AN: Okay!! Hi People!!!! I suck at summaries, but this story is about Lily
Evans and James Potter, who is a new student in Hogwarts. Lily notice
James, as he notices her. Lily deals with feelings she never felt before,
but not only for James but for other persons also, the same is for James,
who quickly becomes very popular only because he is very handsome,
charming, funny and strange. Many hormones are in the air, Hey they are
fifteen years old!!! But the most important of all is that they get to know
about each other. Or at least what they think. oh crap read this story,
it's much better than my summary. There is a bit of mush in this story, but
not much, this story will be more of a err a grown up story. It is a PG-13
story!!!
VERY IMPORTANT: I just wanted to say that the reason why I want a special number of reviews is because it's reviews who cheer me up and makes me continue the story. If I write a story and don't get many reviews It makes me think that you didn't like it and that the story was perhaps a bad story. Then I loose all interest in the story. But when I mean reviews. I'm also expecting flames, though that is very important how else am I going to know if you didn't like the story for a specific reason. Of reviews I expect both good things and bad things. But I wanted to say thank you to everyone who reviewed for chapter 1. thank you so much you are the best of the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Disclaimer: Oh, all characters belong to J.K Rowling who is soooo adorable, expect for all the characters that you don't recognise! And people don't forget to review. cause that means a lot to me.
This chapter is one of the key- chapters.just so you know it.It's quite short I know, there is an explanation to that. but you'll have the answer at the end of the chapter. when you have read it of course.Hehehe
Now.
Enjoy!!!!
*~~ "Behind The Shell There Is a Flower And a Man" ~~*
~~ Chapter 4 ~~
"What are you doing here?", she asked, forgetting that she still was lying above him, forgetting the reason why she'd run blindly in the middle of the night, forgetting that she was really, really, really close to him...
"What are you doing here?", he asked as much confused as her, spitting out her hair, well not specifically spitting it out but anyway.
There was a silent moment of bewilderment, as they looked into each others eyes, the darkness around developing their entire being with only the moon as a guiding light, scattering dark shadows away from them.
Lily kept gazing at the brown, mischievously dark eyes, which twinkled like brilliant diamonds, long and black eyelashes surrounding them; feeling quite dazed and spellbound, as she began to float away in a dreamlike reality...but that thought quickly vanished as her dream said:
"You're still lying above me"
"OH", she simply said, her voice echoing between the walls, as she felt her cheeks flush pinks. With gritted teeth she succeeded to release the piece of her night-gown that was lying beneath him and took away her wounded hand that had worked as a safety pillow for his head, as pushed herself up. The sudden coldness and the cloth of her night-gown, that suddenly felt rough and thin, made her realise how close they really had been. AND, what she was wearing.
Lily heard him sigh as soon as she was on her feet, and felt a sting of hurt...Why ? ...Don't be silly Lily! Wouldn't anyone be relieved to be freed from the weight of a two tons elephant ........
She saw how he rose up from the floor, how he gracefully rubbed his arm, how his eyes traced from his wrinkled uniform to her face, to her. and all that Lily could do was stare.
His features observed her carefully, perhaps it was worry that filled the cloudiness in his eyes, or perhaps the thought that...never mind...
Lily was captured by the person in front of her, somehow his face his hole being, sank under her astonished eyes, perhaps it was the affect of the silvery moon with it's mysteriously light flood that brought up what could be called as pure beauty...or perhaps it was only her imagination, her wild fantasy that so many times had made her flown away from reality, to just then crash on the hard ground without a safety net...
...Perhaps it was nothing...but she kept staring.....forgetting everything...
"Are you allright Lily?", he asked,. breaking her trance, almost. He shook his head slowly, as he strangely enough smirked, seeing the confused expression that was in the girl's blankly eyes." I said are you allright?"
Lily patted her arm, and smiled as she took a step backwards." I'm okay", she let out in one breath, avoiding his eyes. Somehow they made her think about a lot of things....things she didn't want to recall yet again.
