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Jan 1st-

I couldn't believe it. I was the father of two of the most beautiful twins, and I couldn't go anywhere near them. Of course I wanted to respect Carol's wishes and keep my distance, but how could I? I already have a son's whose life I wasn't a part of, I couldn't do that again.

I know Carol is trying to be strong, for both her and my girls but I know in my heart that she needs me, or is that me that needs her?

I spent months on my boat trying to figure out what in the hell I was doing here. What I was doing without her.

I lie awake at night

I try but can't deny

That I can make it without her

I can't forget the day

I let her slip away

And I'm still dreaming about her

Can her heart forgive?

'Cause I just can't live without her

Jan 12th-

I have a good job here, and value the friends that I have made, but this place it doesn't even hold a candle to County, not to the people that I have worked in day in and day out. And every time that I catch myself thinking about County, my thoughts always drift back to her.

The next time you see my girl

Wont you say that I

I would die to hold her

The next time you see my girl

Won't you tell her I love her?

The next time you see my girl

Jan 19th -

I have dated once or twice, and I know old mark would laugh a me if I ever said I out loud, and probably recommend me for a psych consult, but I just can't do it. I just can't date other women knowing that the one woman that I do want, that I do need, doesn't feel the same way.

I walk the streets at night

See lovers passing by

And it's all a reminder

Of what it used to be

When she was hear with me

I only wish I could find her

Did she disappear?

'Cause I've waited right hear for her

Jan 21st-

I know that I'm being a stubborn jack-ass but I just can't bring myself to go after her. I don't know, maybe I'm just afraid of the fact that she probably moved one, and that my girls are calling someone else daddy.

The next time you see my girl

Wont you say that I

I would die to hold her

The next time you see my girl

Won't you tell her I love her?

The next time you see my girl

Feb 2nd-

It's driving me crazy. I can't sleep at night. I know it sounds crazy, but every time I close my eyes, I see her face. I see Carol, our girls, and some guy that she is hanging all over. They all look so happy together and it just makes me sick to think, that if I had stayed in Chicago, that if I'd stayed for her, then that guy could have been me.

I close my eyes

See her face and I realize

I had it all but I set her free

So next time you see my girl

Feb 12th-

She sent me a picture of them today. God, they are getting so big. Almost three months old today and they are looking more and more like their mother. But I realized something today. That if I do go back to Chicago, that I wouldn't be going back because I feel responsible for taking care of my daughters, okay well that would be a part of the reason, but the real reason I would go back, is to find the girl I left behind.

Ooh won't you tell her that I'm sorry

And tell her that I love her

The next time you see my girl

The next time you see my girl

Won't you tell her I love her?

(The next time you see my baby)

The next time you see my girl

Won't you tell her that I love her?

The next time you see my girl

Won't you tell her that I'm sorry I love her?

The next time you see my girl.

Feb 20th-

So to anyone who might see the girl that I left behind, just tell her that I love her, and tell her that I'm sorry.

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