Disclaimer: It should be fairly damn obvious that we do not own GW, It's
not through lack of trying though!! ^^
Warning: This is a Yaoi fic, that means Male X Male romance, we are not forcing this on anyone so don't waste your time and ours by flaming, cos they will be laughed at and then fed to the Chibi-Vash along with his daily portion of donuts.
A/N----Well, hullo again, as promised chappie 7 has not been to long on the production line, am bribing co-author into this by letting her use my laptop and play the Sims!!! It seems to be working!! But is also the reason I may not get that much input from her!! Also, after her *ahem* surgery (see bio page if ya dun understand) She keeps coughing up fur balls!! Oh, and trying to eat my Hamster!
Well, anywho, this chappie, along with its customary dose of oddness, is gonna be written in character POV (it will switch between the two, just so there is no confusion there will be symbols {see below} to show when this occurs, it will start in Heeros), but to divulge how things go on from that would spoil it for ya!! ^^;
So, finally we find out what happened to Hee-chan, did Duo get there in time?
Well, methinks I have kept you all waiting too long for this ending any way, so here we go, a lil bit of everything, I think, sorry to those who wanted lemons, you will have to settle for a dash of citrus, and I am not sure if I will even get that far!!!! (This is not, I repeat NOT a death fic, for though I am guilty of writing one, I actually hate them!!! Do not be deceived by the beginning, NO ONE DIES!!)
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Thank you to....
Violet_tears - Wai!!!
Lora- *offers another blow pop* Thank you so much for the review, we are now rewarding your patience!!
Jess- *cheers* WE LOVE PS2!! SHE! *points at Lora* tried to steal mine!!
Lora- Well, at least it got you typing, anyway, thank you very much fro the review!!
FoxFire - I am so glad that you enjoyed this chapter, we can also see Duo being that anxious, glad you enjoyed, thanks for reviewing!!
Duo/Folken/TK - Now you find out!! OK, OK, OK!!!!!
dilly-pickle - Thank you, here we are, and we did write more!!!
Laurel-Crowned - Well, thank you so much, me an the Jessie, and the Vash, are mighty glad you did come back, and we all thought that Duo would be scatterbrained too. Hope you like this chappie as well.
shadowdragon58 - Heh, we know we are mean, sorry!! Hope this kinda makes up for it!!
Ellie Maxwell, (and Steg) - PLEASE DON'T USE OUR VASH AS A TISSUE!! He has feelings too!! Oh, and is only just getting over a cold, so we would rather he stayed dry!! But thank you SO much for reviewing we Love feeling so LOVED!! And that was such a long Review, WE FEEL SO SPECIAL!!!!! Oh, and thank you for paying some attention to the Vash, even if he was a tissue!!! Vash -- *sulks and wrings out trench coat*
Aznfiregoddess - We agree Death is NOT a solution, read on to see why!!
Connorwolf - Yah, sorry about that, we thought it fitted, but then we were WAY WAY WAY too Hyper on sugar by that point in the chappie so what can ya do, this chappie is far more down to earth.
Suiryoku - WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! No worries, we go that mad too sometimes!! ^^
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=..Blah.. = Heeros Thoughts
..Blah.. =Duo Thoughts
*..Blah..* = Emphasised words
"..Blah.." = Speech
#^~*~^# = Point of View change
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Hang on! That sounds like a...
Duo spun on his heal, kicked open the living room door and yelled
"*Heeeroooo!!*"
His yell was cut of by the sound of a gunshot.
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Heero starred as the lean form in the doorway slumped to the floor, his long chestnut braid curling into a pile beside him.
The look on his face turned to horror as drops of bright red blood fell from under the chestnut bangs and stained the cream carpet.
=What have I done?
Heero couldn't move, he couldn't tear he eyes from the scene either, he wanted to yell, he wanted to cry, and he wanted to hide, but he could do none of them. He had destroyed the only thing that made him human... He had destroyed Duo.
Slowly he let his eyes close, they stung, the tears he could not cry were fighting for a way out, but his soldiers instincts, the same instincts that had made Duo leave, the same instincts that had made him go on for this long and the same instincts that had caused him to turn the gun on his distraction refused to let him cry.
The pain he felt at losing Duo was like nothing he had ever felt, it was worse by far than when Duo had shot him, worse that when he had set his leg, and even worse than when he had woken up after detonating with Wing, it felt like he was dying, from the inside out. Like a part of him that had always been there had left, and wouldn't come back.
