Disclaimer. I do not own Gundam Wing, though I wish to Hell I did, I am
merely some deluded fan who likes putting her Gundam figures into
compromising positions and writing whacked out fanfics such as this!!!
Don't sue!!!
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.Blah. = Thoughts
*.Blah.* = emphasised words
#~.Blah.~# = song lyrics
".Blah." = speech
{.Blah.} = Memory/Flash back
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#~No, I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving~#
Heero Yuy knelt in the living room of his New York apartment, an apartment he had once shared with his former comrade.
"Why did you leave me? I loved you!"
"You only left me a letter, you took everything else away, and I don't even have a picture." "I have waited, waited for over three weeks, waking each day in the hope you would come back. But you never did."
#~But I guess that's just the way the story goes
you always smile but in your eyes your sorrow shows~#
"You said you left because you thought I was unhappy, but it was you, wasn't it, you felt ignored, rejected, and hurt. I guess you had a right!" "I never told you anything, I never let you in."
#~Yes, it shows~#
"I made you unhappy Duo, and for that I am sorry!"
#~No, I can't forget tomorrow
when I think of all my sorrow~#
"I wanted to tell you I loved you, because I really did, but I thought that my love would be a burden to you, even though yours was never a burden to me!"
"Every time I rejected you just came back for more, I guess I took it for granted that you would always come back, and now you have left,"
"I didn't want to drive you away!"
#~When I had you there but then I let you go
and now it's only fair that I should let you know
what you should know~#
"I loved you Duo, I still do!"
#~I can't live, if living is without you
I can't live, I can't give any more~#
Heero looks down at the shiny metal object in his lap. His gun.
"I have to end it, without you by my side I have nothing, no rhyme or reason to go on!"
"I don't want to seem a coward, but I always thought I would die on a mission, I almost wish I had, in fact, I nearly did."
"But you stopped me, you always pulled me through, every time I wanted to detonate, you visited my mind and pulled me back, you were the reason I didn't die, and yet you are the thing that is killing me!"
#~I can't live, if living is without you~#
"I cant live without you, even if I wanted to I couldn't."
"I'm sure it will be better this way, I only wish you would come back, even if I don't deserve you, and let me tell you how I really feel!"
#~I can't give, I can't give any more~#
"I hate what I must do, but I know it is for the best; nothing else will ever free me of you, and you of me!"
Removing the safety catch, I place the barrel of my gun against the side of my head, at the temple, my once oh-so-steady hand shakes, as a wave of grief brings a memory to the forefront of my mind.
#~No, I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving~#
{.He was whining about something as usual, I wasn't listening. Sure I caught the occasional word whilst typing up my Mission Report, something along the lines of.
"Heeeroo, I'm bored .. can I get some food. . wanna catch a movie?"
He blabbered on senselessly for a while until I decided it was time to put a stop to it!
"Duo, in answer to your questions, you being bored is not my problem, yes you may eat if you wish and no, I do not wish to *catch* a movie! I have to type up the report from our last mission for Lady Une by tomorrow, and for the last time *shut the hell up* and let me work!"
The baka was relentless. Not ten seconds after I had resumed typing he resumed his worthless chatter, *baka*, I seethed to myself.
"Wow Heero, I'm impressed, that's the most I have *ever* heard you say!"
"Duo!" I shot him a warning glare, "Omae wo koroso." Once again, Bakagami ignored me.
I stared exasperated, *He just doesn't get it* He completely ignored my threat, though I was seriously considering carrying it out, and began a giggle-infested conversation about something he had seen on TV the other night, surely he didn't expect me to respond!
".. So, Hee-Chan, what did you make of it?"
Apparently, he did.
"Hn. And don't call me Hee-Chan!"
"Ok, Hee-Cha. I mean Heero, now gimme a proper answer!"
"Hn." I grunted again, staring fixedly at the screen, and typing away.
I must have suffered through at least a further three hours of his relentless questions and chatter when I finally snapped, hurling my *precious* laptop across the room hitting him squarely in the chest with a sickening thud, and a gasp as his breath left him.
He staggered back, obviously more shocked than hurt. His violet eyes widened as I stood up and marched silently out of the room, I could feel his eyes following me as I made my way down the corridor and into my room.
