Asylum: Thank You For All That I Have Lost

Chapter 4:

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Inu woke dizzily, his head pounding. A sharp pain racked his body.

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And there was a hole where his heart should've been...

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And he remembered. Remembered the look on her face, as she shot the arrow. It was

as if he were nothing more than a weak foe, the way she looked at him. No pity. It was

as if he were just a worthless trophy to her. A beast to hang on the wall. Worthless.

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"Today I woke up and you were gone

The whole day wondering what I did wrong

It's like I'm falling from a mountaintop

My heart keeps pounding and it won't stop"

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And he remember the night before, and how sweet it had been...

and now she tricked him.

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"Can you see this hell I'm living

I'm not giving up

Will you crawl to me

Will you fall with me

I'll never crawl to you

I've done it all for you"

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How could all that have changed? The days they had spent together,

their deep friendship over all those months. The friendship that had turned into a

secret love. A love that had been thrice consummated. How could that mean

nothing?!?! How could she have jeopordized that, lost and not felt an ounce of

compassion. Not a glimmer of love.

The bitch had simply shot him.

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"Well don't deny

The hand that feeds you needs you

Oh god I'd die to try to

Finally please you

There goes a piece of me

Will I cease to be

I've never lied to you

Fought bled and died for you

Well don't deny

The hand that takes you breaks you

Oh god I'd die to try to

Finally please you"

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He didn't know what to think. He was a soul divided. A part of him was

smug, and haughty, because it had know he wasn't good enough. The demon inside

him was thirsty for her blood, and he was infuriated on many other levels as well. Then,

there was a paper thin slice of him that said it was a misunderstanding, a mistake. That

they had been misled. That it was all a lie, and not her fault.

The bloodthirsty demon within quickly rid him of that thought, and destroyed

it in place of Kikyo.

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"There she goes and I'm on the ground,

I'm on the ground, I'm on the-

Well don't deny

The hand that feeds you needs you

Oh god I'd die to try to

Finally please you

Will you crawl to me

Will you fall with me

I've never crawled to you

I've done it all for you"

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"That's it!" his thoughts cried out. "I will seek my revenge upon this frigid

whore! I will hate her for the rest of my life!!!"

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And he closed his eyes to sleep, satisfied with his final decision, but a soft

scent reached his nostrils, and a sound make his ears twitch. His eyes snapped open

at once, and there,before him, was the face of Kikyo...

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she was holding him tightly...

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Notes: The song used was "Deny" by Default.

Yes, I know it was a short chapter. I've been busy, school is wrapping up,

and I've been caught up in the commotion. I figured I'd write this and post it,

since it was necessary and moves the plot along. It took me a max of 20

minutes. Not too bad...

For those of you who are confused:

We begin, and Inuyasha is depressed. Apparently he's been trying to

write poetry,[the poem which he is writing is placed at the beginning of each

chapter]. We learn that there is something he wants to forget. Something that's

made him lose sleep and lose hope. We are not told what this something is.

A Naiad confronts him on this, and he runs away.

As he runs, we flashback a night he had spent with Kikyo. As he sings,

he finds himself in Kagome's bed, and we realize that he had a dream, but

he, himself, does not completely realize it.

He goes to the shower, and tries to sort things out. In the shower he meet

another Inuyasha [this is in HIS HEAD...and the other Inuyasha is symbolic

of his other self, the self who loves Kagome, but he doesn't understand that].

In the shower he returns to dreaming of the last night he spent with Kikyo.

This then goes into the event of Kikyo shooting Inuyasha down.

This chapter is what Inuyasha was dreaming while he was attached to the tree.

And the face he saw wasn't Kikyo's...it was Kagome's but upon waking, he

didn't realize that...