Chapter 13- The Ex Factor
Summary- Yea I know the story seems a bit...stuck but I'm working on it. In this chap we meet Darla, Angel's first girlfriend and he and Buffy get into a fight. There are only a few chapters left in this story before I end it so uh...enjoy. Song is 'Love You More' by the BUZZCOCKS. Oh and the band 'No Refuge' aren't a real band. If any of you have a band by that name it's just coincidence cause I made it up. Sappy romance stuff at the end I'm trying to make up for all the angst in the last few chapters. Oh and Angel's grand mom is in this chapter!
Disclaimer- Not mine. Joss and Mutant Enemy own them. The song is 'Love you More' by a great punk rock and the BUZZCOCKS. You should buy their records if you want to hear some good punk.
I'm in love again
Been like this before
I'm in love again
This time's true I'm sure
Don't wanna end up like no nine day wonder
I've been hurt so many times before
So my darlin' I will never leave you
It's in my blood to always love you more
Love you more
It's my heart again
That drives me so wild
I just can't explain
Although I'm not a child
So why would I cry if you ever left me
Maybe 'cos you're all I'm livin' for
With every heartbeat I want you madly
It's in my blood to always love you more
Love you more
Oh my love again
What I say is true
Though it may sound plain
I love you
And it means more to me than life can offer
And if this isn't true love then I am sure
That after this love there'll be no other
Until the razor cuts
'Love you more' the BUZZCOCKS
The Rat's Nest was alive with the thunderous sound of 'No Refuge' blaring. Buffy sat next to Willow watching the performance. The boys were off moshing or something like that. They had walked away and Buffy didn't know where they had gone.
"So then when we were at his house is mom came home and started to yell and..." Buffy had given up trying to follow Willow's story and just nodded politely. The girl was like a Cheetah on Speed. She scanned the club and tried to spot her boyfriend but she didn't see him anywhere. Sighing she looked down at her soda
"Willow, Buffy" Wesley said politely slipping into a chair.
"Hey Wes"
"Hi Wesley" Buffy said quietly. Things still weren't perfect between her and Wesley but they were better. He smiled at her and scanned the club. The British boy was wearing a black 'Minor Threat' shirt and blue workpants.
"Where is Angel?" Wesley asked trying to prevent an awkward silence that often happened when he and Buffy were alone.
"I don't know he disappeared awhile ago with Gunn," she said. Wesley nodded
"William?
"He's not here, visiting his mom," she explained easily rocking her head to the beat of the music. Lately she had been coming to 'The Rat's Nest' a lot more often and was starting to appreciate her boyfriend's musical taste a lot more. That first time William had put on the 'Pennywise' tape in the car she had heard nothing but loud noise but now she was starting to understand the whole 'Punk' culture a lot more. She felt a heck of a lot more comfortable with this scene then her old one even though she knew she was not a hardcore punk girl but that was okay. She liked who she was for once and didn't want to change it.
Angel got up from where he was sitting with Gunn and a few of the guys from Oz's band.
"I have to get back to my girlfriend," he said guiltily already feeling bad for leaving Bufy alone this long.
"Tell Willow I'll be over in a minute" Oz asked from where he was engaged in a very deep conversation about guitar with one of his band mates.
"Sure"
"Oh my if it isn't Angel Donnelly" a new voice said slowly. Angel froze where he stood and turned to face her. Darla Simmons. Bitch of the year. She made Cordelia look like a saint. And she was his ex-girlfriend. She had long blonde hair and blue eyes. She was hot but not like Buffy. Bufy was naturally beautiful. Darla was hot in a slutty kind of way. She was fake from her eyes to her chest but she carried this whole 'punk' attitude but the truth was that she was the most material person he had ever met. He hadn't realized that until it had been too late. They had been too far into the relationship and he had been too far obsessed with her. He wasn't sure why but he had been infatuated with her. And she broke his heart. He went over her house and had found her with two different guys having sex in her mom's living room. So now he stood staring at her. She looked the same as always. Darla wore a short leather skirt and a black 'Casualties' t-shirt and spiked cuffs. She had the image she just didn't have the personality.
