AN: In response to exintaris's review said "What kind of a name is Taylah",
Taylah is actually a more feminine version of Taylor and is much more
commonly used then Taylor for a girl in Australia, and it is also my
niece's name so that's why I used it. I also am well aware that Monica's
favourite name is Emma, but it's my fic so I put in names I like, lol.Ok
Chapter 5
"What am I going to do?" asked Ross
Him, Chandler and Joey were all in Joey and Phoebe's apartment. It is early morning, 2 days after the disaster date and Ross hasn't spoken to Rachel since
"I feel like I should speak to her, but I also think I should give her some space" said Ross, staring glumly into his glass
"You want advice?" asked Joey
"Yeah, I guess," said Ross
"Ok, Well first of all, you should never have slept with Amanda," said Joey
"Some advice I already don't know would be helpful Joe," said Ross
"I'm getting there" said Joey "Second of all, You need to get in there and show her how much she means to you, Take her away somewhere, rekindle the romance"
"Quit your job," said Chandler
"Quit my job?" said Ross "That's going to go down well, I've quit my job so our income will go way down, How would you like to eat baked beans for dinner every night honey? I can't do that"
"Yes, but by quitting your job, you are completely getting away from this Amanda woman" said Chandler "Rachel won't be worrying that every time you go to work, you are associating with the other woman"
Ross pondered over it for a second "Yeah, you have a point"
"The man does have a point," said Joey nodding in agreement
"That is really common sense Ross," said Chandler "I can't believe you didn't think of that before"
"Well I've had a lot of other things on my mind lately" said Ross defensively "I need to go into work today sometime, they think I've been ill for 2 weeks"
"Take my advice man," said Joey "Quit"
"Your advice?" asked Chandler "I'm the one who said that" "Sure" said Joey, turning away from Chandler and facing Ross. He pointed to himself and nodded "My advice"
"I love my job though," said Ross
"Yes but who do you love more, your job or your Wife?" said Chandler "Think about it"
(Ross's Work)
Ross entered the building where his office was; he went up a level in the elevator and was just stepping out when he bumped into his boss
"Professor Geller" he said, "You're back"
"About that.." Began Ross
"Before you speak, there's something we need to discuss" said Professor Williams "Follow me"
Ross followed him into his office and sat opposite him...
"Ross, We've had some allegations about you" began Professor Williams
"Let me guess, Amanda Jacobs" said Ross "Is that right?"
"So you are aware of what I'm talking about then?" asked Professor Williams
"Depends on what she told you," said Ross "What were these 'Allegations' "
"Amanda came into my office, extremely upset yesterday, She revealed that you two were involved briefly, but then you took advantage of her 2 weeks ago at Mike's Party. She claims got her drunk and then took advantage of her"
"Come on," said Ross "Seriously? She's lying, She said to me she was going to do something like this"
"These are serious allegations Ross," said Professor Williams
"I realize that," said Ross "But I'll tell you right now, Amanda is the most deceitful person I have ever met, saying I took advantage of her is a load of crap. We were both intoxicated and she came on to me"
"So something was going on between you too?" asked Professor Williams "Aren't you married with a family?"
"Yes," admitted Ross "It was a drunken mistake but I assure you, She was as willing as anyone. I did not take advantage of her in any way"
"Then there's another matter to be sorted out then if you two were involved," said Professor Williams "You cannot date another member of staff, I thought you knew that"
"I do" said Ross "And we didn't date, it was just something completely stupid that I did...we weren't technically involved"
"So from what you're saying, I'm understanding you two slept together?" asked Professor Williams "True or false"
"True I guess," said Ross, shamefully
"That puts your employment here in serious jeopardy Ross" said Professor Williams "I think I believe you more then I believe Amanda, that you didn't take advantage of her because I have heard about her. But what were you thinking Ross, you took a big risk, you could be looking at a dismissal once this reaches the top"
"Dismissal?" said Ross "You mean, I could get fired"
"Yes," said Professor Williams "Most probably"
"Well you know what, I'll save you the hassle" said Ross "I quit"
"You quit?" asked Professor Williams
"Yes" said Ross "I'll hand in my resignation right now, I have more important things to worry about right now then coming in here, having people think I am some sleaze ball who takes advantage of his co-workers. I'd rather put all my energy into patching things up with my wife"
"Are you sure about this?" asked Professor Williams "Once this gets out, you resigning is going to make people think you are guilty"
"I don't care," said Ross "They can believe what they want. 2 people know what really went on in that office that night, Amanda and myself, I know the truth and I honestly don't care what anyone else believes"
"You are one of our most dedicated Professors," said Professor Williams "I have really enjoyed working with you"
"And I have with you" said Ross "But this is something that I need to do, focus my time on the more important things to me, my family"
"Good luck then," said Professor Williams, standing up and shaking Ross's hand "But I have to warn you, there could be some sort of an investigation into Amanda's allegations"
"I'll deal with that when it comes along," said Ross
"Goodbye Ross" said Professor Williams "And good luck with whatever you need to do"
"I'll need all the luck I can get I think" said Ross, walking towards the door "Thankyou"
He left the office and actually felt free. Chandler was right, this was something that needed to be done and once Rachel heard that there was going to be no interaction at all between him and Amanda, it could give her some more reassurance.