"K'so, k'so k'so k'so, K'SO!! What the FUCK did I do that for??!"
I began hitting my head solidly against the nearest wall.
"I." (Thump) "AM." (Thump) "SUCH." (Thump) "A." (Thump) "BAKA." (Thump) "BAKA." (Thump) "BAKA!! .. Wait a second .. Me? Baka?"
I sat down on my bed and spent the next half hour nursing my throbbing head.
Suddenly I sprung to my feet as my brain finally re-booted.
"SHIT, Duo!" I rushed out of my room, silently praying that Duo was okay, and would once again forgive my brash actions. Why did I keep doing things like this to him? I skidded to a halt outside the living room, as I spotted a scrap of paper on the floor.
Fearing the worst, I lent down, and with shaking hands, recovered the scrap of paper. It was a note.
*Heero, I didn't realise I pissed ya off so much! I only wanted the company; I wont make you unhappy any more.
Duo.*
My worst fears had been confirmed, he was gone.}
#~But I guess that's just the way the story goes
you always smile but in your eyes your sorrow shows~#
I can feel tears in my eyes, *caused* by the memory; I angrily reach up and dash them away. To my surprise, I realise that the gun is no longer pressed against my temple, but is in my lap, still clasped in my trembling hand.
#~Yes, it shows~#
A second time I raise it. Intent this time, on completing my mission, I press the barrel firmly to the side of my head.
Gritting my teeth, I begin to squeeze the trigger. I close my eyes.
#~I can't live if living is without you
I can't live, I can't give anymore~#
Before I am able to pull the trigger, and complete my task, the living room door flies open with a crash as a tenor voice yells my name.
"*Heeeroooo!!*"
Startled, my hand jolts, and the gun goes off.
#~I can't live if living is without you
I can't live, I can't give anymore~#
T.B.C.
A.N
Laura- "That's that! Do ya want more?"
Jess- "Yes you do want more! I enjoy bossing her around, anyone who reviews wanting more gets to hug the Chibi-Vash."
Chibi-Vash- *gulp*
Laura- "Its not like we will force you too or anything!"
Jess- "But I know you really WANT to!" *squeezes Vash*
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
.Blah. = Thoughts
*.Blah.* = emphasised words
#~.Blah.~# = song lyrics
".Blah." = speech
{.Blah.} = Memory/Flash back
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
#~No, I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving~#
Heero Yuy knelt in the living room of his New York apartment, an apartment he had once shared with his former comrade.
"Why did you leave me? I loved you!"
"You only left me a letter, you took everything else away, and I don't even have a picture." "I have waited, waited for over three weeks, waking each day in the hope you would come back. But you never did."
#~But I guess that's just the way the story goes
you always smile but in your eyes your sorrow shows~#
"You said you left because you thought I was unhappy, but it was you, wasn't it, you felt ignored, rejected, and hurt. I guess you had a right!" "I never told you anything, I never let you in."
#~Yes, it shows~#
"I made you unhappy Duo, and for that I am sorry!"
#~No, I can't forget tomorrow
when I think of all my sorrow~#
"I wanted to tell you I loved you, because I really did, but I thought that my love would be a burden to you, even though yours was never a burden to me!"
"Every time I rejected you just came back for more, I guess I took it for granted that you would always come back, and now you have left,"
"I didn't want to drive you away!"
#~When I had you there but then I let you go
and now it's only fair that I should let you know
what you should know~#
"I loved you Duo, I still do!"
#~I can't live, if living is without you
I can't live, I can't give any more~#
Heero looks down at the shiny metal object in his lap. His gun.
"I have to end it, without you by my side I have nothing, no rhyme or reason to go on!"
"I don't want to seem a coward, but I always thought I would die on a mission, I almost wish I had, in fact, I nearly did."
"But you stopped me, you always pulled me through, every time I wanted to detonate, you visited my mind and pulled me back, you were the reason I didn't die, and yet you are the thing that is killing me!"
#~I can't live, if living is without you~#
"I cant live without you, even if I wanted to I couldn't."
"I'm sure it will be better this way, I only wish you would come back, even if I don't deserve you, and let me tell you how I really feel!"