Heero felt a dry sob escape from his throat, it was the closest he had ever come to crying, but it didn't help how he felt. He had been waiting so long for Duo to come back, to come home, and he had. But look what had happened, how he wished Duo had walked through that doorway a few minutes later, when he would no longer have been around to hurt him, when no one could have stopped him.
His eyes opened and his gaze fell to his gun, it was still clasped in his hand, the barrel still smoking slightly, he dropped it and it fell to the floor with a thud that seemed to resound round the room. And for the first time in his life Heero Yuy felt the trickle of tears down his cheeks.
Hero pressed his hands to his eyes and bowed his head, shoulders shaking with tears to long suppressed.
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Just as Heero closed his eyes, the slumped form of Duo Maxwell began to tremble, and an unsteady hand pressed itself against the stinging track the bullet had left behind where it had skimmed his cheek. He felt blood drip through his fingers; it was deep, but not too serious.
Duo was in shock, and it wasn't because he had been shot at, that had happened before and well, he had kind of been expecting to see a gun. He had just never expected to see a gun pressed against Heero Yuy's head, and by Heeros own hand. He couldn't believe that Heero would even consider something like that.
Slowly he raised his head, still on his knees and was shocked to see Heero, head bowed into hand, shoulders shaking with tears. If anything could have shocked him more, then, well, this was it.
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Heero sighed, and raised his tear stained face, and midnight blue met deep violet with an audible gasp.
"Duo." Heero said quietly while rising to his feet, "Your alive!! And you came back!"
Duo nodded and then sighed, "Why Heero? Tell me why, I don't understand!"
Heero looked down, He couldn't tell Duo the real reason for what he had done. He was...he was...scarred? That must be what this was, he felt he couldn't tell Duo for the fear that he would be rejected.
"There was just no point to my existence, there was nothing worth me living for!" He replied bluntly, hating himself for the torn look that the crept over Duos face.
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Duo looked up at Heero through his liquid violet eyes, the tears that had stopped flowing from the others eyes still fell from his, and Heeros answer had been like a blow to his heart, it had not only proved that Quatre had been wrong about Heeros 'Feelings' For him, but also that Heero did not even value their friendship.
He wanted to hit Heero for making him feel that way, but it was his own fault for coming back, he shouldn't have come back!
"Oh", he replied, his voice barely above a whisper, "I had hoped..." He stopped and hung his head again, still sitting back on his feet.
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Heero looked up, what was that he could hear on the edge of Duos voice? Regret, and why did he look so stricken? What had he been about to say?
His answer had been as much truth as he could give. After Duo had left he had nothing, no one, and a life like that, it was worse than being alive during the wars.
He had missed Duo so much, but he had hurt him and he had lost him, and now he was back he had hurt him again, he wanted to say sorry, he wanted to comfort him, he wanted things he knew he couldn't have, but that did not give him the right to hurt Duo, and though he was inexperienced in the ways of kindness, he knew he had to try!
Heero saw a small trickle of blood run down duo's cheek, mixed in with his tears, he walked over to his one time partner and crouched in front of him,
"Duo?" He said softly, causing the violet eyes to snap up to him, "Let me clean that up, I didn't mean to shoot you, I guess you could say it was instinct!"
He felt a tug in his chest at the doe eyed look Duo was giving him.
=Those eyes could melt stone!
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Duo was confused, one moment Heero was brushing him off totally, and the next he was offering to clean him up, and offering an explanation.
He looked up at Heero, begging him with his eyes not to be leading him into a trap, He watched as Heero offered him a hand, and he took it, hoping he wouldn't regret letting his guard down.
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Heero was surprised that Duo had trusted him, but they had spent the wars 'caring' for each other when they were injured, albeit reluctantly on Heeros part. So he should hopefully be able to trust him.
Heero led Duo into the small bathroom and produced a small first aid kit from one of the cupboards. Which he proceeded to sort through until he found some antiseptic and a large plaster, both of which he proceeded to apply to Duo's face.
When he finished he nodded, "There, that should keep it clean"
Duo smiled. "Thank you Heero, you didn't have to, but thank you!"
Heero nodded again "it could have gotten infected, and that would not have been an asset to you or anyone!"
Heero practically shrank back, how did he manage to do this every time, when ever he tried to act a little more human, tried to be nice to someone, he would freeze over again, he talked about every thing like it was a mission, and he hated it, he knew that it must feel dismissing to Duo, and he didn't want that!
Duo noticed the expression on Heeros face and realised that no matter how dismissive his remark had sounded, he had not meant it to be so, and his thanks had been registered and accepted.
Wanting to show that the 'injury' was nothing more than water under the bridge, Duo looked up,
"So Hee-Chan," He said with a semi forced grin, "Want some coffee?"