"What are you doing here?" he gritted out thinking of Buffy just over at their table. She didn't need to know about Darla.
"Just come to see you my boy," she whispered getting closer. Angel took a step backwards.
"Well you saw now leave and I'm not your boy anymore" he said angrily starting to walk away but she followed him.
"Angel I know you want me" she purred. Her voice made Angel sick. He couldn't' believe he had ever even been attracted to her. She was a poser bitch.
"Well if it isn't slut of the year Darla Simmons" Faith commented walking up to stand beside Angel.
"Hello Faith how's that loser boyfriend of yours? What's his name? Dander?" Darla asked with a disgusted voice. Her and Faith had never gotten along.
"His name is Xander" Faith said angrily. Angel put his hand on her shoulder. Faith had a bad temper when it came to people insulting those she cared for.
"Oh whatever. I came here to see Angel not you"
"Yea well Angel's got a new girlfriend slutty and he loves her unlike you!" Faith shot.
"Is this true Angel? You've found a replacement?" Darla asked with an amused smile
"She's not a replacement. She's a whole new phase of my life Darla. I would never want to be with anyone like you again. I love Buffy and you are not going to ruin what I have with her. Now leave"
"No I want to meet her. Where is she? Is that her sitting with the babbling fool Willow?" Darla pushed past Angel and made her way toward the table. Angel went after her but they had already caught Buffy's attention. She got up and started walking towards him. Buffy was surprised when the taller blonde girl stepped in front of her.
"Who are you?" she asked
"I'm Darla. Angel's first lover" Darla leered in Buffy's face. Angel could have killed her the minute he heard those words. He got in between the two and put Buffy behind him
"Listen to me Darla. Get out of here. I don't want to see you again ever. You speak to any of my people and I won't hold Faith back next time" he said pointing to the angry brunette. Darla just smirked
"This isn't over yet Angel," she whispered before walking out of the club.
"Who was she?" Buffy asked.
"She...I...can we go outside?" Angel asked. Buffy nodded and followed him outside of the club.
Once outside Angel put his hands in his pockets and tried to figure out what to say to her.
"Is what she said true? Did you sleep with her?" Buffy asked in a small voice. Angel slowly nodded
"It was way before you moved her Buffy. I broke up with her...rather she dumped me for two guys in June. Her name's Darla she was my first girlfriend my only other girlfriend beside you" he explained hoping she wouldn't ask anything else. But Buffy continued
"How long did you date her?"
"Five months. We started dating right after my sixteenth birthday. I didn't realize.... she's fake. Everything about Darla is fake, not to mention she's two years older then me. I was obsessed with her for a while. I mean I was just glad to have someone and then slowly I started to realize what a bad person she was. I mean she's genuinely a bad person. But we were to far into it. I was afraid to break up with her. I was afraid to be alone so I stayed with her and then in June I went over her house and found her having sex with two guys" he finished. Buffy didn't know what to think. Obviously Darla had been a big part of Angel's life. Five-month relationship's meant something. At least when you were 16 they did. But he did seem to regret ever being with her.
"Did you love her?" she asked after a moment. His eyes got wide
"No Baby.... Buffy you are the only girl I have ever loved. The only girl I will ever love" he said urgently taking a step closer to her. She stepped back
"Then how come you never told me about her?" she asked insecurely crossing her arms over herself.
"I just thought it would be better..."
"If I never knew you were...experienced?" she asked.
"Is that what this is about? Sex?" he asked softly
"I want to go home," she said forcefully ignoring his question
"Buffy..."
"No just please take me home". He stared at her for a minute before starting to walk to the car.