He decided, against Rachel's wishes that he was going to go to their Apartment, He wanted to see her and he wanted to see his kids more then ever. All she could do was slam the door in his face but he didn't think that would be the case.
(Rachel's Apartment)
Rachel was having a sleep in with Emma and Josh, lying in the middle of the bed with one on either side of her, stroking their faces. They both looked like little angel's lying there, She could see how people could know that Emma was her daughter, she had the same facial structure, same coloured hair but Josh looked like his Daddy, same dark hair and goofy little smile.
Josh suddenly opened his eyes and they looked with Rachel's.
"Mommy" he said softly, rubbing his eyes
"Hey spunky" said Rachel "Did you have a nice sleep?"
"Yea" he said, "Where's daddy?"
"Daddy's not here Josh," said Rachel
"Ohhh" he said, "Where's he gone?"
"He's staying somewhere else for awhile," said Rachel
"I wanna say Hi," said Josh, sitting up
"Maybe later" said Rachel
"Now" said Josh loudly
"It's only 10am Josh" said Rachel "You can say Hi later"
"I wanna now," said Joshua in whiny voice
"Josh" said Rachel "Listen to what Mommy is saying, you can say Hi to Daddy later"
Emma sat up then, she was awake and listening and wanted to put her 2 cents in
"I want to call Daddy now too" she said, "And I want to see Daddy"
"Yes, See Daddy" said Josh
Rachel was saved from being ganged up on by her children as she heard a knock on the door. She got out of bed, pulling on a short robe on over her nightgown and walked to the front door, opening it to find a Delivery guy
"Yes" she said, pulling her robe around herself tighter
"Delivery for Rachel Geller" he said, leaning down out of sight and holding up a huge bunch of Lilies in a Vase
"Wow" said Rachel in awe, they were absolutely beautiful
"Just sign here," he said, pushing forward a pad
Rachel signed and took the Vase out of his hands "Who are they from?"
"I don't know," he said, shrugging his shoulder's "Have a nice day"
Rachel shut the door and sat the Vase down on the table, there was a purple card sticking out of the bunch. She opened it up and read it
Rachel, Just a little something because I wanted to brighten up your day. I'm sorry for what happened the other night; it didn't turn out the way I planned so I'm very sorry. I'm going to call you later, because I want to talk to you and I really want to see Emma and Josh, I haven't seen them for 2 weeks and I really miss them. Enjoy your day, I will talk to you later and remember, only you can determine what happens next Rachel, the ball is in your court.. I love you always, Ross
Rachel sat down on the couch, the card still in her hand. He was absolutely right, He had made his feelings perfectly clear, and now it was up to her to make the decision, Was she prepared to have another go or was she going to throw it all away? That was something that she wasn't quite sure of yet..
Emma and Josh came through from the bedroom,
"WOW" said Emma
"I know," said Rachel
"Where did they come from?" asked Emma, smelling the Lilies.
"Your Dad" said Rachel
"Are they for you or me?" asked Emma seriously
"Me, Sweetie" laughed Rachel
"Oh" said Emma "Ok"
Rachel heard another knock on the door and opened it, surprised to see Ross standing there..
"Rachel, before you say anything, I know you didn't want me seeing Emma and Josh yet but.."
