Author's Notes: Ohayo, minna-san! I came up with this one while having a
very good dream about Heero and Duo. It's a little angsty, but it will
lighten up, I hope. It takes place in A.C 200, Earth. This little ficlet
actually has a plot. And I have it planned out, so I know where I am going.
Well, I should shut up so you can start reading.
Disclaimer: How many times must I say this? I don't own a freaking' cent, let alone the gundam boys! And if I did own them, I wouldn't share them.
Warnings: SHONEN-AI!!!!!!! MAYBE SOME YAOI!!!!!! Okay, so if you don't know what that means, why read the story? But basically it means there is some homosexual relationships in this story. So, if you are not into reading about Heero and Duo falling in love and all that sappy stuff, go away. Flames will be used to warm my hands in my unheated room. This ficlet is also a little sappy and a little angsty. 1x2, 3x4 hints. The title means, I offer myself and throw my life away.
"Talking"
'Thoughts or reading'
~Kono Mi Sasagete Inochi Nagedashi~
/~*Duo's POV*~/
I checked the paper in my hands. It was crumpled and had a few wet spots, blurring the words a little. It still said the same thing that it had said moments ago. I looked up and saw the small townhouses around me. It had been five years since I was in the war, but I could never really get used to the fact that we had true peace. I had kept in touch with all of the Gundam pilots, including Wufei. I still frequented Quatre and Trowa, always making sure Quatre doesn't blow his head up with that big company of his. Wufei is doing pretty well too. He married some girl, I think her name was Flowers of the East. He has become the pride of his family and is currently seeking justice in law school. I had lost contact with Heero about a year ago. Relena almost had given up on him when I last checked. He was almost looking happier. I hadn't heard from him since then. Of course, the little note in my hands would change that.
'Duo-
I checked up on Heero last week. He was looking really bad. He seemed.empty. I couldn't do anything for him, he looked lost to me. Maybe you can cheer him up. I told him you might be around this Tuesday, so you should pop over. He lives within a four hour drive from you. 6778 Torrent Drive, Madeline, New York. It's a little townhouse. Hopefully you can see what's bugging him.
Respectfully yours,
Quatre R. Winner'
I looked up at the house nearest me, 6002. I had a few more blocks. I wonder what happened to Heero that would make Quatre so worried. I shrugged and stuffed the little note into my pocket. A can appeared in front of my feet and I kicked it away from me. A few kids ran up and continued to play the little game. I sighed and trudged along. I wonder why I am so gloomy. I'm going to go see my best friend, I should be happy. But I can't smile in front of Heero. He would know it was fake. I remember when he told me about that. How I should only smile when I feel happy, not just to make others happy. But right now, I was feeling depressed, and maybe even a little angry. Heero just severed the connection between us, without even saying why. It confused me why I was depressed about seeing him. The worst thing that could happen is that I tell him something I bet he doesn't want to know. I couldn't ruin his trust by telling him I like him. But then again, he might just understand and politely tell me to leave. I am just some dirty homo to everyone else, why not Heero? I stumbled over a small rock, bringing me back to reality. I looked up at the house number, 6778. It was in the middle of the block. I turned towards it and examined the house. It was light blue with navy blue shutters. A small porch extended from the front, a wicker chair and table to the side of it. It was a quaint house that suited Heero pretty well. It blended in with all the other houses, nothing that made it different. I smirked and went up the few steps onto his porch. I stopped in front of his door, breathing in heavily. Why am I this nervous? I inhaled and exhaled once more and knocked on the door three times. I heard someone pad towards the door. The door creaked when it opened and Heero stood there. His nice brown tan was gone, leaving a very pale shell. He looked incredibly skinny, more than he used too, and his muscles were not very toned.
"Hey, Heero! Whats up?" He nodded and opened the door wider, letting me in. I grinned and walked inside, almost stopping in my tracks. His house looked like nobody lived there. Sure, all the furniture was there, but it seemed.unfriendly. Heero bade me to sit down and he went into the kitchen. He came back with some coffee and two mugs.
"So, what have you been up too? We haven't talked in almost a year." He shrugged and poured the coffee, handing a mug to me.
"Nothing really. I don't need a job, I have plenty of money, and I just hang around here all day." I gave him another smile and sipped my coffee. It reminded me of when I would wake up and bound downstairs to the kitchen to see Heero and Quatre making breakfast. Wufei would be reading the newspaper and Trowa would be reading some novel. I would grab the coffee that Heero made, day after day, in the same damn mug I brought everywhere with me. I could swear Heero smiled inwardly as I spilled the coffee on my shirt, everyday. I shook my head out of the memory and beamed at Heero.
"So how is your stalker?" He gave me a semi-glare and curled up onto his chair. I had already sprawled out onto his couch.
