We continue to walk towards the docks and stop and grab a blanket at the
fishing pier shop. We lay it out on the edge of the dock so our butts
don't get wet.
I lay back on the blanket and he remains sitting. "You know, when I was a little kid I would just lay on the docks for hours. I was so fascinated by the water that I'd lay down and look through all the cracks to see if one slit in the wood held a more beautiful water beneath it then the next." He lays down next to me and looks up into the sky. "Then I looked up. I saw the stars. Even more beautiful then the water. That's like how it is now."
He pauses for a minute and turns to me. "I thought my life was great and I was happy with it. Like I was with the water. Then I looked up and saw you. You are the stars in the sky that put the water to shame." He slides an arm behind my neck and rests the other one on my face. We look into each others eyes for a little bit then he leans in and kisses me. His kiss is like the summer sun beating down on my face. It warms up every inch of my body and I'm overcome with the love for this man I barely even know. His kisses are first soft and then start to grow. Our arms run through each other's hair and we kiss one last time and part.
We gaze into each other's eyes and I hear something. I sit up and turn around. Tidus is standing on the other end of the dock. Alarmed, teary eyed. I see how hurt he is and he begins to run away. I run after him, with tears streaming down my face like his. I eventually catch up to him and stop him. He struggles but eventually colapses on the ground. His bloodshot eyes look up and me from the ground. "How.could.you?" he manages through tears.
"Tidus, I am really sorry. It was an accident. You know that I still love you. Please Tidus," I uncontrollably beg as a kneel down in from of him.
I try to hug him but he replies by pushing away and yelling, "Leave me alone!"
II sit for awhile in silence with my head bent down staring at the ground. I begin to talk again, "Listen. We can just talk about it over a drink or something. Maybe."
He looks up for a minute and stands up. As soon as he's standing he pulls me to a standing position so I'm looking into his eyes. "Look Yuna. I loved you. I really did. But I guess I just need some time. I mean.if you don't love me again.I'll be fine," he says in a hurtful, monotonous tone. He then shakes his head and starts to repent," Yuna. I can't lie to you. I won't be fine. But if you don't love me anymore I'll just.I'll just.I DON'T KNOW!" He begins to sob again. He starts to walk away towards the docks. I think that it would be best to let him think, so I can think myself. I really love Tidus. But then I meet Xander and he has all these common interests as me. But the real question is: Do I love him? Or do I love both?
I start to walk back to the house in great despair. I hear footsteps behind me and glane back; It's Xander. I speed up. I can sense that he would start to speak, either to lament, or to question. I cut him off before he starts to talk, "Xander, I don't want to talk right now. Please, just.leave me alone." I hear him stop on the gravel road and I just keep on walking. I steal a quick glimpse back and I see him just standing there starring after me.
I keep walking and see all the people are doing their last minute errands before they return to the comfort of their homes. It seems like they're all looking at me. Giving me dirty looks. I think that it must be my imagination. How could they know? They don't.It's just in my mind. I feel so mentally exhausted. My head feels like it's going to explode.
I need to rest so badly that I return to my home. I go to my bedroom and begin to change. I'm left in my underwear and my bra. I start to go through my dresser for some pajamas. I'm stopped by a voice in the room. "Yuna. I'm really sorry. It's just that--" he realizes that I'm in my black undergarments and stops and starts to blush, "Sorry. I'll just.come back later. I'm s-sorry." He starts to walk out the door and I quickly get into my pajamas.
Just as he's about to leave I stop him, "Please stay. We need to talk." He turns around and sits on the edge of the bed. I sit down on the opposite edge. "Well.First I guess I should tell you about the guy that I ran after. Well.um that was my boyfriend and past fiancé. You see.um.he kind of died and just recently came back to me. I know I should have told you earlier."
He nods in response. "Yeah, you should've. Well I think that it's over then. I mean.you really love him and you just met me. And, I can't be just friends with you if I love you as much as I do." I look up from my face-down position and am lost in his hurt. He really loves me that much. I need to choose. "Yuna, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I ruined your relationship it's just that.I love you."
I start to cry. "Xander. *sniffles* "I can't say that. Especially not now. I'm torn between both of you. I could never say that if I wasn't 100% sure."
He starts a desperate plea, "Please just think about it. I'll wait for you forever." After a moment of silence he walks out the door. I think about Tidus and Xander. I do love him. I do. I decide to tell him about how I feel now, if I can find him.