"Daddddddy" screamed Emma, running to the door and throwing herself at Ross, followed closely by Joshua
He looked at Rachel with an expectant look on his face, he knew she was going to be angry because she told him she didn't want him coming around just yet "But I couldn't help it, I'm sorry"
"It's ok," said Rachel, opening the door wider and letting him inside, He had Emma under one arm and Josh under the other "Come in"
"I see you got the flowers," said Ross
"I did" said Rachel "I love them, Thankyou"
"My pleasure" said Ross, sitting on the couch "I've got something to tell you"
"What?" asked Rachel hesitantly, fearing more bad news.
"I quit my job," said Ross
"You what?" said Rachel "Why did you do that?"
"Because I realised that If I want to put all my time and energy into you and the kids, a job was going to get in the way" said Ross "And I know that you would be feeling strange, knowing I was at work and having to associate with Amanda, so I did what I thought needed to be done"
He didn't really think it was necessary to tell her he was at risk of being fired anyway.
"Are you serious?" said Rachel "But you love your job"
"I do" said Ross "But I love you more"
Rachel looked at the floor, one more thing that proved what he was willing to do to get her back, to make her happy and to make her comfortable. Some part of her wanted to go, wrap her arms around him and kiss him but there was also the part of her that kept reminding her of what he did and made her not want to embrace him, not forgive him, be angry and be hurt.
"I don't know what to say," said Rachel, sinking into an armchair.
"You don't have to say anything," said Ross
Rachel nodded slowly. She looked at Emma who was lost in the moment, her arms were wrapped around Ross as if she didn't want to let go and she was staring at him, at a figure that she hadn't set eyes on for 2 weeks. It was although she didn't want to stop looking at him in case he slipped out again. Josh was sitting on Ross's other side, playing with his collar.
"It's so good to see you guys again," said Ross, breaking the moment of silence "I've missed you so much"
"We've missed you too Daddy," said Emma "Are you here for keeps?"
Ross looked at Rachel who gave him a vacant look back. "I don't know grasshopper, but it's great to be here right now with you"
Josh slid off the couch and grabbed Ross's hand "Come to my room"
"Have you got something to show me?" asked Ross, standing up
"Yes" said Joshua, still gripping his hand "Now"
"OK" said Ross, looking at Rachel who was lost in thought before following him into his bedroom.
Emma jumped off the couch and climbed into Rachel's lap
"Please can he come home Mommy?" she pleaded "Tonight?"
"Emma, I can't get into it," said Rachel "You don't understand what's going on and it's just not that easy"
"But he bought you flowers" said Emma "I told him a diamond.."
"Flowers don't just make up for things Emma, presents don't change what has happened" said Rachel "It's complicated, adult stuff and I don't really want to talk about it right now with you Honey"
"But he is my Daddy" said Emma "You aren't letting him come home and it's not fair"
"Emma" said Rachel, standing up and dropping her on the couch "I'm doing what I think needs to be done, it's not all Bert and Ernie, everyone's happy ok..there are things that need to sorted, things that need to be patched up before he comes home"
"Fine" said Emma, crossing her arms with a sulky look on her face
"I'm sorry Sweetie but that's the way it is" said Rachel "I'm going to go and have a shower, tell your Dad when he comes out, that's where I am ok?"
Emma ignored her,
"Thanks" said Rachel, sighing and heading through to the bathroom.
She walked past Josh's room and saw Ross and him sitting on the floor, they were playing with some huge dinosaurs and making noises, Joshua was laughing hysterically.
She kept walking into the bathroom where she stood under the shower for 20 minutes, letting the soothing, hot water run down her tired and knotted up body.
She massaged her neck with her hands, her face screwing up in pain as she felt all the knots and twists in her muscles, she'd been so tensed up lately and now realised she needed to visit a chiropractor.
She turned off the water and rubbed a huge, furry towel around her before walking out into the bedroom to get dressed.
She was looking through the closet for something to wear when she heard the bedroom door open, then close again.
"Emma" she called, stepping out of the closet and coming face to face with Ross.
"Shit" she said loudly, nearly letting go of her towel "You scared me"
"Sorry" he said, holding up his hands "I thought you were in the bathroom so I was just going to grab some more clothes"
"Ohh" she said, keeping a tight grip on the towel "Ok"
She bent over carefully, to pick up the pair of pants she had dropped in fright, crying out a little as her muscles let her know they weren't happy.
