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Chapter 18

I just sat there and cried like a baby, probably worst than a baby, but still I cried my heart out.

"Sakura, are you ok?" I heard Tomoyo ask. I didn't even have the decency to shake or nod my head. I just cried, it's basically all I could do.

"S-"

"Just leave me alone!" I shouted standing up on my feet. Quickly I jumped down and took off running as fast as my feet could carry me. I needed to get away, I wanted to get away. I felt as if I didn't get away soon then I would kill someone and regret it later on, and I hate regretting things.

I heard footsteps not too far behind me but I didn't care. If it was an enemy then I'd either kill it or let it kill me. It didn't matter to me at the moment nothing mattered to me. I hated my self and didn't deserve to be with anyone.

"Sakura wait up!" I heard Syaoran's voice cry out. Why can't he just leave me alone? Oh yeah, how could I forget so quickly. He can't go back to my mother empty-handed. I've been forgetting a lot of things recently and with that thought in my mind I felt like I wanted to take my own life away.

"Leave me alone!" I cried out commanding my legs to go faster. I was running downhill now and I didn't even bother to be careful in the process so, clumsy oh me tripped in a golfers hole and fell face forward then tumbling down the rest of the way.

When I reached the bottom I just laid there and cried some more. I would have ran further but I had wasted all of my energy trying to get away from Syaoran. Your so pathetic Sakura, I heard my conscience say.

"Sakura, are you ok?" I heard Syaoran asked. I didn't respond or move when I heard his footsteps stop in front of me. "Sakura." he called me again this time picking me up and holding me tight in his arms.

"Why can't you just leave me alone?" I asked through my tears.

"Because I can't. Now tell me what's wrong," he commanded me softly. He began stroking my head and I could slowly feel myself relax under his gentle touch.

"It's my fault that Kero's dead," I began but Syaoran cut me off immediately.

"Don't say that! It wasn't your fault for what happened to Kero, so stop blaming yourself-" He said, but this time I interrupted him.

"NO! Don't you get it? If it wasn't for me then Kero would still be alive. If I wasn't born to begin with none of this would have happened!" I said talking about all the deaths people had gone through to find me and then the deaths after when I was found.

Syaoran pulled me away and lifted my head to where it was facing his. "Don't ever say that Sakura. You are the best thing that has happened in everyone else's lives and mine. Kero and the others wouldn't want you to blame yourself. They would want you to move on and continue being strong," Syaoran said gently. Why did he have to be so nice to me?

"Yeah right, they probably hate me knowing that I'm responsible for their deaths, " I shook my head. "You would hate me to if you died because of me, I know I would," I said closing my eyes so that I wouldn't have to look at him.

"Sakura, I would be happy to die, as long as I knew that you were safe," Syaoran said. I opened my eyes and looked in his eyes to see if I was hearing the truth in what he said. His voice sounded sincere, but the eyes tell no lies.

When I looked in his eyes I saw something I didn't expect to see. I saw tears moisten his eyes and truth shinning through like the sun after a storm. It made me cry more and he pulled me close to him again and held me tighter.

This time I noticed the warmth and comfort that radiated from his body, making me feel safer. For a moment all of my troubles seemed to disappear in the wind as we just sat there.

I closed my eyes and felt sleep starting to creep upon me, but it soon vanished when I heard Syaoran's voice. "We better head back in case they decide to come looking for us," Syaoran said picking me up along with him.

I dusted myself off, still feeling a little weak from all the running I did. I wanted to believe what Syaoran said about the people that died for me and my mother's kingdom, but I found it too difficult to forget.

Syaoran must have sensed my uncertainty about moving on with my life and put an arm around my waist and pulled me closer. We walked that way all the way up the hill and back toward camp. When we arrived it was almost nightfall and everyone was getting ready for the bed.

"There you two are! We were starting to worry," Cobra said taking me by the hand and dragging me away from Syaoran. I looked back at him with pleading eyes and he kind of looked past me to Cobra sending death glares.

"Cobra, what are you doing?" I asked him when he finally stopped and sat me down some distance away from the group.

"Can we please continue with our earlier conversation? I really hate to be left hanging like that," Cobra said sitting across from me. I was in shock. Cobra didn't try and grab me in any kind of way that was bad! Maybe he really was trying to change for the better, or just trying to impress Boa.which ever comes first.

"Have you talked to her since we talked?" I asked stretching my arms and yawning a bit.

"No, I've been too afraid. I think I'm turning into a coward," Cobra admitted with a sigh. "I need help to get through this Sakura and you're the only one I trust," he said looking up at me. I felt deeply touched that he trusted me so much, that he would confess his love for Boa to me.

"Awww Cobra.I'm sure you're not a coward. I mean look at Syaoran and Melin! Melin is madly in love with him, and he's madly in love with her and he hasn't confessed his love for her yet either."

Cobra gave me a confused look before continuing to speak. "I thought that Syaoran liked y- Oh never mind, things like this will work it's self out in time," Cobra muttered mostly to himself.

