Warnings: yeah not sure, but you should prob be at least over 16 or 17. I donno how far I'll take it.

Discclaimer: All mine. Yeah, I bought Gundam Wing yesterday. Seriously. Well ok it was only a poster but its close enough for me.

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Chapter 5: Forgiven

Duo didn't continue after that. I was prepared for a full onslaught, but he must have realized what he was doing and he pulled away.

"Oh God. I'm so sorry Heero." He said as he stood up. I just curled up into a ball on the floor where he had left me. I didn't look at him. Instead I became fascinated with the weaving in the carpet, following it and admiring the detail.

"Heero, please forgive me. I just…I just…I got carried away. I've been so worried about you, I haven't spelt, I've had more coffee then I care to think about. I've been popping all sorts of pills to stop the pain in my chest and my pounding headaches. I didn't mean to do that. Honest. I…I just got so caught up in seeing you. I'm sorry. It won't happen again. I promise." He sounded so sincere. I couldn't stay mad at him. At least not in a way that he could see. On the outside I had to forgive him and act as if everything was OK and back to normal, but on the inside I couldn't bring myself to do it. Not yet anyway.

"It's OK Duo." I still didn't meet his eyes. I herd him sigh in relief.

"I'll leave you alone, you could use some rest." And with that he turned and left the room.

I sighed heavily and leaned back against the wall, heart racing and head pounding. I was lost in confusion, because even though I had been terrified of what Duo was going to do to me. And little part of me deep inside didn't want him to stop. In fact it liked what Dup was doing, it enjoyed the close contact of our two bodies. It wanted Duo to go further than he did, and even though I wasn't going to be leaving my room anytime soon, it wanted Duo to come back and continue where he left off.

I quickly brushed that out of my mind. I was not in the right state of mind. I needed more rest and time to be alone. The next person who knocked was going to have to talk to me from the opposite side of the door. I was not letting anyone in until I was damned ready.

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A week went by and I hadn't seen any of the pilots. The hicky on my neck was barely visible anymore, I figured I could just wear my jacket and no one would even notice it. Even though it was a little warm for the jacket, it wasn't uncommon for me to wear it. I was almost inseparable with it. I took it everywhere, even if I wasn't wearing it.

I decided I needed a shower. In my attempt to avoid the other pilots, I had missed taking a shower. I desperately needed one. I walked to the bathroom and found that no one was currently using it. I walked into the large room. It was seriously the same size as my bedroom, and the toilet was in its own separate part. The tub was in the middle of the room with a shower on the wall next to it. To the left of the tub was a door which lead to the toilet and one sink, the other, larger sink was to the right of the tub. And the tub itself could fit 6 people comfortably. It was like a Jacuzzi! I filled the tub and filled it with bubbles, and stripped. The water was hot, but not burning. It felt nice against my skin.

I sank in slowly, so as not to burn the sensitive parts of my skin, especially near my bruises and wounds, in the hot water. It felt so nice. The radio was on in the background. Duo was obviously the last person in here because it was playing a "Puddle of Mud" CD. I didn't mind, I liked most of Duo's music, though I would never admit it to him. I like making him think I was into the classical stuff, which I did like, but only when I really needed to relax or concentrate. But punk and alternative were my favorite. It was so nice to just grove to the music and lose all thought and concentration, just let lose. What a relief it was to let lose (on the few occasions I have). I plan on turning over a new leaf. I plan to show the real me, not this fake 'perfect soldier' crap everyone takes me for. I mean what is that? 'Perfect soldier'?? Who the hell thought that one up? I was no better than the rest! They say my Gundam is one of the strongest. Well bullshit. I don't believe that for a minute. The only reason its so good is cause of the beam cannon, so if that's all that makes me the 'perfect soldier' give the others one of 'em. Then we can all be the 'perfect soldier' and I wouldn't have to have all this responsibilities!!!

I dunked under the water, completely submerging my head. I liked to see how long I could hold my breath. 56 seconds. I was slacking. I use to be able to do it for 2 minutes. Scared the crap out of Duo the first time I did it. He thought I had drowned. You shoulda seen his face. He was so scared looking, I couldn't stop laughing. He made me promise I would never do that again to him. So I started to do it all the time. Whenever I could. I practiced in the tub so that when I was with him I could hold it longer.

"Don't try to deny it Heero, I know you feel something for me. There is no way this could be a one way connection. I feel to much for you, for you to not return it." Duo's voice came back to me. "I know you feel something for me." Was he right? Here I was in the tub thinking about him with a smile on my face. I couldn't do that with the other guys. "I feel to much for you." Why? What did I do? How should I act around him now? Should I try to see if maybe I DO have feelings for him as well, or should I pretend nothing has even happened between us? I don't know. I guess I'll just wait and see which ever will work the best when the time comes.

The water was starting to get cold. I had been in the tub for a while now. I got out and dried off. Unfortunately I had forgotten to bring my clothes in with me, so I wrapped the towel around my waist, and put my shirt back on and sprinted to my room. When I got there I saw the door was slightly cracked open. Not a good sign. I had shut it when I left to take the shower. I swung the door open forcefully, hoping to catch whoever was inside off guard. My heart skipped a beat when I saw who it was. Releana. Shit. What was she doing here?

"Oh, Heero!! I heard what happened and that you were back. I came to see you. To see how you were doing." She ran over to me to hug me. I put my arm out to stop her. She just looked at me funny for a second before bypassing my arm and circling her arms around me. That was it. I had had enough, and I didn't need this brainless bitch bothering me. I shoved her away, a little more forcefully than I had been planning to do.