"Good.", he simply said, still smiling, the dimple in his left cheek slight visible. It seemed as if he was about to say something, the way his eyes went from side to side as he, like Lily, chewed on his lip. He opened his mouth, but closed it, and looked down at his feet, glancing at her constantly. "Where you following me Evans?"
"What", Lily bellowed, to choked to say anything else at the moment, deep red colour covering her from the roots of her head to her bare toes" Of course I wasn't, why would I even do THAT!"
"Li-"
"I mean, you know, I-I didn't mean to see what you where doing-well you know- when I saw * You*....I didn't- Of COURSE- that I didn't- I mean how could you even think about that! YOU don't even know me! I-"
"Lily!", he whispered, bringing his finger to his mouth, his eyes twinkling, as Lily's words faded away"...lower down your voice...."
"I-"
"I was just kidding", he continued, in a delightful tone, shooting a dashing grin towards her, the earlier nervous in his face gone," Didn't mean to ...I mean- well you know(......is he blushing?....)...I know that you didn't earlier-well you know...it wasn't your fault...I wouldn't- I mean"
"It's okay", Lily smiled slightly, still embarrassed and with the urge to run away yet again." I mean I wouldn't have- I mean- YOU know- Well-"
"Let's just forget that", he quickly added, waving away with his hands, as he laid his stare on the large green dot on the wall behind Lily, which had been there for a long time( well since the previously year to be precisely ), though it had been painted with " Anti Swish Magic Removable". the guilty one or ones still unknown for the common ears. "I mean, you didn't even see..."
"Oh, no I didn't!", Lily eagerly implied, biting her under lip, as she twisted her hands of nervous, and crossing two of her fingers behind her back. " I didn't see a " thing""
The boy's smile became wider, while he leaned back on one of the green sofas that was right behind him, as he nonchalantly crossed his arms across his chest, his dark brown eyes glittering in the moon light and his hair more tousled than ever(...- if it's possible!), curling it self in the back of his head as the rest of it stood straight up with only some hints of locks.
He looked gorgeous, like one of those paintings of antique wizards, which to muggles represent Greek Gods. Not that Lily did see it at that moment anyway though the tension that began to grow in the common room, took all her attention and had almost become unbearable.
"So, what are you doing up-"he looked down at his clock"...2. am in the morning?"
Lily gasped becoming even more paler than she already was, as she covered her mouth with her hand, remembering why she had been worried a couple of minutes earlier. ...Melissa!..., she thought as the memory of the empty bed became vivid in her mind.
"What?", the boy asked curiously lending forward with wrinkled forehead, hesitating to come nearer, as he saw the worried look in the girl's face which slowly became white as a sheet of paper.
"...I", Lily began, considering the thought of telling him. ....Perhaps I worry too much....shall I tell him...Maybe he will think I'm just being stupid...STOP it Lily! Forget what this boy will think! She's your friend for Merlin's beard!..."Have you seen-"
"LILY!?", a voice shrieked in the empty night, or to be more specifically by the entrance of the common room. "What are you doing here?!", it continued......with rage and with something more.
"JAMES!?"
Within a second the girl stomped in with knitted fists, the blond hair swirling behind her as in a wind of sunshine, but the trembling face of anger and two slits of eyes didn't go well in the or else beautiful picture.
"Nice to meet you too Mel-", Lily began answered, feeling like a punctured balloon as the bad mood of her friend became tangible, almost regretting that she'd been worry. but then when seeing Melissa closely, as the girl grabbed her by the arm, leaving James behind them as she dragged the red- hair girl up the staircase to the girls' dormitory, without even a single goodbye, Lily's worry became visible again. but this time for another reason" Melissa, have you been crying?
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Lily sat down on her bed, with her legs crossed and a concerned expression painted on her face, as she watched her friend put on a purple-blue night- gown in pure silent, as tears ran down along the rosy cheeks.
Lily swallowed hard, and fought the urge to ran to the blond girl and give her a hug, but a voice in the back of her head told her to be still, to continue sitting down and to be as normal as possible. Was she scared?