"She is currently on L3 doing some unknown project. She asked me to come along and be her body guard, but I didn't need the money, so I declined. She was very upset and looked like she was going to die or do something drastic." I nodded.
"How long ago was this?" He looked up like he was thinking.
"About two weeks ago, I suppose. So what have you been doing?" I sighed and stretched out onto his couch even more so.
"Well lately, I have been checking up on everybody. Wufei got married about two months ago, while Quatre and Trowa are still too embarrassed to go through with one. You have to help me arrange like a.secret wedding or something. So anyways, I actually have been trying to set up a band. Right now, it's just me. But I'm hoping to get some band members. And I just kinda broke up with someone about a month ago." I saw Heero nod and take another sip of coffee.
"What happened?" I groaned inwardly. I didn't want to talk about this. He might.try to kill me if I told him I was gay. But he was fine with Quat and Trowa. So maybe it would be ok.
"Well uh.just not so you're confused or anything I'm uh.sorta gay?" Heero blinked.
"How can you be 'sorta gay' but put it in a question? It like me saying, I'm sort of a guy named Heero?" I laughed. I was being stupid and Heero just made a pretty funny joke, off of me none the less. But he knew what I meant and seemed fine with it, so I guess I should really lighten up, right?
"Okay fine. I'm gay, but my last boyfriend, he was a real asshole. He just was.urg." Heero smirked a bit. Not a crazy, I'm-going-to-blow-you-up smile, but a real smirk.
"Urg? I never met anyone who was urg." I smirked and sipped my coffee. He seemed perfectly fine to me, besides the obvious weight loss. I really wondered what had happened to him.
"I classify Relena as urg." I stopped a moment, thinking if I should mention what Quat said, "you know, Quatre seemed worried about you." Heero looked a little confused but I saw something flicker in his eyes. He was hiding something. It actually surprised me a while back, but I could read Heero like a book.
"What's wrong, Heero?" He just stared into his coffee mug, looking like he was in deep thought. Something was up, and it looked to me that it was hurting Heero.
"Heero, please tell me. You can tell me anything. I'm your best friend, remember? Whatever is happening to you is showing. It looks like you have stopped eating, you're so skinny. And I bet you haven't gone outside willingly in a few months either." He looked up at me with a hint of surprise on his face. He looked at his hands and then at his arms. He sighed and snuggled deeper into his couch.
"I didn't realize I looked that bad. But nothing is wrong." I glared at him. I know when he was lying, and he was definitely lying.
"You know that I hate lying. Just like you can tell when I have a fake smile on, so can I. Something is wrong, and I am not leaving you until you tell me." He shrugged.
"Nothing is wrong, so I will end up saying nothing and you will stay here for awhile." I growled at him and got up. I stalked over to him and bent over, our faces only inches apart.
"Heero, something is amiss with you and since you're hiding it, it must be pretty bad. So I'm not letting you get off this couch until you tell me." He growled at me and glared. I glared right back at him, challengingly.
"Duo, get away from me and you might make it out of here with only a few bruises." I smirked.
"I've suffered much worse and you know it. Just tell me what's going on and I'll totally leave you alone."
"You're too pushy for your own good." I lowered my head so our noses were only an inch apart.
"Tell me or I might do something drastic." I blinked and felt soft lips on mine. My eyes shot open as I took in the information. Heero? Kissing me? His eyes slowly opened and released his lips from mine.
"My problem, Duo, is you. Now please, go away." I still stood there, bent over him and blinked rapidly. He just kissed me. Now that was something that I had no idea was going to happen.
"Why did.you kiss me?" He looked at me with hurt eyes. He felt intense pain, but for what? Certainly it wasn't me, was it?
"Because, I like you. You know what? Just ignore it. It never happened." I smirked.
"What if I don't want to?"
"If you want to beat the shit out of me, go ahead." I shook my head. He had the wrong impression.
"No, Heero. I mean, what if I liked you too?" He looked up into my eyes and frowned.
"Are you just saying that or do you mean it?" I lowered my head and rubbed our lips together. My legs started to ache and I found myself sitting in his lap. I ran my tongue across his lips, feeling him gasp. I took this opportunity to enter his dark cavern, feeling his tongue battle mine. I won my right exploring Heero's mouth. He tasted so good, like candy. I wanted this moment to last forever. My lungs began to burn so I pulled away, breathing in deeply. I smiled and snuggled into Heero's shoulder. He put his arms loosely around my waist and sighed.
"So, want to go out with me?" He wrapped his arms tighter around me. I smiled and looked up at him expectantly.
"I would if you lived a little closer." He replied a little sadly. I smiled even bigger.
"How about I live here, with you?" He smirked.
"That would be even better."
~TBC~
You like? You hate? You don't have a clue? Well email me and tell me so I know if I need to fix it. The_Vampiric_Hermit@gundamwing.net I love being lazy so chapters might be posted every day or maybe once a month. It depends on school, social life, sleeping patterns, inspiration, and incentive. So please don't flame me about not posting unless it's been like. three months or more.