"You mean that Syaoran doesn't like Melin?" I asked confused myself.

"From what I heard he's never liked her, but on with my problems," Cobra said. I kind of spaced out for a little. Who does Syaoran like? I thought that Tomoyo said that he liked Melin? "Hello! Sakura, are you still here?" I heard Cobra say as he waved a hand in my face.

I jumped a little and scratched my head. "Oh yeah, I'm sorry Cobra I kind of went spacey." I said laughing nervously.

"Yeah, I kind of noticed that," Cobra said with an annoyed tone in his voice.

"Sorry.please continue," I said trying to regain some composure.

"What do you think I should do? Do you think I should let her get to know me better before trying to make a move?" Cobra asked looking past me to Boa, who was putting a dagger underneath her makeshift pillow.

"That would be the best thing to do, but don't over do it! Pretend your not really interested in her or anyone else for that matter," I said letting my mind work.

"So you want me to ignore her," Cobra asked in what sounded like disbelief.

"NO!" I screamed out drawing attention. "I mean no," I said softer blushing a bit. "Don't ignore her, that's the last thing you want to do. Just act like your not interested in any of us girls, especially Boa. Soon she'll start to wonder what's wrong and will start talking to you. Still don't make a first move not yet cause then you'll just ruin everything," I told him slowly letting it all sink in his head.

Cobra thought about it for a few moments and then began to slowly nod his head. Standing up he began to walk back to camp while nodding his head and talking to himself. "That's a great idea." I heard him say before he went out of hearing range.

I stretched my arms out and lay back on the ground and looked up at the stars that were slowly appearing in the darkening sky.

I heard footsteps coming toward me. I thought it was Syaoran at first but then I heard Boa's voice. "Sakura.?" she called.

A pang of guilt hit me near my heart. I remembered yelling at her to leave me alone before I took off. "I'm sorry," I said before she could speak again.

I heard her sit next to me with a sigh. "It's ok, I wasn't bothered by that. I was wondering if you were ok now? You seemed really upset about something," she said looking down at me. I watched her for a moment out of the corner of my eye before continuing to look at the stars.

"I just needed to get away. Everything is just happening so fast and I'm afraid of what will happen next I guess. Plus I've been blaming myself and Syaoran says that I shouldn't. I'm just really confused I guess. I don't even know what's wrong with me," I admitted to her quietly.

"Sakura, there's nothing wrong with you, you're just going through changes in your life," Boa said resting a hand on my arm. "Someday soon you'll find out why all these things happened to you, but for now don't rush it. You don't want to start growing gray hairs now do you?" Boa asked. I could hear laughter in her voice when she spoke.

I smiled at her as I sat up and gave her a hug. "Thanks Boa.for everything," I told her before standing up to go to bed.

"Wait!" Boa cried standing up and dusting herself off. "Cobra didn't try and touch you when he drug you over here did he?" she asked. I could hear slight anger in her voice.

"No why?" I asked blinking at her innocently.

"He didn't?" Boa asked amazed. "It's strange.whatever you two talked about seemed to make him a normal person! He just walked back to camp and went straight to bed after saying goodnight to everyone. It's like he's changed over night!" Boa said.

"Why do you care? Aren't you happy that he stopped with the grabbing? I know I am," I said honestly. I wasn't expecting Boa to notice Cobra's change so quickly! Geez she's a good observer!

"Yeah I am happy!" she practically shouted. "It's just that it seems weird." Boa started to space out a little bit but quickly came back to earth. "Oh well, I'm going to bed, I'm too tired to worry about this," Boa said clapping her hands together.

I nodded my head slightly and followed her back to camp and climbed into bed. As soon as I closed my eyes an image of Syaoran holding me earlier popped up in my head. I quickly opened my eyes and turned on my side and stared at him for a moment.

He looked so peaceful when he slept. I had this strange urge to go over to him and just wrap myself in his arms again. It felt so right back at the bottom of the hill and I would give anything to have that feeling again. I thought about what I had just thought about doing and I mentally slapped myself. Where in the world did that thought even come from in the first place?

After thinking that I was crazy myself I decided to shake any other crazy thoughts of Syaoran away and closed my eyes. Another image of Syaoran holding me flashed through my mind, but this time I didn't open my eyes. I kept them closed as the images began to come to life.

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I was standing in a field of wildflowers dancing with the flying petals that twirled in the wind. Then I held my arms out to the side and fell backwards stirring up a bunch of butterflies.

I giggled for a moment and closed my eyes. That's when I heard the voice I missed so much. I opened my eyes and there he was. Kero was fluttering above me!

'Kero!' I called out in happiness. I tired to grab him from the air to give him a hug, but my hands went through him. Suddenly tears started forming in my eyes. 'I can't touch you.'

'Sakura, listen to me,' Kero commanded. I looked back up at him. 'I don't want you to through away your life cause I'm no longer with you physically. Keep in mind though, I'm with you mentally only cause you keep me in your heart and I thank you for that,' he said smiling down at me.

