This story takes place in the near future. Chandler and Monica have been married for a little over two years and are still trying to have a baby. Ross and Rachel are engaged. Joey and Phoebe are dating.

(AN: This story idea is based on an old episode of Dharma &Greg)

Disclaimer: All Friends characters belong to Warner Bros. and NBC.

Title: If Only

Rated: PG-13

Summery: Chandler and Monica are in a car accident and Chandler feels guilty.

Chapter 3: Guilt

Monica moaned softly and slowly opened her eyes. She felt Chandler's hand on her stomach. She looked at him and saw that he was crying. "Chandler" she whispered as she tried to sit up. She fell back down wincing in pain. "Mon" Chandler whispered. "It...it hurts" Monica whimpered. "I know sweeite" he whispered. "What...what happened" she asked. "There...there was an accident" he said trying to avoid her eyes. She noticed he wouldn't look in her eyes and he always looked in her eyes. "Chandler, honey are...are you still upset about the party" she asked. "No, why" he asked. "You...you won't look at me" she whispered.

Chandler sighed softly as he slowly lifted his head to look at her. "No" he whispered "The...the accident it...it was my fault" he whispered. "Oh Chandler that's not true" she said softly. "You told me to watch the road but instead of listening to you I acted like a sarcastic jerk" he said. "Because of me you...you needed surgery to put pins in your hip and...and our baby" he whispered tears filling his eyes.

Monica looked at him. "Our baby" she questioned. She then remembered feeling his hand on her stomach. "Oh my God" she whimpered. "Was I pregnant did I... did I have a miscarriage" she asked breaking down in tears. Chandler gently pulled her into his arms. "Shh its okay Mon you didn't miscarry but" he stopped. She pulled away to look at him. "But what Chandler" she asked. "The doctor she...she said you were bleeding, it...it stopped but she said there's still a small chance you could lose the baby" Monica started crying again. "You...you didn't know you were pregnant did you" he asked. "No" she cried. "After the doctor told us we may never get pregnant I...I stopped worrying about whether I was ovulating or anything" she sobbed. "Oh Chandler" she cried. "Its not fair" she sobbed burying her face in his chest.

Chandler held her. He wanted to comfort her and tell her it would be okay but how could he do that when the woman he loved more than his own life was crying because of him. "Maybe she should have chosen Richard that night" he whispered not realizing he'd said it out loud. Monica pulled away and looked at him. 'Chandler" she whispered. "Why did you just say that" she asked. "I...I said that out loud" he asked. She nodded. 'Don't...don't you love me" she asked

"Yes, more than anything" he told her. "Chandler if its because of the whole you're embarrassing me thing " she whispered tears filling her eyes again. "No its not that its" stopped "Its what honey" she asked softly. "You could have died tonight Mon, our baby could still die and its all because of me" he whispered. "When I proposed I promised to spend the rest of my life making you happy but instead I almost kill you" he said tears filling his eyes. "and Richard he...he probably wouldn't have argued with you over some stupid party" he whispered looking away from her.

Monica set her hand on his cheek "Chandler, honey" she whispered. "I chose you that night because its you I love and nothing will ever change that" she assured him. "But I" she stopped him with her fingertip on his lips. "The accident wasn't your fault it was an accident " she whispered. "Yeah but if I wasn't acting like a smart ass and paid attention to the road" he said. He looked at her. "I love you Monica, so much I never meant to hurt you" he said beginning to cry. Monica gently brushed away his tears and kissed his damp cheek. "I know you love me Chandler and I know you'd never intentionally hurt me" she whispered.

Chandler gave her a small smile "I love you" he whispered. "I love you too" Monica said softly. "The doctor said it would be awhile before you were on your feet again" Chandler said. "I promise to be here for you" he whispered. "I'll take care of you" he assured her. She smiled "I know you will honey" she said. "I mean it Mon I'll be at your beck and call" he whispered. "Mmm really" she giggled. "Yes what ever you need, what ever you want I'm your guy" Monica smiled "Anything" she asked. "Anything" he answered. "Okay then how about this" she said leaning in and kissing him. "Umm Mon as tempting as this is I don't think we should" he whispered. "Oh come on Chandler its not like we're having sex its just a little kissing" she said kissing him again. Chandler shrugged "Okay" he giggled kissing back.

Monica broke the kiss suddenly when she felt a pain in her stomach. "Mon what is it did I do something wrong" Chandler asked. She looked at him her face etched with fear and pain. "No" she whispered. "The baby" she whimpered "I...I think something's wrong" she cried. "I...I'm cramping" she whimpered. "Oww" she cried grabbing Chandler's arm. "I...I'm gonna lose the baby aren't I" she sobbed. "Shh its gonna be okay Mon I...I'll get the doctor" he said as he got up. "I love you" he whispered as he ran from the room. "God please save our little angel" he whispered as he went looking for the doctor.

Monica watched Chandler leave. Tears ran steadily down her face. She set her hand on her stomach and said the same words Chandler had. "God please save our little angel"

Chapter 4: Our Little Angel...Will Chandler find the doctor in time? Will Monica suffer a miscarriage?...Coming Soon!!

Authors Note: Hello little ones. Okay I know I said chapter 3 was going to be called Our Little Angel but I changed it around a little so that will be the name of Chapter 4. I saw a rerun of Friends last night it was TOW All The Wedding Dresses. At the end when Mon, Rach and a preggers Pheebs were all in wedding dresses and someone knocked and they all thought it was Chandler and Monica was like "Don't answer that" and Pheebs said "The groom can't see the bride before the wedding" then Rach said "She's not gonna marry Chandler" I actually screamed Yes she is!!! I'm so nuts! Oh and I had a bizarre dream last night! I don't know if anyone watches One Life To Live its like my favorite soap opera and there's a crazy lunatic Mitch Lawrence who's trying to kill half of Lanview, anyway in my dream I was Monica and the rest of the friends are there were in Lanview and were with Blair, Jessica, Dorian, Viki, Walker, and Lindsey (All OLTL characters that Mitch is after) we're all running from Mitch who's going after us with a knife! We ran through a dark forest and I got lost ( I was Mon) and ran into Mitch! He was gonna kill me but Chandler saved me! I know I'm so totally weird right!! I am beyond obsessed with Friends and Matty! Heehee. Anyway now that I'm sure I've bored you to tears. LOL Please read and review. Thanx!