The darkness in the room hid the great doubt in Lily's green emerald eyes, the sorrow and the utter fear of what to do....she didn't dare to give the comfort her friend needed, it was as if she did that she would be...vulnerable. Lily brushed her hair with her hand, and pressed out a smile, looking at Melissa.
"Mel-", she began nervously but then her voice got stuck somewhere between her throat and lips. She coughed silently, and gripped her kneecaps tighter"- what do you think if we go to Hogsmead this weekend?"
...stupid, stupid, stupid...
Melissa Faltingboard didn't answer, instead she laid down on her bed, next to Lily's, and covered her sheets over her head, her back to Lily. Through the now tear soaked green pillow, Lily could hear choked sobs, from the trembling bundle in the bed with green sheets.
Lily's eyes narrowed, and she felt her heart ache as the cries became louder. "We could go and look for a beautiful dress for you to the Halloween ball- do you know there is going to be a Ba-"
Melissa cried even louder, through the pillow, as Lily's words faded away into the still night. Lily cast a glance to the other two covered beds. Franceska was still dreaming, snoring from time to time, and not showing any signs of waking up and the same did for the small girl with long chestnut hair, Daisy, who mumbled some unfamiliar words in her sleep.
"Melissa", Lily whispered quietly as she slowly padded to her friend, with tears behind her eyelashes which she wished could just disappear, and nestled by Melissa's bed, as she reached out a trembling hand to the pair of shoulders that kept shaking. "What is going on?"
No response.
Lily sighed and felt her lips go dry as she waited even more. It took all her strength to sit still, with a hand on a trembling shoulder, as the mournful weep seemed never to end.
"Melissa, why are you crying?", Lily asked with soothing words, for the second time, though earlier it had just been a statement rather than a question. ....what a great friend I'm..., Lily thought miserably, as the girl cried even more louder.
"You don't need to answer me, Mel", Lily whispered hoarsely as her grip became tighter"...I just wanted you to know that I'm here."
As soon as Lily had pronounced those words, the sheets flew away, and Melissa rose up angrily, throwing Lily's hand away furiously, her face tear soaked and red as the puffy eyes looked through two slim slits at the redheaded, who backed away choked.
"You're are not here!", the blond girl bellowed, her mouth into a thin line"...You only wait until I'm gone so that you can play your moves, don't you? You are so yellows, and try to revenge when you have the chance, that's why you did it? But I'm not stupid Lily, I'M NOT!", the girl paused for air, and held her arms tight pressed to her chest" I don't even know why you're my friend Lily. You're so pathetic and I- I -I HATE YOU! You ruin everything for me!"
Lily kept quiet, as she with mouth open looked at Melissa who shrank down on her bed, and began to cry again.
"I don't know what you are talking about...", Lily whispered, walking backwards to her bed, not even knowing what she was doing, where she was, what she was even saying. Melissa's words kept bumping in her head over and over again and prevented Lily from thinking straight and logical. It was as if her heart had been ripped off, as if there wasn't enough air for her to breath. but at the same time she could feel a fire in her heart. hearing a voice repeating..HOW can you let her say that to YOU!.., but her ears chose to ignore it, how loud it even was.
"Of course you don't know, Lily", Melissa responded back, the early rage gone, and was instead replaced by a heartbreaking whisper, as she turned to Lily who looked back with a solemn face, with only a silent tear running along her face, a tear which she couldn't prevent no matter how much she tried to hold it back.
Melissa grimaced, and with a jump she ran to Lily and hugged her tightly as she wept all her sorrow on the girl's shoulder. Lily patted Mel's back uncomfortably, not able to say a thing.
"I'm sorry Lily", the girl cried", It's my fault, only mine, I don't have to blame it on you, I know it!" Melissa sobbed ", I'm so embarrassed, Lily! It wasn't me I don't know what came over me, it just happened, you know that it wasn't me, I don't do such things, you know me Lily! Right now I'm so embarrassed that I want to die! And when.oh Lily. I don't know what to do!"