#~I can't give, I can't give any more~#
"I hate what I must do, but I know it is for the best; nothing else will ever free me of you, and you of me!"
Removing the safety catch, I place the barrel of my gun against the side of my head, at the temple, my once oh-so-steady hand shakes, as a wave of grief brings a memory to the forefront of my mind.
#~No, I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving~#
{.He was whining about something as usual, I wasn't listening. Sure I caught the occasional word whilst typing up my Mission Report, something along the lines of.
"Heeeroo, I'm bored .. can I get some food. . wanna catch a movie?"
He blabbered on senselessly for a while until I decided it was time to put a stop to it!
"Duo, in answer to your questions, you being bored is not my problem, yes you may eat if you wish and no, I do not wish to *catch* a movie! I have to type up the report from our last mission for Lady Une by tomorrow, and for the last time *shut the hell up* and let me work!"
The baka was relentless. Not ten seconds after I had resumed typing he resumed his worthless chatter, *baka*, I seethed to myself.
"Wow Heero, I'm impressed, that's the most I have *ever* heard you say!"
"Duo!" I shot him a warning glare, "Omae wo koroso." Once again, Bakagami ignored me.
I stared exasperated, *He just doesn't get it* He completely ignored my threat, though I was seriously considering carrying it out, and began a giggle-infested conversation about something he had seen on TV the other night, surely he didn't expect me to respond!
".. So, Hee-Chan, what did you make of it?"
Apparently, he did.
"Hn. And don't call me Hee-Chan!"
"Ok, Hee-Cha. I mean Heero, now gimme a proper answer!"
"Hn." I grunted again, staring fixedly at the screen, and typing away.
I must have suffered through at least a further three hours of his relentless questions and chatter when I finally snapped, hurling my *precious* laptop across the room hitting him squarely in the chest with a sickening thud, and a gasp as his breath left him.
He staggered back, obviously more shocked than hurt. His violet eyes widened as I stood up and marched silently out of the room, I could feel his eyes following me as I made my way down the corridor and into my room.
"K'so, k'so k'so k'so, K'SO!! What the FUCK did I do that for??!"
I began hitting my head solidly against the nearest wall.
"I." (Thump) "AM." (Thump) "SUCH." (Thump) "A." (Thump) "BAKA." (Thump) "BAKA." (Thump) "BAKA!! .. Wait a second .. Me? Baka?"
I sat down on my bed and spent the next half hour nursing my throbbing head.
Suddenly I sprung to my feet as my brain finally re-booted.
"SHIT, Duo!" I rushed out of my room, silently praying that Duo was okay, and would once again forgive my brash actions. Why did I keep doing things like this to him? I skidded to a halt outside the living room, as I spotted a scrap of paper on the floor.
Fearing the worst, I lent down, and with shaking hands, recovered the scrap of paper. It was a note.
*Heero, I didn't realise I pissed ya off so much! I only wanted the company; I wont make you unhappy any more.
Duo.*
My worst fears had been confirmed, he was gone.}
#~But I guess that's just the way the story goes
you always smile but in your eyes your sorrow shows~#
I can feel tears in my eyes, *caused* by the memory; I angrily reach up and dash them away. To my surprise, I realise that the gun is no longer pressed against my temple, but is in my lap, still clasped in my trembling hand.
#~Yes, it shows~#
A second time I raise it. Intent this time, on completing my mission, I press the barrel firmly to the side of my head.
Gritting my teeth, I begin to squeeze the trigger. I close my eyes.
#~I can't live if living is without you
I can't live, I can't give anymore~#
Before I am able to pull the trigger, and complete my task, the living room door flies open with a crash as a tenor voice yells my name.
"*Heeeroooo!!*"
Startled, my hand jolts, and the gun goes off.
#~I can't live if living is without you
I can't live, I can't give anymore~#
T.B.C.
A.N
Laura- "That's that! Do ya want more?"
Jess- "Yes you do want more! I enjoy bossing her around, anyone who reviews wanting more gets to hug the Chibi-Vash."
Chibi-Vash- *gulp*
Laura- "Its not like we will force you too or anything!"
Jess- "But I know you really WANT to!" *squeezes Vash*
