The Demon Within
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I was so scared, my heart was beating rapidly, yet I felt cold beads of terror trickled down my forehead. My palms felt damp. I gulped in sheer fright, as thoughts of my fate darted through my mind. Tied down to a slab of stone, my arms and legs were shackled down. Arms extended so that they were parallel to the ground. My legs spread apart. This pose reminded me of a stick figure. An object I remember getting in trouble for drawing as a child. Then again it could've been because I had drew them all over my sister Luna's bedroom walls. That was years ago, yet she's still angry about it. But back to the point. I was only 5 when I first had that dream, and what I thought then was I'm to young to die! Each time I dreamed it, there was a monster looming over me, at the time (when I was still young) I didn't know it, but that demon was Shabrinigdo.. the dark lord of the monster race.
It wasn't until part of him was released from within Rezo that I realized that each time I had that dream, he was trying to take over my mind. my body, and my soul. Just like he had done to the red priest. I had had that dream every night since age 5, except as I grew older so did the me in the dream, and each time, the dark lord tortured me in my sleep. Trying to break me, that was 13 years ago.
Now I've gotten to the point where I'm terrified to go to sleep, scared of the demon that haunts my sacred place, my innocent dreams. Well not so innocent now, now that they've been tainted. Feeling pain, loss, depression and desolation, and hopelessness in my dreams, all caused by one creature. The dark lord Shabrinigdo. Now at the age of 18 (duh 5+13=18), I'm still being haunted by that demon. In fact it got worse after we destroyed a fragment of it, the remaining pieces gathered in my dreams. I couldn't let them take over. Couldn't let them hurt my friends. Gourry, Amelia, Zel, Celia, even Xellos and Naga. But the dark lord feeds on terror and pain, so each passing day he grew stronger. And I weaker.. loosing hope. Funny that I, the great Lina Inverse, the sorcery genius. Greatest sorceress of all time was afraid to die, or in this case surrender to Ruby-eyed Shabrinigdo. I guess this is the price to pay for calling upon his powers.
Day by day I was loosing hope, how could anything defeat the dark lord? But these dismal thoughts were the prime source of power for the evil being. And so, I tried to act happy yet angry. Playful and full of life. I used my aggression to show how much I cared for others. This succeeded in stopping Shabrinigdo's feast for a time. I was sure Xellos knew about it, sure that he knew the cure. and it often made me wonder, if he truly was a friend, or if he was only helping me because if the dark lord wasn't stopped, I would be his future master.
That man, he always seemed to ignite a submerged fury inside of me, with his comments of it's a secret. He knew how to destroy Shabridigdo.. Yet he wouldn't tell me. So many times I had tried to draw it from him by threatening him. But he knew me to well, knew that I wouldn't kill him. I'm known as the renowned sorceress, Lina Inverse. The bandit killer, dragon slayer. even the enemy of all who live. People thought I took pride in these names, because I'd merely smirk at it, wouldn't deny it. But in truth I hated it, hated that it reminded me that I was a murderer. When ever I look at my hands, I find them filthy, tainted.. Soiled with blood. Yet even though I have killed so many, even though I have such a great reputation. I hated it all, I felt so ashamed of my actions. I had always regretted killing anyone. I lost count of how many dreams I've had about those people I slaughtered. I don't kill for fun, despite what others think. I slay to punish, and to save my friends. That is why I couldn't bring myself to destroy Xellos, or even harm him. It just wasn't in my nature.
And because he wouldn't tell me.I suffered. I always wondered if L-sama was up there, taking amusement in my pain. I knew full well that I'd always been her prime source of amusement. Lately my dreams have gotten worse.. is this a sign? Is the dark lord soon to be resurrected? My greatest fear was that somehow, someone would find a way to release Shabrinigdo from his prison inside my shell of a body. That he would rise again, and I helpless to stop it, used as a pawn and doll. and flung aside just as Rezo had.
Zelgadiss knows as well, he had tried to destroy the entity with his shamanic powers in the astro plain, hoping beyond hope that it would work. But it failed. He had promised me, after I had to literally force it out of him. that if the being inside of me ever became out of control, he'd kill me. to spare the innocents the pain.. and spare me from knowing that I had unleashed it into the world I had tried so hard to protect. That's the irony of it. as a master sorceress, I had always tried to protect the innocent, while gaining a reputation and good for myself. I would never turn away from an obstacle if the world was at steak. But now, I myself am the obstacle.. and for the first time since my sister, Luna's fury. I'm afraid.
What shall happen to me? And what shall I do? This is the time when I wish I was still a child and that my parents were alive. Wish I had someone to embrace me, stroke my hair and build that shield of protectiveness for me. Zelgadiss is my only comfort. He does the best he can to help me through this hell. He created amulets to magnify my powers, so as to subdue the beast for the time being. But his friend ship is not enough. I still feel so lonely and afraid. Maybe this is what is making the dark lord stronger. Of course, Gourry and Amelia are oblivious to my pain. And Cilia. she know. and she is pitying me yet she had given me no comfort. According the she- dragon, it's a fate I justly deserve. for my evil actions. Sounds to much like Amelia to my liking. Some friends I have.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*To Be Continued*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Well that was the prologue. This entire section was just some of Lina's thoughts, and explains the major predicament of the story. I'm not really sure if I should continue or not. Please send me your ideas!
