Interlude
A/N: The song is called '30 minutes' by T.a.T.u. It's my favorite song at the moment, you should really download it. The melody is so haunting. . . Thank you for all of the wonderful reviews I've gotten for the last chapter. Lots of love,
Andi
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So much loss, so much pain, how do I live with it?
I walk into my house with William on my heels, ready to catch me if I fall. Always there.
~Mama, Papa Forgive me
Out of sight
Out of mind
Out of time
To decide~
But he needn't be. I'm ready now. I can do this.
I can face my fears and let them go. I can face the pain.
He says that he will kill Angel, but he is far to good at heart. He won't be able to do it. . .
~Do we run?
Should I hide?
For the rest
Of my life
Can we fly?
Do I stay?
We could lose
We could fail
In the moment
It takes
To make plans
Or mistakes~
He puts a comforting hand on my shoulder and leads me up to the bathroom.
Once there, he pulls off my clothes and slips me into the warm bath tub he asked my mother to prepare. He hands me a wash cloth and soap, then quietly walks out the door with a warning not to do anything to myself, for he will find out if I do. I obey his request.
~ 30 minutes, a blink of an eye
30 minutes,to alter our lives
30 minutes,to make up my mind
30 minutes,to finally decide
30 minutes,to whisper your name
30 minutes,to shoulder the blame
30 minutes,of bliss, thirty lies
30 minutes,to finally decide~
I wash off and get out of the bath slowly, draining away the blood and residues that form a dirty coating on the bottom of the tub.
He walks into the bathroom to find me dripping wet, standing in the middle of the room. He looks me over quickly to check for cuts and then hands me a towel to wrap around myself.
After I dry and put on my robe, he leads me to my room and lies down on the bed with me. He holds me against him as if afraid to let me go.
~Carousels
In the sky
That we shape
With our eyes
Under shade
Silhouettes
Casting shade
Crying rain~
After a long while, I hear his breathing even out. I slowly slip from the bed and walk over to my closet. I fish out my clothes and quietly put them on.
After I'm dressed, I tip-toe down to my mother's room and lightly kiss her sleeping cheek. I then pull out her night-stands' drawer and fish out a small black pistol.
~Can we fly?
Do I stay?
We could lose
We could fail
Either way
Options change
Chances fail
Trains derail~
I walk back into my room with a letter I hastily wrote while in the bathroom. We always have paper and pens stashed in the sink drawer. Mom likes to write out shopping lists while in the tub.
I put the folded paper on the pillow next to William and kiss him lightly on the lips. My finger traces his cheek bone as I pull away and walk down the stairs and out of the house.
~ 30 minutes, a blink of an eye
30 minutes,to alter our lives
30 minutes,to make up my mind
30 minutes,to finally decide
30 minutes,to whisper your name
30 minutes,to shoulder the blame
30 minutes,of bliss, thirty lies
30 minutes,to finally decide~
He thinks I don't know where he'll be, but I do. I'll always remember.
On our one date, he had had an envelope on the dashboard. While he was in the gas station paying for the gas since it had run out in the middle of the evening, I looked at the address, quietly noting that it wasn't in a neighborhood near ours. But it was still addressed to him.
I don't know why I looked at the envelope, I guess I had just had a premonition that someday I would need it.
~ To decide
To decide, to decide, to decide~
I walk towards where I know the address to be. It's an old abandoned warehouse, but sure enough, there are lights coming from inside.
I quietly step through the doors. I find him banging a woman into a table. The womans' screams are far from pleasure.
I raise my gun.
~ To decide
To decide, to decide, to decide~
*Bang*
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A/N: Yes, this is my lame attempt at a cliff-hanger. Please review, it makes the chapters come much quicker. Also, I'm sorry I haven't updated sooner. I've had either food poisoning or a pulled muscel in my stomach for the past 3 days. It hurts like hell, feels like someone used my insides as a punching bag. Lots of love,
Andi
A/N: The song is called '30 minutes' by T.a.T.u. It's my favorite song at the moment, you should really download it. The melody is so haunting. . . Thank you for all of the wonderful reviews I've gotten for the last chapter. Lots of love,
Andi
..........................................................................................................................................
