Beware. This fic rotates around how Kagome copes with all of her stress. It contains blood and cutting, a serious sickness that if you have/do cut you should get help for!

Rei

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CuTtInG gAmE

Prologue



"NO KAGOME!!" yelled Inuyasha.

"INUYASHA!! I promised my family that I'd be home for my birthday!!"

"We just got another lead on a shard!! You -can't- go back now!!"

Tears gathered in Kagome's eyes as she yelled, "I PROMISED!! I -need- to go back!!"

Inuyasha growled and yelled in a furious voice, "KIKYO WOULDA NEVER RUN OUT ON HER JOB! FINE, you damn shard detector!! Go back!!"

One tear leaked out of her eyes she jumped into thee well thinking **He doesn't care! He wouldn't understand what I'm going thru!! Why'd he say that?! WHY?!"

Kagome climbed out of the well and made her sad, angry face into a happy one like she'd learned to long ago. **C'mon Kago! Just keep a -happy- face!**

"MOM!! I'm baaaack!" yelled Kagome as she slipped off her shoes. When she got no answer she called for her mother again and walked into the kitchen to get something to eat. On the refrigerator, she found a note from her mom. She read it as she took out a steak knife to cut up some fish.

Kagome,

Souta, Jii-chan, and I have gone to visit your cousin Ming in China. We won't be back for two or three weeks. In your room is $200. Go do something but don't bother trying to get to China! Bye!

-Asami

**They......they forgot my birthday. Why did they? I know Mom hates me but what about Souta and Jii-chan??** A tear leaked down her face. **They did this on Christmas and Easter too!! They left for Aunt Mika's without me on Christmas and when I said they gave me no gifts, they gave me $10! And on Easter they celebrated it without me!! Souta doesn't even ask about Inuyasha anymore and only asks about the past when Inuyasha comes around!** Tears leaked down her face as she clutched at the knife in her hands, the knife biting into her palm's flesh. She looked down at the knife and her slightly cut hand. She drew the knife across her palm as she thought **She doesn't even sign her letters 'Mom' anymore........only 'Asami'. Does she hate me so much?** Kagome looked down at the knife and her bleeding palm. **This knife...control.**



Chapter 1: Back in the Past



Kagome was back at a camp Inuyasha-tachi set up, humming a tune that she made up while she served dinner to her companions.

"Little knife, little knife. You help me control my life......" she hummed under her breath as she passed a bowl of ramen to Inuyasha.

Sango looked at her strangely and asked, "Hey Kagome, what's that tune your singing?"

Kagome looked at her blankly, "Tune?"

"Yea....it goes something like 'Little knife, little knife. You help me control my life'"

"Oh! It's.....err.....a song from my time......yeah."

"Oh."

The group went on eating silently until Inuyasha said, "I'm going to g keep watch." And he got up and jumpped into a tree. Sango, Miroku, and Shippo left to go sleep; leaving Kagome to clean up.



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After she finished, she went to a river that was near their camp. She sat down on a rock and took off her shirt, then she took out the kitchen knife. Kagome swiped it across her wrists lightly, but hard enough to draw a little blood and thought **Not one thank you! Not even from Shippo! And leaving me to clean up the mess! And after all of this......I wonder how Mo-Asami and Souta are doing......Why don't they love me? Why does Inuyasha see me as Kikyo? Why doesn't anyone love me? Mom hates me, Inuyasha hates me, my friends at home think me half dead......not even -Hojo- comes looking for me anymore.** Kagome swiped the blade across her arm, making a semi-deep slice in her flesh. Kagome sighed contently as she bleed, as her pain numbed. **Control** she smiled **I have a bit of control...and it numbs me.**

Kagome washed her arms free of blood in the river and swiped her blade clean. Before she put her extra long sleeved shirt on, she sprayed perfume on that smelled like sakura blossoms and rain. Inuyasha said that was what she smelled like.

**I hope Inuysha doesn't relize I'm wearing perfume.....it's got a mild pear scent to it...** She shrugged and started walking back to camp. She looked up at the sky and guessed by the darkness that she'd been gone and cutting for a good hour or two.



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When Kagome got back everyone was asleep but Inuyasha, who was sitting by the dieing camp fire.

Inuyasha caught a whiff of me and asked in a gruff yet curious tone, "What's wrong with your scent.

Kagome stared at him for a moment before answering softly, "Nothing.."

"Then why do you smell a bit like pears and have the smell of blood on you?"

"Hey! I smell normal! I don't have any blood on me! And I ate a pear!"

"Don't lie. Even though it's faint, it's blood. I'd know that smell -anywhere-."

"Just forget it, it's nothing. I've got no blood on me. K?" Before he could answer, she left for her sleeping bag.

Inuyasha stared at her back, his face worried and suspicious as he stared at Kagome. He eventually got up and slept in a tree right above Kagome.



TBC..



So.How was it? R&R please!