Lily pushed Melissa gently away, and tried to smile softly as she looked at Melissa's blue eyes which were filled with sorrow and pain. "It doesn't matter, anyone can have an outburst someday you know", she paused and tried to forget . to be truthfully.the hurtful words Melissa had shot back at Lily with anger when the girl tried to comfort her", It can happen to anyone"
Melissa stiffened and backed away more as she gaped at Lily, looking curiously at the green eyes, waiting for something to come, she kept looking for any hint, any signs, anything that could prove that Lily had....
But nothing.
Melissa smiled and gave Lily yet another tight hug, her tears vanishing away slowly.
"But-", Lily began carefully"- you don't have to tell me if you don't wan to- why were you crying?"
Melissa's smile faded away, as she sat still, her eyes blank and wandering everywhere except Lily's face. She kept opening her mouth and closing it, as if she was in lack of words.
"Melissa?" Lily whispered yet again softly.
"I-I", Melissa looked at Lily with her blue eyes, which strangely enough had an awkward glance over them." You have to help me Lily"
"What are you talking about?"
"I'm talking about- I'm talking about", the girl paused as she took a deep breath" I've been...used"
"Used!?", squinted Lily with enormous eyes", What do you mean by used?!"
Melissa kept quiet, looking out of the window, gazing at the moon as if it was the silvery coin in the pitch black sky that was going to answer instead of her.
"You were right Lily", Melissa whispered, her eyes far, far away, as she turned to Lily, slightly trembling as her huge narrowed eyes looked deep inside Lily's own emerald ones. but still yet not being there." You were right about him"
"Melissa who are you talking about?", Lily swallowed hard", What has happened?"
Melissa drew herself backwards, as far away from Lily as possible, as she, looking down at her bare feet, began to speak;" I had been walking in the hall to the Gryffindor common room, looking for you-"
"But you knew that I was at the mee-"
"No-", Melissa hushed Lily", please let me finish.", she swallowed hard and with trembling voice and avoiding Lily's eyes she began to speak again." As I said I was walking through the empty corridors looking for you, lonely.... when I saw him. He was coming towards me and he was, he was- furious. I asked him what was the matter, if something had happened- but he kept insulting someone, but- but- but who it was I couldn't hear. He said that he-he-he hated girls, that they were fun for only one thing- and I said that it wasn't true."
Melissa paused, searching for words to continue. "And...that's when he took me by the arm and, and , and- he made me kiss him- on the lips. He wanted to go farther, he pushed me against the wall, but I didn't want to, not like this. But he didn't want to stop, he touched me everywhere.... he tried to open a closed classroom, and that's when I took my opportunity and ran."
Lily was quiet, gazing at her friend who had began to sob quietly.
"I am so angry and furious at him, and that's why I reacted the way I did with you when I saw you and... you were so right about him Lily! I don't know how to face him anymore, and I can't allow any girl to be used like he used me Lily! It's not right, not fair, I won't let him take advantage of you either. You have to help me Lily! I don't dare to do anything, I don't know what he'll do to me...YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE ME LILY! I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING!"
Melissa looked pleadingly at Lily, whose face didn't show the feelings that was in her inside.
"Please Lily.... help me"
Lily swallowed hard, her eyes dancing away from her friend to the thin lines in her hands. When she looked up she breathed in deep before continuing.
"Melissa...", she began carefully, quiet and softly"...who are you talking about?"
She waited dreadfully for the answer, which came immediately after Melissa had turned her gaze from the blinking stars in the velvet black night, to Lily. Her eyes were blank, glittering as much as the sky's adorn, as she leaned forward to Lily mumbling the name softly, but yet with a tone difficult to define.
" James Potter of course"
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I'm sorry that this was a short chapter, my shortest this far. It was going to be rather long so I split the chapter in two, so you'll have chapter five very soon.if you want it though.
Now I shall not take your precious time. when you can review.hehehehe
Anyway, read this chapter carefully, though it has plenty of hidden.hehehe. I shall not say more to your curious ears.no, no.do you want to know.well read and review!!!
