Inuyasha sat silently as Kagome was making some kind of food in the kitchen. She'd insisted that he'd eat something other than ramen and he'd only agreed without putting up a fight, he didn't want to argue with her today, his heart wasn't in it.

He looked lazily over at Kagome who was chopping up vegetables for whatever it was she was preparing.

He watched her continue to chop, her eyes closed in thought and didn't even seem to pay attention tot the fact she could slice off her finger in one simple stroke.

"It's almost ready, Inuyasha," Kagome, said happily, she'd always wanted to cook for Inuyasha and now here he was, waiting for her cooking with pleading eyes.

She smiled and continued to cook the chicken in the frying pan, as she added some carrots and such as she went. The chicken was letting off a sweet aroma and Kagome could tell it was having a positive affect on him, she smiled, plus Inuyasha was being nice.

"Good, because I'm god damn hungry," he growled as he eyed the rice cooker, as if willing it to pop open and spit out rice for him. Kagome fought an urge to giggle at his concentrated look.

She opened the rice cooker and peered inside, the rice was clinging to the sides of the cooker and the other grains of rice: perfect. She scoped some up into a bowl and added her chicken stir-fry.

"There, I hope you like it Inuyasha," Kagome smiled and handed him the bowl, which he took and looked at it with a look of confusion, "I know it's not ramen, but I hope you like it."

Kagome blushed suddenly and looked away, she began to scoop up rice and stir-fry for herself, looking at Inuyasha in the corner of her eye. He wasn't eating.

"Is something wrong?" Kagome asked, fearful of him not enjoying something she'd worked so hard on, "Is it that bad?"

Inuyasha was staring in shock at the food, "No...no it's...so good!"

He smiled at Kagome and his eyes danced with merriment, and Kagome felt her heart leap high into the air, "Then why aren't' you eating?" she smiled.

Inuyasha blushed, "I was waiting for you."

Kagome grinned, 'Inuyasha was waiting for me? How sweet!' she took a bite out of her food and almost gasped herself, it had turned out much better than she'd expected! "Wow!"

Inuyasha looked at her in amusement as he gobbled down his food, "You made it, how come you're surprised?"

Kagome blushed; she'd been doing that a lot lately, "Oh...well it's never turned out this good before, you see."

Inuyasha nodded and looked at her with pleading eyes, "Can I have more?"

Kagome grinned and nodded, taking his bowl and scooping it full with more of her food.


Kagome cleared her throat and looked around for the wall clock to tell her what time it was. She reached over and looked at the face as if it were the most interesting thing in the world. Really, she didn't want to look at Inuyasha, she'd do anything to be distracted and not have to look at him.

She blushed, why, she didn't know, it was confusing her...

Inuyasha sat with his arms behind his head and his eyes staring up at the ceiling, he was trying to do anything to keep himself from jumping Kagome, so, he tried to calm his nerves by pretending that he didn't know she was there.

That failed miserably, after all he knew her scent like the palm of his hand, speaking of which, and they were becoming very sweaty from his thoughts.

Kagome let out a small yelp of surprise, making Inuyasha jump and fall off the couch.

"What the fuck is wrong with you!?" he yelled at Kagome, she grinned sheepishly, but still managed to look beautiful in his eyes.

"Sorry, I'm just surprised how late it is," she rubbed the back of her neck nervously, hoping that Inuyasha didn't yell at her too much.

Inuyasha snorted, "And how late would that be?"

"Um...two in the morning," Kagome giggled at his perplexed look, of course he didn't understand her time system, "Well, it's late, so I'm going to bed, okay Inuyasha?"

Inuyasha snorted again, "Don't need my permission, Kagome," she was about to say something when he scooped her up and started to jump up the staircase, casing Kagome to shriek in surprise and grasp Inuyasha neck.

Inuyasha chuckled deep within his throat and it came out as a muffled growl, Kagome giggled and hugged Inuyasha close to her, arousing something deep within him and causing him to blush.

By the time he made it up the stairs, his growling had made Kagome fall asleep by the soothing sound. He smiled softly and brushed some hair out of her eyes.