Disclaimer: How many times must I say this? I don't own a freaking' cent, let alone the gundam boys! And if I did own them, I wouldn't share them.
Warnings: SHONEN-AI!!!!!!! MAYBE SOME YAOI!!!!!! Okay, so if you don't know what that means, why read the story? But basically it means there is some homosexual relationships in this story. So, if you are not into reading about Heero and Duo falling in love and all that sappy stuff, go away. Flames will be used to warm my hands in my unheated room. This ficlet is also a little sappy and a little angsty. 1x2, 3x4 hints. The title means, I offer myself and throw my life away.
"Talking"
'Thoughts or reading'
~Kono Mi Sasagete Inochi Nagedashi~
/~*Duo's POV*~/
I checked the paper in my hands. It was crumpled and had a few wet spots, blurring the words a little. It still said the same thing that it had said moments ago. I looked up and saw the small townhouses around me. It had been five years since I was in the war, but I could never really get used to the fact that we had true peace. I had kept in touch with all of the Gundam pilots, including Wufei. I still frequented Quatre and Trowa, always making sure Quatre doesn't blow his head up with that big company of his. Wufei is doing pretty well too. He married some girl, I think her name was Flowers of the East. He has become the pride of his family and is currently seeking justice in law school. I had lost contact with Heero about a year ago. Relena almost had given up on him when I last checked. He was almost looking happier. I hadn't heard from him since then. Of course, the little note in my hands would change that.
'Duo-
I checked up on Heero last week. He was looking really bad. He seemed.empty. I couldn't do anything for him, he looked lost to me. Maybe you can cheer him up. I told him you might be around this Tuesday, so you should pop over. He lives within a four hour drive from you. 6778 Torrent Drive, Madeline, New York. It's a little townhouse. Hopefully you can see what's bugging him.
Respectfully yours,
Quatre R. Winner'
I looked up at the house nearest me, 6002. I had a few more blocks. I wonder what happened to Heero that would make Quatre so worried. I shrugged and stuffed the little note into my pocket. A can appeared in front of my feet and I kicked it away from me. A few kids ran up and continued to play the little game. I sighed and trudged along. I wonder why I am so gloomy. I'm going to go see my best friend, I should be happy. But I can't smile in front of Heero. He would know it was fake. I remember when he told me about that. How I should only smile when I feel happy, not just to make others happy. But right now, I was feeling depressed, and maybe even a little angry. Heero just severed the connection between us, without even saying why. It confused me why I was depressed about seeing him. The worst thing that could happen is that I tell him something I bet he doesn't want to know. I couldn't ruin his trust by telling him I like him. But then again, he might just understand and politely tell me to leave. I am just some dirty homo to everyone else, why not Heero? I stumbled over a small rock, bringing me back to reality. I looked up at the house number, 6778. It was in the middle of the block. I turned towards it and examined the house. It was light blue with navy blue shutters. A small porch extended from the front, a wicker chair and table to the side of it. It was a quaint house that suited Heero pretty well. It blended in with all the other houses, nothing that made it different. I smirked and went up the few steps onto his porch. I stopped in front of his door, breathing in heavily. Why am I this nervous? I inhaled and exhaled once more and knocked on the door three times. I heard someone pad towards the door. The door creaked when it opened and Heero stood there. His nice brown tan was gone, leaving a very pale shell. He looked incredibly skinny, more than he used too, and his muscles were not very toned.
"Hey, Heero! Whats up?" He nodded and opened the door wider, letting me in. I grinned and walked inside, almost stopping in my tracks. His house looked like nobody lived there. Sure, all the furniture was there, but it seemed.unfriendly. Heero bade me to sit down and he went into the kitchen. He came back with some coffee and two mugs.
"So, what have you been up too? We haven't talked in almost a year." He shrugged and poured the coffee, handing a mug to me.
"Nothing really. I don't need a job, I have plenty of money, and I just hang around here all day." I gave him another smile and sipped my coffee. It reminded me of when I would wake up and bound downstairs to the kitchen to see Heero and Quatre making breakfast. Wufei would be reading the newspaper and Trowa would be reading some novel. I would grab the coffee that Heero made, day after day, in the same damn mug I brought everywhere with me. I could swear Heero smiled inwardly as I spilled the coffee on my shirt, everyday. I shook my head out of the memory and beamed at Heero.
"So how is your stalker?" He gave me a semi-glare and curled up onto his chair. I had already sprawled out onto his couch.
"She is currently on L3 doing some unknown project. She asked me to come along and be her body guard, but I didn't need the money, so I declined. She was very upset and looked like she was going to die or do something drastic." I nodded.
"How long ago was this?" He looked up like he was thinking.