Heero just blinked at him, Duo was being his old self, how? Why? He just didn't understand how his old partner could still be so happy, he nodded "Yes Duo, Coffee will be fine!" And with that he strode into the living room.
Duo sighed, ah well, I guess some things will never change and with that in mind he jogged off to the kitchen to make them both some coffee.
Five or so minutes later, Duo joined Heero in the living room
"Here ya go Hee-Chan, coffee, black, no sugar, just how you always have it!"
Heero took the coffee and sipped it, it wasn't quite strong enough, but the time he had spent living with the braided ex-pilot had gotten his used to that.
Duo settled in the armchair, across from the couch were Heero was sitting and began to drink his sweet and milky coffee.
Heero found himself starring, he couldn't drag his eyes away from the other, he was perfect, except for the dressing on his cheek, but even that couldn't mar his beauty much, Heero allowed his gaze to rest on Duo face and felt his breath catch in his throat when his gaze was met by Duos deep violet eyes.
They stayed that way for what seemed like hours, until neither could hold the others gaze a moment longer and they both returned to their coffee with a light flush in Duos case.
I never thought Heero would look at me that way, he was open, thawed!
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Duo didn't know what to make of Heero, he confused him so much, one moment he was acting as if nothing had changed, and the next like Duo wasn't even there. He just wished that Heero would make his mind up.
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Vash - Heh, heh, Lora and Jess were trying to go a little further with this chapter, but well, to be totally honest, they hare now both sunk up to their necks in writers block, and me and the other muses decided that it would be better to get this chappie up as it is, rather than making you all wait forever again!!
Q -- (Lora's muse) - Yup, that's right, maybe this way Lora will stop altering this chappie over and over and actually try and work something out for chappie 8, this fic has gotten much longer than expected!!
L- Yep, Sorry, but neither of us could make this go any longer, and now we both have homework, but we will knuckle down and get chappie 8 out as soon as possible, I promise!!
Huggles to al reviewers, We love you guys so much!!
Lora - PLEASE!!! Follow Laurel-Crowned's example and Feed the Vash!! He likes Twinkies!! He sure does, ya see, I can no longer afford to feed him as I had to spend all his donut money on Jessies brain operation!! (see bio page)!!!!
Vash -- *sulks and prods tummy*
Jess -- *purrs* Thanks for *purr* Listening!! *purr*
Warning: This is a Yaoi fic, that means Male X Male romance, we are not forcing this on anyone so don't waste your time and ours by flaming, cos they will be laughed at and then fed to the Chibi-Vash along with his daily portion of donuts.
A/N----Well, hullo again, as promised chappie 7 has not been to long on the production line, am bribing co-author into this by letting her use my laptop and play the Sims!!! It seems to be working!! But is also the reason I may not get that much input from her!! Also, after her *ahem* surgery (see bio page if ya dun understand) She keeps coughing up fur balls!! Oh, and trying to eat my Hamster!
Well, anywho, this chappie, along with its customary dose of oddness, is gonna be written in character POV (it will switch between the two, just so there is no confusion there will be symbols {see below} to show when this occurs, it will start in Heeros), but to divulge how things go on from that would spoil it for ya!! ^^;
So, finally we find out what happened to Hee-chan, did Duo get there in time?
Well, methinks I have kept you all waiting too long for this ending any way, so here we go, a lil bit of everything, I think, sorry to those who wanted lemons, you will have to settle for a dash of citrus, and I am not sure if I will even get that far!!!! (This is not, I repeat NOT a death fic, for though I am guilty of writing one, I actually hate them!!! Do not be deceived by the beginning, NO ONE DIES!!)
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Thank you to....
Violet_tears - Wai!!!
Lora- *offers another blow pop* Thank you so much for the review, we are now rewarding your patience!!
Jess- *cheers* WE LOVE PS2!! SHE! *points at Lora* tried to steal mine!!
Lora- Well, at least it got you typing, anyway, thank you very much fro the review!!
FoxFire - I am so glad that you enjoyed this chapter, we can also see Duo being that anxious, glad you enjoyed, thanks for reviewing!!
Duo/Folken/TK - Now you find out!! OK, OK, OK!!!!!
dilly-pickle - Thank you, here we are, and we did write more!!!
Laurel-Crowned - Well, thank you so much, me an the Jessie, and the Vash, are mighty glad you did come back, and we all thought that Duo would be scatterbrained too. Hope you like this chappie as well.
shadowdragon58 - Heh, we know we are mean, sorry!! Hope this kinda makes up for it!!
