disclaimer: Sadly, I do not own beyblade. So, don't sue me! ^-^ I also don't own the song... It's by Joy Enriquez... It's a very lovely song, so if you have time, download it! You won't regret it. Take it from me. [wahehehe, I'm only plugging becoz I used the song ^-^] I only own the plot and the OC. Oh and btw, this is my first attempt on going beyblade... So, go easy on me... Wahehehe... writers are getting very lazy these days. *grins sheepishly* enjoy! ^-^ [reviews badly needed]
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Prologue: A Love Lost"How can I not love you? What do I tell my heart? When do I not want you here in my heart? How does one walks away from all of the memories? How do I not miss you when you are gone? How can I not love you... When you are gone..."
{Ray's POV}"Mariah..." The word escaped my lips as I looked far into the vast scenery. The mountains were caped with puffy clouds. The trees swayed with the gentle wind, caressing my cheeks softly. The moon shone overhead with the beautiful ceiling of stars in the azure sky.
Since she died, unbelievably, I was still thinking of her. *Get over it, Ray. Mariah is dead. And it's your fault she didn't know what you felt for her* I scolded myself in my thoughts. I know, I know. I must not be thinking of her. I must get over it. I must be brave, I must be strong. I must go on.
I lost Mariah because of my insolent behavior. I was disgusted of the way I acted towards her. I didn't tell her how I felt. *Darn, Ray, must you be so insensitive?!* But that's the way I am. Oh, shoot. I was talking to myself again. Since Mariah was gone... what else is there to think about but bey blading?
I looked at my hand as Driger's bit gleamed in the moonlight. Bey blading, yeah, right. Because of this, I lost my Mariah. Hey, what am I saying? Mariah was never mine... She was just enslaved in her own feelings. Why didn't I even tell her? Her last agonizing minutes were never repaid. Her devotion, concern and piety brought nothing but more pain to her until her death.
That look in her eyes as she was saying farewell to me and to her brother, it made my heart ache so bad. I wanted to pick her up from that hospital bed, hug her tightly, kiss her and tell her what I've been feeling for her since who knows when. But I couldn't. My pride never allowed it.
I wouldn't want to lose someone special again. The feeling of regret was bothering me until now. How can you not love an angel sent by God from heaven? But as they say... These perfect angels die... Because God wants them close to Him. To hell with that stupid saying! I can't just get over her! I LOVE HER for goodness' sake! *So why didn't you tell her?*
My thoughts contradicted with what I felt for her. I wanted to tell her, but I didn't know where to start. *That's the problem with you, Ray. Get over it. You let her go yourself.*
I closed my eyes and tightened my grip on Driger. Argh! How long will I be bothered by these thoughts?! I sighed deeply and opened my eyes. I took out Mariah's bit beast from my white shirt. The bit hung from my neck with a silver chain. It seemed to sparkle with the moonlight. Like the tears that fell from my eyes. And now that she's gone...
I miss her.
A/N:Hi everyone! ^-^ hehehehe... Hmm... A new environment again... I wanna try another for a change. I think I'll be sinking on the bey blade craze for quite a while coz ideas are flying everywhere. Whew... Every problem keeps me from writing... So... Sorry! ^-^
And now for my credits! To my twin [even if you don't watch bey blade], Joy, ChinaEyes, -bentesiyete-, Raine, Kitzune, Yasu, Eunice, Bez, Dino, JM, Kare, 1mig , April, BnB... hmmmm... To Hokage clan, Zoner, SmS, and to all the chatters in fastgames and pldtplay, to my friends, pookies, mike, to my fellow writers, tensaispira, Reeza, (and yer sis ^-^) to the peepz in my yahoo groups [obab_senkosh29, ff.net_filipino_writers] correct me if i'm wrong and to the people who reviewed my previous fics... hopefully they'll get done if my other pc's gonna get fixed and my precious files don't get deleted... =( *sniff* and if you have time, try to check out my other fics, too... ^-^
Oh and btw, R & R please? *puppy dog eyes*
signing off [for now!],
say-chan ^-^
[and yeah, if anyone asks, i am a filipino... ^-^ you guys can reach me through ym at this id: blacklist_chaos23...]
