A/N: And heeeeeeere's Anakin! Wow, it took Gaby and me forever to do this one because it's just so hard to get in his head J . Anyway, the setting is a little complicated, so I should probably explain it. There's this scene in the book and in the deleted scenes where, right after Anakin and Padme arrive on Naboo, they go to her parents' house. Padme lives at home when she's not on Coruscant, b/c "official residences have no warmth". So they go there for Padme to reassure her parents that she's safe after the assassination attempt, and also for her to pick up some of her other clothes and stuff. This comes after the 'I thought Jedi weren't allowed to love' scene and before the audience with Queen Jamilla. If you have any questions, just post them in the 'reviews' and leave your e-mail. Enjoy!

Anakin

Right after Anakin and Padme have left Padme's parents' house on Naboo

I know that this is wrong.

She's a Senator, I'm a Jedi. Our lives belong to other people. There's this line of the Jedi Code that says, "There is no passion; there is only peace in the Force." Sometimes when I lie awake at nights, I feel like that sentence is directed at me. Believe me, I know that Jedi aren't supposed to form romantic attachments- or any attachments, for that matter. I wish this was something I could just push away. But it's not.

I love her. I've always known it- ever since I was nine years old and I thought she was an angel. You probably think I'm crazy to feel this way about someone I've known for such a short time. But in the past few days I've seen more sides of Padme Amidala than everyone in the Senate combined. We just left her family. Her family. I met her parents, watched her play with her nieces, and listened to her sister tease her about her love life- which she apparently doesn't have much of.

And now I'm more hopelessly in love with her than ever.

I think you knew that the Jedi Council was making a mistake, sending us off together like this. I could sense your doubts, and I can definitely understand why you feel that way. To be honest, I don't know if I'll be able to control my emotions around her. It's becoming impossible for me to hold her off at arms' length.

I know you think I'm being headstrong, Master; that I never think about the consequences of my actions. Well you're wrong. I do. I love being a Jedi, and there's nothing that would hurt me more than being expelled from the Order- except giving up Padme. I hope you understand, because I wasn't lying when I told you that you're like a father to me. I wish I could make you see how I feel about her, but it's impossible to put into words.

The other day I made her laugh- really laugh. I bet you've never seen her laugh; probably not many people outside of her family have. It was something silly; just some corny joke- probably one that I picked up from you. But her whole face lights up when she laughs. It's like the mantle of Senator-and-Former-Queen Amidala lifts for few minutes and Padme shines through. Believe me, it's amazing. It was then that I realized I would do anything for her, anything to be with her and see her relaxed and happy like that all the time. I know you think that one's relationship with the Force should take precedence over relationships with people, but I just can't see it that way. I am truly sorry, Master.

So I guess we'll just have to keep this clash of wills under control until one of us gives in. It might take a while, because in your own way, you're just as stubborn as I am. Another very un-Jedi-like trait, but there we are. I can't change my feelings for her, and I don't want to hurt you.

I just don't have a choice.