Angel tried talking to her several times in the car but Buffy stayed quiet. Eventually he gave up and turned the radio up high. He couldn't believe she was angry with him because he never told her he had slept with Darla. He figured it wasn't something she would want to know. He stopped in front of her house and as she climbed out he asked
"You trust me don't you?"
"I do but I don't think you trust me" she said walking away from the car. Angel watched her go with a baffled expression.
Angel paced his bedroom floor trying desperately to think of what he should do. He had tried calling Buffy's house but Crystal had told him she was asleep even though he knew she wasn't. He trusted her. He trusted her more then he trusted anyone else. He loved her! Sighing he laid down on his bed and covered his face.
"Troubles?" a voice asked. He looked up and smiled at his grand mom who stood in the doorway. Age had left the woman with wrinkles on her face but it was easy to tell she had been very beautiful in her youth. Angel had always thought his grand mom looked like a lady who should wear fancy dresses and sip wine in a mansion. But instead she wore K-mart clothes and was a mother to her three grandchildren in a little house in Sunnydale.
"Yea"
"Tell me about them"
"No thanks" he said with a small grin. He had not told his grand mom about Buffy because well she was...overprotective. She would want to meet Buffy and talk to her and show her baby pictures that no one should ever see.
"It wasn't a suggestion it was an order," she said with a raised eyebrow. He laughed and then shrugged
"Girlfriend problems"
"Girlfriend? I wasn't aware you had a girlfriend"
"I know. Well anyway this girl...her names Buffy. She...I love her" he admitted. His grandmother looked at him seriously for a minute before smiling
"Doesn't sound like much of a trouble to me"
"She thinks I don't trust her," he said in confusion.
"Why?"
"Because I didn't tell her about Darla" the older woman shivered at the name. She had always hated the girl and it took a lot for her to hate someone.
"Why didn't you?" she asked
'Because I didn't think she would want to know"
"When she's right for thinking you don't trust her"
"What? You're supposed to be on my side. I do trust her," he said sitting up. She smirked at him
"I am always on your side Angel but you need to understand where she's coming from. Teenage girls are sensitive about certain things. Just talk to her she'll understand. And then I want to meet her". Angel smiled at his grandma as she left the room. He didn't know what he would do without her.
Buffy heard the tapping at her window and sat up. When she saw the person there she lay back down and curled into the comforter.
"Knock knock" he said opening the window and peering inside.
"I'm sleeping," she grumbled trying to make him go away. It didn't work. She heard him climb inside and felt him sit on the side of the bed. It was quiet for a long time and she wondered he was he was doing but finally he began to speak
"You don't think I trust you. I can see where you would get that from but...I trust you more then anyone else in my life and coming from me that's big. I never trusted anyone easily. I didn't tell you about Darla because I'm embarrassed. I'm embarrassed of the things I did with her and to be honest I wish that I could take it all back. I wish I hadn't lost my virginity to her cause that's something I would much rather share with you but... I didn't tell you because I felt bad about what I did with her, I felt dirty. But I don't understand how you can think I don't trust you? You're the one I came to after what happened with my dad, I came to you for help after I almost killed myself. How can you not think I trust you?" he asked. For the first time he noticed Bufy had rolled over and was looking at him
"I just...I felt better thinking we were on the same level. I'm a virgin Angel and I just...I don't know when I'm going to be ready and I don't want you to be...frustrated with me" she said in a small insecure voice. Angel shook his head
"Buffy...I love you. I'll never be frustrated with you because of that. When you're ready you're ready. I mean I want you to wait until your ready because I didn't wait and I wish it had never happened. When we do that it will be special and I'm willing to wait till whenever that is," he said softly looking her right in the eyes.
"That was so sweet" she gushed pulling his close to lie next to her on the bed. Angel smiled and wrapped his arm around her
"So you're not mad at me anymore?"