'Kero! I miss you so much!' I cried to him.

'I know, I miss you to. .Sakura, about that Syaoran kid,' he began again.

'Yeah what is it?'

'Sakura!' I heard someone call my name. I sat up and looked behind me to see Syaoran running toward me.

'Jesus Christ! Even when I'm dead I can't tell you what needs to be told!' Kero cried. I looked back at him to ask what was he talking about but he started disappearing. 'I'll be back Sakura, when I know I can talk to you without interruptions.' and just like that he was gone.

I started at the empty space for a while. 'Sakura!' I heard Syaoran call again.

I whispered to Kero, wherever he disappeared to, that I loved and missed him. Standing up I moved a stay hair out of my face and waited for Syaoran to come to me. 'Sy-" he stopped me before I could finish saying his name.

'Sakura, there's something I have to tell you.' whatever it was it sounded really important.

'What is it?'

'Sakura,' he took my hands into his. He acted different around me. Like he was afraid or something, but of what?

'Sakura I love you.' he said. He looked back at me and it looked like he just stopped breathing all together!

I starred at him for a while, not knowing exactly how to react. Then the next thing I knew I was in his arms hugging him. "I love you to, Syaoran!" I cried out.

That's when I heard laughter. Suddenly my eyes shot open and I realized that I had been dreaming. Only this time I wasn't dancing, I think I was talking in my sleep. Oh God!!! What and how much did they hear!

"That's my girl!" Tomoyo cried slapping her thigh. I sat up and looked around me. Everyone was in a circle around me, including Mberay and .Syaoran. I felt my stomach start to churn. Why me?

"Sakura, who knew eh?" Cobra asked laughing. The only ones that weren't laughing were Mberay and Syaoran. If they heard what I think they heard then I want to slit my throat right now. I could almost imagine myself grabbing a dagger and just slitting my own throat. Yeah right. I wouldn't have the guts.

"What are you guys talking about?" I asked. Maybe if I play dumb they'll leave me alone. Please let this work, please let this work.

"Don't tell me she doesn't remember!" Boa whined throwing her hands down to show her distress.

"Great, what's the point of congratulating her if she doesn't remember what she did?" Eriol asked shaking his head.

"Come on, let's go back to bed," Cobra said getting up and walking back to his pallet. Everyone stood up and doing the same.except for Melin, Syaoran, and Mberay.

Melin looked at me with fire in her eyes while making the I'm-going-to-slit- your-throat-sign. Then she got up and walked back to her pallet. Then Mberay mad a clucking sound that I think was meant to be a laughing sound. So now it was down to Syaoran and me and I don't think that he believed my fake innocents of not knowing what everyone was talking about.

"Syao-" I began but was suddenly cut off with his lips on mine. At first I didn't know what to do or what to think, but I guess instinct took over and I just responded! I felt I had just been shocked with this huge wave of electricity.

He pulled away and I realized that I was trebling! For that moment, time seemed to have slowed down for just the two of us and I wanted to remain like this forever. I went in heaven instantly now been spoiled for life and don't want to go back to earth.

Inside my head I could hear Kero say, 'its about time.' Causing me to smile slightly.

"Sakura," Syaoran called me. His voice was barely over a whisper. "I love you."

"I thought you loved Melin-" I began confused but he stopped me with another kiss, only this time shorter.

"Never. I love you and only you," he said looking me in my eyes.

"I love you to," I said. He pulled me into a tight hug, which I gladly went into. Then I heard a bunch of 'awwws' coming from all around us. Syaoran and I both turned to see everyone had been watching us, causing me, I don't' know about Syaoran, to heat up like food baking in an oven.

"How long have you guys been up?" Syaoran asked.

"We didn't even go to sleep!" Tomoyo said waving her hands.

"Yeah, we wanted to see what Syaoran would do," Boa said practically jumping up and down.

"Did you honestly think that we bought that innocent stuff?" Eriol asked laughing.

"Actually I did," I said honestly causing everyone to stop laughing and just stare at me. "What! I honestly did think you guys bought it!"

"O" was all I got from them before they started laughing again full force. I looked at Syaoran who only shrugged.

END OF CHAPTER 18! They had their first kiss, FINALLY!!!! I've been waiting, and waiting and waiting for me to dream of them having their first kiss and I finally did!!! YES!! Now I can write more much for them two!! Yes, Yes, Yes! Clears throat. Once again thank you all for reviewing, now here are the fics that stood out the most to me.

Take My Hand and Let Me Be Your Light by summerheat. It's really good kind of sad though in the beginning but she needs to continue!!! If summerheat reads this fic then please hurry and update!!

Salsa Dancer by SoUrPoP1004. It's really good and I hope that she and everyone that I listed before this chapter hurry with they next chapters please!!

Well, these are the ones that stood out since I've been working on this chapter, so go ahead and check them out.

~* Ghetto Princess