I lay back on the blanket and he remains sitting. "You know, when I was a little kid I would just lay on the docks for hours. I was so fascinated by the water that I'd lay down and look through all the cracks to see if one slit in the wood held a more beautiful water beneath it then the next." He lays down next to me and looks up into the sky. "Then I looked up. I saw the stars. Even more beautiful then the water. That's like how it is now."
He pauses for a minute and turns to me. "I thought my life was great and I was happy with it. Like I was with the water. Then I looked up and saw you. You are the stars in the sky that put the water to shame." He slides an arm behind my neck and rests the other one on my face. We look into each others eyes for a little bit then he leans in and kisses me. His kiss is like the summer sun beating down on my face. It warms up every inch of my body and I'm overcome with the love for this man I barely even know. His kisses are first soft and then start to grow. Our arms run through each other's hair and we kiss one last time and part.
We gaze into each other's eyes and I hear something. I sit up and turn around. Tidus is standing on the other end of the dock. Alarmed, teary eyed. I see how hurt he is and he begins to run away. I run after him, with tears streaming down my face like his. I eventually catch up to him and stop him. He struggles but eventually colapses on the ground. His bloodshot eyes look up and me from the ground. "How.could.you?" he manages through tears.
"Tidus, I am really sorry. It was an accident. You know that I still love you. Please Tidus," I uncontrollably beg as a kneel down in from of him.
I try to hug him but he replies by pushing away and yelling, "Leave me alone!"
II sit for awhile in silence with my head bent down staring at the ground. I begin to talk again, "Listen. We can just talk about it over a drink or something. Maybe."
He looks up for a minute and stands up. As soon as he's standing he pulls me to a standing position so I'm looking into his eyes. "Look Yuna. I loved you. I really did. But I guess I just need some time. I mean.if you don't love me again.I'll be fine," he says in a hurtful, monotonous tone. He then shakes his head and starts to repent," Yuna. I can't lie to you. I won't be fine. But if you don't love me anymore I'll just.I'll just.I DON'T KNOW!" He begins to sob again. He starts to walk away towards the docks. I think that it would be best to let him think, so I can think myself. I really love Tidus. But then I meet Xander and he has all these common interests as me. But the real question is: Do I love him? Or do I love both?
I start to walk back to the house in great despair. I hear footsteps behind me and glane back; It's Xander. I speed up. I can sense that he would start to speak, either to lament, or to question. I cut him off before he starts to talk, "Xander, I don't want to talk right now. Please, just.leave me alone." I hear him stop on the gravel road and I just keep on walking. I steal a quick glimpse back and I see him just standing there starring after me.
I keep walking and see all the people are doing their last minute errands before they return to the comfort of their homes. It seems like they're all looking at me. Giving me dirty looks. I think that it must be my imagination. How could they know? They don't.It's just in my mind. I feel so mentally exhausted. My head feels like it's going to explode.
I need to rest so badly that I return to my home. I go to my bedroom and begin to change. I'm left in my underwear and my bra. I start to go through my dresser for some pajamas. I'm stopped by a voice in the room. "Yuna. I'm really sorry. It's just that--" he realizes that I'm in my black undergarments and stops and starts to blush, "Sorry. I'll just.come back later. I'm s-sorry." He starts to walk out the door and I quickly get into my pajamas.
Just as he's about to leave I stop him, "Please stay. We need to talk." He turns around and sits on the edge of the bed. I sit down on the opposite edge. "Well.First I guess I should tell you about the guy that I ran after. Well.um that was my boyfriend and past fiancé. You see.um.he kind of died and just recently came back to me. I know I should have told you earlier."
He nods in response. "Yeah, you should've. Well I think that it's over then. I mean.you really love him and you just met me. And, I can't be just friends with you if I love you as much as I do." I look up from my face-down position and am lost in his hurt. He really loves me that much. I need to choose. "Yuna, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I ruined your relationship it's just that.I love you."
I start to cry. "Xander. *sniffles* "I can't say that. Especially not now. I'm torn between both of you. I could never say that if I wasn't 100% sure."
He starts a desperate plea, "Please just think about it. I'll wait for you forever." After a moment of silence he walks out the door. I think about Tidus and Xander. I do love him. I do. I decide to tell him about how I feel now, if I can find him.
