Always Been Forever part 5

Ok guys thanks for the reviews!!!! It really helps… I'm really trying to think of ways to make this more dramatic… I just don't want it to be too cliché because already is. Soooo bear with me as I come up with ideas:-) Sorry it took me sooo long to post… I was having MAJOR writers block, plus I was going through a rough time with my friends :-) so sorry!!!!!!

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Ross arrived at the restaurant about 5 minutes early and was very nervous. Ross shifted in his seat as he glanced at his watch. "Where is she?" Ross asked himself. He never understood why it always took women sooo long to get ready.

Ross glanced up to see Rachel coming towards him. Ross doesn't necessarily look scared, but a little worried. Ross gets up to greet Rachel.

"Hey, Rach." Ross says carefully, not knowing how she is gonna react.

"Hey sweetie." Rachel says sweetly. Rachel decided to give him a hug, letting him know that she's not entirely mad, but mad enough not to give him a kiss.

Ross was still a little surprised by the hug, he kissed Rachel on the top of the head, and let go of the hug.

"So, um how was your… Morning." Ross asked, skirting around the subject of their earlier conversation.

"It was ok. I did some cleaning… I fixed the nursery up a little.. Not much really. How was your morning." Rachel asked. She really wanted to just jump into the earlier conversation, she wanted to know how Ross felt about everything.

After about 5 minutes of Ross nervously rambling on Rachel decided that she had, had enough. "Ross."

"Yea?" Ross knew what was coming he just didn't want to admit it.

"Ross, I'm just going to come right out and say what I'M thinking ok?"

Ross nodded, he braced himself for what he thought would come next. After he thought about it, he really didn't understand what the big deal was, but he decided that if Rachel thought it was a big deal then it was for him too, sorta.

"Ok Ross. How long have we been married?" Rachel asked. She was hoping that he would make this as easy as possible and just answer the question, and not get into one of his long explanations.

"Uhh… about 3 years?"

"Yes, and how long were we together before we decided to get married?"

"Well… there was that time period when we were together before the break and—"

Rachel stopped him, she didn't want this to turn into another 'We were on a break' controversy. "Ross, how long were we together after Emma was born, before we decided to get married?"

"two years?"

"Now, in all these five years that we have been together since Emma was born, have we ever kept anything from each other? And Ross I don't mean little things like 'oops I forgot to do the laundry, so I'm just not gonna tell Rachel.' Not like that, I mean big things like, 'I got a promotion' or 'I'm pregnant' or 'I got a secretary'." Rachel saw Ross flinch when she said secretary and she was glad, at least she knew she was getting somewhere. Even though Rachel was saying all of this, she knew that there was a HUGE secret that she was keeping from Ross, but she knew that the past was the past, and there was no point in bringing it up now.

"Rach, I—"

"Ross, let me talk ok?" Rachel cut him off. And Ross nodded. " Sweetie, this issue isn't so much that you got a secretary, or that your secretary is Morgan Cole. This issue is that you didn't tell me, and it hurts. I'm not saying that I like the fact that she is your secretary, but that's not the part that bothers me. The part that hurts me is that you didn't tell me that you got a secretary just because you didn't think I could handle the fact that Morgan was that certain person."

Ross sat there for a couple of seconds, wondering what would be the best way to approach this. "Rachel, I guess… I guess I just thought that you would be mad at me for letting Mr. Lucas hiring her, when in fact, I had nothing to do with it. I love you so much that I guess I feel like I have to sort of 'shield' you from certain things. I was going to tell you eventually, I was just trying to come up with a good way of doing it, sweetie. I'm really sorry. I didn't know that it would hurt you that much." Ross said staring directly into her intense blue eyes.

"Its ok, I still love you." Rachel joked trying to make the conversation a little more light.

"Rachel, I do have one question though…" Ross paused not wanting to get Rachel mad again.

"Ross just ask me. I want to be totally honest with each other."

"I don't mean to sound weird, but I've been wondering this for a little while." Ross took a deep breath. "Why do you dislike Morgan so much?" Ross said quickly.

Ross saw Rachel's eyes get hard at this question.

Rachel was a little startled by the question. She was expecting every other question besides that. "well… do you remember in high school how geeky I was, how popular you were, and how much I liked you?" Rachel watched Ross's chocolate brown eyes. He looked a little confused, and Rachel knew that he was wondering were this was leading.

"ummm… yea.. but honey, I don't think you're geeky." Ross said.

"Ross, I KNOW THAT. Do you want to know why I don't like Morgan or not?"

"Yes." Ross said carefully. He wasn't quite sure if he wanted to know anymore.

"Ok then. When we were in high school, as you know, I had a huge crush on you." Rachel paused " Everyone in the whole school seemed to know except for you. Or I guess you knew, you just didn't like me. But, anyway Morgan knew how much I liked you, and every time I tried to talk to you she would block me away from you, and she would say, 'Why would Ross want to talk to a geek like you.' And all sorts of stuff like that… she was really mean… She always mocked me, and made fun of me.. There was this one time, I was already having a bad enough day when I just HAD to run into her and her beautiful friends. They started pushing me around and yelling and screaming at me for no reason. I just didn't understand why she would be so mean to me."