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I wan to thank you all who review, you really give me inspiration somehow!!! And those you don't review, well perhaps there is a logical answer why you don't review. But if you want you can review, it doesn't take a long time.
Expect a rather long chapter next time!!! You'll have more about Melissa, Lily, James, and soon more about Sirius and Remus!!! I'm thinking about giving them a larger plot in this story. soon very soon,. this first chapters are very important though they are the beginning of .
" Behind the shell there is a Flower and a Man"
Love ya all!!!
Claudia
Ps. Sorry for my spell mistakes, looking for a beta reader.
VERY IMPORTANT: I just wanted to say that the reason why I want a special number of reviews is because it's reviews who cheer me up and makes me continue the story. If I write a story and don't get many reviews It makes me think that you didn't like it and that the story was perhaps a bad story. Then I loose all interest in the story. But when I mean reviews. I'm also expecting flames, though that is very important how else am I going to know if you didn't like the story for a specific reason. Of reviews I expect both good things and bad things. But I wanted to say thank you to everyone who reviewed for chapter 1. thank you so much you are the best of the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Disclaimer: Oh, all characters belong to J.K Rowling who is soooo adorable, expect for all the characters that you don't recognise! And people don't forget to review. cause that means a lot to me.
This chapter is one of the key- chapters.just so you know it.It's quite short I know, there is an explanation to that. but you'll have the answer at the end of the chapter. when you have read it of course.Hehehe
Now.
Enjoy!!!!
*~~ "Behind The Shell There Is a Flower And a Man" ~~*
~~ Chapter 4 ~~
"What are you doing here?", she asked, forgetting that she still was lying above him, forgetting the reason why she'd run blindly in the middle of the night, forgetting that she was really, really, really close to him...
"What are you doing here?", he asked as much confused as her, spitting out her hair, well not specifically spitting it out but anyway.
There was a silent moment of bewilderment, as they looked into each others eyes, the darkness around developing their entire being with only the moon as a guiding light, scattering dark shadows away from them.
Lily kept gazing at the brown, mischievously dark eyes, which twinkled like brilliant diamonds, long and black eyelashes surrounding them; feeling quite dazed and spellbound, as she began to float away in a dreamlike reality...but that thought quickly vanished as her dream said:
"You're still lying above me"
"OH", she simply said, her voice echoing between the walls, as she felt her cheeks flush pinks. With gritted teeth she succeeded to release the piece of her night-gown that was lying beneath him and took away her wounded hand that had worked as a safety pillow for his head, as pushed herself up. The sudden coldness and the cloth of her night-gown, that suddenly felt rough and thin, made her realise how close they really had been. AND, what she was wearing.
Lily heard him sigh as soon as she was on her feet, and felt a sting of hurt...Why ? ...Don't be silly Lily! Wouldn't anyone be relieved to be freed from the weight of a two tons elephant ........
She saw how he rose up from the floor, how he gracefully rubbed his arm, how his eyes traced from his wrinkled uniform to her face, to her. and all that Lily could do was stare.
His features observed her carefully, perhaps it was worry that filled the cloudiness in his eyes, or perhaps the thought that...never mind...
Lily was captured by the person in front of her, somehow his face his hole being, sank under her astonished eyes, perhaps it was the affect of the silvery moon with it's mysteriously light flood that brought up what could be called as pure beauty...or perhaps it was only her imagination, her wild fantasy that so many times had made her flown away from reality, to just then crash on the hard ground without a safety net...
...Perhaps it was nothing...but she kept staring.....forgetting everything...
"Are you allright Lily?", he asked,. breaking her trance, almost. He shook his head slowly, as he strangely enough smirked, seeing the confused expression that was in the girl's blankly eyes." I said are you allright?"
Lily patted her arm, and smiled as she took a step backwards." I'm okay", she let out in one breath, avoiding his eyes. Somehow they made her think about a lot of things....things she didn't want to recall yet again.