"About two weeks ago, I suppose. So what have you been doing?" I sighed and stretched out onto his couch even more so.
"Well lately, I have been checking up on everybody. Wufei got married about two months ago, while Quatre and Trowa are still too embarrassed to go through with one. You have to help me arrange like a.secret wedding or something. So anyways, I actually have been trying to set up a band. Right now, it's just me. But I'm hoping to get some band members. And I just kinda broke up with someone about a month ago." I saw Heero nod and take another sip of coffee.
"What happened?" I groaned inwardly. I didn't want to talk about this. He might.try to kill me if I told him I was gay. But he was fine with Quat and Trowa. So maybe it would be ok.
"Well uh.just not so you're confused or anything I'm uh.sorta gay?" Heero blinked.
"How can you be 'sorta gay' but put it in a question? It like me saying, I'm sort of a guy named Heero?" I laughed. I was being stupid and Heero just made a pretty funny joke, off of me none the less. But he knew what I meant and seemed fine with it, so I guess I should really lighten up, right?
"Okay fine. I'm gay, but my last boyfriend, he was a real asshole. He just was.urg." Heero smirked a bit. Not a crazy, I'm-going-to-blow-you-up smile, but a real smirk.
"Urg? I never met anyone who was urg." I smirked and sipped my coffee. He seemed perfectly fine to me, besides the obvious weight loss. I really wondered what had happened to him.
"I classify Relena as urg." I stopped a moment, thinking if I should mention what Quat said, "you know, Quatre seemed worried about you." Heero looked a little confused but I saw something flicker in his eyes. He was hiding something. It actually surprised me a while back, but I could read Heero like a book.
"What's wrong, Heero?" He just stared into his coffee mug, looking like he was in deep thought. Something was up, and it looked to me that it was hurting Heero.
"Heero, please tell me. You can tell me anything. I'm your best friend, remember? Whatever is happening to you is showing. It looks like you have stopped eating, you're so skinny. And I bet you haven't gone outside willingly in a few months either." He looked up at me with a hint of surprise on his face. He looked at his hands and then at his arms. He sighed and snuggled deeper into his couch.
"I didn't realize I looked that bad. But nothing is wrong." I glared at him. I know when he was lying, and he was definitely lying.
"You know that I hate lying. Just like you can tell when I have a fake smile on, so can I. Something is wrong, and I am not leaving you until you tell me." He shrugged.
"Nothing is wrong, so I will end up saying nothing and you will stay here for awhile." I growled at him and got up. I stalked over to him and bent over, our faces only inches apart.
"Heero, something is amiss with you and since you're hiding it, it must be pretty bad. So I'm not letting you get off this couch until you tell me." He growled at me and glared. I glared right back at him, challengingly.
"Duo, get away from me and you might make it out of here with only a few bruises." I smirked.
"I've suffered much worse and you know it. Just tell me what's going on and I'll totally leave you alone."
"You're too pushy for your own good." I lowered my head so our noses were only an inch apart.
"Tell me or I might do something drastic." I blinked and felt soft lips on mine. My eyes shot open as I took in the information. Heero? Kissing me? His eyes slowly opened and released his lips from mine.
"My problem, Duo, is you. Now please, go away." I still stood there, bent over him and blinked rapidly. He just kissed me. Now that was something that I had no idea was going to happen.
"Why did.you kiss me?" He looked at me with hurt eyes. He felt intense pain, but for what? Certainly it wasn't me, was it?
"Because, I like you. You know what? Just ignore it. It never happened." I smirked.
"What if I don't want to?"
"If you want to beat the shit out of me, go ahead." I shook my head. He had the wrong impression.
"No, Heero. I mean, what if I liked you too?" He looked up into my eyes and frowned.
"Are you just saying that or do you mean it?" I lowered my head and rubbed our lips together. My legs started to ache and I found myself sitting in his lap. I ran my tongue across his lips, feeling him gasp. I took this opportunity to enter his dark cavern, feeling his tongue battle mine. I won my right exploring Heero's mouth. He tasted so good, like candy. I wanted this moment to last forever. My lungs began to burn so I pulled away, breathing in deeply. I smiled and snuggled into Heero's shoulder. He put his arms loosely around my waist and sighed.
"So, want to go out with me?" He wrapped his arms tighter around me. I smiled and looked up at him expectantly.
"I would if you lived a little closer." He replied a little sadly. I smiled even bigger.
"How about I live here, with you?" He smirked.
"That would be even better."
~TBC~
You like? You hate? You don't have a clue? Well email me and tell me so I know if I need to fix it. The_Vampiric_Hermit@gundamwing.net I love being lazy so chapters might be posted every day or maybe once a month. It depends on school, social life, sleeping patterns, inspiration, and incentive. So please don't flame me about not posting unless it's been like. three months or more.