"What's the matter?" asked Ross, coming to her side
"Nothing" said Rachel, back in a standing position "I need to see my chiropractor, I'm a little tense and knotted up"
"Come here" said Ross, taking her hand and sitting her down on the bed
"What are you doing?" asked Rachel, aware that she was still completely naked underneath her towel
Ross sat behind her and she jumped as she felt his hands touch her neck, massaging gently into all the sore spots.
"Is this ok?" he asked, a little unsure of wether or not he should be touching her "It feels great," admitted Rachel, flinching as he hit a sore spot "And also a little painful"
"I'm sorry but you've got to get right in there if you want to get the knots out" said Ross
"Keep going," said Rachel, she could feel herself letting her guard with him down a little but right now, all she could think about was the nice, smooth hands, massaging her.
Ross meanwhile, was getting a little turned on by this, him touching her smooth, golden skin. He realised how long it had been since they had made love, it would have to have been about 5 months, probably even longer.
Rachel felt all her tense feelings, slipping away as his fingers worked her. He had always been so good at massages and back when things were good, he used to treat her to a romantic massage with candles and oils at least 3 times a week.
"Is that better?" he asked, his fingers stopping as he moved and sat next to her on the bed
"Much" she said, "That was excellent"
"I aim to please" he replied with a laugh.
Their eyes locked for a moment,
"God, you're beautiful," said Ross, touching her cheek "You're everything I could have ever wanted and more"
"Ross, stop," said Rachel "Come on"
"Come on what" he said "This is driving me crazy, I want us to be together so much, I love you"
"I know you do," said Rachel "But things have changed..."
"Let me kiss you," said Ross, interrupting her
"I don't really think it's a good idea," said Rachel, but she was silenced as she felt his lips touch hers, where they stayed for a moment or two.
Ross pulled away and looked at her, her eyes were half closed as if she hadn't even realised he'd stopped kissing her.
She opened them fully and stared at him "You kissed me"
"Yeah, I guess I did" he said, "I'm sorry, it was an impulse"
Rachel was sitting, her shoulder's hunched over as she stared at her hands, which were sitting in her lap. Him kissing her, had made her wonder even more, about what her decision was going to be, there was no doubt in her mind, how much she still loved him, she loved him so much it hurt but something was stopping her from admitting she wanted them to be together...
"Are you ok?" he asked, touching her chin and lifting her head up
She nodded, and Ross looked at her face and saw tears brimming in her eyes
"Why are you crying?" he asked,
"I don't know," replied Rachel "I'm a very emotional person, you know that"
"I do," said Ross "And I want to make you feel better"
He pulled her face closer to his and once again kissed her on the lips, this time a little firmer, with a little more passion. He then kissed her tears away gently, before kissing her lips again.
Rachel felt herself melting and without thinking, pulled him closer to her and kissed him back. She ran her hands through his hair, and down until the settled on the back of his neck, she kept a firm grip, holding him close.
Ross leaned forward slightly, forcing Rachel's body back and she leaned all the way back until she was lying down on the bed, pulling Ross with her. They continued kissing until they were both breathless and Ross stopped, pulling himself up onto his elbows and looked into her eyes.
"Is this what you want?" he asked quietly, brushing a lock of wet hair away from her face
"I don't know what I want," said Rachel "But I think it could be you"
"Are you sure?" he asked, before they did something she might regret.
Rachel didn't reply, just pulled him back down to her...
They made out for another few minutes, before Ross felt her pulling at his sweater, trying to get it off; He sat up and pulled it off himself, and felt Rachel's hands fumbling with his belt and jeans zipper.
Something made him wonder if this was the reconciliation he had been hoping for, or if this was just them having sex. If this meant that she had made her decision and it was what he had wanted or if this was the last time they would ever make love.
He was about to ask her, but lust took over, he wanted her and that was all that mattered, they could talk about it later.
Rachel was stripping him down frantically, and he undid the towel that had been wrapped tight around her body and dropped it carelessly over the edge of the bed, leaving her naked underneath him. He looked down at her body, something he hadn't seen in awhile and as always, it blew his mind.
They went through the normal motions; their eyes were locked the whole time except when they were kissing, both of them reaching their climax, quickly and quietly..
Is this a new beginning?