"Good.", he simply said, still smiling, the dimple in his left cheek slight visible. It seemed as if he was about to say something, the way his eyes went from side to side as he, like Lily, chewed on his lip. He opened his mouth, but closed it, and looked down at his feet, glancing at her constantly. "Where you following me Evans?"
"What", Lily bellowed, to choked to say anything else at the moment, deep red colour covering her from the roots of her head to her bare toes" Of course I wasn't, why would I even do THAT!"
"Li-"
"I mean, you know, I-I didn't mean to see what you where doing-well you know- when I saw * You*....I didn't- Of COURSE- that I didn't- I mean how could you even think about that! YOU don't even know me! I-"
"Lily!", he whispered, bringing his finger to his mouth, his eyes twinkling, as Lily's words faded away"...lower down your voice...."
"I-"
"I was just kidding", he continued, in a delightful tone, shooting a dashing grin towards her, the earlier nervous in his face gone," Didn't mean to ...I mean- well you know(......is he blushing?....)...I know that you didn't earlier-well you know...it wasn't your fault...I wouldn't- I mean"
"It's okay", Lily smiled slightly, still embarrassed and with the urge to run away yet again." I mean I wouldn't have- I mean- YOU know- Well-"
"Let's just forget that", he quickly added, waving away with his hands, as he laid his stare on the large green dot on the wall behind Lily, which had been there for a long time( well since the previously year to be precisely ), though it had been painted with " Anti Swish Magic Removable". the guilty one or ones still unknown for the common ears. "I mean, you didn't even see..."
"Oh, no I didn't!", Lily eagerly implied, biting her under lip, as she twisted her hands of nervous, and crossing two of her fingers behind her back. " I didn't see a " thing""
The boy's smile became wider, while he leaned back on one of the green sofas that was right behind him, as he nonchalantly crossed his arms across his chest, his dark brown eyes glittering in the moon light and his hair more tousled than ever(...- if it's possible!), curling it self in the back of his head as the rest of it stood straight up with only some hints of locks.
He looked gorgeous, like one of those paintings of antique wizards, which to muggles represent Greek Gods. Not that Lily did see it at that moment anyway though the tension that began to grow in the common room, took all her attention and had almost become unbearable.
"So, what are you doing up-"he looked down at his clock"...2. am in the morning?"
Lily gasped becoming even more paler than she already was, as she covered her mouth with her hand, remembering why she had been worried a couple of minutes earlier. ...Melissa!..., she thought as the memory of the empty bed became vivid in her mind.
"What?", the boy asked curiously lending forward with wrinkled forehead, hesitating to come nearer, as he saw the worried look in the girl's face which slowly became white as a sheet of paper.
"...I", Lily began, considering the thought of telling him. ....Perhaps I worry too much....shall I tell him...Maybe he will think I'm just being stupid...STOP it Lily! Forget what this boy will think! She's your friend for Merlin's beard!..."Have you seen-"
"LILY!?", a voice shrieked in the empty night, or to be more specifically by the entrance of the common room. "What are you doing here?!", it continued......with rage and with something more.
"JAMES!?"
Within a second the girl stomped in with knitted fists, the blond hair swirling behind her as in a wind of sunshine, but the trembling face of anger and two slits of eyes didn't go well in the or else beautiful picture.
"Nice to meet you too Mel-", Lily began answered, feeling like a punctured balloon as the bad mood of her friend became tangible, almost regretting that she'd been worry. but then when seeing Melissa closely, as the girl grabbed her by the arm, leaving James behind them as she dragged the red- hair girl up the staircase to the girls' dormitory, without even a single goodbye, Lily's worry became visible again. but this time for another reason" Melissa, have you been crying?
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Lily sat down on her bed, with her legs crossed and a concerned expression painted on her face, as she watched her friend put on a purple-blue night- gown in pure silent, as tears ran down along the rosy cheeks.
Lily swallowed hard, and fought the urge to ran to the blond girl and give her a hug, but a voice in the back of her head told her to be still, to continue sitting down and to be as normal as possible. Was she scared?
