Communicating on all Levels 4/?
**Disclaimers and all information in part 1**
A/N: Okay folks this is the repost. I know Val said she didn't care but I do. I can't tell my students not to plagiarize the work of others if I'm guilty of it. There are some major revisions of part 4. Part 5 is included so that you read the two parts together.
*Sarah Rabb's Farm
Sunday Morning 8:00am"
I wake to the smell of bacon cooking. I open my eyes, stretch and promptly fall off the bed with a thud. I lay there for a minute wondering what happened. When I sit up, I realize what the problem was. Both DB and Kip decided to sleep with me last night, as a result I was forced over to the edge of the bed and when I stretched I fell right out.
"Mac everything okay in there ?"
"Yeah, Harm everything's fine. I just fell out of bed."
"Let me guess DB and Kip were taking up most of the bed right?"
"Yes, how did you know?" I laugh.
"Why do you think I sleep with my door closed? Come on down, Gram's making breakfast."
"I'll be down in a few." I change into jeans and a T-shirt and comb my hair real quick before heading down the stairs to the dining room.
Harm and Sarah are already at the table. There are pancakes, scrambled eggs, bacon, and strawberries. I look at all the food in amazement.
" Grams sometimes forgets she's not cooking for a bunch of farm hands anymore. Of course knowing your appetite, this may be a good thing." Harm chuckles. Sarah smacks Harm's arm and at the same time I throw a napkin at him
"There's nothing wrong with a girl having a healthy appetite Harmon. Help yourself Mac. I'm sure my grandson will behave himself."
"What's your secret to getting him to behave?" After breakfast Harm and I clear the table and help Sarah with the dishes. Once the dishes are done Sarah heads outside to her garden. I think she's trying to give us some privacy. I wonder if round two is about to begin.
"So why are you here Mac? I What's the real reason? Not the line you fed Grams."
"Line? Excuse me? You're the one with the lines not me."
"Yeah right I'm the one with the lines. You're the one who almost married a guy who you met while he was trying to put you in prison for the rest of your life. He said he thought you were guilty. How in the hell did you get past that Mac?"
"None of your business. Why do you care?"
"Why do I care? Geez Mac what planet have you been living on? At one point I had hopes of us having a relationship. Though I know we want different things. I'm just trying to figure out how I miss judged you so bad."
At this point I'm so angry I'm shaking. I want to slap Harm but I refuse to do that. I don't think he'd forgive me if I did. I know I wouldn't forgive myself.
"What do you mean we want different things? I've been in love with you for years but never stood a chance because I'm not blonde and ditzy."
"Yeah, you're in love with me. Right! That's why you treated me like a lap dog when I returned from flying. That's why you blind sided me in Sydney. That's why you wouldn't talk to me on the Guadalcanal or come visit me in the brig. That's why you assume that I can't look at you without seeing Diane. You love me. If that's your idea of love I don't want to know what your idea of hate is!"
All of a sudden we hear someone clearing their voice. We both turn and notice Sarah standing by the kitchen door. I wonder how long she's been standing there. How much did she hear?
"I just wanted to make sure everything was okay."
"I'm really sorry Sarah. I don't know what came over us." I'm so embarrassed.
"Don't worry about it Mac. Obviously you two need to get these things out in the open. I'm just glad I don't have any neighbors who live close by. Harm, why don't you and Mac go out to the barn and clean the vegetables and strawberries I picked?"
"Yes, ma'am. Come on Mac. We can talk while we work." I follow Harm across the yard and into the barn. Harm starts cleaning the corn and I start with the beans.
"Lap dog?"
"Couldn't think of anything else. You and Bud were nicer to Singer than you were me during that time. I expected the admiral to be pissed but you were far worse. He forgave me fairly quickly. I wanted you and I to bury the hatchet but I was afraid you'd put it in my skull!"
"Why didn't you say anything?"
"Usually when you're mad it's safer to back off for awhile. Harriet and I talked, she agreed with me that you probably needed time. I figured you'd calm down eventually. If I knew then what I know now. I'd like to think I've have done things differently. Maybe I wouldn't have. I don't know. I'd like to think I wouldn't have let Brumby come between us."
"You said something about me ignoring you when we were in separate chains of command."
"Yeah, I'd kind of hoped we'd be able to start a relationship when the regulations weren't against us. You forgot all about me."
"I did not!"
"Well, it sure seemed that way. You didn't email much. When you did your tone was very professional. you didn't tell me about your promotion."
"You never said you wanted to have a relationship."
"That's because I could never quite figure out how you felt. I'd start to get the idea that maybe you felt the same way and something would happen to make me question my sanity for thinking that. Besides I ended up back at JAG fast enough. Things were so strange for me when that happened."
"What do you mean?" "The whole point in going back to flying was to have it be my choice to leave. I'd hoped to maybe start a relationship and transfer back as a instructor or something. As far as I'm concerned the best thing about JAG is investigations. I knew if I came back I wouldn't get to do as much investigating. I also really thought you'd want to explore this thing between us."
"And you didn't think I did?"
"You never gave me any sign."
"What about Sydney?"
"What about Sydney? You never said you loved me. You never said really said what you wanted concerning our relationship. By the time I figured out that you might be trying to say you had some feelings for me you were wearing Brumby's ring." Oh my god he didn't understand what I was saying. I wonder if I misunderstood what he said. Have we ever had a conversation where we were both actually communicating?
