Crimson Tears

Chapter 2

By aznJEDI13


Disclaimer: George Lucas owns Anakin and Amidala and everyone else. Heck, he owns just about everything in the story. This is purely for fan enjoyment.

Notes: This takes place during the Clone Wars. I must warn you right now that I'm not a big fan of Anakin turning into Darth Vader so it probably won't end with anything like that. I hope you like this; I've been reading too many ami/obi ones I was sooooooooooooo mad. That was completely random and I'm going to write a bunch of stories to rebel against them!

I hate love triangles but I write them because it's a plot twister. Right now I have no clue if I'm going to add it or not, actually I have no clue if I'll even finish this one. I don't really know where its going so this is a really questionable story. ENJOY! Feedback is REALLY appreciated.

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'…It's not that I can't live without you,
It's just that I don't even want to try
Every night I dream about you
Ever since the day we said goodbye
If I wasn't such a fool, right now I'd be holding you
There's nothing that I wouldn't do
Baby if I only knew
The words to say
The road to take
To find a way back to your heart…'



Three words. I. Love. You.

Three words.

How could three words change his world so much?

How could three words make such a difference?

Only two other words could change his world like that. Only two other words could have such an impact on him.

With tears in her eyes, only those two words…

Don't. Go.

The fear in her eyes had been utterly incomprehensible. The hurt could not have yelled at him any louder. The unwanted anticipation could not have screamed any harder to get his attention. How could he have been so blind? She had been so blunt; she had been so scared.

//I love you Anakin…don't go//

He had been so blind. Why, why hadn't he seen it? Why hadn't he felt it?

Of course, now.

Now he missed her. With every fiber in his being, he ached for her badly. The need to see her, the need to hold her, to seek solace for his enmity. For the pity she would give his sorry soul, a soul full of wretches and conceit.

But now he could not see her. He could not be with her when she heard the news. He could not be with her when she cried. He could not be with her…

When she heard of his death.

Or when she got his letters. Or when…

She could not comfort him. She could not make him feel better. She could not relieve his pain. She could not cease his aches and she could not destroy the fire in his heart that burned…for her…

//I love you Anakin…don't go//

How could he have been so blind?

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//Senator, I'm very sorry, Padme, I don't know what to say. I doubt anything can relieve your hurt and can cease your pain…//

She cringed. Goose bumps crawling up her skin, her fingers fumbled the pad, shaking uncontrollably. Tears began to poor out of her eyes, tears so cold, so scared, so afraid, so sad.

So crimson.


Their safe haven had been destroyed.

//You must know of the guilt I feel. I wish we could have known for certain of his death. It would be very easier. I know my words offer very little solace to you over your lost…//

She broke - sobbing without control, clinging to the sheets with pain and crying with desperation.

Her love…

//I wish I could have held him in my arms, I wish I could have seen him fall, I wish I could have seen his maimed torn body – but I saw none. All I know is he is gone…//

And I am left, alone.

//I want you to know, Padme…you are not alone. His heart will travel with you wherever you go and his soul is forever bonded and bound to your own…//

His heart, his soul…

Did that offer her any solace over her physical lost? She'd never hold him her arms; she'd never feel those soft lips against her own. He'd never hold her waist ever so gently. She'd never feel his arms around her…she'd never again…see him physically, touch him, hold him…but she would always love him…

Always…

//I know my presence could not surpass his presence. I know you will never forget his voice, his eyes…//

His lips…

//And in those nights that you are crying and feel all alone…remember that he is in the shadows watching you…loving you. In your darkest hour, he will be there. In your lightest moment, he will be there. Death cannot separate love - nothing can.//

Death cannot separate love…then why is he gone?

//I'm sorry Padme…words cannot describe the lost that plagues, words cannot invent powers that could bring him back, words cannot shake the hurt, and the sadness that has washed itself over us. Words cannot make everything the way it was before.//

Her body convulsed, the tears too much. She shook, not having any control. It was as if her very soul had died, with him.


//But I will find him. Even if I have to go the ends of the galaxy for a shredded torn bloody deceased body…I will find him and I will bring him to you; alive or dead – because true love lasts forever…your love lasts forever…and his love lasts forever…//

Death cannot separate love.

She stopped breathing her; her sobs turned to small tears. Peace and fear came over her, embellishing her with an emotional calmness that she had wanted ever since she had heard of his untimely death. Except he was not dead. She could feel it. She would have felt his death – his pain.

But she hadn't.

"Ani…love come back to me…I will find you Ani…if it's the last thing I do…I will find you…"

//You're pain is my pain and his pain. May the force be with you…and may you find solace in the memories you hold so close to your heart and in the deep cavities of your soul may you find the serenity that you have been aching for…I'm so sorry…//

She could not find their safe haven anymore. She could not find the dream world they had been living in.

Was this the reality they had been dreading?

To be continued…

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