Communicating on all Levels 6

*Disclaimer - I don't own JAG and I don't own Friends. Others do and they have a lot more money than me.*

*Creek on Sarah Rabb's farm*

It takes five minutes and 25 seconds for me to stop crying. Once I stop crying, I start thinking about everything Harm said. The more I think about it the madder I become. I start running back towards the house leaving our picnic supplies behind.

I run across the yard yelling for Harm the whole way. It's Sarah, not Harm, who comes out onto the porch to meet me.

"Mac," I don't let her finish.

"Harm get out here we're going to finish this."

"Mac, he's in the kitchen." I head for the kitchen, slamming the screen door behind me. Harm comes out of the kitchen to face me.

"What do you want Mac?"

"Equal time!"

"Equal time?"

"You critiqued my relationships, I figure I should get the same opportunity." Harm sits down in a chair and gestures for me to do the same. I choose a chair that's as far away from Harm as I can get and still be in the same room.

"Take your best shot Mac."

"Okay, maybe I pick men that show me no respect but let's look at the women you pick. You pick women with whom you have no shot of a long term relationship."

"I do not!" Okay Harm's starting to get agitated again.

"Right. Let's look at your relationships. A weekend fling with Kate Pike. I assume you knew she was transferring out when you two decided to spend the weekend together. Then there's Maria Elena the stewardess." I say this with a sing song voice.

"Flight attendant and how do you know about her?" Uh oh. Harm's growling this is not a good sign.

"I forget if it was Keeter or Kate Pike that told me. Anyway you picked a woman that was only in D.C. maybe two days a month. You got together if you weren't out on an investigation. She thought men in the military were boring. Lots of potential in that relationship. Then there's you and Annie Pendry. You remember Annie. The widow of your old buddy Luke. Neurotic Annie. There was a relationship that was going somewhere. The woman blamed the Navy and flying for her husband's death and hated both of them. I never understood how you could be with someone who hated the two most important things in your life. Or was it all just about giving Josh a dad? I bet that's it. It wasn't Annie at all. It was about Josh." Harm jumps up so quick that he knocks the chair over.

"I did care about Annie." He shouts.

"Yeah but it was more about wanting the life Luke had. You know the wife and family. Then there's Jordan. Jordan who couldn't handle you being a pilot. She liked the image of being with a lawyer. She wanted you to leave the Navy. Since that wouldn't have happened no chance of a long term relationship there. Then there's Bobbie. That was just a one night stand. There's no way it ever could be more. You two are far too different. She's way too pragmatic for you. You couldn't handle someone with flexible ideals." Now I'm standing and we're practically toe to toe.

"Then there's Renee. You say I date men that I have nothing in common with.Well to quote a tv show 'pot this is kettle you're black." I mimic a telephone with my hand as a say this. "What in the hell did you two have in common besides sex?"

"None of your damn business Mac!"

"Okay fine. Let's see Renee didn't like the Navy, didn't like your flying. Liked going to fancy parties and being seen in public. You're more comfortable hanging out with friends. Renee loved to show you off in your uniform. You hate wearing your mess dress. Renee's idea of a good meal was eating at Le Tours. Your idea of a good meal is veggie lasagna cooked at home. Renee wanted somebody who she could count on being there all the time. You get called out of town so much that your car spends more time at airports than at your apartment. So I ask again what in the hell did you see in her?"

"She made me forget that you were off screwing Bugme!" Okay that did it.

"Well, Christ Harm you could have put a stop to that real easily. Let's say you're right and all a guy has to do is pay me a little bit of attention and I fall all over him. All you would have had to do is say 'Mac I love you' and I'd have dumped Mic in a heartbeat! Did you do that? Did you?"

"No because you'd made it clear, you didn't feel that way about me."

"I'd what? Good God! I've been in love with you for years. I was only with Mic because you didn't want me."

"Right! I didn't want you. I wanted more than you were willing to give!"

"Well how in the hell am I supposed to know what you want if you don't say the words? Is it just me you can't say the words to or is it everybody? Lord knows you didn't show how you felt about Jordan until after she was dead. Was it the same way with Diane? Have you showed her more devotion since her murder than you ever did before? Is that what it's going to take to get you to say you love me? Do I have to die before you tell me your feelings? You know if that's what it'll take, I'm sure I can be on a suicide mission by Monday!" I'm screaming so loud that my throat hurts.

"All right! That's enough you two." A voice yells with startling authority. We both turn and stare at Sarah Rabb.

"Both of you go to your rooms. NOW!" Harm looks at his grandmother wide- eyed.

"Grams we're not little kids."

"Could have fooled me. You both need to take some time to think about things. Since it doesn't look like either one of you have the common sense to do that on your own, I'm going to send you on a time out. When you start acting like adults, I'll be more than happy to treat you that way."

Something tells me I shouldn't argue with her. I turn and head up the stairs. Once I'm in my room, I close the door and get out my cell phone. I need to make some calls. I want to get Helen's opinion on this and I want to talk to Uncle Matt if I can.

TBC.....