To all my personal friends, soon I'm going to be getting into like love scenes and romance stuff and I want to tell you something. If you are going to say something mean or make fun of me for my romantic writing ability (or lack of it) don't bother. I may soon write something P-13, I don't know.

A Second Chance: Chapter Five

Obi-Wan awoke at six o'clock in the morning after having slept his first night at the Jedi Temple with a padawan. He rose out of bed and quickly dressed. Anakin was still asleep with his door shut in the other part of the quarters they now shared. Obi-Wan slipped out of the room and headed for the commons. He was going to get a quick breakfast and then head for the room of a Thousand Fountains. He was half way down the hallway when he felt a ripple in the force. It wasn't a bad ripple, almost as if someone had called him or. thought of him. Only Qui-Gon had been able to call him through the Force before. He didn't think that Anakin would be able to call him through the Force yet. He and Anakin had not spent enough time together, not nearly enough time together yet, to form a training bond.

He went further down the hall with his mind still dwelling on the feeling. He was wondering in someone had thought of him really strongly or something that could have made him feel it. But he couldn't think of anyone whose thoughts would be dwelling on him so strongly. It wasn't a close contact feeling. It felt as though it had originated far away from him. As he neared the commons and heard the mummer of other Jedi having their morning meals, he decided that he must just have imagined it.

He got into the short line to get a tray to place his food on. He grabbed and apple and a small glass of tea. He looked around to see if any of his friends were here. He spotted his best friend Bant Eerin. She smiled at him and waved him over. He sat down at the table next to her. "Good morning Obi- Wan! You just missed Garen and Reeft. We've been wanting to talk to you sense you got back. We all got the feeling you were avoiding us." Bant said. Obi-Wan nodded. "I was. I didn't want to talk to anyone, I'm still not sure if I want to talk." He said. "They told me to tell you if I saw you first how sorry they were about Qui-Gon. I'm so sorry Obi-Wan, I can only imagine how you feel." She said placing her hand on his shoulder. "You don't want to know how it feels. I was there and saw it happen. I don't think it will ever leave my mind. But please don't pity me. Everyone looks at me in the hall and all I see in their eyes is pity. Some look at you with grief or sorrow showing but it's always replaced by pity. I've had enough pity." Obi-Wan said glancing downward. "What is going to happen to you now? Do you think they will let you take the trials?" Bant said, obviously deeply concerned. "Apparently you haven't heard. Bant, I've been knighted." He said and he heard her gasp. "You were knighted? No wonder you were avoiding us! How does it feel?" Bant said, trying to lighten the conversation. "It would have been nice if not for such a dark reason. Bant, my master was killed and he asked of me one thing before he died. He asked me to train Anakin Skywalker, the boy we discovered on the way to Courscant, and the boy Qui-Gon believed so strongly in. The boy Qui-Gon tried to take as his padawan. I would have been pushed aside, but instead I've been asked to train him for my master. And of coarse, I promised him that I would. Not only am I knighted, but I now. have a Padawan." Obi-Wan said. Bant just stared at him with her jaw hanging open. "Obi-Wan, I'm so sorry. I didn't know, I hadn't heard anything like that. You have a padawan now?" Bant said it more like a statement to herself then a question to him. "I am trying to come to terms with what has happened, but I don't feel ready. Just a few days ago, I was a padawan. Now I am a master! I'm not ready to be a master, I don't know how! I feel.jealousy at my own padawan! I feel jealousy of my padawan because Qui-Gon's last thoughts and words to me were about.Anakin. They had nothing to do with me; it was about what I needed to do for 'the boy'." He hung his head, and tried to regain his control and his composure. Bant again was silent. At last she spoke. "Obi- Wan, I have no words of comfort for you. You've been my best friend sense we were little children. I wish I could think of something that would give you confidence, in yourself, but I can't think of anything to say. You will need to find that confidence on your own. I will do what I can to help you on the way, but you will need to be strong to get through this." She spoke clear and calm and acted as though it was not only right, but also what he had to do. He nodded his head. He then began to rise. "I'm going to the room of a Thousand Fountains. Maybe it will aid me in my search for what I need to get through this. May the Force be with you Bant." He said. "May the Force be with you always Obi-Wan." Bant replied. He turned and left. He had never had such a hard conversation with his friend and he prayed he would never again have to have one as difficult.

He entered the room of a Thousand Fountains. He found Qui-Gon's favorite bench and sat down. Qui-Gon always favored this bench because of how the water flew through the air at that bench. Obi-Wan sat down and let his fingers run all over the bench. He thought of all the times he had sat with Qui-Gon here before, he thought about how he hadn't savored the moment and had let it slip through his fingers. He had taken Qui-Gon's time for granted. He hadn't realized that once he was knighted he wouldn't ever be seeing Qui-Gon again. He let the water drift onto his face and tried to draw it all in. he tried to remember Qui-Gon here, sitting next to him. He could almost feel Qui-Gon sitting next to him. The problem was, he could almost feel Qui-Gon, almost. He had hoped maybe being here, at one of Qui- Gon's favored spots, he might feel closer to him. "I never got to say my good bye Qui-Gon. How can you move on without a proper goodbye?" Obi-Wan asked. He could nearly hear Qui-Gon saying, "What other choice do you have?" Obi-Wan turned to reply, but was reminded. Reminded that no matter how close her felt to Qui-Gon he would never hear Qui-Gon laugh or see him smile again. The worst part was, no matter how long Obi-Wan thought of Qui-Gon next to him, the seat next to him would always remain.empty.

How was that? It was an attempt to make you somewhat sad yet not make you cry. How did I do? Please tell me. I've been at a real tough time for writing and I could really use some advice, feedback, or comments. Thank you for reading this. Please do continue it the future, the near future. THANKS! And please review!!!

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