When You Think of Me
Disclaimer: I do not own Gilmore Girls
A/N: Thanks for the review 'helpful hand', but I was trying to portray Rory in a joking way. She wasn't serious about Jess being a bad influence, only kidding.
Maybe I should have stressed that point little more. Anywayz, thanks for the review, I appreciate it. Read on as the story develops more. Thanks!
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"I did not!" Lorelai shrieked.
"Oh, yes you did mom, don't deny it, we all saw you. That is your fifth cup this morning." Rory replied. Luke nodded his head at Rory.
"Thank you, Rory and as you know Lorelai, I have you on a five cup limit now, so, no more coffee today." Satisfied with his determination, Luke headed to the back as Jess came up to the counter.
"Hey," he said to no one in particular. He noticed the sad look on Lorelai's face and her pleading eyes. "How many?" he asked her casually.
"One, only one really!" she said desperately.
"Right, one in the last 10 minutes." He responded.
"Jess, please, please, please can I have more coffee? Please?" She stopped begging when she noticed him make his way to the machine.
"I'll never get tired of your begging." he stated as he quickly poured her a cup. He turned his attention to Rory who was quickly eating her breakfast. "Hey you."
"Hey" she responded with a smile.
"Well you're sure in a hurry today, what's up?"
"School, I gotta get there early, Paris needs me for something." She said through bites.
"Sounds like fun. Are we hanging out tonight?" He asked but before she could answer, Lorelai jumped in.
"NO! Nope, no way, uh-uh, not happening." Jess and Rory looked at her like she was crazy. "Jess, you have been with Rory every night this week, it is so my turn." She argued. Rory giggled quietly as Lorelai went on. "She promised me a movie night and by golly I am going to get one!" She went back to drinking her coffee and saw that it was empty. Jess smirked at her when he realized what she wanted. He raised his eyebrows at her expectantly. "Uh...ya wanna come tonight, Jess, dear sweet, coffee holding Jess?" He nodded his head.
"Sure, I'd be glad to come tonight." he replied, while pouring her coffee. As he walked off to serve other customers he quickly kissed Rory's cheek and left humming "I've got the power."
"I've gotta go mom, see you after school." Rory said as she quickly threw her backpack on and finished her coffee.
"K, bye bye sweets." Lorelai finished her coffee and paid for their food before she headed off to the inn.
{later that night}
"Alright! Let's get this party started." Lorelai exclaimed as she walked into the living room with the tape in her hand.
"No, mom, we gotta wait for Jess." Rory replied for the billionth time. "Please? He should be here any minute." Lorelai's face morphed into a pout only a four year old would use.
"Fine, but where is he? He is like fifty hours late." She whined.
"Mom... he is only 45 minutes late."
"Yah, but in forty-five minutes he could walk around Stars Hollow like 12 times." Rory's face looked slightly concerned at that statement. She knew her mom was right and Jess should have been there by now.
"I'll call the diner." Rory walked over to the phone and dialed the number.
"Luke's Diner." Luke answered.
"Luke, it's Rory. Is Jess there?"
"Uhhh, no Rory, Jess left about an hour ago. He said he was going 'out'"
"Oh...okay, thanks." She hung up the phone and slumped on the couch. Lorelai walked in and noticed her expression.
"What's up babe?" Rory tried her hardest to brighten her face and act like nothing was wrong.
"Nothing, its just...Jess...he can't make it tonight." Lorelai decided not press the subject and tried to get her daughters mind off of Jess.
"Alright, well let's get this night started. Come on babe, I got enough junk food for the rest of the weekend." Rory reluctantly went and laid down next to her mom on the floor, trying to push the millions of questions about Jess out of her head.
{meanwhile}
Jess couldn't concentrate on what he was reading. He thought reading would get his mind off Rory and what he was thinking about doing. The demons in his head had returned with a whole new set of doubts and uncertainties he wasn't ready to battle. Everything had been going so perfect with Rory. Jess had really been working on getting things together so they could be happy. Part of him knew that Rory loved him and wanted nothing else but to be with him; you would have to be a fool to think otherwise. But there were times that his mind wouldn't allow him to accept something so perfect. This was one of those times. The voices arguing in Jess' head were not giving up. 'Rory and I are so happy. I love her more than anything, she is the best thing that has happened to me, ever. She deserves so much more than I have to offer. She deserves a guy who can graduate college, hell, she deserves a guy who can at least get into college. But not even that, she deserves so much more. What if I turn out to be as much of a disappointment as my dad was to my mom? I couldn't handle breaking her heart so far down the road. No, but things are so good already. I am supposed to be with her right now, but I'm not. I'm here. Alone, on the bridge. Why? Why don't I just go and be with her? Because its too late now. Now I have let her down, and it will only get worse from here. I will not allow myself to hurt Rory. I don't belong here and I was a fool to think I could ever make it work.' Jess threw his book into the water and lay back on the bridge with his hands over his face, contemplating how he would do this in a way that would cause her the least amount of pain.
A/N: So, what do you think? I have a strong feeling that this is going to get a little dramatic and of course sad. But everything will turn out good in the end. So, please review and tell me if I should continue. I am still trying to develop everything before I just dive right in, but I hope it is pretty good so far. But trust me, it will get better.
