yes, I will come with you." Obi-Wan said. They headed for the exit. Before they could leave, Master Mace Windu, Master Plo Koon, and Master Yoda entered.
Soon a while later, before Obi-Wan really comprehended what had happened, he was standing at Qui-Gon's funeral watching his master being cremated. She wasn't sure how it had all happened. It had all went over her head and she was sure it was the same with Obi-Wan. Anakin stood teary eyed, next to Obi-Wan. Obi- Wan was solemn faced and showed no emotion. After the funeral and the final good byes, Obi-Wan and Anakin exited and headed for the royal corridors they were staying in at the palace. Sabe had been wondering if she would be able to talk to him again. She left with The Queen, handmaiden Rabe, and Handmaiden Tachi. The Queen turned to Sabe. "You are truly grim. I understand we just attended a funeral, but you seem very sad, very attached to Qui-Gon. But something tells me it wasn't Qui-Gon you were mourning for. Sabe, are you attached to Knight Kenobi?" the queen asked.
Obi-Wan had been knighted and Anakin had been named his Padawan. Obi-Wan seemed to except this now and was beginning to except what his master had asked him. Anakin was beginning to adjust to Jedi life and a life at the temple. Everything was going all right, but her feelings for Obi-Wan were not fading and she was afraid that would cause problems. "No, no of coarse not your highness. No, I'm not attached to the Jedi." Sabe said as confidently as she could. Padme stared her down. "Sabe, you've been my friend for a long time. You've never been very good at lying to me, for I see right through it. Do not lie to me please Sabe, just tell me." Padme said. Sabe sighed and stopped as they neared the palace. Padme motioned for Rabe and Tachi along with security to move back and cover from a distance so privacy was possible.
Sabe sighed. "No I'm not very good at lying. If I can fool someone then they are really thick headed. I'm not really attached but I." she trailed off. "You like him." Padme said for her. "Yes, well mostly and I just was afraid that it would interfere with, uh work." She rambled and Padme had picked something up in her tone. "You. love him Sabe. You love him don't you?" she asked. She had dropped her formal attitude and was speaking to Sabe as a good friend, not a leader. She sounded very sincere and she appeared to really want to help her friend. "Yes, Padme I think I do. I'm so sorry. I'm disgracing you for feeling such things. My allegiance is to you Padme, I promise. I'll get over this infatuation." She said as much to herself as Padme. "Does he return this love?" Padme asked. "Well, that's one problem. You see, he doesn't know. that I like him." She said staring at her feet. Padme laughed. "Well, maybe you do have a slight problem, but not with me. Rabe has a soon to be husband and Tachi has a boyfriend. You are not the first, nor will you be the last, handmaiden to fall in love. There isn't anything wrong with them being in love and there is nothing wrong for you. Why can't you fall in love Sabe? Would that be so wrong?" Padme chided her gently. "Because I'm you main decoy, protection, you main bodyguard! I'm the one who takes your place in times of danger. My time needs to be here with you. I can't be taking time of for a love!" Sabe cried out. Padme started walking again and Sabe walked with her.
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We were almost there and I was praying that nothing had happened. I was preying that everything would be okay and that I would be able to see Obi- Wan and Qui-Gon again. As we drew nearer we tried to listen for the clash of lightsabers. We heard nothing. I was hoping that meant that the battle was over and that Obi-Wan and Qui-Gon were leaving in perfect health. We opened the door. and I saw one of the worst memories of my life. There, in Obi-Wan's arms, lay Qui-Gon. She could see the wound in Qui-Gon's abdomen from where she was. She could see no signs of breathing. Obi-Wan was crying and that confirmed what Sabe had suspected. Qui-Gon was dead.
It took her forever to get the courage to approach Obi-Wan. When she did, Obi-Wan didn't acknowledge her at all. She could find nothing to say. What she did say was pointless. "We already called your Jedi council, they are coming to be with you." He didn't move for minutes. Then he finally looked up. "It was my fault. If I had been a little faster, he would still be alive. My fault, my fault." He dropped his head. Sabe sighed and dropped down next to him. She placed her hand on his shoulder. He looked at her with tear filled eyes. She felt her own tears stream down her face. She still couldn't believe that she had fallen for him so quickly. Now, she couldn't deny it even to herself. She never cried over a man she barely knew. She was crying because of Obi-Wan. "I'm sure it wasn't your fault Kenobi. You wouldn't have let him die if you could have prevented it. You would have given your life for him Kenobi." She tried to reassure him. He made sign he even heard her. He was just staring at Qui-Gon's lifeless body.