Rachel stopped for a minute. She let Ross digest that for a minute. It hurt her to talk about certain things that only Monica knew about. But Rachel knew that Ross would have found out how mean his friends were at some point and so then she continued. " In our sophomore year I came so close to asking you out, but Morgan beat me to it.. I guess that messed me up for a while. It wasn't just Morgan who hurt me, it was your guy friends too. They uhh…" Rachel swallowed. " Do you remember your friend Chip Matthews?"

Ross nodded. He wondered exactly what Rachel was going to tell him next.

Rachel felt tears welling up in her eyes as she started to tell this unknown part of the story, Ross grabbed Rachel's hand as she started. " Well… Chip Matthews was an especially mean guy to me. One day I was studying in the school one Saturday. By myself… I guess you guys had, had football practice that afternoon or something. Chip came in… to where I was studying and started flirting with me. I didn't know exactly how to take it since I had never had a boyfriend, let alone had anyone flirt with me especially someone who was even remotely close to you. So… one thing led to another….. and.. he uh, he raped me." Rachel had tears streaming down her face.

Ross felt his face harden at the thought of that jerk Chip Matthews. He couldn't believe that one of his so-called best friends would do that to a helpless girl like Rachel. "Rachel… I am soo sorry." Ross didn't know what else to say. He had expected every other scenario except for this.

" Ross, its ok. What happened isn't your fault. I'm sorry I loaded all of this onto you all of a sudden. The past is the past. I never even planned on telling you any of this… I thought that there wasn't any point. I didn't want to put a gap between us. But anyway what I guess I'm trying to tell you Ross, is with all of the bad experiences comes the knowledge of how much I really do love you, and how much I want to keep you for myself, and only for myself." Rachel looked down, a little embarrassed by that admission.

Ross suddenly got up. He leaned close to Rachel and gave her a passionate kiss. Everyone around them was staring, but Ross didn't care. Ross knew that now that he knew what had really happened he had to come up with a way to show Rachel how much he really did care. Ross also knew that since he knew what had happened, he could help Rachel work through the sadness, hurt, and heartache.

Rachel pulled away breathless. "Ross… People are staring." Rachel whispered.

"I don't care. Rachel, I love you sooo much. Plus, if it makes any sense at all, I think that knowing this makes me love you even more. This whole experience I guess has shown me that you are a much stronger person, emotionally, than I thought. I didn't know that Morgan had been so awful. I didn't know how much my friends had hurt you. Even if I hadn't liked you during that time, if I had found out what Chip had done to you, I wouldn't have been friends with him anymore. I can't handle thinking of how much more he could have done to you. I'm glad he didn't. I guess I just thought that there was something little that she or they had done that you didn't like. If I had known I would have worked even harder not to let Mr. Lucas hire her. That was why I came home yesterday. I got into--"

"Ross, quit talking." Rachel pulled Ross to her again and kissed him with all the passion that anyone could ever have. All of the people in surrounding tables began clapping.

It was Ross's turn to break. Rachel started giggling at the people clapping. "Thank-you. Thank-you very much." Rachel giggled again because now she had everything off her chest, and she felt she truly could be happy.

Ross looked at Rachel and smiled, "There's my beautiful wife, who knows I would never leave her for a woman far less beautiful than she. Correct?"

Rachel nodded and grabbed Ross's hand. "Let's go."

The couple paid they're bill and went on their way.

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The next day Ross day Ross woke up next to Rachel and kissed her cheek, " Good morning beautiful."

"Morning Handsome." Rachel groggily replied smiling. She knew that she was very lucky to have such a wonderful husband like Ross, who now knew what she was working through.

Ross and Rachel decided that they would help each other more, and not talk of what happened with Chip anymore, seeing how it was painful for both. For Rachel it was the loss of her womanhood to a guy she thought was a complete jerk. For Ross it was a life lesson that the people that you thought you knew the best may not be the way you thought they were.

"Hon, what am I supposed to do about Morgan?" Ross asked Rachel nervously. Even though he didn't want to ask the question he knew he had to.

A million thoughts rushed through Rachel's head as she tried figuring it out. "Oh!!! I have an idea!!!" Rachel screamed happily while startling Ross in the process.

"GEEZ!!! Are you loud in the morning or what?" Ross said jokingly.

Rachel hit Ross in the head with a pillow, "You better be quiet Mister."

"Otay," Ross said like a naughty little boy.

"Ross, do you want to hear my plan or not??" Rachel asked a little miffed.

"Of coarse mother."

"Oh be quiet. Now listen…" Rachel proceeded to tell Ross the plan. Rachel wanted to get back at Morgan so bad, but she had to wait for Ross to do his part too. If possible, Rachel wanted to hurt Morgan MUCH worse than she herself had EVER been hurt.

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Hope you liked it!!!!! It was a little more dramatic than I expected…Now let me know if you liked it!!!! PLEASE REPLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love you guys bye bye!!! Also if you have any suggestions…… I am truly serious this time, if I don't get enough replies I'm not gonna continue. I think that there will be maybe…. 2 more chapters….