A SS/HG fanfic ( with a little Draco thrown in for good measure)

It's all JK's except the plot, that's semi-autobiographical and mine.

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'How did I end up here? I had such potential to have wasted it all on him.'

"Mommy, mommy, mommy! Mommy! Where's Daddy? Why isn't he here?" Hermione looked down at the little blond with the grey eyes, she looked so much like him. Him, that horrible life wrecking loser. 'Gods I hate him, I wish bodily harm on him! I wonder if I could get away with an unforgivable if I blamed it on female things?' "Mommy!"

"Sweetie, daddy doesn't live with us anymore, we live here now," Hermione shuddered, "we live with grandma and grandpa. I have explained this to you, now go play with your brother and sister." Hermione looked down at the baby fat she was still carrying around her middle. 'My youngest is two, I can't call it baby fat anymore. I love my kids but why did I have to be the .1% that is immune to all birth controls. I never thought that would include wizarding contraceptives as well..' At the thought of the birth's came the unwanted remembrance of the sex. Of course his face came to the front of her mind as well. The face forever burned into her memory, long blonde hair, grey eyes, pale skin. People kept telling her that it would eventually fade, but she didn't believe it. How could someone that you had stared at lovingly for ten years fade. 'Ten years I wasted making my life revolve around him, doing what he wanted, passing on the things that made me happy. He did have his good points, He treated me so well when he still loved me, no stop thinking like that. It's best to hate him, it makes everything easier.' Again she looked down at her overly pudgy middle. "Who will ever want me looking like this? I can't believe I'm even contemplating another guy. What are you nuts Granger! ARGH! Damn you Draco, why did you have to ruin my life!' Hermione stopped she new she couldn't do this, she didn't want to be like all of those other women who couldn't control their emotions, who turned into puddles at the mention of their ex'es name. She had three kids to support, and thanks to Draco she hadn't had a job at the time that he left her, hadn't had a job in a while, unless you count that blessed year when she had taken the only job she could find, supervising the night shift owls who delivered the Daily Prophet. 'That was FUN!' Hermione gave herself a little double thumbs up and a fake smile a the memories. That was why she had come to live with her parents, she needed help with the kids and had to find a job. Draco had offered for her to keep living in their house while he moved out. He said he would pay all the bills and she would be there when he needed his "best friend". 'Fuck That! I can't believe he wanted me to hang around while he partied and did what he wanted just so he could call me up and complain about his life. What a self-centered bastard!'

"What are you doing Hermione?"

"Hi Mom, I'm looking for a job."

"You really should think about going into dentistry it has ...." 'This is always were I stop listening, They know what my degree is in, they know I went to college, they know I'm a witch, but they assume because one wizard did this to me, another would do it as well. They don't want me to associate with the magic realm. I have tried to explain to them that it is who I am and there is no getting around it. They don't listen, but to be fair I quit listening to them a long time ago. It's only been a week and my mom seems to think I should be over this all ready. She has already started hauling me off to lawyers and such, worried about custody and child support. Granted I do need money. Draco had a life style that was not conducive to saving money. Actually quite the opposite. After the fall of Voldemorte all of his fathers money was taken to pay government stuff, I never really understood it, but his small allowance was gone before we graduated from college. We lived off of my savings until he got a job, working for the ministry. Not a very good job either. Of course he wanted me to stay home with Miki, and I did, So I didn't work. I think she's almost done talking, I better pay attention again.' " ... and that is why we have it so good now, benefits and retirement."

"Yes Mother."

"Do wizards even have retirement? Never mind, I don't want to know." 'This is what I am reduced too, one of the brightest minds of Hogwarts, looking for a job as a dental assistant. Why Draco, what did I ever do to you.'