So much loss, so much pain, how do I live with it?
I walk into my house with William on my heels, ready to catch me if I fall. Always there.
~Mama, Papa Forgive me
Out of sight
Out of mind
Out of time
To decide~
But he needn't be. I'm ready now. I can do this.
I can face my fears and let them go. I can face the pain.
He says that he will kill Angel, but he is far to good at heart. He won't be able to do it. . .
~Do we run?
Should I hide?
For the rest
Of my life
Can we fly?
Do I stay?
We could lose
We could fail
In the moment
It takes
To make plans
Or mistakes~
He puts a comforting hand on my shoulder and leads me up to the bathroom.
Once there, he pulls off my clothes and slips me into the warm bath tub he asked my mother to prepare. He hands me a wash cloth and soap, then quietly walks out the door with a warning not to do anything to myself, for he will find out if I do. I obey his request.
~ 30 minutes, a blink of an eye
30 minutes,to alter our lives
30 minutes,to make up my mind
30 minutes,to finally decide
30 minutes,to whisper your name
30 minutes,to shoulder the blame
30 minutes,of bliss, thirty lies
30 minutes,to finally decide~
I wash off and get out of the bath slowly, draining away the blood and residues that form a dirty coating on the bottom of the tub.
He walks into the bathroom to find me dripping wet, standing in the middle of the room. He looks me over quickly to check for cuts and then hands me a towel to wrap around myself.
After I dry and put on my robe, he leads me to my room and lies down on the bed with me. He holds me against him as if afraid to let me go.
~Carousels
In the sky
That we shape
With our eyes
Under shade
Silhouettes
Casting shade
Crying rain~
After a long while, I hear his breathing even out. I slowly slip from the bed and walk over to my closet. I fish out my clothes and quietly put them on.
After I'm dressed, I tip-toe down to my mother's room and lightly kiss her sleeping cheek. I then pull out her night-stands' drawer and fish out a small black pistol.
~Can we fly?
Do I stay?
We could lose
We could fail
Either way
Options change
Chances fail
Trains derail~
I walk back into my room with a letter I hastily wrote while in the bathroom. We always have paper and pens stashed in the sink drawer. Mom likes to write out shopping lists while in the tub.
I put the folded paper on the pillow next to William and kiss him lightly on the lips. My finger traces his cheek bone as I pull away and walk down the stairs and out of the house.
~ 30 minutes, a blink of an eye
30 minutes,to alter our lives
30 minutes,to make up my mind
30 minutes,to finally decide
30 minutes,to whisper your name
30 minutes,to shoulder the blame
30 minutes,of bliss, thirty lies
30 minutes,to finally decide~
He thinks I don't know where he'll be, but I do. I'll always remember.
On our one date, he had had an envelope on the dashboard. While he was in the gas station paying for the gas since it had run out in the middle of the evening, I looked at the address, quietly noting that it wasn't in a neighborhood near ours. But it was still addressed to him.
I don't know why I looked at the envelope, I guess I had just had a premonition that someday I would need it.
~ To decide
To decide, to decide, to decide~
I walk towards where I know the address to be. It's an old abandoned warehouse, but sure enough, there are lights coming from inside.
I quietly step through the doors. I find him banging a woman into a table. The womans' screams are far from pleasure.
I raise my gun.
~ To decide
To decide, to decide, to decide~
*Bang*
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A/N: Yes, this is my lame attempt at a cliff-hanger. Please review, it makes the chapters come much quicker. Also, I'm sorry I haven't updated sooner. I've had either food poisoning or a pulled muscel in my stomach for the past 3 days. It hurts like hell, feels like someone used my insides as a punching bag. Lots of love,
Andi