Ellie Maxwell, (and Steg) - PLEASE DON'T USE OUR VASH AS A TISSUE!! He has feelings too!! Oh, and is only just getting over a cold, so we would rather he stayed dry!! But thank you SO much for reviewing we Love feeling so LOVED!! And that was such a long Review, WE FEEL SO SPECIAL!!!!! Oh, and thank you for paying some attention to the Vash, even if he was a tissue!!! Vash -- *sulks and wrings out trench coat*
Aznfiregoddess - We agree Death is NOT a solution, read on to see why!!
Connorwolf - Yah, sorry about that, we thought it fitted, but then we were WAY WAY WAY too Hyper on sugar by that point in the chappie so what can ya do, this chappie is far more down to earth.
Suiryoku - WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! No worries, we go that mad too sometimes!! ^^
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=..Blah.. = Heeros Thoughts
..Blah.. =Duo Thoughts
*..Blah..* = Emphasised words
"..Blah.." = Speech
#^~*~^# = Point of View change
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Hang on! That sounds like a...
Duo spun on his heal, kicked open the living room door and yelled
"*Heeeroooo!!*"
His yell was cut of by the sound of a gunshot.
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Heero starred as the lean form in the doorway slumped to the floor, his long chestnut braid curling into a pile beside him.
The look on his face turned to horror as drops of bright red blood fell from under the chestnut bangs and stained the cream carpet.
=What have I done?
Heero couldn't move, he couldn't tear he eyes from the scene either, he wanted to yell, he wanted to cry, and he wanted to hide, but he could do none of them. He had destroyed the only thing that made him human... He had destroyed Duo.
Slowly he let his eyes close, they stung, the tears he could not cry were fighting for a way out, but his soldiers instincts, the same instincts that had made Duo leave, the same instincts that had made him go on for this long and the same instincts that had caused him to turn the gun on his distraction refused to let him cry.
The pain he felt at losing Duo was like nothing he had ever felt, it was worse by far than when Duo had shot him, worse that when he had set his leg, and even worse than when he had woken up after detonating with Wing, it felt like he was dying, from the inside out. Like a part of him that had always been there had left, and wouldn't come back.
Heero felt a dry sob escape from his throat, it was the closest he had ever come to crying, but it didn't help how he felt. He had been waiting so long for Duo to come back, to come home, and he had. But look what had happened, how he wished Duo had walked through that doorway a few minutes later, when he would no longer have been around to hurt him, when no one could have stopped him.
His eyes opened and his gaze fell to his gun, it was still clasped in his hand, the barrel still smoking slightly, he dropped it and it fell to the floor with a thud that seemed to resound round the room. And for the first time in his life Heero Yuy felt the trickle of tears down his cheeks.
Hero pressed his hands to his eyes and bowed his head, shoulders shaking with tears to long suppressed.
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Just as Heero closed his eyes, the slumped form of Duo Maxwell began to tremble, and an unsteady hand pressed itself against the stinging track the bullet had left behind where it had skimmed his cheek. He felt blood drip through his fingers; it was deep, but not too serious.
Duo was in shock, and it wasn't because he had been shot at, that had happened before and well, he had kind of been expecting to see a gun. He had just never expected to see a gun pressed against Heero Yuy's head, and by Heeros own hand. He couldn't believe that Heero would even consider something like that.
Slowly he raised his head, still on his knees and was shocked to see Heero, head bowed into hand, shoulders shaking with tears. If anything could have shocked him more, then, well, this was it.
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Heero sighed, and raised his tear stained face, and midnight blue met deep violet with an audible gasp.
"Duo." Heero said quietly while rising to his feet, "Your alive!! And you came back!"
Duo nodded and then sighed, "Why Heero? Tell me why, I don't understand!"
Heero looked down, He couldn't tell Duo the real reason for what he had done. He was...he was...scarred? That must be what this was, he felt he couldn't tell Duo for the fear that he would be rejected.
"There was just no point to my existence, there was nothing worth me living for!" He replied bluntly, hating himself for the torn look that the crept over Duos face.
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Duo looked up at Heero through his liquid violet eyes, the tears that had stopped flowing from the others eyes still fell from his, and Heeros answer had been like a blow to his heart, it had not only proved that Quatre had been wrong about Heeros 'Feelings' For him, but also that Heero did not even value their friendship.
He wanted to hit Heero for making him feel that way, but it was his own fault for coming back, he shouldn't have come back!
"Oh", he replied, his voice barely above a whisper, "I had hoped..." He stopped and hung his head again, still sitting back on his feet.
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Heero looked up, what was that he could hear on the edge of Duos voice? Regret, and why did he look so stricken? What had he been about to say?
