Disclaimer: I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho.

Its true I've thought about this a lot. Nobody would care if I'm gone. Why should they. My life has no meaning except to fight. I'm tired of fighting. It just feels so right as I pull the shining katana blade across my the flesh of my wrists. Pools of beautiful red.Red the color of my kitsune's hair. Blood oozes from the deep cuts,but I don't care anymore. I want to rest. I'm tired. Tired of being alone. Alone in this living hell. Alone without my beloved kitsune. I miss looking into his beautiful emerald eyes. I even miss his smell. He always smelled like sweet roses. I miss hearing his soft voice. I want to die. I want to die so I can spend eternity with him. I can't go on. I can't live another day without him. He was my life. I see darkness followed by light. At the end of the tunnel of light I see him. I see him,my kitsune. He has been waiting for me. Now I know I am truly in Heaven.