"No and I was never mad at you" she said snuggling up to his chest. They sat there in silence for a minute before Angel said
"Oh yea my grand mom wants to meet you"
Summary- Yea I know the story seems a bit...stuck but I'm working on it. In this chap we meet Darla, Angel's first girlfriend and he and Buffy get into a fight. There are only a few chapters left in this story before I end it so uh...enjoy. Song is 'Love You More' by the BUZZCOCKS. Oh and the band 'No Refuge' aren't a real band. If any of you have a band by that name it's just coincidence cause I made it up. Sappy romance stuff at the end I'm trying to make up for all the angst in the last few chapters. Oh and Angel's grand mom is in this chapter!
Disclaimer- Not mine. Joss and Mutant Enemy own them. The song is 'Love you More' by a great punk rock and the BUZZCOCKS. You should buy their records if you want to hear some good punk.
I'm in love again
Been like this before
I'm in love again
This time's true I'm sure
Don't wanna end up like no nine day wonder
I've been hurt so many times before
So my darlin' I will never leave you
It's in my blood to always love you more
Love you more
It's my heart again
That drives me so wild
I just can't explain
Although I'm not a child
So why would I cry if you ever left me
Maybe 'cos you're all I'm livin' for
With every heartbeat I want you madly
It's in my blood to always love you more
Love you more
Oh my love again
What I say is true
Though it may sound plain
I love you
And it means more to me than life can offer
And if this isn't true love then I am sure
That after this love there'll be no other
Until the razor cuts
'Love you more' the BUZZCOCKS
The Rat's Nest was alive with the thunderous sound of 'No Refuge' blaring. Buffy sat next to Willow watching the performance. The boys were off moshing or something like that. They had walked away and Buffy didn't know where they had gone.
"So then when we were at his house is mom came home and started to yell and..." Buffy had given up trying to follow Willow's story and just nodded politely. The girl was like a Cheetah on Speed. She scanned the club and tried to spot her boyfriend but she didn't see him anywhere. Sighing she looked down at her soda
"Willow, Buffy" Wesley said politely slipping into a chair.
"Hey Wes"
"Hi Wesley" Buffy said quietly. Things still weren't perfect between her and Wesley but they were better. He smiled at her and scanned the club. The British boy was wearing a black 'Minor Threat' shirt and blue workpants.
"Where is Angel?" Wesley asked trying to prevent an awkward silence that often happened when he and Buffy were alone.
"I don't know he disappeared awhile ago with Gunn," she said. Wesley nodded
"William?
"He's not here, visiting his mom," she explained easily rocking her head to the beat of the music. Lately she had been coming to 'The Rat's Nest' a lot more often and was starting to appreciate her boyfriend's musical taste a lot more. That first time William had put on the 'Pennywise' tape in the car she had heard nothing but loud noise but now she was starting to understand the whole 'Punk' culture a lot more. She felt a heck of a lot more comfortable with this scene then her old one even though she knew she was not a hardcore punk girl but that was okay. She liked who she was for once and didn't want to change it.
Angel got up from where he was sitting with Gunn and a few of the guys from Oz's band.
"I have to get back to my girlfriend," he said guiltily already feeling bad for leaving Bufy alone this long.
"Tell Willow I'll be over in a minute" Oz asked from where he was engaged in a very deep conversation about guitar with one of his band mates.
"Sure"
"Oh my if it isn't Angel Donnelly" a new voice said slowly. Angel froze where he stood and turned to face her. Darla Simmons. Bitch of the year. She made Cordelia look like a saint. And she was his ex-girlfriend. She had long blonde hair and blue eyes. She was hot but not like Buffy. Bufy was naturally beautiful. Darla was hot in a slutty kind of way. She was fake from her eyes to her chest but she carried this whole 'punk' attitude but the truth was that she was the most material person he had ever met. He hadn't realized that until it had been too late. They had been too far into the relationship and he had been too far obsessed with her. He wasn't sure why but he had been infatuated with her. And she broke his heart. He went over her house and had found her with two different guys having sex in her mom's living room. So now he stood staring at her. She looked the same as always. Darla wore a short leather skirt and a black 'Casualties' t-shirt and spiked cuffs. She had the image she just didn't have the personality.
