Wasting My time

By Organized_chaos

Taken place after "ladylike" blah blah blah

I do not own any parts of UC under cover (except my right to oogle Oded J )

Authors note: Though I still don't own any part of UC undercover those days are numbered!!!

Mwa hahahhaha ..*cough* ha...ha *hack* Ooog…that wasn't right.

Song is "Bones and Joints" by Finger Eleven

Alex was hitting the punching bag beyond punching. With each hit she realized that she was probably going to ache tomorrow.

Cloud my eyes and tell me what to see

I'm falling

Every way I turn the same disease

But I like it

Brace myself and hit the wall with ease

Colliding

Then again she had been aching for the past week. Ever since that…moment last week. 'Ok I admit, laughing probably wasn't the brightest thing I could have done but it was the next best thing to crying…and next to that would have been ripping the remainder of his cloths off and doing something entirely unprofessional'. Since then Donovan had been doing his best to avoid her. Every time he saw her, besides in the briefings, he always found something more important to do. Her trips to the gym had become more frequent and longer in duration, it was the only way she could survive the emotional abuse she was going through.

I'm not minding the pain

I've been down here before

All my bones and joints are sore

Find my way out of the wreck again

Each punch that connected with the bag got harder and harder. Each one accented with a thought:

Smack

'Stupid'

I've been down here before

Smack

'Dumb'

Lost myself and so much more

Smack

'Idiotic'

Find my way out of the game again

Smack

…'Inevitable'

Open up my head and take it in

Her punches had now dissipated to nearly nothingness. They were now accented by sobs escaping from her lips. All of the emotions that had been bottled up were bursting through the barrier she had put up to protect herself. She had tried to be in control, do the right thing by shaking it off and forgetting about it. She was use to being in control, being able to do the right thing, shake stuff off that does matter but treating it like it doesn't..

What you need the most from me is yours

I'll continue to deceive you my friend

You lost what made you you

Or maybe I never knew

She hated that she had no control over what was happing now and that it did have such an affect on her.

I can't stay here anymore

Give it all or you're on your own

I will leave you

I will leave you

I will leave you


I will leave you
And so she did the next best thing to laughing……

She leaned against the wall and cried.