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CHAPTER SIX - Helen's diary
Today a handsome servant came. His name is Roberto. He would be substituting as Mandy for a while, because Mandy is sick with some sort of fever. I do not know what, and I hope she will recover soon. I knew he would be mine the minute I saw him. Oh, I just imagine running my fingers through his wavy blond hair, looking into his sparkling sea green eyes, and kissing those sensual lips of his. He is twenty - only seven years older than I. I know he has feelings for me because I saw him staring at him while Father introduced him to the castle.
Roberto kissed me tonight. Father held a ball tonight to celebrate my fourteenth birthday and when I slipped outside, Roberto followed me. Kissing him was just like I imagined it to be. His lips were so soft and being in his arms were heavenly. We ended before anybody could spot us and he disappeared into the shadows like magic. Nobody knows or will know. This will be our little secret until it is the right time. I know Roberto will wait for me until then.
Roberto asked me to marry him! I said yes - but then I remembered that Father had forbidden me to marry until I turned sixteen. When I told Roberto, he said he understood and said he would wait for me. I felt as if I could melt. I knew he had to love me then, otherwise, he wouldn't want to wait for me for two years to be married to me.
I hate Roberto! I hate Josephine! I hate all servants! I found out that ever since I rejected his proposal, he has been with Josephine. How could he want such a woman after being with me? I am a noble and could give him anything he wanted! Anything! Not Josephine. She can barely sew right, let alone love somebody. From now on, I vow to have nothing to do with servants. I will ignore that Mother used to be a servant before marrying Father. I will not befriend a servant once more - never let my guard down to be taken advantage of in any way!
NO! Victoria has taken in a new maid for me. Her name is Lilia and she looks just like Roberto. I felt like slapping her and shaking her, demanding why she was here. I knew this was a sign. Roberto never loved me. He only loved my money, my wealth, my family. Not me. I will never treat her as my mother does with the new servants. I will never become her friend and I will certainly not let her get away with anything just because she is new. If I find out anything about her that is private, I will share it with the world. If I find her trying to seduce my brother, I will personally be sure to banish her. If I find her doing anything that will harm my family or me, I will make sure that she will regret it to her dying day. I will not let her be haughty as my aunt Hattie or as proud as Roberto was! NEVER!
I was right. Lilia only came here to seduce Charles. Lady Justina came to me, weeping, saying that she saw Lilia follow Charles and Lady Justina outside. She said that Lilia pushed her away and kissed Charles, knowing that Charles would propose to Lady Justina. I was so angry that I went up to Lilia and slapped her. If Mother had not intervened, I would have showed Lilia, that wench, the consequences of pretending to be better than what she is. And she is a lowly, lying, good for nothing girl! I wish Mother used to be a noble, not a servant, when she married Father. Maybe if she had been a noble, she wouldn't have stopped me from teaching Lilia an important lesson.