TBC
RossnRachel4eva: I took your suggestion, I was planning on having him quit somewhere later on but seen as you suggested it, I put it in this chapter. Thanks : - )
Chapter 5
"What am I going to do?" asked Ross
Him, Chandler and Joey were all in Joey and Phoebe's apartment. It is early morning, 2 days after the disaster date and Ross hasn't spoken to Rachel since
"I feel like I should speak to her, but I also think I should give her some space" said Ross, staring glumly into his glass
"You want advice?" asked Joey
"Yeah, I guess," said Ross
"Ok, Well first of all, you should never have slept with Amanda," said Joey
"Some advice I already don't know would be helpful Joe," said Ross
"I'm getting there" said Joey "Second of all, You need to get in there and show her how much she means to you, Take her away somewhere, rekindle the romance"
"Quit your job," said Chandler
"Quit my job?" said Ross "That's going to go down well, I've quit my job so our income will go way down, How would you like to eat baked beans for dinner every night honey? I can't do that"
"Yes, but by quitting your job, you are completely getting away from this Amanda woman" said Chandler "Rachel won't be worrying that every time you go to work, you are associating with the other woman"
Ross pondered over it for a second "Yeah, you have a point"
"The man does have a point," said Joey nodding in agreement
"That is really common sense Ross," said Chandler "I can't believe you didn't think of that before"
"Well I've had a lot of other things on my mind lately" said Ross defensively "I need to go into work today sometime, they think I've been ill for 2 weeks"
"Take my advice man," said Joey "Quit"
"Your advice?" asked Chandler "I'm the one who said that" "Sure" said Joey, turning away from Chandler and facing Ross. He pointed to himself and nodded "My advice"
"I love my job though," said Ross
"Yes but who do you love more, your job or your Wife?" said Chandler "Think about it"
(Ross's Work)
Ross entered the building where his office was; he went up a level in the elevator and was just stepping out when he bumped into his boss
"Professor Geller" he said, "You're back"
"About that.." Began Ross
"Before you speak, there's something we need to discuss" said Professor Williams "Follow me"
Ross followed him into his office and sat opposite him...
"Ross, We've had some allegations about you" began Professor Williams
"Let me guess, Amanda Jacobs" said Ross "Is that right?"
"So you are aware of what I'm talking about then?" asked Professor Williams
"Depends on what she told you," said Ross "What were these 'Allegations' "
"Amanda came into my office, extremely upset yesterday, She revealed that you two were involved briefly, but then you took advantage of her 2 weeks ago at Mike's Party. She claims got her drunk and then took advantage of her"
"Come on," said Ross "Seriously? She's lying, She said to me she was going to do something like this"
"These are serious allegations Ross," said Professor Williams
"I realize that," said Ross "But I'll tell you right now, Amanda is the most deceitful person I have ever met, saying I took advantage of her is a load of crap. We were both intoxicated and she came on to me"
"So something was going on between you too?" asked Professor Williams "Aren't you married with a family?"
"Yes," admitted Ross "It was a drunken mistake but I assure you, She was as willing as anyone. I did not take advantage of her in any way"
"Then there's another matter to be sorted out then if you two were involved," said Professor Williams "You cannot date another member of staff, I thought you knew that"
"I do" said Ross "And we didn't date, it was just something completely stupid that I did...we weren't technically involved"
"So from what you're saying, I'm understanding you two slept together?" asked Professor Williams "True or false"
"True I guess," said Ross, shamefully
"That puts your employment here in serious jeopardy Ross" said Professor Williams "I think I believe you more then I believe Amanda, that you didn't take advantage of her because I have heard about her. But what were you thinking Ross, you took a big risk, you could be looking at a dismissal once this reaches the top"
"Dismissal?" said Ross "You mean, I could get fired"
"Yes," said Professor Williams "Most probably"
"Well you know what, I'll save you the hassle" said Ross "I quit"
"You quit?" asked Professor Williams
"Yes" said Ross "I'll hand in my resignation right now, I have more important things to worry about right now then coming in here, having people think I am some sleaze ball who takes advantage of his co-workers. I'd rather put all my energy into patching things up with my wife"
"Are you sure about this?" asked Professor Williams "Once this gets out, you resigning is going to make people think you are guilty"
"I don't care," said Ross "They can believe what they want. 2 people know what really went on in that office that night, Amanda and myself, I know the truth and I honestly don't care what anyone else believes"
"You are one of our most dedicated Professors," said Professor Williams "I have really enjoyed working with you"
"And I have with you" said Ross "But this is something that I need to do, focus my time on the more important things to me, my family"
"Good luck then," said Professor Williams, standing up and shaking Ross's hand "But I have to warn you, there could be some sort of an investigation into Amanda's allegations"
"I'll deal with that when it comes along," said Ross
"Goodbye Ross" said Professor Williams "And good luck with whatever you need to do"
"I'll need all the luck I can get I think" said Ross, walking towards the door "Thankyou"
He left the office and actually felt free. Chandler was right, this was something that needed to be done and once Rachel heard that there was going to be no interaction at all between him and Amanda, it could give her some more reassurance.