~Falconess
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*Prologue*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
I was so scared, my heart was beating rapidly, yet I felt cold beads of terror trickled down my forehead. My palms felt damp. I gulped in sheer fright, as thoughts of my fate darted through my mind. Tied down to a slab of stone, my arms and legs were shackled down. Arms extended so that they were parallel to the ground. My legs spread apart. This pose reminded me of a stick figure. An object I remember getting in trouble for drawing as a child. Then again it could've been because I had drew them all over my sister Luna's bedroom walls. That was years ago, yet she's still angry about it. But back to the point. I was only 5 when I first had that dream, and what I thought then was I'm to young to die! Each time I dreamed it, there was a monster looming over me, at the time (when I was still young) I didn't know it, but that demon was Shabrinigdo.. the dark lord of the monster race.
It wasn't until part of him was released from within Rezo that I realized that each time I had that dream, he was trying to take over my mind. my body, and my soul. Just like he had done to the red priest. I had had that dream every night since age 5, except as I grew older so did the me in the dream, and each time, the dark lord tortured me in my sleep. Trying to break me, that was 13 years ago.
Now I've gotten to the point where I'm terrified to go to sleep, scared of the demon that haunts my sacred place, my innocent dreams. Well not so innocent now, now that they've been tainted. Feeling pain, loss, depression and desolation, and hopelessness in my dreams, all caused by one creature. The dark lord Shabrinigdo. Now at the age of 18 (duh 5+13=18), I'm still being haunted by that demon. In fact it got worse after we destroyed a fragment of it, the remaining pieces gathered in my dreams. I couldn't let them take over. Couldn't let them hurt my friends. Gourry, Amelia, Zel, Celia, even Xellos and Naga. But the dark lord feeds on terror and pain, so each passing day he grew stronger. And I weaker.. loosing hope. Funny that I, the great Lina Inverse, the sorcery genius. Greatest sorceress of all time was afraid to die, or in this case surrender to Ruby-eyed Shabrinigdo. I guess this is the price to pay for calling upon his powers.
Day by day I was loosing hope, how could anything defeat the dark lord? But these dismal thoughts were the prime source of power for the evil being. And so, I tried to act happy yet angry. Playful and full of life. I used my aggression to show how much I cared for others. This succeeded in stopping Shabrinigdo's feast for a time. I was sure Xellos knew about it, sure that he knew the cure. and it often made me wonder, if he truly was a friend, or if he was only helping me because if the dark lord wasn't stopped, I would be his future master.
That man, he always seemed to ignite a submerged fury inside of me, with his comments of it's a secret. He knew how to destroy Shabridigdo.. Yet he wouldn't tell me. So many times I had tried to draw it from him by threatening him. But he knew me to well, knew that I wouldn't kill him. I'm known as the renowned sorceress, Lina Inverse. The bandit killer, dragon slayer. even the enemy of all who live. People thought I took pride in these names, because I'd merely smirk at it, wouldn't deny it. But in truth I hated it, hated that it reminded me that I was a murderer. When ever I look at my hands, I find them filthy, tainted.. Soiled with blood. Yet even though I have killed so many, even though I have such a great reputation. I hated it all, I felt so ashamed of my actions. I had always regretted killing anyone. I lost count of how many dreams I've had about those people I slaughtered. I don't kill for fun, despite what others think. I slay to punish, and to save my friends. That is why I couldn't bring myself to destroy Xellos, or even harm him. It just wasn't in my nature.
And because he wouldn't tell me.I suffered. I always wondered if L-sama was up there, taking amusement in my pain. I knew full well that I'd always been her prime source of amusement. Lately my dreams have gotten worse.. is this a sign? Is the dark lord soon to be resurrected? My greatest fear was that somehow, someone would find a way to release Shabrinigdo from his prison inside my shell of a body. That he would rise again, and I helpless to stop it, used as a pawn and doll. and flung aside just as Rezo had.
Zelgadiss knows as well, he had tried to destroy the entity with his shamanic powers in the astro plain, hoping beyond hope that it would work. But it failed. He had promised me, after I had to literally force it out of him. that if the being inside of me ever became out of control, he'd kill me. to spare the innocents the pain.. and spare me from knowing that I had unleashed it into the world I had tried so hard to protect. That's the irony of it. as a master sorceress, I had always tried to protect the innocent, while gaining a reputation and good for myself. I would never turn away from an obstacle if the world was at steak. But now, I myself am the obstacle.. and for the first time since my sister, Luna's fury. I'm afraid.
What shall happen to me? And what shall I do? This is the time when I wish I was still a child and that my parents were alive. Wish I had someone to embrace me, stroke my hair and build that shield of protectiveness for me. Zelgadiss is my only comfort. He does the best he can to help me through this hell. He created amulets to magnify my powers, so as to subdue the beast for the time being. But his friend ship is not enough. I still feel so lonely and afraid. Maybe this is what is making the dark lord stronger. Of course, Gourry and Amelia are oblivious to my pain. And Cilia. she know. and she is pitying me yet she had given me no comfort. According the she- dragon, it's a fate I justly deserve. for my evil actions. Sounds to much like Amelia to my liking. Some friends I have.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*To Be Continued*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Well that was the prologue. This entire section was just some of Lina's thoughts, and explains the major predicament of the story. I'm not really sure if I should continue or not. Please send me your ideas!
~Falconess