After a few more minutes of silence, Obi-Wan rose off the floor with his eyes still fixed on Qui-Gon's face. He sighed and wiped the tears away. "He. he asked me a last promise. He wants me to train the boy. I can't, I'm not ready." He said, finally dropping his eyes to his own feet. She wasn't sure why he was confiding in her, but she wouldn't object. "Anakin? He wanted you to train Anakin?" she asked. "Yes, and I can't. I'm not even a knight yet! Sabe, I can't train Anakin!" he said. She could feel the lack of confidence that usually filled his voice. "Kenobi, you just need to talk to the Council. You never know what they might say. They might let you train Anakin because you lost Qui-Gon. They might feel they should let you train him because that is what Qui-Gon wanted. He did promise Anakin would be a Jedi. He can't break that promise. The council will let you." She said again trying to assure him. "No, Sabe don't you get it? I can't train Anakin! I'm not ready mentally! I just lost my master, and too soon at that! This was my test and I failed Qui-Gon! I would be an embarrassment to him!" Obi-Wan shouted. Sabe shook her head. "No, Obi-Wan you were not a failure to him! You would make him so proud, you wouldn't embarrass him! You defeated that thing, even though Qui-Gon couldn't! He wouldn't want you to be feeling this way. He would want you to keep that promise! Or at least make an attempt at it. He wouldn't want you to waste your life in mourning! You must move on." She stated, hoping to restart his mind, to put his heart back in place, for a Jedi at least.
"I. I know you are right. I should be moving on. I'm a Jedi, I'm supposed to be better than this. I just can't get the picture of the Sith, that thing, cutting my master down. It's forever burned into my memory and it will forever plague me. I just don't understand how to start again, to move on. I've never felt so responsible for someone I know so well's death before. I can't get the feeling out of my head, that if perhaps if I had done something different, he would still be alive. I could have saved him if I acted different." He said. Sabe looked deep into the Jedi's eyes and saw guilt and a dark chill of.jealousy there? "Or, you could have died, leaving Qui-Gon behind. I think that it is harder to be the one left after a death then to one who leaves. You are feeling guilt and sorrow while the other is in peace. Qui-Gon would have been crushed if you had died and you know it. He would have moved on though, in the end. And so shall you. You'll move on and except the unordinary situation you have had placed before you and make the best of it. So what if you have a padawan, deal with it." Sabe said and she saw some of that guilt die out but small flickers still remained buried in those eyes. The jealousy she didn't understand still stayed there.
"Come with me Obi-Wan, let's wait for the Jedi to arrive. They should be arriving any minute now. The Jedi responding were not far away and were not coming from Courscant so they should be close. Come with me Obi-Wan. The guard will make sure that Jedi master Qui-Gon Jinn is properly taken care of." Sabe said. The guards nodded at Obi-Wan. Obi-Wan rose his head and nodded. "Yes, I will come with you." Obi-Wan said. They headed for the exit. Before they could leave, Master Mace Windu, Master Plo Koon, and Master Yoda entered.
Soon a while later, before Obi-Wan really comprehended what had happened, he was standing at Qui-Gon's funeral watching his master being cremated. She wasn't sure how it had all happened. It had all went over her head and she was sure it was the same with Obi-Wan. Anakin stood teary eyed, next to Obi-Wan. Obi- Wan was solemn faced and showed no emotion. After the funeral and the final good byes, Obi-Wan and Anakin exited and headed for the royal corridors they were staying in at the palace. Sabe had been wondering if she would be able to talk to him again. She left with The Queen, handmaiden Rabe, and Handmaiden Tachi. The Queen turned to Sabe. "You are truly grim. I understand we just attended a funeral, but you seem very sad, very attached to Qui-Gon. But something tells me it wasn't Qui-Gon you were mourning for. Sabe, are you attached to Knight Kenobi?" the queen asked.
Obi-Wan had been knighted and Anakin had been named his Padawan. Obi-Wan seemed to except this now and was beginning to except what his master had asked him. Anakin was beginning to adjust to Jedi life and a life at the temple. Everything was going all right, but her feelings for Obi-Wan were not fading and she was afraid that would cause problems. "No, no of coarse not your highness. No, I'm not attached to the Jedi." Sabe said as confidently as she could. Padme stared her down. "Sabe, you've been my friend for a long time. You've never been very good at lying to me, for I see right through it. Do not lie to me please Sabe, just tell me." Padme said. Sabe sighed and stopped as they neared the palace. Padme motioned for Rabe and Tachi along with security to move back and cover from a distance so privacy was possible.
Sabe sighed. "No I'm not very good at lying. If I can fool someone then they are really thick headed. I'm not really attached but I." she trailed off. "You like him." Padme said for her. "Yes, well mostly and I just was afraid that it would interfere with, uh work." She rambled and Padme had picked something up in her tone. "You. love him Sabe. You love him don't you?" she asked. She had dropped her formal attitude and was speaking to Sabe as a good friend, not a leader. She sounded very sincere and she appeared to really want to help her friend. "Yes, Padme I think I do. I'm so sorry. I'm disgracing you for feeling such things. My allegiance is to you Padme, I promise. I'll get over this infatuation." She said as much to herself as Padme. "Does he return this love?" Padme asked. "Well, that's one problem. You see, he doesn't know. that I like him." She said staring at her feet. Padme laughed. "Well, maybe you do have a slight problem, but not with me. Rabe has a soon to be husband and Tachi has a boyfriend. You are not the first, nor will you be the last, handmaiden to fall in love. There isn't anything wrong with them being in love and there is nothing wrong for you. Why can't you fall in love Sabe? Would that be so wrong?" Padme chided her gently. "Because I'm you main decoy, protection, you main bodyguard! I'm the one who takes your place in times of danger. My time needs to be here with you. I can't be taking time of for a love!" Sabe cried out. Padme started walking again and Sabe walked with her.
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