He decided, against Rachel's wishes that he was going to go to their Apartment, He wanted to see her and he wanted to see his kids more then ever. All she could do was slam the door in his face but he didn't think that would be the case.
(Rachel's Apartment)
Rachel was having a sleep in with Emma and Josh, lying in the middle of the bed with one on either side of her, stroking their faces. They both looked like little angel's lying there, She could see how people could know that Emma was her daughter, she had the same facial structure, same coloured hair but Josh looked like his Daddy, same dark hair and goofy little smile.
Josh suddenly opened his eyes and they looked with Rachel's.
"Mommy" he said softly, rubbing his eyes
"Hey spunky" said Rachel "Did you have a nice sleep?"
"Yea" he said, "Where's daddy?"
"Daddy's not here Josh," said Rachel
"Ohhh" he said, "Where's he gone?"
"He's staying somewhere else for awhile," said Rachel
"I wanna say Hi," said Josh, sitting up
"Maybe later" said Rachel
"Now" said Josh loudly
"It's only 10am Josh" said Rachel "You can say Hi later"
"I wanna now," said Joshua in whiny voice
"Josh" said Rachel "Listen to what Mommy is saying, you can say Hi to Daddy later"
Emma sat up then, she was awake and listening and wanted to put her 2 cents in
"I want to call Daddy now too" she said, "And I want to see Daddy"
"Yes, See Daddy" said Josh
Rachel was saved from being ganged up on by her children as she heard a knock on the door. She got out of bed, pulling on a short robe on over her nightgown and walked to the front door, opening it to find a Delivery guy
"Yes" she said, pulling her robe around herself tighter
"Delivery for Rachel Geller" he said, leaning down out of sight and holding up a huge bunch of Lilies in a Vase
"Wow" said Rachel in awe, they were absolutely beautiful
"Just sign here," he said, pushing forward a pad
Rachel signed and took the Vase out of his hands "Who are they from?"
"I don't know," he said, shrugging his shoulder's "Have a nice day"
Rachel shut the door and sat the Vase down on the table, there was a purple card sticking out of the bunch. She opened it up and read it
Rachel, Just a little something because I wanted to brighten up your day. I'm sorry for what happened the other night; it didn't turn out the way I planned so I'm very sorry. I'm going to call you later, because I want to talk to you and I really want to see Emma and Josh, I haven't seen them for 2 weeks and I really miss them. Enjoy your day, I will talk to you later and remember, only you can determine what happens next Rachel, the ball is in your court.. I love you always, Ross
Rachel sat down on the couch, the card still in her hand. He was absolutely right, He had made his feelings perfectly clear, and now it was up to her to make the decision, Was she prepared to have another go or was she going to throw it all away? That was something that she wasn't quite sure of yet..
Emma and Josh came through from the bedroom,
"WOW" said Emma
"I know," said Rachel
"Where did they come from?" asked Emma, smelling the Lilies.
"Your Dad" said Rachel
"Are they for you or me?" asked Emma seriously
"Me, Sweetie" laughed Rachel
"Oh" said Emma "Ok"
Rachel heard another knock on the door and opened it, surprised to see Ross standing there..
"Rachel, before you say anything, I know you didn't want me seeing Emma and Josh yet but.."
