*A/N: The song in "May 8, Algebra" is copyrighted by my friend Shannon...yes it is our song from our band...tee hee.

May 8, Homeroom

Today we are just doing plain old nothing, so I have plenty of time to write. For some reason, the teachers refused to give out lots of homework and everything. Oh, whatever. I don't want to even bother to explain it.

Here's the deal with Sierra. I sent the picture to The New York Times, but for some reason it got returned back to me (the picture, I mean). So now I have to settle with posting it on Michael's new webzine, Cracked.

Not as good as Crackhead but still. I don't blame him for wanting another one. He was really addicted to Crackhead.

Another thing - Lilly agreed to show the video clip on her show. Yeah, it is just public access. But almost everyone in school watches it, so hey...what the heck, right? I am so excited. I am getting revenge on Sierra!

I just don't know how well Sierra will take this. I know she watches Lilly's show, Lilly Tells It Like It Is, because she was commenting on how the Starbucks episode really offended her.

Whatever. Sierra doesn't even get half of the things Lilly is talking about.

The thing that annoys me, though, is that Sierra flirts with Michael even though he's telling her to go away. I really don't know what to do. I mean, I seriously don't. He doesn't like her; I know that now. But how in the world am I supposed to get Sierra the Boyfriend Stealer away from Michael, my boyfriend!

Who knows?

I heard from Shameeka that she asked him to go to this party that Lana's holding (wow, Sierra got an invite from Lana? No surprises there). He said he's sorry but he can't, and even if he could he wouldn't go, because he doesn't believe in parties where there's drinking and stuff.

Sierra says that she doesn't, that it's everyone else, and she persuaded Lana to keep it all to a 0 perspective, which I guess means she told Lana not to have any drinking there and that it would all be replaced by Cokes and stuff.

A Zero Perspective. Can you believe that? What kind of idiotic saying is that, anyway?

Ling Su says that I should forget about Sierra and move on. And guess what else I heard? She's leaving. Forever. Back to Cheri, where she belongs.

************** May 8, Algebra
I heard that Michael was going to break up with me for Sierra! That can't be true! I mean she's so mean! Doesn't he notice?

I guess not, she certainly seems nice to him. She bought him lunch and it was a pretty good one too. I mean I guess if you're the princess of a powerhouse like Cheri supposedly is, you get the good stuff for lunch, not this nasty hot lunch salad thing I have to have.

Then she bought him a cookie. Okay? A cookie. Do you know how much cookies cost in our caf? $1.45. It's too much for a cookie, but they're really big and pretty good, so I guess it makes a little sense, but whatever. Still. $1.45. The only present I ever bought for him, I stole so it was free.

And I learned she's a songwriter. A songwriter! She has her own band called "Chocolate Ice Cube" and she wrote him a song. She gave it to him, Lilly stole it from his room and copied it down, and she gave it to me so I could inspect it and dissect it and see if there were any hidden feelings. I think it's a pretty good song, so I decided to copy it in here.

"I Would"

Oh baby If you would just talk to me

Make me feel like I belong with you

If you would just love me

Everything would be right

Chorus:

I would give you my heart

I would give you my soul

I would give you the world

But your as hard as coal

And

I can't seem to talk to you

Open up

Let me see who you really are

I sit here by myself

Loving you And yet you won't talk to me

Please let me know

You don't love her

And

My heart is safe with you

Don't let my feelings go to waste

Please, baby

Repeat chorus x2

We all know that you and I

Belong together

I came from far away and then I met you

Without you I'm so blue

It's like there's nothing I can do

Repeat chorus x2

Bridge:

Oh baby, baby, baby, baby

Yeah

It hurts to want it all

And I want it all

Oh baby, baby

Ooh

Repeat chorus x3

Oh baby

Repeat chorus x3

When the stars fall I won't fall asleep

Without you here with me

You're my shooting star

I mean it's not the best in the world but...hey...I couldn't write any better. Supposedly, she's the lead singer but she plays the guitar, too.

But the song seems too passionate. Sierra can't possibly be in love with Michael, can she?

Okay, just to get mentally organized, I'm writing all of my questions.

Is Michael going to break up with me?

Is Sierra in love with Michael?

Why won't Sierra be nicer to me?

Why did Sierra write that song?

Why does Lilly avoid my questions about Sierra and Michael?

Why won't Michael even talk to me online anymore?

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May 8, G&T

I am so upset.

You wanna know why?

I mean, apparently it is not enough that:

I am still fairly hideous, even though my breasts are growing and most everyone else is catching up to my height and my hair is not so triangular, still I am learning to be a more wonderful person all around thanks to Grandmeré.

My boyfriend might break up with me. This is incredibly scary because Michael, though he is usually fairly smart, is making the wrong choice by choosing Sierra over me, even though she is gorgeous, blond, and beautiful

Lilly is now avoiding me since, apparently, I have provoked her right to remain silent by consistently annoying her with questions about Michael and Sierra and what they are currently doing and what level their relationship stands on

Sierra has decided to be part of the PALS program at our school (Peer Assistance Leadership Skills) and now helps out our Freshman Class, therefore is in my Algebra class

None of the Moscovitzes ever talk to me, not in person, not online, not on the phone, nothing. I would like to know why this is, since I think I'm a fairly nice person and frankly pretty easy to get along with.

Any of these things would have been upsetting. But I had all five.

Can't write long. Oh, no, Michael is coming up to me, and he looks
pretty sad and pretty serious. And great - now Sierra is looking all
smug and all happy and crap.

My life is now officially over.

With a capital O.