He set her down on her bed and just sat on the ground looking at her lovingly. He brushed the same piece of hair from her face and took in her features slowly. She had a soft face, carefree and childish, not like Kikyou, who was stiff and almost kind of pointy. She was elegant too, he felt inferior compared to Kikyou. Not that he was superior to Kagome, in a way, she was the superior, she could control him with a simple word, but she also controlled his heart.

"Kagome," he whispered, no response. Of course she wouldn't respond, she was already plunged deep within her dream world. He smiled, "Kagome I know you can't hear me, but I want you to know, I love you, deeply."

Kagome smiled in her sleep, but showed no signs of being awake. She rolled over to face him, and he rested his chin on the mattress, nose to nose with Kagome.

He blew softly on her face, making her eyes squint shut, "Mom…I like sticking my…head…out the window…" Her voice came out in a whisper, mixed in with her sleep and a light snore.

Inuyasha chuckled softly and continued to blow, she swatted her arms blindly around, "Mom…get a fly…swatter…I see…a big…fly…"

Inuyasha had to fight the urge to burst out laughing in front of her face, "Kagome."

Kagome smiled again in her sleep and stuck her arms out as if she was going to hug him, though she was facing the wrong way, "Inuyasha, come back."

Inuyasha blinked.

Kagome kept searching blindly for him and he felt his blush rising up his face, turning it as read as his outfit. He scrambled calmly up the mattress and straddled her hips with his legs so he could get in between her arms. She sighed softly and closed her arms around him.

He felt his face burning, sure he'd imagined doing this, but now that he was basically on top of her, his cowardness was returning.

Kagome moaned and started to wake up, but still hanging on tight to Inuyasha, he began to panic, if she caught him like this, he'd be sat into the next year.

She opened her blue eyes and looked at him with a distant look in her eyes, then her eyes snapped open; she sat up quickly releasing him and staring at him.

Inuyasha blushed and braced himself for her to sit him, but it never came.

He opened an eye cautiously and saw Kagome looking at him softly; she had a smirk playing across her lips that unnerved Inuyasha.

"Inuyasha, what were you doing on my stomach?" she asked timidly.

Inuyasha blushed crimson to the point he was surprised that his face hadn't popped. "I was comforting you in your sleep."

"Oh, thanks," Kagome blushed too. Kagome looked at the wall away from Inuyasha, finally she said, almost inaudibly, "Why?"

Inuyasha looked at the back of her head and smiled, he walked softly so as not to make a sound and sat next to her. Kagome jumped at the suddenness of how close he was. She could feel her heart pounding in her chest and wondered if he could too.

Inuyasha smiled, that rare smile again, and brushed some stray hairs from her face, "Kagome..."

Kagome shivered against his touch as his claws trailed softly down her cheek and along her jawbone, "Why?" she repeated.

Inuyasha ran his hand until it was under her chin, tilting her so that he could look directly into her eyes his only reflected that of sheer worship and admiration. Kagome gulped.

"Because I care about you," he whispered, taking Kagome by surprise.

Kagome's heart leapt about sky-high before it came crashing down into the pit of her stomach, she felt like slapping him for saying such a thing, "You have some nerve to say that, when you're always running away to Kikyou," she tried to sound strong but her voice quivered.

Inuyasha downcast his eyes and nodded, which really took Kagome by surprise, "I have no excuse for that, but please Kagome, believe me when I say that I'll never hurt you again."

Kagome tried to answer but her voice had escaped her, causing her to only nod. Inuyasha smiled and lifted his other hand, cupping her cheek with it. She leaned into it and felt her hair falling over its long clawed fingers.

Inuyasha felt his heart pounding, she was responding, it made him calm, yet his heart was going haywire. "Kagome," he whispered, and she looked up at him with half closed eyes.

She smiled softly at him and closed her eyes, leaning into his hand some more, only concentrating on his soft breathing and her pounding heart.

Kagome didn't even realize she was crying until his clawed hands were wiping them away. She opened her blue orbs and looked up at him, tears still brimming her eyes and running down her cheeks like tiny waterfalls.

"Oh Kagome..." he whispered, continuing to wipe away salty liquid pouring from her orbs, "I'm sorry."

Inuyasha felt his heart clench, he'd just apologized, to Kagome, his Kagome, the Kagome he wanted, needed, couldn't have. He smiled sadly at how ironic life could be.