"Daddddddy" screamed Emma, running to the door and throwing herself at Ross, followed closely by Joshua
He looked at Rachel with an expectant look on his face, he knew she was going to be angry because she told him she didn't want him coming around just yet "But I couldn't help it, I'm sorry"
"It's ok," said Rachel, opening the door wider and letting him inside, He had Emma under one arm and Josh under the other "Come in"
"I see you got the flowers," said Ross
"I did" said Rachel "I love them, Thankyou"
"My pleasure" said Ross, sitting on the couch "I've got something to tell you"
"What?" asked Rachel hesitantly, fearing more bad news.
"I quit my job," said Ross
"You what?" said Rachel "Why did you do that?"
"Because I realised that If I want to put all my time and energy into you and the kids, a job was going to get in the way" said Ross "And I know that you would be feeling strange, knowing I was at work and having to associate with Amanda, so I did what I thought needed to be done"
He didn't really think it was necessary to tell her he was at risk of being fired anyway.
"Are you serious?" said Rachel "But you love your job"
"I do" said Ross "But I love you more"
Rachel looked at the floor, one more thing that proved what he was willing to do to get her back, to make her happy and to make her comfortable. Some part of her wanted to go, wrap her arms around him and kiss him but there was also the part of her that kept reminding her of what he did and made her not want to embrace him, not forgive him, be angry and be hurt.
"I don't know what to say," said Rachel, sinking into an armchair.
"You don't have to say anything," said Ross
Rachel nodded slowly. She looked at Emma who was lost in the moment, her arms were wrapped around Ross as if she didn't want to let go and she was staring at him, at a figure that she hadn't set eyes on for 2 weeks. It was although she didn't want to stop looking at him in case he slipped out again. Josh was sitting on Ross's other side, playing with his collar.
"It's so good to see you guys again," said Ross, breaking the moment of silence "I've missed you so much"
"We've missed you too Daddy," said Emma "Are you here for keeps?"
Ross looked at Rachel who gave him a vacant look back. "I don't know grasshopper, but it's great to be here right now with you"
Josh slid off the couch and grabbed Ross's hand "Come to my room"
"Have you got something to show me?" asked Ross, standing up
"Yes" said Joshua, still gripping his hand "Now"
"OK" said Ross, looking at Rachel who was lost in thought before following him into his bedroom.
Emma jumped off the couch and climbed into Rachel's lap
"Please can he come home Mommy?" she pleaded "Tonight?"
"Emma, I can't get into it," said Rachel "You don't understand what's going on and it's just not that easy"
"But he bought you flowers" said Emma "I told him a diamond.."
"Flowers don't just make up for things Emma, presents don't change what has happened" said Rachel "It's complicated, adult stuff and I don't really want to talk about it right now with you Honey"
"But he is my Daddy" said Emma "You aren't letting him come home and it's not fair"
"Emma" said Rachel, standing up and dropping her on the couch "I'm doing what I think needs to be done, it's not all Bert and Ernie, everyone's happy ok..there are things that need to sorted, things that need to be patched up before he comes home"
"Fine" said Emma, crossing her arms with a sulky look on her face
"I'm sorry Sweetie but that's the way it is" said Rachel "I'm going to go and have a shower, tell your Dad when he comes out, that's where I am ok?"
Emma ignored her,
"Thanks" said Rachel, sighing and heading through to the bathroom.
She walked past Josh's room and saw Ross and him sitting on the floor, they were playing with some huge dinosaurs and making noises, Joshua was laughing hysterically.
She kept walking into the bathroom where she stood under the shower for 20 minutes, letting the soothing, hot water run down her tired and knotted up body.
She massaged her neck with her hands, her face screwing up in pain as she felt all the knots and twists in her muscles, she'd been so tensed up lately and now realised she needed to visit a chiropractor.
She turned off the water and rubbed a huge, furry towel around her before walking out into the bedroom to get dressed.
She was looking through the closet for something to wear when she heard the bedroom door open, then close again.
"Emma" she called, stepping out of the closet and coming face to face with Ross.
"Shit" she said loudly, nearly letting go of her towel "You scared me"
"Sorry" he said, holding up his hands "I thought you were in the bathroom so I was just going to grab some more clothes"
"Ohh" she said, keeping a tight grip on the towel "Ok"
She bent over carefully, to pick up the pair of pants she had dropped in fright, crying out a little as her muscles let her know they weren't happy.
