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Severus threw a log onto the fire. "I would have to guess my story starts some where in our fifth year, or maybe the latter part of fourth. As most of us well know, I was a secretive child, prefering not to intermingle too much, even with my own house.

"Much like Miss Granger, I was more mature than most-" his eyes flicked briefly to Sirius, who inturn made a face. "And apparently, I still am.

"Shortly after I entered fifth, even the Dark Lord had taken notice in my talents...."

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Fifteen year old Severus Snape sat down at the end of his table, close enough to the door to bolt, if necessary. He knew something was going to happen to him, this year, but he didn't know whether it would be good, or bad.

He avoided Lucius and Narcissa's gaze-both had been trying to get him to join their little 'elite club', something he didn't exactly like. He knew he was of noble birth, but he didn't care.

"Oy Jamesy-Boy! I see you caught a phoenix!" There was uproarious laughter from the Gryffindor table as James Potter and Lily Evans walked in, arm in arm.

Severus could have puked. 'Wait, that gives me an idea-' He stood, went to talk to his head of house, and quietly left.

In the dark halls, his nature alone made him nearly invisible, until he stepped into the light. Even his pale skin went unnoticed. He made his way up to the library, leaning against the doors as he closed them behind him.

"If you're here for a little reunion, you can kindly find some place else."

Severus nearly had a heart attack. "Goddess bless, Geoffrey, can't you tell the difference between me and others?"

An imposing figure walked out of a back room, carrying a few books. His dark hair was pulled back, and his tan skin was a sharp contrast to Severus's. "Oh, Sev, it's you. But what are you doing up here?"

"Being anti-social, as usuall. Potter and Evans have finally gotten together." He nodded as his brother handed him a steaming mug of chocolate. "Gods they make me sick."

"Who?"

"The whole entire school."

"I see. Oh, this letter came for you. Don't open it in here, though."

Severus accepted the black envelope. He knew his brother worked for some odd people as well as Headmaster Dumbledore. He said his goodbyes, and headed to the solitude of his dorm.

'Severus Snape,

'This is a letter to inform you that your prescence is requested at our next meeting. Please join us. Further details will be given by your brother.

'Stultum est timere quod vitare non potes'

He wondered for a few minutes, then took out his cello, heading to a room a few of the teachers had set aside for music. He tuned his insturment, easing into an 'empty' state.

Free of thought, he could play anything, from the newer composers down to the twelfth century. One of his favorite pieces was the Danse Macarbe, a piece that he found quite suiting to his mood, written by Saint Saens.

---I wonder what all this could mean? Is the choice I have to make for the good of all? I really wish I knew. Steven allready knows his path, but what about me, the younger brother? And I know from what he's said allready that he might not survive. But what is it exactly that he's doing? And what will I be doing, five years from now, when I'm his age?---

Severus sat up as the door closed.

"May I talk to you, Severus?" It was Lily, sitting down in a chair across from him. "It's about Peter."

He knew she cared deeply about all of her friends, even him, as much as he didn't want to admit it. "If you don't like him so much, why are you worried about him?"

"He's-I don't know, it's just a feeling I get. It's like I can't trust him, but I know that's not true, is it? You know him better than even we do, you're his dorm mate." She shook her head.

"Why do you get that feeling?"

"Because-because of the way he's been acting. He usually hangs around James, Remus, and Sirius all the time. But now, they say he keeps dissapearing. I don't know, Severus, I'm really confused." She sighed. "I think he might want to join with Voldemort. I know you will, probably, but I also know that you won't kill. But Peter-I've seen him kill spiders, just because. It scares me to no end to watch him do that. And sometimes he'll do that just to scare me."

"I'll keep my eyes open, then." He watched as she stood.

"Thank you. And don't worry, I won't tell the men what you're doing."

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"Lily knew you were going to join Him?" Sirius was quite shocked.

Remus, who had been thinking, replied. "How could she not? She's an empath, and she's like our Hermione."

"Exactly like her, which is the scary part. Any way, after she left, I went and talked to my brother, and made my decision to join." Severus sighed.