"What are you doing here?" he gritted out thinking of Buffy just over at their table. She didn't need to know about Darla.
"Just come to see you my boy," she whispered getting closer. Angel took a step backwards.
"Well you saw now leave and I'm not your boy anymore" he said angrily starting to walk away but she followed him.
"Angel I know you want me" she purred. Her voice made Angel sick. He couldn't' believe he had ever even been attracted to her. She was a poser bitch.
"Well if it isn't slut of the year Darla Simmons" Faith commented walking up to stand beside Angel.
"Hello Faith how's that loser boyfriend of yours? What's his name? Dander?" Darla asked with a disgusted voice. Her and Faith had never gotten along.
"His name is Xander" Faith said angrily. Angel put his hand on her shoulder. Faith had a bad temper when it came to people insulting those she cared for.
"Oh whatever. I came here to see Angel not you"
"Yea well Angel's got a new girlfriend slutty and he loves her unlike you!" Faith shot.
"Is this true Angel? You've found a replacement?" Darla asked with an amused smile
"She's not a replacement. She's a whole new phase of my life Darla. I would never want to be with anyone like you again. I love Buffy and you are not going to ruin what I have with her. Now leave"
"No I want to meet her. Where is she? Is that her sitting with the babbling fool Willow?" Darla pushed past Angel and made her way toward the table. Angel went after her but they had already caught Buffy's attention. She got up and started walking towards him. Buffy was surprised when the taller blonde girl stepped in front of her.
"Who are you?" she asked
"I'm Darla. Angel's first lover" Darla leered in Buffy's face. Angel could have killed her the minute he heard those words. He got in between the two and put Buffy behind him
"Listen to me Darla. Get out of here. I don't want to see you again ever. You speak to any of my people and I won't hold Faith back next time" he said pointing to the angry brunette. Darla just smirked
"This isn't over yet Angel," she whispered before walking out of the club.
"Who was she?" Buffy asked.
"She...I...can we go outside?" Angel asked. Buffy nodded and followed him outside of the club.
Once outside Angel put his hands in his pockets and tried to figure out what to say to her.
"Is what she said true? Did you sleep with her?" Buffy asked in a small voice. Angel slowly nodded
"It was way before you moved her Buffy. I broke up with her...rather she dumped me for two guys in June. Her name's Darla she was my first girlfriend my only other girlfriend beside you" he explained hoping she wouldn't ask anything else. But Buffy continued
"How long did you date her?"
"Five months. We started dating right after my sixteenth birthday. I didn't realize.... she's fake. Everything about Darla is fake, not to mention she's two years older then me. I was obsessed with her for a while. I mean I was just glad to have someone and then slowly I started to realize what a bad person she was. I mean she's genuinely a bad person. But we were to far into it. I was afraid to break up with her. I was afraid to be alone so I stayed with her and then in June I went over her house and found her having sex with two guys" he finished. Buffy didn't know what to think. Obviously Darla had been a big part of Angel's life. Five-month relationship's meant something. At least when you were 16 they did. But he did seem to regret ever being with her.
"Did you love her?" she asked after a moment. His eyes got wide
"No Baby.... Buffy you are the only girl I have ever loved. The only girl I will ever love" he said urgently taking a step closer to her. She stepped back
"Then how come you never told me about her?" she asked insecurely crossing her arms over herself.
"I just thought it would be better..."
"If I never knew you were...experienced?" she asked.
"Is that what this is about? Sex?" he asked softly
"I want to go home," she said forcefully ignoring his question
"Buffy..."
"No just please take me home". He stared at her for a minute before starting to walk to the car.