"What's the matter?" asked Ross, coming to her side
"Nothing" said Rachel, back in a standing position "I need to see my chiropractor, I'm a little tense and knotted up"
"Come here" said Ross, taking her hand and sitting her down on the bed
"What are you doing?" asked Rachel, aware that she was still completely naked underneath her towel
Ross sat behind her and she jumped as she felt his hands touch her neck, massaging gently into all the sore spots.
"Is this ok?" he asked, a little unsure of wether or not he should be touching her "It feels great," admitted Rachel, flinching as he hit a sore spot "And also a little painful"
"I'm sorry but you've got to get right in there if you want to get the knots out" said Ross
"Keep going," said Rachel, she could feel herself letting her guard with him down a little but right now, all she could think about was the nice, smooth hands, massaging her.
Ross meanwhile, was getting a little turned on by this, him touching her smooth, golden skin. He realised how long it had been since they had made love, it would have to have been about 5 months, probably even longer.
Rachel felt all her tense feelings, slipping away as his fingers worked her. He had always been so good at massages and back when things were good, he used to treat her to a romantic massage with candles and oils at least 3 times a week.
"Is that better?" he asked, his fingers stopping as he moved and sat next to her on the bed
"Much" she said, "That was excellent"
"I aim to please" he replied with a laugh.
Their eyes locked for a moment,
"God, you're beautiful," said Ross, touching her cheek "You're everything I could have ever wanted and more"
"Ross, stop," said Rachel "Come on"
"Come on what" he said "This is driving me crazy, I want us to be together so much, I love you"
"I know you do," said Rachel "But things have changed..."
"Let me kiss you," said Ross, interrupting her
"I don't really think it's a good idea," said Rachel, but she was silenced as she felt his lips touch hers, where they stayed for a moment or two.
Ross pulled away and looked at her, her eyes were half closed as if she hadn't even realised he'd stopped kissing her.
She opened them fully and stared at him "You kissed me"
"Yeah, I guess I did" he said, "I'm sorry, it was an impulse"
Rachel was sitting, her shoulder's hunched over as she stared at her hands, which were sitting in her lap. Him kissing her, had made her wonder even more, about what her decision was going to be, there was no doubt in her mind, how much she still loved him, she loved him so much it hurt but something was stopping her from admitting she wanted them to be together...
"Are you ok?" he asked, touching her chin and lifting her head up
She nodded, and Ross looked at her face and saw tears brimming in her eyes
"Why are you crying?" he asked,
"I don't know," replied Rachel "I'm a very emotional person, you know that"
"I do," said Ross "And I want to make you feel better"
He pulled her face closer to his and once again kissed her on the lips, this time a little firmer, with a little more passion. He then kissed her tears away gently, before kissing her lips again.
Rachel felt herself melting and without thinking, pulled him closer to her and kissed him back. She ran her hands through his hair, and down until the settled on the back of his neck, she kept a firm grip, holding him close.
Ross leaned forward slightly, forcing Rachel's body back and she leaned all the way back until she was lying down on the bed, pulling Ross with her. They continued kissing until they were both breathless and Ross stopped, pulling himself up onto his elbows and looked into her eyes.
"Is this what you want?" he asked quietly, brushing a lock of wet hair away from her face
"I don't know what I want," said Rachel "But I think it could be you"
"Are you sure?" he asked, before they did something she might regret.
Rachel didn't reply, just pulled him back down to her...
They made out for another few minutes, before Ross felt her pulling at his sweater, trying to get it off; He sat up and pulled it off himself, and felt Rachel's hands fumbling with his belt and jeans zipper.
Something made him wonder if this was the reconciliation he had been hoping for, or if this was just them having sex. If this meant that she had made her decision and it was what he had wanted or if this was the last time they would ever make love.
He was about to ask her, but lust took over, he wanted her and that was all that mattered, they could talk about it later.
Rachel was stripping him down frantically, and he undid the towel that had been wrapped tight around her body and dropped it carelessly over the edge of the bed, leaving her naked underneath him. He looked down at her body, something he hadn't seen in awhile and as always, it blew his mind.
They went through the normal motions; their eyes were locked the whole time except when they were kissing, both of them reaching their climax, quickly and quietly..
Is this a new beginning?
TBC
RossnRachel4eva: I took your suggestion, I was planning on having him quit somewhere later on but seen as you suggested it, I put it in this chapter. Thanks : - )
