Chapter 10: Spring Break Part VI
Paul and I had come outside, I was crying more as my screaming subsided. I was clinging onto Paul; I kept saying, "I want daddy." No one has ever seen me this vulnerable, not even Paul. Paul thought it was unusual that I was crying this much, but he knew that it was good for my soul to show some emotions because I was always strong, always allowing others to cry. We walked around for a while, and then found a spot under a tree to sit. As we sat in silence, I could sense that Paul wasn't sure if he should sing or not. So I decided to sing something that I wanted to express to Paul.
When I'm lost in the rain
In your eyes I know
I'll find the light to light my way
When I'm scared, losing ground
When my world is going crazy
You can turn it all around and
When I'm down you're there pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all you've got
For a shield from the storm
For a friend
For a love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you
I turn to you
When I lose the will to win
And I can reach the sky again
I can do anything
'Cause your love is so amazing
'Cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend
You're always on my side
Giving faith
Taking me through the night
For a shield from the storm
For a friend
For a love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you
I turn to you
For the arms to be my shelter
Through all the rain
For the truth that will never change
For someone to lean on
For a heart I can rely on through anything
For that one who I can run to
For a shield from the storm
For a friend
For a love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you
I turn to you
~Paul's POV~
I just sat there amazed. She cuddled up against me and I heard her say, "That's what you are to me, Paul. You are everything that song means. I do turn to you for everything." I looked down at her and I could tell that she was starting to fall asleep. I had tears in my eyes because of the way she expressed her love to me in the way she knew how. I held her tighter against me. I wish I could take the pain away from her. "I wish you didn't have to go through all this pain. No one deserves to go through this. You deserve so much better than this," I replied.
Helen had come around and saw her sleeping in my arms and whispered, "Paul, I was planning to tell her that her father died. I don't want to bother her now, but once she wakes up, could you let her know?"
"Yeah, I will," I whispered back.
"By the way, Vince is here and informed me about the shooter. The police have him in custody. It was her biological father that shot Michael. What she doesn't know is that if her biological father escaped free and tried to harm her or any of us that he will be sent to death row. There was a clause that was added that Michael wanted on his case. He knew that her father would try something and added that. Please let her know as soon as she asks you about that."
"I will," I replied.
"I need to stay here at the hospital to get all the paperwork processed and everything. Could you take her back to the hotel and could you stay with her?"
"Sure, I was planning to have her stay with me anyway."
"Paul, when Samantha is doing better, tell her that the storylines and everything will be held until after she graduates from high school," Vince said as I nodded.
I picked up Samantha without trying to wake her up and headed to my car. I had to walk through the hospital since it was parked on the other side of the building. All the nurses and doctors were concerned about Samantha and I laughed. I told them that she was sleeping and they sighed in relief. When I got to my car, Samantha was crying and struggling. I put her in the passenger seat and woke her up. "Baby girl, it's ok. You had a bad nightmare. It's over. The nightmare is over. It's just a dream," I whispered as she looked at me and leaned on me.
"I want daddy," was all that she said.
"Wanna tell me what happened in your dream?"
"Dad came to me in my dreams and told me that he had to go. I kept begging him to stay, but he said that he couldn't and that it was time for him to go. He even stayed long enough to sing to me."
"What did your dad sing to you?" I asked. I was trying to have her think positive thoughts.
"He sang 'I Don't Want To Miss A Thing' to me. When we watched that video for the first time, he said that it was our song. He sang our song to me and then he left. I cried and called from him to come back but he didn't come back. He faded away from me. Paul, did daddy die?"
"Yeah, your dad died. Your mom came to us to let you know, but she found you sleeping. So she told me to let you know," I replied as I stroked her back. She was sobbing quietly when I told her that. I continued to stroke her back and said things to calm her down. She spoke up after she had calmed down, "Paul, does anybody know who the shooter was?"
"Yeah, Vince came by and told your mom to tell you that it was your biological father. He escaped somehow and the police departments have been trying to find him and now they did. They put him on death row since they found him."
"How can the judge do that? He didn't even go to court."
"Well, from what your mother told me that your father has asked for a clause that if your biological father tried to escape and try anything to you or your family that he automatically put on death row."
"Ok, so he won't be bothering us anymore?"
"No, he won't baby girl. So why don't we go back to the hotel and get some sleep?"
"That sounds good." Then we got settled in the car and headed for the hotel.
