To Lady Leila – I wasn't going to write more but…….I just couldn't help myself. Hope you enjoy this teaser!
AN: the song belongs to Rascal Flatts (one of the greatest country music band ever!) All original characters belong to him-who-is-the-master-Jedi (aka George Lucas). All non-original characters belong to me and Lady of Ithilien(who is such a great person letting me play with some of her characters). I threw this in there for all you Zekk fans out there. Like it? Hate it? Reviewing lets me know how you feel -it's the purplish button at the bottom!
Well that was it. She was gone, he'd lost her forever. She'd been his first love; they'd gone through so much together. He had honestly thought that they'd be together forever but….somewhere in the course of things she'd slipped away and he hadn't noticed it until it was too late. He'd watched her fall over the edge, feeling utterly helpless, not knowing what to do. He realized now how it had felt for her and the rest of his friends when he'd slipped. He should have never left her side on Hapes, he should have helped Kyp bring her back. Well what's done is done. He knew now that their was no chance of them getting back together, he had seen the absolute joy that had emanated from her as her dad had walked down the aisle and given her away. He'd spent the evening recalling old times with Jacen, Tenel Ka, Lowie, and recounting some of these tales for Brenden, Tahiri, Raljja, Coralii, Danae Fel and Jeremye Fel. After that, he'd tagged along with Tesar and Lowie as they along with the rest of their squadrons adjourned to a nearby pub, merrily toasting the health of the newly- wed couple. After a round or two, some of the squadron members had decide to dance a bit and that was where he was now, watching the dancers. He noticed one couple in particular that made him start at first glance. Kyp was just gliding along the floor with none other than Laya Sunrider in his arms. What in the nine Corellian hells was Diric Sunrider's little sister, Lady Knight Elayna Sunrider doing with the greatest living expert of the Dark Side of the Force? Then he remembered that Laya shared her sister-in-law's sense of humor and that she had a thing for rebels. There was one thing he did know for sure; there was no way he wanted to be on the same planet as they were when she told her brother about Kyp. It was now that a familiar melody came into his mind, a haunting song that some of the Ennth survivors sung from time to time and one that he'd sung to Jaina a time or two. He thought it was especially appropriate considering the mood he was in.
I've dealt with my ghosts and faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on
It was true; he was now content with his past and truly at peace with himself. The war had helped him in that way to resolve some issues in his life. Now that it was over, he was going to find himself a nice planet to settle on and hopefully continue working as a freight carrier for the Great River. It wasn't that he didn't want to see his friends; he just wanted to take a break so to speak, meet some new people.
I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
He'd talk to Master Skywalker in the morning and maybe if he didn't have anything for him to do, he'd check and see if Master Klivian had anything for him. That would be interesting, he thought to himself, me working as a Lighter operative. He just needed a change of scenery. He smiled wryly as he recalled the last verse of that song.
I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like
I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on
Yep, that was him alright, packing up and moving on. He'd spent too much time dwelling on the past and he decided right then and there that that would stop. He smiled for the first time in ages and resisted the urge to whistle as he said good bye to his friends and went to go find his bunk. In the morning, after he talked with Master Skywalker and Master Klivian, he'd give the Lightning Rod a good, thorough diagnostic checkup, making sure it was in the best shape possible for any runs he might have to do.
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
