-sniff sniff- This is the end. Thank you SOO much for all your responses. I hope you like this chapter. And now-the end.

My eyes flew open. There in front of me were two purple orbs staring into my own golden ones. I screamed and pushed away. He was dead! It couldn't be him! I heard the shot, saw the blood. I did my best to get his cold arms off of me. But the owner of the arms would not let go.
"Yuki? Yuki! Oh, I'm so happy you are awake! I was so worried." He held on to me tightly. I struggled a few seconds more before I realized he was talking to me. I was Yuki. Some phantom from the past hadn't shown up in my room. It was only in my head.
I looked into his worried eyes. The dream was so real; it was hard to imagine that he was still here. I hadn't lost him for good. Before I could stop myself tears were running down my face. Shuichi stared in shock.
"Yuki? Yuki, what's wrong?" he asked, his tone soft and full of concern. I covered my face. I didn't want him to see me like this. His arms went to embrace me. It was too much. I quickly stood and went to the kitchen and poured myself a drink. I had gone out today and bought some good sake to drown my sorrows in. I just hadn't gotten around to the "drowning" bit. But they way I felt right now, I needed the drink. Shuichi didn't protest. He just followed me into the kitchen.
"What are you doing here?" I managed to whisper, still very much shaken up by the dream.
"I got your letter, Yuki." He said.
"My letter?" I was confused. I couldn't think of anything but that horrific vision. I closed my eyes and tried to will the scene away.
"Yes, Sakuma-san brought it to me. He didn't tell me who it was from, but I knew it was you." I couldn't hear his voice. The dream kept coming back to me over and over again. My arms were shaking. Go away, I thought. Just go away. Why won't you leave me be, Yuki? Why?
"Go away" I whispered out loud, without thinking.
"What?" Shuichi said, approaching me. I didn't hear it. All I heard was laughing.
"Shut up!" I said louder. Shuichi flinched.
"Yuki, I-"
I opened my eyes and saw my reflection in the window. But it wasn't me, it was Yuki. Anger flared through me. "LEAVE ME ALONE!" I roared and threw my glass into the pane. It shattered into a million pieces. I fell to the floor sobbing. Shuichi rushed to my side and knelt down despite the broken glass shards.
"You should go." I said through my tears. "I don't want you to see me like this." He shook his head.
"I'd never leave you, Yuki. I love you." He said.
"Then why" I spit out. "Why did you leave me last night?" Shuichi sighed and shook his head.
"That doesn't matter anymore. What matters is that I'm here now."
"No!" I said defiantly. I noticed the tone in his voice. That wasn't love. That was pity. "No, it is important. If you love me, why did you leave?"
He was silent.
"Why are you here?" I asked him, my calm returning.
"I needed to tell you something," he said, still looking away. "But it isn't important right now."
"Then you can go now." I stood up and started to walk into the bedroom. Shuichi stood up as well. He actually looked angry.
"Yuki." He stated in a voice I'd never heard before. "Do you know what yesterday was? Do you?" A small quiver entered his voice. I was stunned. This time, I had nothing to say.
"Yesterday-yesterday was the day that I was raped. And you-you kicked me out! I couldn't beg and plead any more, Yuki! I just wanted you to tell me you loved me, especially then. But, you told me to leave, just like always." I looked away ashamed. So that explained his behavior that night. Why he clung to me and told me he loved me more times then he usually did. I didn't know until now.
"Shuichi, I-" He held his hand up.
"I'm not done. I left you because it was the only thing I could do. I hoped it would change things. Maybe help you see that I can't be ordered around by you any more. But it seems like I did it for nothing. Perhaps that poem of yours was just a way to get me back here so you could have your toy back. I'm sorry Yuki. I love you, but I just can't." His eyes watered but no tears fell. This was a new Shuichi. A Shuichi that was standing up for himself. I loved him even more.
"Goodbye, Yuki." He said and turned to walk out of the apartment. But this time, my feet obeyed my heart. I walked over to where he was and hugged him from behind.
"Do you know what hell you've put me through today?" I whispered into his ear. "I've been haunted by the thought of you, by dreams of you, everything you are. I realized that without you, I'm nothing. Please, don't put me behind you." I turned him around, his eyes were wide in shock. A single tear started to fall down his cheek. I wiped it off.
"No more tears, Shuichi. Not over me." I kissed him then. A soft and gentle kiss.
"I love you, Shuichi."
He fell into my arms and I gladly accepted him. He cried. "Oh, Yuki. I've been waiting so long to hear those words from you. I promise, I won't ever leave you again. And I won't bug you or annoy you or make silly-"
I stopped him with a kiss again. "Idiot." I said lovingly. "Why would I want you to stop all of those things. That is what makes Shuichi, Shuichi. I wouldn't have you any other way."
Shuichi smiled. It made me forget that horrible dream. That was the past, a past better left forgotten. And Shuichi was my present and my future. I was at last content.
Shuichi giggled. "What?" I asked him.
"Oh nothing, just remembered something Sakuma-san said today about a mean yellow haired monkey in a tree. That doesn't remind you of anyone, does it?" I growled.
"Shuichi, I'll do something you'll really enjoy if you promise never to mention a 'yellow monkey' ever again." He grinned.
"I don't know-I think I might just have to write a song about that-" I kissed him deeper then before. He melted into me.
"Yu~ki" he moaned.
I carried him into the bedroom, the moonlight streaming through the broken window. I left my past in the shattered pieces of glass on the carpet out side my bedroom door. Inside, I embraced my Shuichi and we made a new beginning, erasing our past mistakes. I am Yuki Eiri, anti-nostalgic.

The End. ^_^