~ Author's note: 'I Turn To You' is from Christina Aguilera. I don't own it. ~
Paul and I had come outside, I was crying more as my screaming subsided. I was clinging onto Paul; I kept saying, "I want daddy." No one has ever seen me this vulnerable, not even Paul. Paul thought it was unusual that I was crying this much, but he knew that it was good for my soul to show some emotions because I was always strong, always allowing others to cry. We walked around for a while, and then found a spot under a tree to sit. As we sat in silence, I could sense that Paul wasn't sure if he should sing or not. So I decided to sing something that I wanted to express to Paul.
When I'm lost in the rain
In your eyes I know
I'll find the light to light my way
When I'm scared, losing ground
When my world is going crazy
You can turn it all around and
When I'm down you're there pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all you've got
For a shield from the storm
For a friend
For a love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you
I turn to you
When I lose the will to win
And I can reach the sky again
I can do anything
'Cause your love is so amazing
'Cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend
You're always on my side
Giving faith
Taking me through the night
For a shield from the storm
For a friend
For a love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you
I turn to you
For the arms to be my shelter
Through all the rain
For the truth that will never change
For someone to lean on
For a heart I can rely on through anything
For that one who I can run to
For a shield from the storm
For a friend
For a love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you
I turn to you
~Paul's POV~
I just sat there amazed. She cuddled up against me and I heard her say, "That's what you are to me, Paul. You are everything that song means. I do turn to you for everything." I looked down at her and I could tell that she was starting to fall asleep. I had tears in my eyes because of the way she expressed her love to me in the way she knew how. I held her tighter against me. I wish I could take the pain away from her. "I wish you didn't have to go through all this pain. No one deserves to go through this. You deserve so much better than this," I replied.
Helen had come around and saw her sleeping in my arms and whispered, "Paul, I was planning to tell her that her father died. I don't want to bother her now, but once she wakes up, could you let her know?"
"Yeah, I will," I whispered back.
"By the way, Vince is here and informed me about the shooter. The police have him in custody. It was her biological father that shot Michael. What she doesn't know is that if her biological father escaped free and tried to harm her or any of us that he will be sent to death row. There was a clause that was added that Michael wanted on his case. He knew that her father would try something and added that. Please let her know as soon as she asks you about that."
"I will," I replied.
"I need to stay here at the hospital to get all the paperwork processed and everything. Could you take her back to the hotel and could you stay with her?"
"Sure, I was planning to have her stay with me anyway."
"Paul, when Samantha is doing better, tell her that the storylines and everything will be held until after she graduates from high school," Vince said as I nodded.
I picked up Samantha without trying to wake her up and headed to my car. I had to walk through the hospital since it was parked on the other side of the building. All the nurses and doctors were concerned about Samantha and I laughed. I told them that she was sleeping and they sighed in relief. When I got to my car, Samantha was crying and struggling. I put her in the passenger seat and woke her up. "Baby girl, it's ok. You had a bad nightmare. It's over. The nightmare is over. It's just a dream," I whispered as she looked at me and leaned on me.
"I want daddy," was all that she said.
"Wanna tell me what happened in your dream?"
"Dad came to me in my dreams and told me that he had to go. I kept begging him to stay, but he said that he couldn't and that it was time for him to go. He even stayed long enough to sing to me."
"What did your dad sing to you?" I asked. I was trying to have her think positive thoughts.
"He sang 'I Don't Want To Miss A Thing' to me. When we watched that video for the first time, he said that it was our song. He sang our song to me and then he left. I cried and called from him to come back but he didn't come back. He faded away from me. Paul, did daddy die?"
"Yeah, your dad died. Your mom came to us to let you know, but she found you sleeping. So she told me to let you know," I replied as I stroked her back. She was sobbing quietly when I told her that. I continued to stroke her back and said things to calm her down. She spoke up after she had calmed down, "Paul, does anybody know who the shooter was?"
"Yeah, Vince came by and told your mom to tell you that it was your biological father. He escaped somehow and the police departments have been trying to find him and now they did. They put him on death row since they found him."
"How can the judge do that? He didn't even go to court."
"Well, from what your mother told me that your father has asked for a clause that if your biological father tried to escape and try anything to you or your family that he automatically put on death row."
"Ok, so he won't be bothering us anymore?"
"No, he won't baby girl. So why don't we go back to the hotel and get some sleep?"
"That sounds good." Then we got settled in the car and headed for the hotel.
~ Author's note: 'I Turn To You' is from Christina Aguilera. I don't own it. ~