The darkness in the room hid the great doubt in Lily's green emerald eyes, the sorrow and the utter fear of what to do....she didn't dare to give the comfort her friend needed, it was as if she did that she would be...vulnerable. Lily brushed her hair with her hand, and pressed out a smile, looking at Melissa.
"Mel-", she began nervously but then her voice got stuck somewhere between her throat and lips. She coughed silently, and gripped her kneecaps tighter"- what do you think if we go to Hogsmead this weekend?"
...stupid, stupid, stupid...
Melissa Faltingboard didn't answer, instead she laid down on her bed, next to Lily's, and covered her sheets over her head, her back to Lily. Through the now tear soaked green pillow, Lily could hear choked sobs, from the trembling bundle in the bed with green sheets.
Lily's eyes narrowed, and she felt her heart ache as the cries became louder. "We could go and look for a beautiful dress for you to the Halloween ball- do you know there is going to be a Ba-"
Melissa cried even louder, through the pillow, as Lily's words faded away into the still night. Lily cast a glance to the other two covered beds. Franceska was still dreaming, snoring from time to time, and not showing any signs of waking up and the same did for the small girl with long chestnut hair, Daisy, who mumbled some unfamiliar words in her sleep.
"Melissa", Lily whispered quietly as she slowly padded to her friend, with tears behind her eyelashes which she wished could just disappear, and nestled by Melissa's bed, as she reached out a trembling hand to the pair of shoulders that kept shaking. "What is going on?"
No response.
Lily sighed and felt her lips go dry as she waited even more. It took all her strength to sit still, with a hand on a trembling shoulder, as the mournful weep seemed never to end.
"Melissa, why are you crying?", Lily asked with soothing words, for the second time, though earlier it had just been a statement rather than a question. ....what a great friend I'm..., Lily thought miserably, as the girl cried even more louder.
"You don't need to answer me, Mel", Lily whispered hoarsely as her grip became tighter"...I just wanted you to know that I'm here."
As soon as Lily had pronounced those words, the sheets flew away, and Melissa rose up angrily, throwing Lily's hand away furiously, her face tear soaked and red as the puffy eyes looked through two slim slits at the redheaded, who backed away choked.
"You're are not here!", the blond girl bellowed, her mouth into a thin line"...You only wait until I'm gone so that you can play your moves, don't you? You are so yellows, and try to revenge when you have the chance, that's why you did it? But I'm not stupid Lily, I'M NOT!", the girl paused for air, and held her arms tight pressed to her chest" I don't even know why you're my friend Lily. You're so pathetic and I- I -I HATE YOU! You ruin everything for me!"
Lily kept quiet, as she with mouth open looked at Melissa who shrank down on her bed, and began to cry again.
"I don't know what you are talking about...", Lily whispered, walking backwards to her bed, not even knowing what she was doing, where she was, what she was even saying. Melissa's words kept bumping in her head over and over again and prevented Lily from thinking straight and logical. It was as if her heart had been ripped off, as if there wasn't enough air for her to breath. but at the same time she could feel a fire in her heart. hearing a voice repeating..HOW can you let her say that to YOU!.., but her ears chose to ignore it, how loud it even was.
"Of course you don't know, Lily", Melissa responded back, the early rage gone, and was instead replaced by a heartbreaking whisper, as she turned to Lily who looked back with a solemn face, with only a silent tear running along her face, a tear which she couldn't prevent no matter how much she tried to hold it back.
Melissa grimaced, and with a jump she ran to Lily and hugged her tightly as she wept all her sorrow on the girl's shoulder. Lily patted Mel's back uncomfortably, not able to say a thing.
"I'm sorry Lily", the girl cried", It's my fault, only mine, I don't have to blame it on you, I know it!" Melissa sobbed ", I'm so embarrassed, Lily! It wasn't me I don't know what came over me, it just happened, you know that it wasn't me, I don't do such things, you know me Lily! Right now I'm so embarrassed that I want to die! And when.oh Lily. I don't know what to do!"
