Julian: Silver decided she was too busy with humiliating some jackass boy to write this chapter, so here I am! I've heard there are some of her friends who like my writing, so I'm dedicating this chapter to the weird girl (Silver won't give her friends names, I don't think some of them are real. Like the girl who is only hyper if you wake her up right before she falls asleep) who likes my writing! But here's a switch for you, I'm going to try like hell not to put in sex! But usually it ends up happening anyways.like most of my dates. HA! (Jeremy!)

//recap//

He smiled real wide and Cole punched him in the nose, which started to bleed.

//end recap//

~*TWO MONTHS LATER*~

Cole's belly wasn't very big yet; he was only three months pregnant after all. But something kept nagging at him in the back of his mind. Something was wrong, and he could feel it. He wondered if Leo had felt it too. He decided not to ask him, because he was now a normal human. He couldn't help but think about when Leo had almost chosen the life of a white lighter over him. Leo had been fired and gotten a new job at least five times in the last two months. Finally he had gotten a job that suited him, a police officer. Cole and him managed very well, but the look on Cole's boss' face when he asked for maternity leave was priceless! Cole decided to talk to Leo when he got home. He needed to know what he loved more, being a white lighter or him. Cole sat at the kitchen table waiting for Leo to arrive home. He should have been home an hour ago, but he wasn't and he didn't even call. Cole was becoming furious. Leo got home over two hours late, Cole was still sitting at the table waiting for him.

Cole: Nice of you to come home

Leo: Cole? What are you doing here in the dark?

Cole: Waiting for your ass to get home

Leo smiled seductively

Leo: Oh? Did you miss my ass?

Cole: Among other things

Leo walked across the room and sat down right in his lap. He leaned in and kissed him. Cole felt Leo lick at his lips; he parted them so Leo could slide his tongue in. They fought for superiority for a few moments then broke the kiss. Leo stood up and pulled Cole from his chair and into their bedroom. Cole laid down on the bed, still loving when Leo acted dominant. Leo got on top of him and ripped at his shirt, which came off easily. Leo rubbed his hands all over Cole's chest before pulling off his belt and pants. He lifted himself back up to Cole's face and kissed him again. He let his tongue slide down all the way down. Cole drew a sharp breath when Leo kissed the tip of his member, then licked all the way around it.

Cole: Ahhh. shit Leo. Don- don't.

Leo pulled away and looked at him

Leo: what?

Cole: Don't, I don't want to be fucked right now

Leo looked disappointed

Leo: oh come on Cole, I want to be inside of you

Cole smacked him.

Cole: You will respect my wishes! I said NOT NOW!

Leo just looked at him for a moment before standing up and walking into the kitchen. Suddenly Cole remembered he was mad at Leo. He stood up and got dressed, then walked into the kitchen and leaned against a wall.

Cole: Would you rather be a white lighter than be here with me?

Leo dropped the glass of milk he was drinking, making it shatter into a thousand tiny pieces on the floor.

Cole: I guess I have my answer

He turned around and began to walk away, then stopped

Cole: leave now, I'll have someone send over your things.

Then he walked into the bedroom, where he fell face down onto the bed and started crying hysterically. Leo appeared in the door way.

Leo: Cole. please. I-I do love you

Cole responded by throwing a large pillow at his head, which hit him right in the face.

Leo: Please Cole, you know I love you! I wouldn't of left Piper if I didn't

Cole: The question was, did you want to be with me more, or be a white lighter. Not Do you love me.

Leo looked down at the floor, a tear fell down his cheek, tracing lines of pain and angst on his pale face. He turned and silently began to walk away, then stopped and turned back to Cole.

Leo: I've lived as a white lighter, and now I've lived as a human. My wings were clipped when I impregnated you with our child, but I didn't know they would be.

Cole buried his face in a pillow, desperately trying not to hear the voice of his beloved, breaking his heart.

Leo: And now that I know the consequence I want to say

He paused, Cole looked up from his pillow

Leo: That I would do it again, if it would prove how much I loved you

Cole jumped up and pulled Leo into a kiss. Leo felt guilty, he had just lied for the first time ever to Cole. But he couldn't bear to see his precious demon hurt, so he lied. He knew that if the opportunity presented itself he would go back to being a white lighter, even if it meant losing Cole. At least, that's what he thought.

Julian: Damn I'm a good writer. See? No sex! I'm so proud of myself!

Silver: :::applauds:::

Julian: when did you get here?

Silver: after I got out of Saturday School. Here is a lil side note for all of you. If you use a diary of a gay guy, and put one of your friend's name on it you WILL get into trouble

Julian: IS THAT WHAT YOU WERE DOING WITH MY DIARY?!

Silver: yes it was ;-D

Julian: that's sick, twisted and yet. oddly genius

Silver: :::bows::: thank you