"Heero, what's wrong? Aren't you happy to see me?"

"No"

"Oh come on Heero, don't play"

"Releana, how did you get in here?" I asked her. I knew the other pilots knew I hated her and would have told her I was to sick to see her.

"Rashid let me in." ah, there's my answer. Rashid new I didn't like Releana, but for some reason he thought I disliked him as well, and he did everything possible to make my life a living hell without having it upset Quatre. I was going to get him for this.

"I see. Well if you'll please leave, I'm not feeling well and I…"

"Oh, say no more! I'll go and fix some soup up for you and help you with anything so that you can be comfortable!" she smiled her ridiculous smile that just made her look like even more of an idiot.

"NO, Releana. Just GO AWAY!" I practically shouted at her.

"What's going on here?" I heard a male voice say behind me. Duo. I never thought I'd be so happy to see, or rather hear him.

"Oh nothing" chimed Releana

"She won't leave me alone" I told him.

"Ah. Releana, I think you should come with me. Heero really needs his rest." Duo took har arm lightly in his hand and began to escort her away. I slipped inside my room quickly after mouthing a 'thank you' to him to which he replied in the same way 'no problem.' That was a close one. To close if you ask me. I was seriously going to have to have a talk with Rashid and figure out our relationship so that we could come to an understanding and stop trying to piss each other off. A little while later I heard a knock on the door.

"Come in" I said. I know I said I wasn't going to let anyone in, but I lied. I wished it was Duo because I really had to talk to him and I wanted to see him. Locking myself up for the past week had really helped me clear my mind, and I think I might have feelings for him. Even though a little while in the tub I wasn't sure, just hearing his voice in the hall gave me a tingling feeling all over. To my relief it was Duo who had knocked.

"hey Heero, missed ya. You haven't left your room in a while. Which ya…is kinda my fault I guess…"

"No, Duo, I…" I didn't know what to say. Course that wasn't unusual for me, but I really needed to say something now. I couldn't let it end like this. I saw him start to look away, uncomfortable with the current situation. "I need to talk to you Duo." He looked at me. His violet eyes shining in the light. "I…do have feelings for you…Duo. I'm just not sure…how much." I stopped, had I just said the right thing? I guess so cause Duo's eyes lit up.

"Yeah? You sure, I mean I was kinda harsh on ya, and I don't want ya to think I' was forcing you to feel anything, I was kinda intoxicated that night"

"No, I definitely feel something." It was true. I loved being in Duo's company. I loved the way he looked at me, and how we could talked to each other with such ease. "Really…" He stepped closer to me, slowly, until we where standing an arms length apart.

It was to much for me, I closed the space between us and nervously brought my head closer to his before stopping. What was I doing? Had I gone completely insane? This was one of my friends, a co-worker in a way, and not to mention a guy!!! I started to pull back. Duo, realizing what must have been going through my head closed the gap. He laid his lips lightly over mine before deepening it. It was an amazing feeling and I just sunk into it. This time when he asked for permission I allowed his tongue to enter my mouth, as he allowed mine to enter his. We explored each others mouths for a while before stopping for some much needed air. He was wonderful. "Why?" I asked

"Why what?" he responded

"Why me, what did I ever do?"

"Nothing. You were just you." Ha! I got him there, I have never been just me. I have never revealed the true me to anyone.

"But you don't know me. Just like you I wear a mask."

"Yeah, but the mask is who you are. You created the mask. Even if someone helped you, you were the creator. Even though your not who you would have been if you weren't a pilot, your still you, and I love that." I was completely lost with what.

"Huh?"

"Heero, your amazing, your powerful, strong, smart,… deadly" he said that one with a smile, " and not to mention sexy as all hell! How could I not love you?" I was struck dumbfounded. Now I was really lost. Was he off his rocker?

"Heero, just stop doubting me and listen, you obviously feel something like I thought you did. Otherwise we wouldn't be having this conversation because firstly you would not have allowed it to progress this far, and secondly you would not have brought it up." He did have a point there, "there is nothing you can say that will make me not love you, unless you told me you were going to kill me and then did. That might put a damper on our relationship, but other than that I am willing to work through anything. I know your not use to this kind of thing, but that's OK. I'll help you, I'll take it slow, I'll make sure your comfortable at all times. I promise." I knew he was telling the truth. His eyes were silently pleading with me to trust him. "Do you trust me Heero?"

It was a simple question. Do I trust him? Well yes, I trust him with my life, I always have and always will.

"Yes"

"Then will you let me love you and be with you?"

"….yes" it was a whisper but it was loud enough for him to hear. He smiled and embraced me in a tight hug. Amazingly I hugged him back without even realizing what I was doing. The emotions flowing threw me were amazing, I had never felt anything like them before in my life. I knew then that I had made the right decision. I loved Duo.

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Alrighty then, its over. It sucked I know, but I really didn't like it. I finished it cause I hate it when people don't finish fics. It was not heading where I wanted it to go, and I didn't know how to change it without changing everything. So I'm going to try a new one. Hang in with me, though I don't know how many people are reading this, so I don't know how many care. I want to try to write a 2x1 fic, where duo is the dominate one and the violent one, cause I don't like seeing all the fics where Heero is so violent towards Duo. I think it works better the other way. I donno if anyone agrees with me, but if they do and have any ideas and are willing to share them I would greatly appreciate it. Just e-mail them to me!