He sat up and moved away from her bed, he trailed her cheek with his fingers again before sighing, "I'm sorry," he repeated before turning to the window, "I'll leave."

Kagome sat up quickly and stared after him, she didn't understand why she was crying, but she did understand why her heart was twisting, "No...wait."

Inuyasha paused and looked over his shoulder at her, she sat, clutching her chest as if it pained her, and the tears were still sliding down her soft, rosy cheeks. Her eyes were staring straight at him, mixed emotions dancing across the cerulean spheres. She smiled sadly at him and stood, the moonlight shinning through the window touching her hair and making it shine brightly in the dark room.

She walked hesitantly towards him, the moonlight dancing across her silky locks. She stopped in front of him, a pleading look in her eyes, "Stay."

Inuyasha shook his head, "I can't," he looked at her pained expression, "I don't want to hurt you."

Kagome's eyes softened, as she fingered the tear marks on her cheeks, "You didn't hurt me."

She sniffled and looked at him hopefully. Inuyasha hesitated before taking a step closer to her; she stiffened a little, not expecting him to stay, or at least an argument.

"Kagome," he whispered, barely audible. He walked a little closer and grabbed her hands, looking at them curiously he leaned in closer to the hands. After some inspection, he released her hand and looked her in the eyes, "You're trembling."

Kagome blinked and lifted her hands, and sure enough, her hands were trembling, only slightly but it was there, she smiled sheepishly, "I-I'm sorry."

"Why are you apologizing?" he asked, smiling as he trailed his claws lightly up her arm, she shivered.

"Kagome?" he asked quietly, she looked up at him and stared into his golden eyes. She waited for him to continue, not sure what he was trying to get at, "I-I-I well...um."

Inuyasha searched for the right way to say it, he'd always played it in his head, always rehearsed what he was going to say when the time came, but now, now words failed him, he felt helpless, the helplessness he felt before he met Kagome. Before he loved Kagome.

He looked at her and the way she was looking at him, as if not sure what he was going to say. Well, of course she didn't know what he was going to say. If he were her he'd be expecting him to snap at her.

"I-I-" Inuyasha searched for a way to say it, 'damn it what a time for words to fail, damn it.'

She looked at him hesitantly searching his eyes, not sure what he was going to say, whatever it was, he was having difficulty, she decided to help him, "It's ok, Inuyasha, you don't have to tell me."

Inuyasha flinched; the sadness in her voice was almost too much, "No, I have to say it!"

Inuyasha successfully got Kagome's attention again; she looked up at him and smiled softly, "I know what you're going to say."

"You do?" Inuyasha felt relief wash over him.

"Yes, you care about me, but you still love Kikyou, I know," Kagome said sadly.

Inuyasha frowned, that wasn't what he was going to say at all, Kagome turned away from him and walked back to her bed, "I'm sorry I can't be like her, Inuyasha," Kagome gazed at him sadly and her shoulders sagged sadly.

"What the hell, Kagome, I wasn't going to say that!" he growled and grabbed her arm. Kagome gasped, she hadn't seen him move so close to her, "That's not what I was going to say." His eyes looked pained and she felt her heart crash and burn.

Kagome's tears returned, "I'm not stupid! I know that you still love her!" she collapsed to the ground, her head in her hands as she continued to sob.

Inuyasha kneeled beside her and reached for her but she turned away, still sobbing, Inuyasha paled, "K-Kagome, I-"

"I don't care! Now leave me alone!" Kagome screamed at him, crying some more, "I never want to see you again!"

Inuyasha gasped and pulled his hand away, like he'd been burned. His heart shattered into little pieces, littler than the jewel shards, almost like Kagome had ripped them from his heart and smashed it with her foot. She glared at him, her tears overflowing her clouded eyes.

"Kagome..." Inuyasha only whispered, he'd lost his voice again, he'd lost his love, and he'd lost his reason for living. He'd lost Kagome. He hung his head, he wanted to scream at her for being such an idiot, wanted to scream at her for being a bitch, but he knew that it wouldn't help the already depressing scene.

Kagome lifted her gaze to yell at him to leave again, but gasped when she discovered he was gone, and the curtains on her window were fluttering softly and as she stared three words could be heard, drifting in the wind, 'I love you'.

Kagome collapsed to the ground and sobbed herself to sleep.