TBC......
**Disclaimers and all information in part 1**
A/N: Okay folks this is the repost. I know Val said she didn't care but I do. I can't tell my students not to plagiarize the work of others if I'm guilty of it. There are some major revisions of part 4. Part 5 is included so that you read the two parts together.
*Sarah Rabb's Farm
Sunday Morning 8:00am"
I wake to the smell of bacon cooking. I open my eyes, stretch and promptly fall off the bed with a thud. I lay there for a minute wondering what happened. When I sit up, I realize what the problem was. Both DB and Kip decided to sleep with me last night, as a result I was forced over to the edge of the bed and when I stretched I fell right out.
"Mac everything okay in there ?"
"Yeah, Harm everything's fine. I just fell out of bed."
"Let me guess DB and Kip were taking up most of the bed right?"
"Yes, how did you know?" I laugh.
"Why do you think I sleep with my door closed? Come on down, Gram's making breakfast."
"I'll be down in a few." I change into jeans and a T-shirt and comb my hair real quick before heading down the stairs to the dining room.
Harm and Sarah are already at the table. There are pancakes, scrambled eggs, bacon, and strawberries. I look at all the food in amazement.
" Grams sometimes forgets she's not cooking for a bunch of farm hands anymore. Of course knowing your appetite, this may be a good thing." Harm chuckles. Sarah smacks Harm's arm and at the same time I throw a napkin at him
"There's nothing wrong with a girl having a healthy appetite Harmon. Help yourself Mac. I'm sure my grandson will behave himself."
"What's your secret to getting him to behave?" After breakfast Harm and I clear the table and help Sarah with the dishes. Once the dishes are done Sarah heads outside to her garden. I think she's trying to give us some privacy. I wonder if round two is about to begin.
"So why are you here Mac? I What's the real reason? Not the line you fed Grams."
"Line? Excuse me? You're the one with the lines not me."
"Yeah right I'm the one with the lines. You're the one who almost married a guy who you met while he was trying to put you in prison for the rest of your life. He said he thought you were guilty. How in the hell did you get past that Mac?"
"None of your business. Why do you care?"
"Why do I care? Geez Mac what planet have you been living on? At one point I had hopes of us having a relationship. Though I know we want different things. I'm just trying to figure out how I miss judged you so bad."
At this point I'm so angry I'm shaking. I want to slap Harm but I refuse to do that. I don't think he'd forgive me if I did. I know I wouldn't forgive myself.
"What do you mean we want different things? I've been in love with you for years but never stood a chance because I'm not blonde and ditzy."
"Yeah, you're in love with me. Right! That's why you treated me like a lap dog when I returned from flying. That's why you blind sided me in Sydney. That's why you wouldn't talk to me on the Guadalcanal or come visit me in the brig. That's why you assume that I can't look at you without seeing Diane. You love me. If that's your idea of love I don't want to know what your idea of hate is!"
All of a sudden we hear someone clearing their voice. We both turn and notice Sarah standing by the kitchen door. I wonder how long she's been standing there. How much did she hear?
"I just wanted to make sure everything was okay."
"I'm really sorry Sarah. I don't know what came over us." I'm so embarrassed.
"Don't worry about it Mac. Obviously you two need to get these things out in the open. I'm just glad I don't have any neighbors who live close by. Harm, why don't you and Mac go out to the barn and clean the vegetables and strawberries I picked?"
"Yes, ma'am. Come on Mac. We can talk while we work." I follow Harm across the yard and into the barn. Harm starts cleaning the corn and I start with the beans.
"Lap dog?"
"Couldn't think of anything else. You and Bud were nicer to Singer than you were me during that time. I expected the admiral to be pissed but you were far worse. He forgave me fairly quickly. I wanted you and I to bury the hatchet but I was afraid you'd put it in my skull!"
"Why didn't you say anything?"
"Usually when you're mad it's safer to back off for awhile. Harriet and I talked, she agreed with me that you probably needed time. I figured you'd calm down eventually. If I knew then what I know now. I'd like to think I've have done things differently. Maybe I wouldn't have. I don't know. I'd like to think I wouldn't have let Brumby come between us."
"You said something about me ignoring you when we were in separate chains of command."
"Yeah, I'd kind of hoped we'd be able to start a relationship when the regulations weren't against us. You forgot all about me."
"I did not!"
"Well, it sure seemed that way. You didn't email much. When you did your tone was very professional. you didn't tell me about your promotion."
"You never said you wanted to have a relationship."
"That's because I could never quite figure out how you felt. I'd start to get the idea that maybe you felt the same way and something would happen to make me question my sanity for thinking that. Besides I ended up back at JAG fast enough. Things were so strange for me when that happened."
"What do you mean?" "The whole point in going back to flying was to have it be my choice to leave. I'd hoped to maybe start a relationship and transfer back as a instructor or something. As far as I'm concerned the best thing about JAG is investigations. I knew if I came back I wouldn't get to do as much investigating. I also really thought you'd want to explore this thing between us."
"And you didn't think I did?"
"You never gave me any sign."
"What about Sydney?"
"What about Sydney? You never said you loved me. You never said really said what you wanted concerning our relationship. By the time I figured out that you might be trying to say you had some feelings for me you were wearing Brumby's ring." Oh my god he didn't understand what I was saying. I wonder if I misunderstood what he said. Have we ever had a conversation where we were both actually communicating?
TBC......