Lily pushed Melissa gently away, and tried to smile softly as she looked at Melissa's blue eyes which were filled with sorrow and pain. "It doesn't matter, anyone can have an outburst someday you know", she paused and tried to forget . to be truthfully.the hurtful words Melissa had shot back at Lily with anger when the girl tried to comfort her", It can happen to anyone"
Melissa stiffened and backed away more as she gaped at Lily, looking curiously at the green eyes, waiting for something to come, she kept looking for any hint, any signs, anything that could prove that Lily had....
But nothing.
Melissa smiled and gave Lily yet another tight hug, her tears vanishing away slowly.
"But-", Lily began carefully"- you don't have to tell me if you don't wan to- why were you crying?"
Melissa's smile faded away, as she sat still, her eyes blank and wandering everywhere except Lily's face. She kept opening her mouth and closing it, as if she was in lack of words.
"Melissa?" Lily whispered yet again softly.
"I-I", Melissa looked at Lily with her blue eyes, which strangely enough had an awkward glance over them." You have to help me Lily"
"What are you talking about?"
"I'm talking about- I'm talking about", the girl paused as she took a deep breath" I've been...used"
"Used!?", squinted Lily with enormous eyes", What do you mean by used?!"
Melissa kept quiet, looking out of the window, gazing at the moon as if it was the silvery coin in the pitch black sky that was going to answer instead of her.
"You were right Lily", Melissa whispered, her eyes far, far away, as she turned to Lily, slightly trembling as her huge narrowed eyes looked deep inside Lily's own emerald ones. but still yet not being there." You were right about him"
"Melissa who are you talking about?", Lily swallowed hard", What has happened?"
Melissa drew herself backwards, as far away from Lily as possible, as she, looking down at her bare feet, began to speak;" I had been walking in the hall to the Gryffindor common room, looking for you-"
"But you knew that I was at the mee-"
"No-", Melissa hushed Lily", please let me finish.", she swallowed hard and with trembling voice and avoiding Lily's eyes she began to speak again." As I said I was walking through the empty corridors looking for you, lonely.... when I saw him. He was coming towards me and he was, he was- furious. I asked him what was the matter, if something had happened- but he kept insulting someone, but- but- but who it was I couldn't hear. He said that he-he-he hated girls, that they were fun for only one thing- and I said that it wasn't true."
Melissa paused, searching for words to continue. "And...that's when he took me by the arm and, and , and- he made me kiss him- on the lips. He wanted to go farther, he pushed me against the wall, but I didn't want to, not like this. But he didn't want to stop, he touched me everywhere.... he tried to open a closed classroom, and that's when I took my opportunity and ran."
Lily was quiet, gazing at her friend who had began to sob quietly.
"I am so angry and furious at him, and that's why I reacted the way I did with you when I saw you and... you were so right about him Lily! I don't know how to face him anymore, and I can't allow any girl to be used like he used me Lily! It's not right, not fair, I won't let him take advantage of you either. You have to help me Lily! I don't dare to do anything, I don't know what he'll do to me...YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE ME LILY! I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING!"
Melissa looked pleadingly at Lily, whose face didn't show the feelings that was in her inside.
"Please Lily.... help me"
Lily swallowed hard, her eyes dancing away from her friend to the thin lines in her hands. When she looked up she breathed in deep before continuing.
"Melissa...", she began carefully, quiet and softly"...who are you talking about?"
She waited dreadfully for the answer, which came immediately after Melissa had turned her gaze from the blinking stars in the velvet black night, to Lily. Her eyes were blank, glittering as much as the sky's adorn, as she leaned forward to Lily mumbling the name softly, but yet with a tone difficult to define.
" James Potter of course"
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I'm sorry that this was a short chapter, my shortest this far. It was going to be rather long so I split the chapter in two, so you'll have chapter five very soon.if you want it though.
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" Behind the shell there is a Flower and a Man"
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Claudia
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