Angel tried talking to her several times in the car but Buffy stayed quiet. Eventually he gave up and turned the radio up high. He couldn't believe she was angry with him because he never told her he had slept with Darla. He figured it wasn't something she would want to know. He stopped in front of her house and as she climbed out he asked
"You trust me don't you?"
"I do but I don't think you trust me" she said walking away from the car. Angel watched her go with a baffled expression.
Angel paced his bedroom floor trying desperately to think of what he should do. He had tried calling Buffy's house but Crystal had told him she was asleep even though he knew she wasn't. He trusted her. He trusted her more then he trusted anyone else. He loved her! Sighing he laid down on his bed and covered his face.
"Troubles?" a voice asked. He looked up and smiled at his grand mom who stood in the doorway. Age had left the woman with wrinkles on her face but it was easy to tell she had been very beautiful in her youth. Angel had always thought his grand mom looked like a lady who should wear fancy dresses and sip wine in a mansion. But instead she wore K-mart clothes and was a mother to her three grandchildren in a little house in Sunnydale.
"Yea"
"Tell me about them"
"No thanks" he said with a small grin. He had not told his grand mom about Buffy because well she was...overprotective. She would want to meet Buffy and talk to her and show her baby pictures that no one should ever see.
"It wasn't a suggestion it was an order," she said with a raised eyebrow. He laughed and then shrugged
"Girlfriend problems"
"Girlfriend? I wasn't aware you had a girlfriend"
"I know. Well anyway this girl...her names Buffy. She...I love her" he admitted. His grandmother looked at him seriously for a minute before smiling
"Doesn't sound like much of a trouble to me"
"She thinks I don't trust her," he said in confusion.
"Why?"
"Because I didn't tell her about Darla" the older woman shivered at the name. She had always hated the girl and it took a lot for her to hate someone.
"Why didn't you?" she asked
'Because I didn't think she would want to know"
"When she's right for thinking you don't trust her"
"What? You're supposed to be on my side. I do trust her," he said sitting up. She smirked at him
"I am always on your side Angel but you need to understand where she's coming from. Teenage girls are sensitive about certain things. Just talk to her she'll understand. And then I want to meet her". Angel smiled at his grandma as she left the room. He didn't know what he would do without her.
Buffy heard the tapping at her window and sat up. When she saw the person there she lay back down and curled into the comforter.
"Knock knock" he said opening the window and peering inside.
"I'm sleeping," she grumbled trying to make him go away. It didn't work. She heard him climb inside and felt him sit on the side of the bed. It was quiet for a long time and she wondered he was he was doing but finally he began to speak
"You don't think I trust you. I can see where you would get that from but...I trust you more then anyone else in my life and coming from me that's big. I never trusted anyone easily. I didn't tell you about Darla because I'm embarrassed. I'm embarrassed of the things I did with her and to be honest I wish that I could take it all back. I wish I hadn't lost my virginity to her cause that's something I would much rather share with you but... I didn't tell you because I felt bad about what I did with her, I felt dirty. But I don't understand how you can think I don't trust you? You're the one I came to after what happened with my dad, I came to you for help after I almost killed myself. How can you not think I trust you?" he asked. For the first time he noticed Bufy had rolled over and was looking at him
"I just...I felt better thinking we were on the same level. I'm a virgin Angel and I just...I don't know when I'm going to be ready and I don't want you to be...frustrated with me" she said in a small insecure voice. Angel shook his head
"Buffy...I love you. I'll never be frustrated with you because of that. When you're ready you're ready. I mean I want you to wait until your ready because I didn't wait and I wish it had never happened. When we do that it will be special and I'm willing to wait till whenever that is," he said softly looking her right in the eyes.
"That was so sweet" she gushed pulling his close to lie next to her on the bed. Angel smiled and wrapped his arm around her
"So you're not mad at me anymore?"
"No and I was never mad at you" she said snuggling up to his chest. They sat there in silence for a minute before Angel said
"Oh yea my grand mom wants to meet you"