His answer had been as much truth as he could give. After Duo had left he had nothing, no one, and a life like that, it was worse than being alive during the wars.
He had missed Duo so much, but he had hurt him and he had lost him, and now he was back he had hurt him again, he wanted to say sorry, he wanted to comfort him, he wanted things he knew he couldn't have, but that did not give him the right to hurt Duo, and though he was inexperienced in the ways of kindness, he knew he had to try!
Heero saw a small trickle of blood run down duo's cheek, mixed in with his tears, he walked over to his one time partner and crouched in front of him,
"Duo?" He said softly, causing the violet eyes to snap up to him, "Let me clean that up, I didn't mean to shoot you, I guess you could say it was instinct!"
He felt a tug in his chest at the doe eyed look Duo was giving him.
=Those eyes could melt stone!
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Duo was confused, one moment Heero was brushing him off totally, and the next he was offering to clean him up, and offering an explanation.
He looked up at Heero, begging him with his eyes not to be leading him into a trap, He watched as Heero offered him a hand, and he took it, hoping he wouldn't regret letting his guard down.
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Heero was surprised that Duo had trusted him, but they had spent the wars 'caring' for each other when they were injured, albeit reluctantly on Heeros part. So he should hopefully be able to trust him.
Heero led Duo into the small bathroom and produced a small first aid kit from one of the cupboards. Which he proceeded to sort through until he found some antiseptic and a large plaster, both of which he proceeded to apply to Duo's face.
When he finished he nodded, "There, that should keep it clean"
Duo smiled. "Thank you Heero, you didn't have to, but thank you!"
Heero nodded again "it could have gotten infected, and that would not have been an asset to you or anyone!"
Heero practically shrank back, how did he manage to do this every time, when ever he tried to act a little more human, tried to be nice to someone, he would freeze over again, he talked about every thing like it was a mission, and he hated it, he knew that it must feel dismissing to Duo, and he didn't want that!
Duo noticed the expression on Heeros face and realised that no matter how dismissive his remark had sounded, he had not meant it to be so, and his thanks had been registered and accepted.
Wanting to show that the 'injury' was nothing more than water under the bridge, Duo looked up,
"So Hee-Chan," He said with a semi forced grin, "Want some coffee?"
Heero just blinked at him, Duo was being his old self, how? Why? He just didn't understand how his old partner could still be so happy, he nodded "Yes Duo, Coffee will be fine!" And with that he strode into the living room.
Duo sighed, ah well, I guess some things will never change and with that in mind he jogged off to the kitchen to make them both some coffee.
Five or so minutes later, Duo joined Heero in the living room
"Here ya go Hee-Chan, coffee, black, no sugar, just how you always have it!"
Heero took the coffee and sipped it, it wasn't quite strong enough, but the time he had spent living with the braided ex-pilot had gotten his used to that.
Duo settled in the armchair, across from the couch were Heero was sitting and began to drink his sweet and milky coffee.
Heero found himself starring, he couldn't drag his eyes away from the other, he was perfect, except for the dressing on his cheek, but even that couldn't mar his beauty much, Heero allowed his gaze to rest on Duo face and felt his breath catch in his throat when his gaze was met by Duos deep violet eyes.
They stayed that way for what seemed like hours, until neither could hold the others gaze a moment longer and they both returned to their coffee with a light flush in Duos case.
I never thought Heero would look at me that way, he was open, thawed!
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Duo didn't know what to make of Heero, he confused him so much, one moment he was acting as if nothing had changed, and the next like Duo wasn't even there. He just wished that Heero would make his mind up.
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Vash - Heh, heh, Lora and Jess were trying to go a little further with this chapter, but well, to be totally honest, they hare now both sunk up to their necks in writers block, and me and the other muses decided that it would be better to get this chappie up as it is, rather than making you all wait forever again!!
Q -- (Lora's muse) - Yup, that's right, maybe this way Lora will stop altering this chappie over and over and actually try and work something out for chappie 8, this fic has gotten much longer than expected!!
L- Yep, Sorry, but neither of us could make this go any longer, and now we both have homework, but we will knuckle down and get chappie 8 out as soon as possible, I promise!!
Huggles to al reviewers, We love you guys so much!!
Lora - PLEASE!!! Follow Laurel-Crowned's example and Feed the Vash!! He likes Twinkies!! He sure does, ya see, I can no longer afford to feed him as I had to spend all his donut money on Jessies brain operation!! (see bio page)!!!!
Vash -- *sulks and prods tummy*
Jess -- *purrs* Thanks for *purr* Listening!! *purr*
